Back online again ... finally!

I'm back on board again. I'm ready to chuck this new computer out the window!!! I think I must have had a power surge one night and it wiped my whole computer!! (well almost everything) At first I thought it must have been a virus but after getting another brand new Nortons disk (the old one I had was a downloaded virsion, therefore I lost it) but no virus was found. Really don't want to send it to be fixed (apart from the $60per hr cost) they will need to reformate it to fix it and then I will lose what little I still have on here.

The reason I think it was a power surge... we are at the end of a line for our power here and we often have the lights dimming on and off. I'm sure that's what's done it. It only started playing up when we shifted here. Be interesting to see if it improves when we shift back to Auckland.

So anyway I have only got my internet connection back up and running today (hence for the lack of updates)

I've been doing pretty good eating wise the last week. Although I noticed my tracking has been slowing a little the last few days with the computer problems and work stress. But overall I've been a good girl.

Bill is currently in Sydney for his World Cup weekend... lucky bugger!! lol.

He told me last week he had a surprise to show me. He got given a leather wallet thing with all his travel documents in etc. And he wouldn't show it to me till after dinner when he could 'present' it to me. I was sooo sure he was going to surprise me with an airline ticket for me to go too. I had a smile a mile wide. He dragged it right out till the end ... but no surprise tickets ... lmao! His surprise was a 'that's life' magazine... still great ... but a bit of a downer after expecting an airline ticket lol!! Oh well :)

Not much else has happened this week. No weighin last Monday with Labour day. Hoping for a loss this week with all my hard work and good eating. Not holding my breath tho ... my body tends to do strange things lately.

Thanks to all those who sent me compliments on my photo. Way cool!! I honestly can't see where 10kg has come off since the last photo ... hmmm ... it's definately gone tho.

Catcha all later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

I finally got around to it

Don't die of shock!! But I've actually done an update pic for you guys :) There's also another one in my photo album if you wanna see. (under the 'weighloss pics' album)

I've also given you an updated pic of the house I got today.

Pretty uneventful day today. Mum and dad bought a new car yesterday so I went with them to show it to my sister. (that's when I got the pics taken)

Bill is working this Monday (labour day). Nice to know I'm not going to client consultations for a change tho. No weigh in this week with the holiday weekend. Gives me a full two weeks to have my hard work show up on the scales tho.

HUGE CONGRATS TO JO!! I just loved being pregnant!!! Such a fascinating time of your life ... savor every moment! :)

By now Karen with be married! Wow, another exciting time!! What a cool bunch of people on here. Hope her day was exciting!! with no nerves or stress. We want lots of pics Karen! lol (yeah yeah I know ,,, I'm a bad one to talk on that subject lol)

Eating for yesterday ...

breakfast ... bread 2pts, asparagas 0pts, cheese 1.5pts
Snack ... Apple 0.5pt
Lunch ... bread 2pts, cheese 2pts
Snack ... sponge 2pts, Apple 0.5pt
Dinner ... meat roll 3pts, potato 1.5pts, veges 0pts, butter 2pts
Snack ... lite icecream 3pts, lite mars 1pt, rice chips 7.5pts

Total ... 28.5pts/22pts
Saved ... - 6.5pts
Total saved ... 1pt

Not too bad except for the rice chips at the end of the day... got the snack attacks real bad, but figured I did good just eating them and I had the points saved up to do it without going over for the week.

Off to watch Australian Idol
Hope you enjoy the pics
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

The good life :)

Poor Cosima probably had nerves in her throat last night. Nearly got voted out. She's lucky this time tho, saved by the bell.

Another good day of eating yesterday and today.

Breakfast ... weetbix 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, sugar 0.5pt
Snack ... Apple 1pt
Lunch ... bread 3pts, soup 1pt
Snack ... lite yoghurt 1.5pts, Apple 1pt, coffee 1pt
Dinner ... steak 4.5pts, potato 3pts, veges 0pt, milk 0.5pt, flavouring 1pt

Total ... 20pts/22pts
Saved 2pts/3pts
Bonus points 2pts

Went shopping today and put a georgous duvet set for Lauren's room on layby (to match the drawers I am doing up for her). Mum bought Jordan a cute Winnie the Pooh duvet cover. Mum and I are getting on really well. I think living down here has actually done a lot of good for our relationship. Things are looking good (even at PMS time)

Savings going well with $5750 saved so far. One third of the way there.

It's late for now, bed is calling.
Nite

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

The old Lyn is back (and kickin butt)

Very proud of my eating efforts yesterday ... 1 whole day on track!! First day in months that I have actually tracked. I've realised how out of control I was. Not that I was eating badly (well only occasionally) but I didn't know how many points I was consuming each day. I was just trying to eat lightly.

With tracking again I feel so much more in control.

Here's my whole days eating yesterday ...

Breakfast ... weetbix 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, sugar 0.5pt
Snack ... soft serve icecream (no cone) 2pts
Lunch ... bread 4pts, asparagas 0pts, butter 1pt
Snack ... Apple 1pt
Dinner ... mince 3pts, pasta 4pts, pineapple 1pt, veges 0pts
Snack ... lite icecream 3pts

Total 21.5pts/22pts
Saved 0.5pt

Wahooo!!!! :)

Spent today helping my sister unpack after shifting yesterday. So on my feet for most of the day ... gotta be a few points earnt there.

Quiet night tonight infront of the telly I think ,... goooo Australian idol ... GOOOO COSIMA!!!! :) (and don't you aussies tell me who got voted out ... well not until after tonight lol)

New pic of the house up for anyone interested. The hardytex is up on the second storey now. And don't worry it's not staying pink lol ... it's got to be painted yet.

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

let off lightly

I think I was let off very lightly this week with no loss or gain at weighin. Exactly the same weight as last week ... 81.7kg ... could have been a lot worse.

I finally feel that spark of excitement again... well not quite a spark yet ... more like a 'sp ...' lol but at least it's a start.

I have done very well with eating so far today ... starting off with breakfast. I've noticed that I had slipped back into old habits with not having breakfast. But today I did well ... two weetbix, lite milk and a smidgen of sugar.

I'm going to go back to tracking on here. Not going to worry about water this week ... one step at a time.

Here's today's eating so far ...

Breakfast ... weetbix 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, sugar 0.5pt
Snack ... soft serve icecream (no cone) 2pts
Lunch ... bread 4pts, asparagass 0pts, butter 1pt
Snack ... Apple 1pt

10.5pts so far and going good.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Naughty, naughty

Ok confession time!! I've very bad!! (eating wise that is) I've managed to consume a whole bottle of caruba rum in the last week by myself. Really not looking forward to weigh in on Monday but forcing myself to go. This is the biggest reason for the lack of updates. I really don't like updating when I've got bad things to say.

I guess I have to get that spark back that I had 10mths ago.

Bill is doing really well. He came home from hospital on Wednesday afternoon and went back to work for two half days Thursday and Friday. His face is still slightly swollen but much better than it was.

Not much else to report. Letcha know the bad news at weigh in on Monday.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Bill still in hospital :(

Well I'd love to say that I resisted the temptation of the rum and cokes ... umm ... but that didn't happen. Although I was reasonably wise about it and didn't go overboard.

Bill is still in hospital. He was supposed to come home today but rang this morning to say that the head registrar guy had been to see him and wasn't happy with the amount of swelling he still had. Aparently it was supposed to have been all gone by 24hrs ago. I went up and saw him last night and he is looking much better but still very swollen. So they have booked him in for a scan (I can't remember exactly what they call it) this afternoon to see if they can work out the reason for the swelling. They think the infection might have moved down the neck. If this is the case then he will have to go back into theatre again. Hopefully it will all be a false alarm, and he will be home tomorrow.

I've started doing up a set of drawers for Laurens room (she's 8). We have this old set of a dressing table (with mirror) and tallboy in our room. It's currently in wood with a dark mahogany stain on it... quite ugly really. So I have started putting a coat of paint on it. And I've taken off the mirror and going to have it as a work desk for her. Doing it in a lavender sparkly paint. Really cool paint I found at the home show. It's got glitter all through it. Quite expensive @ $130 to paint both items but still cheaper than buying a new one. I'm going to do the rest of her room in lavender, dark purple and silver. I'll get some new funky silver handles to put on the drawers and a new duvet. I'm thinking I might make one out of a purple fur fabric and sew a big silver funky heart on it with lots of lavender/purple and silver cushions. Then put a lavender mosquito net over it ... what do you think? It's given me something to take my mind off things lately. For now I'll do up the drawers and see how I get on from there.

Business work has finally slowed down a little (for now anyway) Got a sample to have out tommorrow then nothing till my consultations next Monday ... yay a break! Then the next set is not due out till 1 November.

Eating has been ummmm .... not too good. But not going to beat myself up about it at the moment. I'll wait till everything is a bit more in order then get right back on track.

Thats about all for today.
Builders haven't sent any more photos through lately. Think they are still annoyed with the fireplace saga. Bit sad really. Oh well, I'll let you know as soon as I know anything.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Got a bad case of the guilts

You know how you think things can't possibly get any worse ... that you have enough stress on your plate to handle that you surely don't deserve any more???? lol

Ohhh how wrong!! Someone up there must think I am wonder woman because I am over flowing with stress vibes right now :) I smile because it's gone beyond being worried or freaking out ... now it's a joke.

Last night Bill's face got EVEN LARGER! He honestly was looking like elephant man! (of course I mean that in the most loving possible way) I just couldn't stop laughing when I looked at him. I'm really bad like that. I don't do the whole sympathy thing very well. I decided to ring my sister who is a Paramedic and ask her what she thought ... should I take him back to the afterhours A&E and spend another $100 bucks (it sounds really bad to put it like that but that was honestly how I was feeling) She suggested that she come out and pick him up in the ambulance (she was on duty at the time). I flatly refused! My pride wouldn't handle that. He wasn't going to die or anything lol. (I know, I know ... I'm really bad at feeling sorry for people lol). I asked Bill what he thought and these were his words ... "ok, well I'll just go dig a whole over there in the corner and when I die then you just need to throw some dirt ontop and I won't be anymore hassle". How could I say no to that!! lol.

