Onwards and Downwards

UPDATE
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Yes you read correctly ... 1.1kg loss!!! wahoo!! ... this means two things this week ...

1. I have now officially lost over 5 stone total!

2. I'm now over 3 quarters of the way to my personal goal of 65kg!

I'm really starting to feel slim this week. I still have a long way to go on my hips, tummy and thighs but I really can see the improvement. It's so true that your minds image of yourself takes much longer to catch up than your actual image.

For me this was true when I got fat too ... I still thought I was slim for a long time until I saw some recent photos. And even then I thought that there was something wrong with the camera ... that it was showing me as far fatter than I really was ... lol

And now that I have lost weight I am only just starting to feel it. I've felt the positive effects for a while but actually starting to KNOW that I am slimmer has been a long time coming.

My weight watchers leader asked me if I wanted to enter Slimmer of the Year competition tonight. I'm flattered that she thought of me. But I said no... for this years entry anyway. I would have to be at my ww goal by May and have done a 6wk maintenance by then. Just too tight for my liking. If I didn't make it in time I would feel like an utter failure instead of focusing on all the weight I have lost I would focus on the missing out on getting to goal on time. But I told her definately next year I will try. And by that stage I would have been at goal for 8 or 9mths or so... far more impressive for the judges. It will also give me something to go for once I get to goal ... setting the promise to myself that I have to stay slim to go for that.

It reminds me of a story (ohhh nooo you say lol) ...

When I got to goal the first time 10yrs ago with Jenny Craig, I was asked if I wanted to try for an advertising campaign. So I went through all the interviews etc competing against over a hundred other new slimmers. A few months went by and I heard nothing. In that time I went to the States for a 2mth trip. While I was over there I tracked religously, watched what I ate, swam in motel pools when I could, did as much walking as I could. But the American food was just soooo fattening that I couldn't do anything about the kilos I was packing on. (I seriously don't know how they lose weight over there). When I returned to NZ I got a phone call to say I had been chosen to appear on a Jenny Craig ad. I was to fly out to Australia in two days to start filming. My first thought was of exhiloration and excitement ... then a few moments later I realised that I couldn't do it... I had put on 6kg while I was in the US. Although I had previously lost 40kg they couldn't use me in advertisement if in 2mths after getting to goal I had put back on 6kg. I was gutted!!

And to some degree I