She reckoned she should come and pick him up then I could stay at home with the kids and if she took him to hospital in the ambulance then it would be free. I'm all for free so I gave into my pride and agreed.

They left here at 5.30pm and I told him I would keep his dinner warm for him. My sister assured me it would be a quick visit and he would be home again later that night ... ohhh how wrong :) At 10.15pm I got a call from Bill to say he had just left the waiting room and was finally being seen to!! Almost 5hrs sitting in a waiting room, geez I'm glad I wasnt there keeping him company! lol (honestly I love him to bits)

They thought it could be an anophalactic reaction (sp) which is a fancy way of saying the antibiotics they gave him he could be allergic to... causing all the swelling. So they ran some bloods and decided to keep him in overnight.

Then this morning he rang to say the results came back and it wasn't that, but that they found a humongous absus (sp) which he was going to have to have surgery to fix. Now I feel really bad that I complained about him going to the dentist in the first place. I told him it would cost too much and to just put up with it! After all ... no one sees your wisdom teeth so what if they are crooked... hehe. Feeling rather guilty right now lol

With his surgery booked in for today they told him he still couldn't eat. Hasn't eaten since yesterday lunchtime (36hrs). He reckons it's their way of forcing him to go on diet whether he wants to or not lol.

So he went under the knife this afternoon. I went in to see him an hour or so after he got out of surgery and he looked really terrible!!! Like a different person. He was still on a huge amount of morphine so he was spacing out quite a bit too.

I'm back at home now (obviously lol)... kids are in bed (one complaining of a sore tummy so might be a long night ahead). Still have a whole lot more work to get on with but for tonight I'm going to leave it. Have rescheduled all my appointments for tommorrow.

On the eating note ... it's really not good. I kind of hit stress breakout point today. Had a big plate of hot chips and two fat ugly sausages (but they tasted so good) then tonight on the way to see Bill I called in to the supermarket to pick him up some bottled water and gave in to the magnum staring at me from the freezer. Bad thing was I didn't even really enjoy it. Just felt like I had to have it to make everything go away. I'm not normally a comfort eater but tonight something snapped. I told myself I shouldn't be having this but ate it anyway.

Giving my ww meeting a miss tomorrow. Figured I need to be with Bill more than ww need me. Gives me a chance to get back on my feet eating wise.

Meanwhile the rum & diet cokes are staring at me ... do I? don't I? Guess I'll let you know tommorow what happens :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
Gw 65kg

how can I stay mad at him?

Feeling a whole lot better today. Had one of those stupid barneys over nothing with Bill. But we've sorted it out now.

Probably helps things that Bill is home sick at the moment lol ... that sounds really bad but I can't stay mad at him when I is in so much pain? ... poor thing :)

He had a tooth ache so went to the dentist to find out it wasnt a hole in his tooth but an infected wisdom tooth. On getting xrays they found out that it was growing through sideways so had to come out. The dentist wanted to book it in for a couple of weeks time but with Bill flying out to his Sydney trip in a few weeks he wanted to get it over and done with the next day.

I told him to organise at least a day off after it, but he assured me the dentist said he would only need a couple of hours sitting down and he would be fine ... oh how wrong he could have been lol.

He arrived home a few hours afterwards in such pain. Reckons it was the worst pain he has ever felt. Had to stop quite a few times on the way home because he felt like throwing up.

Got home and went to bed for the day. Then a few hours after he got up his face started to swell. Went to bed that nite drugged up with Nurofen. But that wasn't cutting it. Next morning he went off to work again (against my wishes) only to arrive home again midday. The swelling was getting worse. He went back to the dentist that morning and the dentist told him to go home, rest up (yeah right ... he's a workaholic that can't sit still lol) and if it got any worse to go to a doctor asap.

Then last night around 8pm we decided to go to A&E because it was getting worse still. The swelling was getting up around his temple. 36hrs after he had the tooth pulled it was still getting bigger. The doctor prescribed a stronger anitbiotic and stronger pain relief.

The pain relief must have worked because this morning he got up thinking he was all better ... but his face was EVEN LARGER! Now it has gone down his neck and around his eye. At least he's not in pain anymore. Keeping a close watch on it today and see how it goes.

Other than that things are going pretty well.
I'll update that photo of the house for you now so if your interested go check it out.

Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

ohhh well :(

Had a 200g gain this week. Little disappointing but I guess I had it coming to me. It's been a long time since I went out for any planned exercise. So off I went this morning for a walk with a friend. We ended up going for 1.5hrs. Feeling pretty tired now but no wonder ... it's been over 2mths since I did any exercise.

Things are a little rocky on the home front. Don't want to go too much into it on here but I'll be fine ... probably the reason for the lack of updates lately. Doing very well at not letting it effect my eating (too much)

Short and sweet today.
Have another pic of the house to go up but won't get a chance to upload it till tomorrow so check back then. (the roofs up ... well half of it )

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Bad builders

Quick update to let you know I'm still alive :)

Eating has been pretty good. Exercise not much (but that's not unusual).

Best news ... Bill has decided to move down here with me (he misses me too much ... aint that sweet?) It will mean a lot more travelling and more petrol but given he won't be paying board I don't think it will be much more. Anyway I don't really care how much it costs ... its too horrible not having him here. So he moves home as of next week ... can't wait!

Went to the homeshow here in Hamilton on Thursday. Good lot of exercise there. To give you some background info here ... a few months back we talked to the builders about getting a gas fireplace put in and they told us that because we needed a permit it would hold the building process up too much so would be better if we did it after the house was finished. I really didn't want to do this but admitted defeat. Then at the homeshow I spoke to 3 fireplace people who all said that for a gas fireplace we didn't need a permit!! So I rang the builder back to say they were wrong and that we wanted one put in. He still tried to talk us out of it and gave us a huge price (about $1500 more than the fireplace people said it would cost). So I said I would go away and research it, think about it and get back to him shortly. When I rang him back before I could tell him that yes I still wanted to do it regardless of the cost ... he said WE CAN'T DO ANY ALTERATIONS FOR YOU no matter what it is. No fireplace!!

I was wild!! At the start (before we signed up) they told us we could change any part of the plan and do anything we liked as long as we paid the extra costs. Now they have totally turned around! Bad, bad, bad! But from what I have heard from others alot of builders are like this.

So anyway the bank manager said that by the time we move in the value of our house should have gone up and therefore we could just add it on to the loan and get it done seperately by another builder. Probably a better option anyway. If we got these builders to do it they would probably charge us alot more and do a slaphappy job. This way it gets done properly and still gets included with the house. So happy ending anyway but it's the principle of the matter that winds me up.

Anyway ... I'm going fine and things are looking good. Sorry no update photo of the house yet this week. Bill said that when he drove past a few days ago they were putting tiles on the roof. Can't wait to see that!

That's about all for today ... got a busy day ahead with stationery again.

Bye for now,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.5kg
GW 65kg

murphys law!! lol

I seem to do this to myself every week!! Think I've put on weight and make myself think I am fat. Not quite sure why... probably because I'm scared that's what will happen.

But all my fears were for nothing again... 300g loss! :) I know, I know ... I gotta stop being so hard on myself. But I'm happy with that result ... slowly but surely it's all going for good!!

In answer to your question Leigh ... he got them through his work. Coke booked out a section of the game and they give them away to certain staff (usually management) of supermarkets from all over the country. This is the first one he has got ... usually the owner or store manager gets them (Bill is 2IC under the store manager).

My day went really well yesterday. Went to ww then grabbed a bite to eat (filet-o-fish and apple pie from McD's), then drove to Tauranga (around an hours drive) to see two clients, then home again by 9.30pm. Long day but a very productive one.

Spent this morning with Bill before he headed back to Auckland at lunchtime.

Feeling quite positive again today. I really don't know what sparks my down moods. It's not hormonal. I guess it's everything that is going on. I think it helped the fact that I got a lot of work done today (with the business) so not feeling so pressured.

I had to laugh when I saw your comment Lynda :) I honestly am wanting to update my pic. I have taken photos but I'm such a scrooge ... I have another 10 photos to use up the film and I don't want to waste them and have to pay money to get it developed. Not that I don't want to spend the money but our finances are just so tight at the moment that $10 on a film is a luxury. That's my excuse anyhow lol. I will get it developed honest lol. Maybe I'll got do it now while I think of it ... hehe

LMAO!! Murphys Law. I just went to take the film out of the camera and put it in a post bag to get developed while I was thinking of it .. and get this ... someone left the camera on so now the batteries are flat and I can't rewind the film ... lol. Now not only do I have to pay for the film but batteries as well (and they are the expensive kind) ... Sorry Lynda you'll have to wait. My sister has a digital camera ... maybe next time I see her I can get her to take some and email them to me.

Dinner is burning so better get back to it.
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.5kg
GW 65kg

feeling fat today

Just a quick update tonight as I'm pretty tired. Things are going okay. Been really hungry the last couple of days (not TOM for me) not sure why. I've handled it pretty well with snacking on apples when I get hungry.

But somehow I don't feel slim this week. Not holding out for any great news at weigh in tomorrow. Maybe my girly weekend 3wks ago has finally caught up with me.

Lynda has updated photos on her site and she looks fantastic!! Wow what a stunner! Makes me realise it's all worth it when I see results like that :)

Bill is coming down tonight. Hope he drives carefully because there's a huge storm out there at the moment.

Things are starting to get to me today. Mainly the kids. I'm just warn out. Tired of picking up after them, tired of disciplining them, tired of cleaning the house, tired of business work and tired of concentrating on my eating. I'll get over it... just not feeling the best. Hope I have a good weigh in result tomorrow ... that will cheer me up and get me motivated again.

Bill has been given tickets to the All Blacks vs Wales rugby world cup game in November (in Sydney) so he's flying out for a boys weekend away. I'm sure he'll enjoy himself. Feeling rather sorry for myself that I didn't get invited too lol. But I suppose it won't make me feel so guilty going for my Sydney shopping spree next year when i get to goal ... hehehe. Told him he has to buy me a really nice pressie to make up for me not going (big sook arent i? lol)

busy day again tomorrow ... off to Tauranga to see some clients. Hope the weather clears up by then.

Update again on Tuesday to let you all know how I got on with weigh in.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

Work has gone crazy

I'm back catching my breath again. Things have been so hectic lately I don't seem to be getting any of my routine things done ... like dishes for example. I hate having a messy house but with a workload like it has been something has to give.

I've just finished a set of 105 invites/envelopes/RSVP cards and RSVP envelopes ... wow!!! Spent 3 days with my head down, butt up and finally it's all finished! Breathing a sigh of relief. Got caught up on the dishes and housework this morning then off to the supermarket this afternoon to get some more food, all before it all starts again on monday, with the next job due soon after.

I am fully booked up with consultations now until 20 October. It's just gone crazy!!

Eating has been pretty good. Made the mistake of shopping this afternoon on an empty stomach. So came home with some things I probably didn't need. But the good thing is my magnum I bought impulsively is safely sitting in my freezer ... so far untouched. Good girl huh? lol. Don't know how long it will stay there tho. But instead of gorging it on a moment of impulse I have put it aside to reward myself tonight after all the kids are in bed. Back in January before I started this I used to live on Magnums. 2-3 a week!! This is the first Magnum I have had in over 9mths! Wow that's a long time. And I fully deserve this one... and that's all it will be ... One ...

Updated my measurements page for anyone interested. I have lost another 10cms overall in the past 8wks. It has slowed a little but given my circumstances I am happy with that. I have noticed my waist, thighs and calves getting smaller lately. Infact I am really starting to like what I see in the mirror now. Even considering wearing a sleeveless sundress for summer. That is one rule I would never break before ... ALWAYS WEAR SLEEVES!! Not anymore tho ... Just have to catchup on the ol' suntan on them lol.

Sad to see Leigh is stopping her website. She will be truelly missed by me and alot of others. But in saying that I totally understand. We all go through seasons in our life and if something starts to be a burden then changes need to be made. Leigh has been a very good email buddy of mine in this journey so far. We started at a similar time. But in saying that I will do my best to stay in contact, so don't think you're gonna get rid of me that easily ... hehe! I'll be haunting you :)

For those of you interested in seeing more progress on our house, a new pic went up today into the photo album. Got a wonderful surprise when the builder emailed it to me. It's really starting to take shape (I know I keep saying that lol).

Better get dinner on.
Bye for now
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

100g loss!! yay!

I have a new picture of the house up in my photo album taken on Friday. It's really starting to take shape now that the roof trusses have gone up. Wahooo :)

Had my weigh in yesterday ... 100g loss. Kinda hoping it was a little more than that but can't complain given it's TOM for me at the moment and my bad weekend two weeks ago that didn't really show on the scales. Happy little camper here. I'm kinda thinking that while things are so stressful and busy that as long as I can maintain my losses (i.e. not gain) and infact have small losses then I am doing pretty damn well. Still would like to be 71kg (ww goal weight) before 11 Feb 04 but if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen.

When I got to my meeting I was informed I was doing the recording by myself with no one helping. Yeowch!! Talk about being thrown in the deep end lol. I think I managed it okay with only a few hiccups. The only problem Bill was waiting for me in the car at 1.30pm when I was supposed to have finished (arrived at the meeting at 11.45am) but because I was new to my job and of course a little slower along with the leader explaining things to me it was after 2pm before I got out to him in the car. Stress all round lol.

Next week I'll go on my own and leave Bill at home with the kids. Much less stressful.

Going to give it a try for a few more weeks before I decide if I definately want to stay a recorder at the ww meeting. I really enjoy it but it does add more stress to my day (but I also enjoy getting out of the house) so playing it by ear for a bit then I'll decide what to do.

Well tommorow we would have been down here in Hamilton for an entire month!! Can't believe it's been that long already with only just over 4mths to go. Let's hope the rest of the time goes as quickly. And so far we have saved over $4000!!! With only $13,000 to go

Bill left today at lunchtime. We don't do the separation thing very well. We're finding that we fight for the first half day till we get all our frustrations out, then are sweet little lovebirds for the remainder time. It's weird... you'd think we would just be happy to see eachother with being apart but I don't know why we get at eachother at first... till we settledown then we are fine. Before we shifted down here we only argued once in a blue moon. I think it's because we are both really tired and stressed and we take it out on eachother as neither of us have anyone to talk it out to. This has happened for the last 3 weekends. I'm not worried because we always sort it out. We are good at communicating and talking things out.

I was sad to see him go today. But each week it gets a little easier and the time we are apart goes a little faster. We're both hanging out for the day we can be together all week in our new home. I'll stop now before I have you all puking in a bucket! lol

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

Another busy day ahead

My cousin from the UK popped in yesterday and we had an awesome time. She is just the coolest. And yes she was blown away by my weightloss. Said I was fading away to nothing :)

Have a busy day ahead of me today. The two eldest children have gone with mum and dad to church this morning so the house is quiet for the meantime. Still have lots of work to get on with and this afternoon I'm off to Auckland again to see a client. Then back home again before mum leaves for the cowshed (she's looking after the children for me). Tight deadline but should be doable.

Bill is coming down either late tonight (around midnight) or first thing tommorrow morning. Can't wait! He's down for two days and leaves again on Tuesday lunchtime.

Not much else to update on. Havent had any eating problems, so going good there but my exercise hasnt been very good. Still raining off and on here so hard to get it in.

Hoping to stop by the house when I'm in Auckland to check on updates with the building. Bill said he called by there the other day and nothing more was done. I'm presuming this is because of the bad weather.

I'll take my camera anyway incase there is anything more done to take pics of. I'll let you know tomorrow.

Till then, see ya
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

Poor little Coral :(

Emotions are running high today. I have so much work on that I can't be bothered getting started on it. Bad I know.

Have my cousin from the UK popping in to visit this afternoon. She's over here on holiday for a few weeks. She hasn't seen me since I started ww. Although she knows I have lost weight will be interesting to see what she says. She's such a cool lady. One of those bubbly, wonderful to be around kind of people. The type that when they leave you just feel so happy and inspired. Yay can't wait for her to get here.

She's very different to my mother on the other hand lol. Got a visit from her this morning to be told off because my kids left all their gumboots and shoes out last night and with the rain now they are all wet! Felt like a naughty child lol. She has such a way of making you feel uplifted (NOT!!) lol.

To give you an idea of how judgemental my parents are (although ironically in writing this I too am judging ... but I gotta tell someone ... there's no other adults here to talk to) ... anyway ... after finding about little Coral's body being found yesterday and that the stepfather had been charged for her murder my father remarked "I can't understand why the mother would hook up with someone like that. In my mind she deserves all she got, she's very silly, I have no sympathy for her whatsoever!" I could not believe what I was hearing!! I am still very wound up about his words. Yes she may have made a mistake in living with him but she DID NOT DESERVE TO HAVE HER CHILD MURDERED!!! No one deserves to have a child murdered no matter what mistakes they make in their life. I told him this but of course was shot down saying how wrong I was. I just had to shake my head in disbelief. I tell you there is absolutely no compassion in that house.

I really feel for the mother. Can you imagine what she must be going through? To find her child is dead and killed by the man that she has just had a baby to. And the emotions that will be tied up with the baby too... to know it's father is the one that killed her daughter. I have so much compassion for her at the moment. My thoughts and prayers are with the whole family.

On that thoughtful note I'll sign off for today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

I actually have hip bones!! :)

Didn't manage to get out for the planned walk with my friend the other day because of the rain. Not too worried ... will get out again when the weather clears.

My eating yesterday was perfect. Been a very good girl here.

I put on a skirt this morning that I haven't warn in a very long time. It used to be too tight on the waist but I hid that well with a baggy top. Today it hangs down another 10cm on my hips!! Very close to falling off me. Makes me realise how much I have actually lost. So feeling very slim today. Infact this morning lying in bed I could feel my hip bone sticking out!! (lying on my back of course) still a different story when I stand up lol ... but it's a start. I will have truelly made it when I can feel dem hips bones while walking :)

Busy again with work today. There's no break at the moment. As soon as one job is finished it's on with another. Don't really like it when it gets this busy. Goes beyond what I want the business to be. Only supposed to be a part time job but at the moment it's taking away all the time I should be spending with the kids.

Leigh you must be so excited looking at your houses. Hope everything goes smoothly for you. And Karen glad to hear your job is going well. And all your wedding plans will work themselves out. Lyndas carrying on as her usual fantastic self (she inspires me so much!!) Keep up the great work everyone!!

Later!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

scheduled exercise... I did it! :)

Pretty boring day here. Work is speeding up again. Rather enjoyed the last week of not much work, didn't last long enough. Back into it again now with a 105 invites/envelopes/RSVP cards and RSVP envelopes to have out before next Tuesday.

Eating has been good and get this .... I actually went out for a scheduled walk yesterday afternoon. (pushing Jese in the buggy) and have made a 'date' with a friend to go walking with her this afternoon too.

Not much else to tell ... catchya all tomorrow
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

Happy happy joy joy

Had a fantastic time away with the 'girls' (my sister, a friend and two of her friends) But ate way too much of the wrong stuff. I always tried for healthy alternatives and wise choices but I'm not very good at saying no to food when it is right in front of me or when it affects others (like when everyone is ordering dinner together) I guess I'm not very assertive like that. But turns out I did okay anyway.

I was feeling rather depressed about going to my ww meeting today but glad I did ... had a 400g loss ... very happy but the few bad choices I had may show up next week. For now I'm not going to worry about that. Just going to enjoy my lightest weight for the last 10yrs .... 81.9kg!!! Only 2kg to go to break that 80's barrier and become a 70's gal!! Then I'm on the home straight!! Then only 10.9kg to go to get to ww goal of 71kg.

Went shopping while we were away and tried on lots of wonderful clothes. I was very good at not buying any of them but still made me feel good seeing what they looked like on. Generally I'm a size 14 now (depending on the brand) Can't wait to get to the size 12!! wahooo :)

Spent my first day as a recorder at my ww meeting today. Bit overwhelmed by it all ... alot of info to take in and remember but hopefully with a weeks of observing I should get the hang of it.

So ww has a new 'flexiplan' huh? Not sure I understand what is different about it or how it is better but might give me something new to get excited about. Have to do some reading up about it to work it all out.

Off to get my slim 81.9kg butt to cook some dinner :)
Nite all
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

I've been very bad!

Really didn't want to update today. I haven't been the best the last few days. Quite naughty infact! Looks like my motivation has taken a downer again. Don't worry I'll be fine and I'm not giving up because of a few bad days of eating.

I think it all started when I baked a cake for my sister and instead of having a small piece I ate a HUGE slice!! Lucky I managed to give the rest of it away. Then that night I made a chicken casorole which would have been okay except that I didn't take any of the skin off (my favourite part of the chicken) and I ate a huge plateful!!

Yesterday was a little better but didn't eat until 2.30pm!! I made a whole lot of roast veges for dinner (done in a very healthy way) but still ate too many of them.

I have a girly weekend booked this weekend. I leave this afternoon and get back Sunday lunchtime. Really don't know how I'm going to plan for it. Have run out of time to save points. Take it as it comes I guess.

I think the secret is to get back into exercising. Even if it is just a walk. As soon as the weather clears up that is.

I'm really looking forward to doing the 'river walk' here in Hamilton. It's a 3hr walk along the banks of the Waikato River. But the opportunities aren't great. Have to go when I only have Jese to walk with. Bill is down for the weekend going back on Tuesday lunchtime so maybe we could go on Monday.

I won't be able to update again till Sunday when I get back so have a great weekend everyone and hopefully by the time I get back I will be inspired again :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.3kg
GW 65kg

ho hummm ...

Definately nothing exciting happened today ... went to ww weighin ... result? ... 100g gain. Not very happy with that result but not gutted either. After all ... last weeks loss was far more than I had expected and 100g isn't too much to worry about. I think it's the high fat meats I'm having for dinners. Even tho its only about 3 nights a week we have meat its pretty fatty stuff. Think I'm going to have to revisit that one.

The other thing ... the water here is absolutely gross so I have been adding refresh powder to the water to help me get it down, which is adding points.

Not much else to say, nite for now
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.3kg
GW 65kg

Life is good again :)

I didn't update earlier today because I didn't think I had anything much to tell you all... wow that has changed now lol

Got a phone call from Bill this afternoon to say that his boss has approached him about working Saturday and Sunday (that happened a couple of days ago). Well he came back today with an offer. A $7 an hour payrise for the hours worked on those days!!! He will work two 14hr days on Saturday and Sunday meaning it will give us $444 extra at then end of each week! What this means is that instead of having to work 79hrs each week to earn enough to save $800 a week (which was almost undoable) now he only has to work 66hrs a week and only 2 late nights. HUGE LOAD OFF MY MIND :)) And at the end of the six months he can either go back to his original 45-50hrs and having Saturday/Sunday off or keep doing the same as what he does now. The only bummer is that he will be having Monday/Tuesday off and so less time with Lauren and Malachi who are in school on those days. We will reassess it in February and see how we feel then.

The other news is that we got a letter from the builders today to say that building has started on our house!! Wahoo :) We're going up to Auckland tomorrow so we'll call by and see what they have done.

I have a really busy day tomorrow with two consultations to do in Auckland. One in Howick at 2pm and one in Parnell at 4pm so it will be tight, but keeps me busy.

Really don't know how I've gone weighwise this week. With being on a tight budget for groceries has meant I've had to buy 'cheap' meat which is generally fatty meat. Stayed away from sausages but had to buy mince and meatloaf for a couple of nights. But hopefully to make up for it there has been a couple of nights with no meat. So all in all ... don't know how that will effect the scales. But after last weeks great result I'm not too bothered if it is a gain.

Won't get to update tommorow with being out all day so the next time I update will be on Monday after weigh in.

Nite
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

new fatty photo

Was sifting through some photos at mum's yesterday and came across a good 'fatty' photo that was taken at the end of last year. So have put it up on my front page. If you don't see it when the page comes up you may need to refresh the page to bring it up.

I've spent the day doing work all day again. The phone has gone crazy with new bookings. Can't complain ... it all means money but will put me under a bit of pressure.

Bill has been offered the duty managers position for the weekends. Not really a promotion but means he will work weekends and have Monday/Tuesdays off. He's agreed to take it on for 6mths and only with a premium pay during those hours. Should work out quite good financially... but may mean a little juggling around with client consultations for me. I have been doing them on Sundays so might have to rearrange things somehow... not sure how yet.

I realised something really cool today ... my thighs no longer rub together. Such a small thing but only those who have been overweight will understand the significance of this :) Yay me! lol

Eating has been good today ... hmmm still no exercise... too busy and it's still raining here.

That's about it for today,
Catcha all tomorrow. I'm going to try and update more regularly (back to daily) I know I've been a bit slack lately with my updates but as soon as business work gets sorted I'll be back to a normal routine.... hopefully :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

New pics coming

Not much to report about today ... but thought I would still touch base so you guys didn't think I had given up on you all :)

Work is still crazilly busy. That's all I did all day till around 7pm.

Bill came home for the afternoon/night yesterday. Was so nice to have him home again. Went too quick tho lol. Back to work again at 6.30am this morning. Certainly making me appreciate our time together.

This budgeting thing is hard on the grocery shopping. My goal is to survive two weeks without doing any shopping. We have another 5 days to go and the supplies are starting to thin out. Lucky we are on a farm with plenty of fruit, milk and meat. When the weather warms up a little I'll get a vege garden planted which will help a lot.

Thanks to all you guys for your congrats ... soo cool :) Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou :)

Had a cool email from Lynn tonight. She is the mum of Malachi's classmates (twins). Wow what a small world. She came across my website through ww (somehow, not sure how lol) and after reading through my journal put 2+2 together and realised I was Malachi's mum from school. She's also on ww and doing really well. Certainly put a smile on my face when I read who she was ... small, small world.

That's about it for today, did really well with my eating (not much here to binge on lol). Getting inspired to do the River walk (around 2.5hrs) ... when this rain stops that is lol

Ohhh you'll all be shocked lol ... I actually took some update pics yesterday ... now just gotta get the film developed. Was wearing my new jeans ... hand-me-downs from Bill. They are too small for him now and fit me 'mighty fine' in his words lol. Not sure what size they are in womans (they are mens jeans) But size 82 whatever that means. If anyone knows what that is equivalent to in womans sizes please let me know. Thanks!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

Snuck to a ww meeting early lol

Woke up this morning feeling slim ... so I thought "right ... I'm off to ww today for weighin while I'm feeling great!" :) good choice too... wahoooo!!! 1.7kg loss!! (in 1.5wks) bringing me to my 25kg lost mark!! The only downer was I had no one to skite to (lol) so far have lost 25.2kg.

This was my first meeting at the new Hamilton location. The leader seemed really nice and everyone was friendly. They do a really cool thing there ... they give out little gem stones for every 1 stone lost (6.3kg) and today I got to my 4 stone lost mark (exactly 25.2kg) so I got given 4 little gems ... Is that cool or what??? I have put in a little pic of them in my 'achievements' section of my front page.

There was a lady at my meeting today who was there for the first time and had forgotten her magazine coupon that gave her free registration. I suggested to her that because ww had a promotion that if you bring a friend along your friend got free registration. So we became 'friends' lol (ww wasn't to know that we had only just met) After exchanging names we went into the meeting. When the lady asked her who she came with she had a sudden memory loss and couldn't remember my name so just pointed to me and said "her" lol. Of course we sat together to make it look like we were long time friends :) And then they handed me a recipe book (part of the promotion) ... cool huh? so I got a free cookbook and a new friend ... great deal!! :)

Came home and showed mum my little gems ... for the first time since I started she actually looked proud of what I had achieved and asked questions. :) Good day!

Just feeling a little sad tonight ... not sure why .. missing Bill I guess. I'll see him on Wednesday night tho ... not long now only another 2 days.

Overall a very good day :) 1.7kg!!!! wahoooo!!! :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

Rich woman/Poor woman :)

For a fleeting moment we were rich!! lol ... Our house has all gone through and the surplus $35,000 went into our bank account. But tonight I have transfered it all over to another account to pay off our debts, leaving us with just over $1000. On one hand it's sad that we only have a $1000 left over but on the other hand we have cleared all our debt and paid our builders their first $17,000 deposit (still have the remainder $17,000 to save). It's all good and we are progressing :) After next week we will have just under $3,000 saved!! wahoo!! $14,000 to go!

Bill turned up unexpectedly last night for a suprise visit! :)) He had in hand a cake with "happy sale" and a picture of a house on it! What a sweetie!! He arrived just before midnight and had to leave at 6.30am to get back to work in time but was definately worth the visit! I miss him heaps!!

Today was pretty uneventful. Took the day off work and just potted around the house and caught up on some sleep. Eating wise ... did okay .. not great. Ended up having 3 pieces of cake throughout the day but left the rest at mum's for them to finish it off. Had a roast dinner tonight with mum and dad. Mum cooked the meat (very high fat) and I did the veges. Of course they were done low fat and dad complained about them but oh well I don't care, at least I kept it low in points for me ... hehe!

Busy day tomorrow. Off to Auckland to do a business consultation. My sister is looking after the kids so gives me a good chance to get out of the house and kid free for a few hours. Then Monday is another busy day with erands to do in town.

Not much else to say.
Update on Monday.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg

Big congrats to Lynda ... she's almost at goal!! wahoo!! That is so exciting for me because she started at the beginning of the year at what I am now ... so I just have to do what she has done and I too will nearly be at goal! :) Goooo Lynda!!

Leigh is also doing really well! With another loss this week! Great going girl!

damn viruses >:(

I'm still here :) The last few days have been alot better. I haven't been able to update my journal or read my fav's because my brand new computer got stung with the 'msblast' virus. I've spent the last two days (with the help of my cousin) trying to rid myself of it. It's a nasty one. Apparently it doesn't come through emails or websites just comes through with an internet connection. It apparently randomly chooses ISP addresses and fires off attacks every 20 seconds and when it finds an active ISP address it installs itself and starts sending out random attacks from that computer. It's apparently the biggest virus attack ever!! I hadn't been able to load my Norton's onto my new computer because of technical difficulties and while I wasn't protected I got stung. Murphy's law huh? :) Lucky thing is it is removable and doesn't really do any long term damage ... just annoying.

With my computer being out of action for the last couple of days has put me way behind in work, but things could be worse. At least that keeps my brain busy and stops me getting bored.

I didn't manage to get to ww last night (the first meeting I have missed since I started in January). We were doing all the formalities for our house sale (solicitor and real estate agent stuff)

My eating has been pretty good (sticking to around 18-19pts per day) although I haven't physically tracked (just mentally calculated it up) But my exercise has been virtually nil since we got here. Could be worse. I'll be back to my ww meeting next wednesday. My wedding rings still feel pretty lose so can't have done too badly.

Thanks for everyone's support!! It's fantastic to have such a strong support structure on here. You guys are awesome! I'm not going anywhere... I will have bad days .. but ultimately it won't stop me reaching my goal!

I got through my tax refund today of $905!! wahoo!! That will go to paying off my business overdraft and give me a couple of extra hundred to go into the house fund. Big load off my shoulders!

Loving my new computer!! I have gone with Windows XP this time and it's fantastic! No way near as bad as everyone warned me it would be. I haven't had to update any programmes. Just my norton's has given me a few hassles but still fixable. Very much worth it!

Well early night for me I think. Kids are all sick at the moment still so that has warn me out. So far (touch wood) I'm still healthy :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg

It's not good

I'm really not coping well at all. I'm on the verge of tears all the time. Sorry to be such a drain on you guys, but I feel this is my only lifeline at the moment. Missing Bill sooo bad and he's only been gone not even one whole day.

Everyone was great who helped us shift, but now they have all gone home and I am here by myself. Jesurun was up all night last night with a bad cough that at one stage turned into an asthma attack so not having any sleep doesn't help with the emotions either.

Mum offered to come and look after the younger two while I took Lauren and Malachi down to their new school. Trouble was the principal there took absolutely ages explain everything so by the time I got back home again it was 9.45am. Mum was really annoyed (and understandably too) but I just couldn't do anything about it. Normally I would cope with this and flog it off as 'just her' but today I couldn't take it. I didn't react at all infront of her, just apologised. But as soon as she left I burst into tears. Don't know why I'm so crazy at the moment. PMS is here as well (great timing I know) I really don't like being like this and I'm beginning to wonder if we have done the right thing. I just want Bill back here. I can't even ring him. Apparently he left work unexpectedly this morning (I'm guessing for a sleep at the old house) and there is no phone on there. Besides I don't want to worry him because he knows how being apart from him down here is going to effect me emotionally and right now he needs to concentrate on work to get his 70hrs in a week (otherwise we won't get our deposit saved in time). The last thing he needs is to travel down here because I'm not coping.

My eating has gone out the window as expected. That's one thing I just cannot deal with. Or more like one thing I can take off my plate to not have to deal with. I'm not binging or comfort eating or anything like that but there is no way I can deal with counting points or tracking.

Sometimes I just wish I could press a button and all my emotions would go away. Thought I had worked myself up to being able to get through this. Admittedly it's only day one, I just feel really alone and in very unfamilier surroundings. Craving for a cigerette but would never live it down if mum and dad caught me so for now I'll just have to hold off and cope!!

Sorry it wasn't better news for everyone to read. Really didn't want to write such negative things here today but I think I need to be honest with you guys and myself.

I'M HOMMMMMESICKKKKKK :( Hope tomorrow is better.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg

Fell back into some bad habits :(

The tagboard below is still down :( Sorry if anyone was wanting to leave any messages. Very frustrating! But feel free to put any comments in my guestbook or send me an email (I LOOOOOVE getting emails :)

Only 2 days to go before the big move. Up until yesterday I thought I was coping rather well with everything. Yesterday I got overstressed (probably something to do with TOM arriving soon) There's just so much going on and I wasn't coping with the fact that soon I wouldn't have Bill around much. Sadly I reverted back to comfort eating. Sitting home by myself infront of the telly last night (Bill worked late) I just couldn't stop myself. I devoured the remainder of the cooked chicken and the rest of the icecream in the tub. Lucky I stopped myself after that. And lucky there actually wasn't much chicken left nor icecream for that matter either... but the point is that I still did it. I haven't comfort ate in a very long time. Thought I was over that ... hmmm ... maybe not. Not going to let it get to me too much cuz I know all the stress there is around here at the moment. It's just a momentary lapse and I'm back on track today.

Having a few hiccups with my new computer (I'm back on the old one today) Outlook Express isn't working properly. Everytime I go to reply to an email it tells me there isn't enough memory. Which I know isn't true (I have 40GB of hardrive and 1GB of RAM) I'm just going to leave it now till I get to Hamilton and get my cousin to look at it (he's a computer programmer who'll be living next door... handy huh?)

Off to the bank today to open our new accounts. We've changed banks with this new house mortgage. That's exciting in itself :)

Not much else to report ... it's the kids last day of school today and they seem quite excited. Glad to see they're not too sad.

Probably won't get to update again till Monday at our new place. Till then ... WISH ME ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD I CERTAINLY NEED IT!! lol

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg

wahooo another loss :o)

***UPDATE*** I AM CURRENTLY TYPING THIS FROM MY BRAND NEW FLASHAS COMPUTER!!! YAY!!! I HAVE IT GOING WAHOOOOO!!***UPDATE***

Yay ... a 200g loss!! Very happy result! I'm not expecting huge losses in this part of my journey, but as long as I can maintain the losses I have been getting and keep this weight off then I'm a happy camper.

Considering I did very little exercise this last week and the KFC and chips on the weekend I'm very happy. I've noticed my attitude changing in regards to takeaway food. I used to get as much in as possible because I knew it would be gone and growing up in a family of 6 people you always dug in first to get the most or you missed out. (well not really, but felt like that as a kid lol) ... now I'm finding I subconsously ask myself ... "do I really need this?" "how many points is this going to cost me?" HUGE STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION!!

My computer arrived yesterday, but I'm finding it frustrating already. I thought both computers (the old one and the new one) had network cards, meaning I could just put a cord between them to transfer data from the old to the new. But from what I can see the old one doesn't. Grrrr ... this makes it alot trickier. The old one doesnt have a CD writer either ... just a ZIP disk ... the new one has a CD writer but doesnt have a zip disk. My brother in law has a thingee he can plug in the back and transfer files over but it means I'll have to wait till I get to Hamilton before I can use my new puter :( I even tried to get an internet connection on it and apparently it doesnt have a modem!! Grrrrr ... I presumed modems in computers were standard ... aparently not!! So I have organised for a modem to be brought out but it's all delays.

So guess I'll put it all back in boxes and wait till I get to Hamilton.

Not much else to chat about today ... hope the weather clears up before the weekend. Better get back to it I guess :)

Lyn :o)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg

Bad dreams

Woke up with a horrible dream early this morning. Dreamt I had been robbed by the mongrel mob... they had taken everything we owned. The weird thing was there were males and females and even kids, there were all in on it together. They took me hostage and made me go in with them to an armed robbery. It was a horrible feeling of knowing I might be part of a murder and couldn't do anything about it. There was a real sence of terror in the dream.

I believe that dreams mean things. Not that I am saying they will come true but that they speak of how the subconcious mind is thinking. This is probably true for me. Although I am excited about this move there is a sence of being swept away with the current, being out of control, being forced to do things I don't feel comfortable with ... like giving up smoking for a start (this is a good thing but something I am scared about). Then there's the nervousness about living next door to mum and dad, knowing I'm going to miss Bill (he was nowhere in the dream) and finally the stress of needing to save $17,000 in 5mths. I am ultimately excited about what we are doing but nervous and scared all the same (does this make sense?)

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal bar 1.5pts
LUNCH - soup 1pt, bread 4pts
SNACK - 50g Rix chips 3pts
DINNER - potato 0.5pt, chicken 2pts, pasta 2.5pts, cheese 2pts, milk 0.5pts, sachet 0.5pt, veges 0pts
SNACK - sushi 2.5pts, surimi seafood 2pts
DRINKS - wine 1pt
LATE SNACK - nesquik with trim milk 1pt

Total ... 22pts/22pts
Saved ... none
Total saved ... -2pts
Water ... 2 glasses

My eating for yesterday was really good up until after dinner. Although I didn't go over points but ate quite late at night. Bill brought home sushi and surimi so meant I didn't save my required 2pts to be OP for the week. Think I should still be okay for a loss tonight ... I hope :)

Went for a cheeky peek on the scales this morning (becoming a Wednesday morning habit) ... but bugger ... I had packed the scales lol. Will teach me for being so organised :) So will just have to wait for tonight to find out how I have done this week.

Started to organise the changeover of power, phone, insurance etc yesterday. It took me from 2.30pm to 5pm!! to organise just the power and phone!!! I was on the phone for 2 and a half hours!!! The power has been a real headache. We are moving to a rural address and they normally work out what house you are by the ICP number but because we are not there yet we don't have the ICP number. And mum didn't know what it was. Our address is just the Road name, RD# and City ... there's no street numbers, so no way of telling exactly what house to connect the power to. Crazy setup!! I ended up sorting it out but after alot of phone calls to different people going back and forth. I don't know how others do it that don't have family living next door. Anyway it's all done and organised now. That's 3 things crossed off the list ... just 12 to go!!! lol

Have got mostly everything packed now. Just 1 more box in the kitchen which I will do on Saturday and all the clothes and furniture.

Was supposed to be going on a class trip with Malachi (5) today. But after ringing the school this morning they told me they have a full bus and no room for Jordan (3) and Jese (1). He is going to be so disappointed I don't turn up. It's pouring with rain and I have my computer turning up today (well so they say, believe it when I see it) but I still feel bad for him.

There is a guy at Bill's work who is working to save money to bring his family over from Pakastan. He's been here a year already to save enough and his family has just arrived in NZ. We helped him out a little with giving him some things we didn't need anymore, like kids toys, clothing and a spare dining table and mattress we had (not much) and Bill came home with a whole bag of gifts from them last night. Included was an amazing dressing gown, hand made by his wife!! It has embroidery down the front panels, around the sleeves, on the pockets, down the back and on the ties. It's just beautiful!! And made out of a wool based fabric, so warm and cosy!! I was blown away! And also there's a sheet set with pillow cases (also embroidered!!), a woollen jersey for Bill and a pair of gold earings. That's just too much ... wow!! We didn't do anything amazing to deserve such generousity ... just gave some things we didn't need to a good cause. Warm fuzzies all round :)

Last ww meeting tonight, it's going to be a bit sad. I've come to know alot of people there really well and I'll miss them all greatly... but I'll be back ... and hopefully when I come back I'll be at my ww goal :) (71kg)

That's about it here... I'll update tonight (or first thing tomorrow with weighin results)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.1kg
GW 65kg

Another day tracked :)

Pretty uneventful day here. Still didn't get into any more packing yesterday. Everytime I think my business work is all finished something else comes up. Think I'm just gonna have to ignore the business and get onto the house for a bit. I really don't know where to start. I need someone to be here to organise me lol.

My eating went very well yesterday. I even managed to ward off a craving for something sweet after dinner last night. I felt like I was coming down with the flu ... all achy and sinuses blocking up, but this morning it seems to have gone again, just as well.

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt
LUNCH - soup 1pt, bread 5pts, coleslaw 2.5pts
SNACK - snakatas 1pt
DINNER - steak 3pts, potatoes 1.5pts, caulibake 1pt, coleslaw 1.5pts, mixed veges 0pts
SNACK - hot nesquik 0.5pt

Total ... 19pts/22pts
Saved ... 3pts
Total saved -2pts
Water ... 2 glasses

Good luck on getting the finance Leigh ... I know EXACTLY how you feel ... everything seems to take soooo long in the house selling/buying process. Got everything crossed for you! :)

My computer didn't turn up yesterday as predicted. I've told them if I don't have it by Friday they will be delivering it to Hamilton! That should get them moving :)

Weigh in tomorrow night and I really don't know what to expect this week. My body feels like it's in for a small loss ... nothing major. Just have to wait and see I guess.

Well 5 days before we move out of here so better get on with some packing.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.1kg
GW 65kg

Feeling a little nervous

I'm over the whole mongrel mob thing (see previous entry). Figure if I can't change it then why worry about it. Just feeling relieved that we are moving out.

One week to go before move out day. I have got so much to do. Not too worried about all the packing, that's all pretty straight forward stuff ... but it's the organising of everything ... like phone, power, insurance, change of address, redirection of mail and the list goes on. Just hope I don't forget anything.

Mum's birthday surprise was a real hit. We all had a good time. Think I went a little overboard in points but not going to worry about it too much as I watched what I ate, and didn't have very big portions. The lunch was actually very healthy, but it was the birthday cake (which I shared with Jese), the hot choccy, and then KFC for dinner (ohh and hot chips as well) I only had one piece of chicken and took the skin off but I just couldnt stop myself with the chips, they smelt sooo good lol. All up I have calculated 33pts for the day ... could have been worse. I had 4pts saved and 2 bonus points saved so that leaves an extra of 5pts ... I can work that back over the next two days no probs ... so I guess it was a success ... yay!

Glad to hear Lynda had a great weekend away!! It's been so long since I went on a plane ... might be time to get those wings dusted off ... hehehe :) First things first tho ... get into our new home then think about something like that.

Talking about the big move next weekend, I'm feeling rather nervous at the moment. I have been fine with it all up until yesterday. Had a look through our new house (the one in Hamilton) yesterday and given that we have lived there before (about 8yrs ago) it's pretty bizarre. Still exactly the same (even some of the hooks we put up are still there) ... I guess I'm just sad that I will be there alone with the kids this time, without Bill. I'm going to miss him so badly!! Enough talk about that ... you're getting me all emotional now lol.

Just have to take it one day at a time and focus on the reward in the end (our newly built house). I am so relieved that Bill is living with an elderly aunt. I think she will take very good care of him for me ... much more than a flatmate would :)

The business work is all out of the way now ... finally I can concentrate on the house and packing. For today I have washing, washing and more washing on the agenda. I've got really behind lately. Catchup day ... then I can concentrate on packing Tues-Friday ... then clean on Saturday ... well that's the big plan.

My computer is 'supposed' to turn up today. Not getting my hopes up.

Well got tonnes to get on with ... catch ya later!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.1kg
GW 65kg

Mongrel Mob scare

Went for an hours walk this morning and ate well yesterday. Still feeling inspired and motivated.

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, banana 1pt, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - cereal bar 1.5pts
LUNCH - soup 1pt, bread 3pts
SNACK - 50g snakatas 3pts, Apple 0.5pts
DINNER - smoked chicken 2.5pts, pasta 2.5pts, milk 0.5pt, creamed corn 1pt, veges 0pts
SNACK - lite icecream 2pts, banana 1pt

Total ... 21.5pts/22pts
Saved ... 0.5pts
Total saved ... 3pts
Water ... 1 glass
Exercise ... none

On my way out for my walk this morning a car stopped with a big tattooed maori in it. He asked me who bought our house. And told him a lady from the city but that I didn't know her name. He said "you know the 'dogs' are moving in down here ay?" "The who?" I asked "The Mongrel Mob. They've just bought a house down here and one around the corner too". The lady that bought our house also bought one around the corner ... saying they were rentals. When she turned up I was surpised at the 'bommy' car she had considering she was so well off to buy investment properties, and when she looked through the property she didn't seem to really care about it, only taking a few minutes to have a quick look around. We were originally really surprised when she made an offer because of her lack of interest in it. But we shrugged it off. Now looking back on it things are starting to fit in place. The mongrel mob wouldn't come and look at a place to buy themselves they would send someone else in, because sellers wouldn't sell to someone if they knew they were tied in with a gang. Who better than a single white female? And a week after the offer was accepted a car load of maoris came and were looking very closely at the property. Originally I just thought they were potential tenants, but looking back on it now they were probably the buyers. Bill thinks I am crazy and that the guy was just probably trying to scare me. But as I said to him ... why would anyone do that? It doesn't scare me ... it makes me glad that we are moving out (even if they haven't bought our house but another in the street) But I'll be sad if our house has been sold to a gang... this was our first home and one we saved very hard for to get. I also feel sad for our neighbours over the back. This is a half site of theirs and they are a sweet elderly couple who are very nervous as to who their new neighbours are going to be. Parts of me wants to tell them so they have a chance to put their house on the market and sell to get out before the gang moves into the area and pulls the value of the houses down. But Bill reckons it will just give them a horrible scare and after all it may not be true. I don't really know what to do here... any suggestions??

The other thought I had was maybe they haven't infact bought but are renting here and have moved into this house as a tenant. Bill said that from what he has noticed of Mongrel Mob houses they don't usually buy but rent so they can trash it and move out again. Which makes sence too ... although still doesn't change the problem.

The other scary thing is that maybe they are moving into the area to 'spy' the suberb out for burglaries. Our new house is only 15mins walk down the road. Maybe I'm just getting paranoid for nothing. Not that there's alot we can do about it anyway... what do you think? Why would someone say that unless it was true?

Interesting ...

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.1kg
GW 65kg

Bring it on!!

I was a very good girl all day yesterday! :) I feel in control again. A friend at ww was saying how bizarre it is ... when we have a loss we get inspired to have a bigger loss the next week but when we have a gain it takes away all motivation to keep going... well for me anyhow.

I even managed to save a few points to spend this weekend.

Here it is ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, large banana 1.5pts
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
LUNCH - soup 1pt, bread 4pts
SNACK - rice cakes 2pts
DINNER - pasta noodles 5pts, stirfry sauce 2.5pts, meat 1pt, veges 0pts

Total 19.5pts/22pts
Saved ... 2.5pts
Total saved ... 2.5pts
Water ... 2 glasses
Exercise ... none


I have my last set of stationery due out today before we move. Then I should have the whole week next week to pack. I finally feel like I'm catching up on everything. Huge sence of relief!

Remember how I said it was mum's birthday yesterday? And you guys know I remembered right? I even remembered during the day and tried ringing mum but no one was home. Then I remembered again at 9.45pm last night but knew it was too late to ring then (they go to bed early). So first thing this morning I rang her to wish her happy birthday. She made such a big deal about the fact that I was the only one in the family that FORGOT!! I didn't forget!! I tried to tell her this but the more I tried to explain the more she made me feel like shit for 'forgetting' ... even tho I know I didn't forget!! Damn I hate the way she makes me feel at times!!! Oh well .... seems I just can't win with her and doomed to be the 'useless' one of the family.

But I'm not letting her get to me today!! I am in such an inspired mood and no mother is going to take that away from me.

I'm in for another good day of tracking and eating well!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.1kg
GW 65kg

yeah, yeah I know!! lol

OK I'M A DICK!!! I know lol ... All that worry and stress for nothing :)

I had a 100g loss!! at weighin last night. Over the moon :) Big thankyou to Kate for your wise and kind comment below. Her along with the people from SFL forum all made me put my stresses in perspective and helped me get back on track motivation wise. I don't know why I get like that at times ... after everything I have achieved. I have to focus less on what the scales say each week and focus more on the huge achievements I have made already.

Here's the pointers I'm going to use this week to help me stay focused and motivated ...

1. Get out my tracker!!! And track, track, track!
2. Get out the camera and TAKE THOSE PHOTOS!!
3. Reward myself (the last two mini goals I never actual got for myself)
4. Take up a new sport/exercise (after the half marathon finishing I just felt at a loss with a 'now what' feeling.
5. Not punish myself so much with not drinking my water. Take my goal down from 6 glasses to 3 glasses per day during winter. Then at least I am drinking something instead of nothing.

Hopefully with these few things I can get my motivation back. I feel it already starting to build today.

Congrats to Leigh!!!! Wonderful loss girl!! I'm so proud of you and you have been a big help this week in getting me back on track too ... THANKYOU!! :)

I have my last week at my current ww meeting next week. So nice to know I'm really going to be missed. My leader said that when I come back in February I will have a job waiting for me ... YAY!! (I'm a weigher there) I just have to hope I can get something similar in Hamilton to help pay for the meetings there. I have a mini goal I have set for myself that I want to be at my ww goal weight of 71kg by the time I return to Auckland in February. That's 12.9kg to go in 24wks ... very do-able but a challenge all the same :)

There is a lady and her daughter I have got to know at my ww meeting. The daughter is a little younger than me (early 20's) And they are both doing really well!! The mother asked me last night if I was moving to Wattle Cove as they are also moving there at the end of September. Where abouts? I asked ... Ummm ... Ashkirk Place ... OMG!! That's where we are building too!! Turns out they are 2 doors down on the same side of the road as us!!! How cool is that??? Means I already know someone in the same street as us!! And out of all the possible people moving next to us I couldn't have chosen anyone nicer!! Yay!!

As I told you yesterday it was Bill's 30th birthday yesterday. I had put a roast in the oven (healthy one) before I left for ww. And told him it would be ready to eat at 5pm. When I got home from ww at 7.45pm the kids were in bed, the house was immaculate, and there our dinner was on the table set for two including candles and a bottle of wine!! Awww he is just so precious!! He had cleaned the house, got the kids in bed and set the table for us by the time I got home ... AND IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY NOT MINE LOL. So we sat down to eat our dinner in wonderful surroundings, then he pulled out some sushi and lunchpack seafood after dinner (my alltime favourite!) What a darling!! So we sat and watched Australian Idol eating sushi and sipping on wine :)

I then told him about his birthday present ... an all expenses paid weekend deepsea fishing off Great Barrier Island. He was over the moon!! I did the right thing ... yay!! I told him that it wasn't until March next year and that we would pay for it after we had saved this extra $17,000. He was very happy with that as it meant there was no extra pressure financially and it was exactly what he wanted. I'm actually going to try and pay for it with the business funds ...hopefully :)

Mum's 60th birthday today. We have a party to go to for her on Sunday at a Karapiro Boat Shed Cafe. Sounds really nice and a surprise for her (as she also didn't want anything done for it). Think I might save up a few points each day for this.

All us 4 kids have gone together and shouted her and dad to a weekend away to Hotel du Vin in Hunua just south of Auckland. It's an elite hotel with a golf course, vineyards, restaurant and parklike settings. Their voucher includes Breakfast, lunch and dinner as well as their room. Hope she likes it :)

My computer didn't turn up on Monday, Tuesday or yesterday ... grrrrrrr :( ... will get back onto them today!! They are so slack!!

Start of a new day today and feeling very good about it!!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.1kg
GW 65kg

Warning: Bad vibes below

Not much to update with today... not feeling the best. I know my weigh in results tonight are not going to be good. I haven't had any blowouts this week, but have been a few points over everyday. I've totally lost it!! Can't figure out why or what I need to do to get back into it again. It's just not happening, as much as I want it to.

Figure it's something to do with stresses round here at the moment with packing and trying to organise everything for the shift. Not coping very well :(

It's Bill's birthday today ... he's the big 30! And he doesn't want me to do anything for it, doesnt even want a birthday present. I feel guilty if I get one for him as we can't afford it, and guilty if I don't ... who doesn't celebrate their 30th without even a pressie???

Not going to bore you with the rest of my worries... sorry to be so depressive.

I'll update later tonight with the bad weighin news.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.2kg (enjoy it while it lasts)
GW 65kg

Where has the time gone??

Had a wonderful weekend with Bill home all weekend!! Made a nice change :) Went grocery shopping yesterday morning to finally stock up my empty pantry. Made the mistake of shopping on an empty stomach and probably bought a little too much! lol

Treated ourselves to smoked chicken and apricot pizzas for lunch ...YUMM!! Although probably pretty high in points. But the problem was it was too rich for my tummy so paid for it for the rest of the afternoon/evening. Once upon a time I used to be able to eat anything, now things that are too fatty or rich my stomach just can't handle.

We are shifting in just under 2wks!!! Packing has not really happened yet. I've done all the ornaments and things we don't use, the kitchen bowls/appliances I don't use often and all the crockery bar 5 or 6 of each. I'm still trying to get all my work out of the way so I can get into packing a little more furotiously, but the work still piles in, there just doesn't seem to be an end in sight yet.

Next weekend is taken up with Mum's 60th birthday surprise party in Hamilton, then we shift the next weekend after that. Where has all the time gone? Time's fast running out!!

Went out to Waiuku to Bill's aunty's yesterday afternoon. She's the lady that's offered board for Bill during the week. It's 30mins travel from her place to Bill's work, so not too bad. She seems really nice and I think it will workout well.

I didn't track yesterday, just got too busy and then after I had eaten the pizza (only 2 pieces) didn't want to know what the points were lol.

Can't remember if I told you before this or not, but the carpet we have chosen, we got a sample of it the other day and it's not the same colour we remembered choosing. It's really grey, not dark blue like we thought. I'm feeling a little uneasy about it. I have nothing against grey, but our walls are fawn and burgandy brown with creme trim. Blue would have matched much better. I think we can still change it but I don't remember anything that was closer in colour. The only other blue they had was a real bright blue and we don't want that. We wanted a real dark midnight blue. I'm going to go down to the builder's office and take a look again. I was saying to Bill yesterday that if a client of mine was as picky as me I would be pulling my hair out by now. I must be a terrible client for them lol. I guess with working with colours/design all day makes me picky. I want to get it exactly right. My perfectionism coming out I guess. Frustrating for them I know, but I need to be sure.

Not much else happening (not that I need anything else to happen lol)

Lyn :)

Boring day ... oh so nice!! :)

I spent yesterday afternoon and evening doing not much and it was soooo nice :) After the few stressful days before.

Not much happening today either. Might have my cousin and his wife stop in for a coffee sometime today, but that's about it. Bill is working till late tonight. Spent the morning catching up on some housework that has been ignored the last week.

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - Cereal 2pts, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt, lollies 0.5pt
LUNCH - Apple 0.5pt
DINNER - Pasta 5pts, cheese 6pts, milk 2pts, flour 0.5pt, oil 0.5pt, veges 0pts
DRINKS - wine 5.5pts

Total ... 23.5pts/22pts
Saved ... -1.5pts
Total saved ... 3pts
Water ... none
Exercise ... none

Not doing very well in the water and exercise department at the moment. Just so hard when it's wet, cold and being so busy with work. If it was just me I would go out no matter what the weather but with having kids I just can't.

Gonna get into some more packing today so maybe that might earn me some bonus points.

Great to hear Jo has sold her house already. Her settlement date is exactly the same as ours ... 29th August ... how bizarre is that?? Although we actually move out a few days before on the 24th August, because that is the only day we can get the truck.

Thanks to everyone for the wonderful encouragements with my half marathon and weight loss this week! It really helps keep the spirits up and motivate me to keep plodding on. *Hugs all round!!*

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.2kg
GW 65kg

New Computer :))

I finally got that set of stationery finished today ... wow what a big job!! It's a triange set that folds from a circle ... hard to explain on here, but a real stunner when it's finished. And an original shape that I came up with myself. The only problem being there is a lot of hand cutting (all the circles) to be done. And this one was 70 invites, envelopes, rsvp cards, and rsvp envelopes. Just glad it's all finished and on the courier to the client!

Still got another 2 sets to have out before we shift on the 24th August. Taking a breather this afternoon before I get onto the next set tommorow.

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 3pts, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - Cereal bar 2pts
LUNCH - Apple 0.5pt
SNACK - lollies (whoops) 2pts
DINNER - pasta 2.5pts, sachet 1pt, chicken 4pts, veges 0pts

Total ... 15.5pts/22pts
Saved ... 4pts
Total saved ... 4.5pts
Water ... 3 glasses
Exercise ... none (too busy)
Total bonus points ... none

I get my new computer on Monday ... yay!! The current one I use has 128MB RAM and 4GB Hard drive. And my new one has 1024MB RAM and 40GB Hard drive!! Wahooo!! I won't know myself! Can't wait. As it is now I keep running out of hard drive space so I can only run one program at a time and even then it keeps crashing on me. I also get a new Epson A3 2880dpi printer!! Wahooo!! and a new Epson scanner. Like all my christmas's at once :)

I'm going with Windows 2000 instead of Windows XP on the new machine. I have heard so many bad stories about the XP version. And I've been told all my graphic programs won't work on it unless I upgrade them all (which would cost around $2000!) So hoping Windows 2000 will be better ... fingers crossed.

I'm refusing to pay the $112 per hour they charge to install it all for me so with the help of my sister (who works with computers) we are going to try doing it ourselves (scrooge huh? lol) So there may be a few hiccups along the way, hense I may not be here on Monday.

Off to read everyone's journals now...
Take care everyone!
Lyn :)

SW 107.4kg
CW 84.2kg
GW 65kg

Very happy with myself :)

Yay 1.1kg loss ... I was secretly hoping for 1kg but didn't want to jinx myself by writing it here yesterday. 1.1kg is fantastic :))

Got a lot of work done yesterday so feeling heaps better today. Still got the set of stationery to get out but all the little things got done.

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal bar 2.5pts
SNACK - cereal bar 2.5pts
LUNCH - cereal bar 2.5pts (I know, I know lol)
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
DINNER - chicken 3pts, 2min noodles 7pts, veges 0pts
SNACK - milk 2pts, nesquik 1.5pts

Total ... 21.5pts/22pts

Clean slate again today :)
Just gotta get this job out and I'll be stressfree (well nearly)

Congrats Jo on losing 50kg!! What an achievement!! Impressive Girl!!

Last night I worked out I have under 20kg to go now ... only 19.2kg to get to my personal goal ... and only 13.2kg to get to my ww goal. That sounds so close to me. I've set up a mini goal to get to my ww goal by the time we move into our new house in February. Its about 25wks away so should definately be achieveable. My original goal date was 1 July 2004, but this is getting beyond a joke lol. I think I may need to reassess my goal dates and make them a little harder to achieve. These goal dates were set on losing 500g per week but I'm losing on average nearer 700g per week. But on the other hand I know it gets harder to lose the nearer I get to goal so I don't want to set myself up for failure. Something to think about I guess.

I really need to get out to do the shopping again (that's the reason I had 3 cereal bars yesterday ... the only thing left in the cupboards lol) But shopping is not going to happen today ... just too busy... maybe tomorrow.

Till then,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 84.2kg
GW 65kg

Hoping for a good loss tonight

Can't believe I just wrote a whole entry (and a long one too) and lost it all!! Grrrr ... Can't complain tho ... this is a first since using this diary program.

Firstly ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNDA!!! Sorry I missed it on the actual day ... hope you had lots of fun!

Eating for yesterday went pretty good I think...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - ww muffin 2.5pts
LUNCH - 2x ww muffins 5pts
SNACK - cheese 1pt, 3 lollies 1.5pts
DINNER - pasta 2.5pts, veges 0pts, roasted capsicums 1pt, butter 0.5pt
SNACK - lite icecream 2pts, cream 1.5pts, waffles 1.5pts, flake 0.5pt

Total ... 21.5pts/22pts
Saved 0.5pt
Total saved ... 6.5pts
Exercise ... none
Total bonus points 20pts

Feeling a little stressed today ... due to a couple of things ...

1. A stationery set due out yesterday didn't get finished
2. A sample due out yesterday didn't get finished
3. A house load of packing hasn't started yet
4. Bill is endeavoring to give up drinking at the moment so he is really grumpy!!
5. When we move to Hamilton he will be boarding in Waiuku during the week so he will be alone while trying to give up drinking ... not a good way to do it! And we can't afford the extra money for beer while trying to save $17,000

They laid our concrete slab yesterday so the countdown begins ... 24wks till our house is finished and 24wks till we need $17,000 more!! lol ... Excited and nervous at the same time.

Expecting good results from weigh in tonight due to my bowel empty out at the start of the week (sorry to bring up the gory details again lol) and with the 14 extra bonus points I earnt on the weekend. Really looking forward to it!!

I think that's about it for today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 85.3kg
GW 65kg

Half Marathon .. 21,100 meters!!

I finally realise how far a half marathon actually is!! :)

We got to Taupo on Saturday around lunchtime and made our way to the house a group of us had rented for the night. Was a really great idea to rent a private home. For the seven of us that stayed there it worked out to $15 a night for each of us for a whole 3 bedroom house to ourselves. We spent the afternoon relaxing, chatting and then went out to the warehouse to pick up a few things. I was on strict orders from Bill to get me some new pants as my once tight size 18 pants were started to sag on me :) My friend Hayley came with me and was picking out some pants for me to try. I told her to only get size 16 ones. I didnt want to get too depressed trying on anything smaller to find them too tight. One pair looked really good on... a pair of pinstriped black butt hugging ones :) Hayley asked what size they were. I told her size 16, I presumed, given that the hanger said that. She smuggly smiled and said "No, I tricked you. I put a pair of 14s on a 16 hanger so you would try them on!" What a wonderful surpise! How cool is that?? lol. They fitted perfetly!! So of course I had to buy them!! Wahoo size 14!!! When I started WW in January I was a size 22-24. That started the weekend off to a great start!!

That night we had chinese and I filled my plate with lots of steamed rice... lower in points and giving me lots of carbos for the big walk the next day.

Woke up nice and early, rearing to go. My diareah had stopped on Friday and I was feeling 100% well again. On registration I won a spot prize... $10 gift voucher from Paper Plus!! Wahoo :)

The gun went off and the runners took off ... Bill included! He was running it with a pushchair (and Jese inside) ... crazy man but proud of him all the same!

Then it was our turn to get to the start mark. There were 3 of us walking together ... me, Hailey and my cousin Sandra. The starter went and we were off. I was a bit nervous about the speed at which the other two were going to be walking. We wanted to keep together but hadn't trained with either of them so didnt know whether we would be able to stick together. Unfortunately Hailey got seperated at the start from us among the other 3400 people. Sandra and I stuck together like glue and it really helped!! At times when I would have naturally slowed she kept me going faster. And vice versa.

I was really enjoying the scenery until the 15km mark... then it started to hit me!! Wow, what was I doing?? lol ... this was really getting hard, I was tired, my feet were starting to get blisters and my hips were giving out. Having Sandra there gave me someone to vent out my struggles and keep me focused. And hopefully I did the same for her :) We kept eachother going... one foot infront of the other. 17km mark came up and it felt like we had been far more than just another 2kms!! Then we rounded the corner of what I thought was the end and saw a series of bays reaching into the distance ... and a train of people as far as I could see!! We were far from the end!!! A gut renching sight!! I must have looked like I was in pain as people started asking me if my feet were ok. I was in pain but I was determined to make it to the end!! I started imagining my legs were pendulums swinging with ease. This really helped! One foot infront of the other ... one step at a time we would make it to the end. It was far more of a mental challenge than I had expected. I had to tell myself "I will do this ... we will make it to the end, just keep going". Both Sandra and I had a fear of coming in last so we were continually checking behind us to see how many there were. But we were fine ... there was a huge sea of people behind as well :)

Sandra saw a kids feeder on the ground and jokingly asked if it was Jese's ... I laughed and we carried on ... then 20mtrs on or so I realised it could actually be his. "Was it striped?" I asked her ... "yep" So I turned around and ran back dodging the crowds. Sure enough it was his ... that was inspiration in itself ... to know that Bill and Jese had been before me and were waiting for me at the finish. I hung onto that feeder so tight!!

Then I got to the '1km to go' sign ... wow we were nearly there!! But 1km is such a long way!! lol ... I focused on counting my steps. A quick calculation working out I had around 1400 steps to go... sounded alot but gave me something to concentrate on. After rounding the final corner I immediately lost count when I saw what was infront of us... A HUGE HILL!!! How could they do that to us?? lol There was a sign at the bottom "What a bitch of a hill" lol And ohhh so true!! Half way up the hill I became quite lightheaded but determination took over ... nothing was going to stop me getting to that finish line!! Sandra and I looked at eachother and no words were said but we both knew what eachother was thinking. As we neared the end crowds of people were standing behind the barriers clapping for everyone coming in. And among the noise I heard "Gooo Lynette!!" It was my wonderful Bill!! Water filled my eyes ... A very proud moment in my life!!! As we looked up to the finish mark we saw 3hrs 29mins 54 secs ... A sudden burst of energy to get me there before 3.5hrs. We did it!!!! We made the the 21.1kms!! And I was still alive!! Sandra and I looked at eachother when we crossed that line both with welled up tears in our eyes and gave eachother a big hi-5!! Each person got presented with a medal as they crossed the finishline. And I wore that medal for the rest of the day with such pride!!

Collapsing onto the grass I peeled off my shoes and socks to reveal my wounds lol. 2 big blisters on one foot but better than expected. The other funny thing ... during the walk my hands had swelled up so much my rings were cutting off my circulation in my fingers. Lucky Sandra had a pocket to put them in. I would have never thought to take them off beforehand.

Bill did extremelly well also at 2hrs30mins ... with a pushchair! And of course my skinny fit brother did it in 1hr15mins!!! Way to go Richard!!

This achievement is right up there with giving birth to 4 kids. Almost as hard (not quite :) ... one that I can live to tell my grandkids about!!

We then headed home to mum's for a nice hot bath!!

Yesterday Bill and I spent the day just relaxing at home. Both very stiff and sore but a good feeling knowing why. We even headed out for a walk in the afternoon... nothing too strenuous lol.

Today I'm feeling pretty good. My blisters have gone down and my thighs are only mildly stiff. Should be all gone by tomorrow.

A very proud moment!!! I'll have pics up in the next day or so and I'll scan in my medal for you all to see :)

Lyn :) :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 85.3kg
GW 65kg

I DID IT!!

I think I did really well with my eating and TRACKING yesterday!! Yay me! I even managed to get in 3 glasses of water :)

Only problem was I spent half the night up with stomach cramps for some strange reason and been running to the loo all morning (sorry for the gory details). I've obviously eaten something that didn't agree with me. The scary part about that is I have absolutely no energy today and I have a half marathon to do on Sunday!!! I've paid $100 bux to do this and done a lot of training over the last 6mths, not to mention the accommodation already booked and friends who are relying on me being there. Don't want to pike out now! I just hope this thing goes away today and I feel a whole lot better tommorow. Real bad timing!!

Here's my eating for yesterday ... (wahoo I did it!!)

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - cereal bar 1.5pts
LUNCH - bread 4pts, veges 0pts, beetroot 1pt
SNACK - fruit topper 1.5pts
DINNER - steamed fish 2pts, veges 0pts, potato/kumera 2pts, oil 1pt, white sauce 1pt
SNACK - hot chocolate 0.5pt, lite cream 1pt, 25g lite icecream 0.5pt

Total ... 18pts/22pts
Saved ... 4pts
Total saved ... 4pts
Water ... 3 glasses
Exercise ... none

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 85.3kg
GW 65kg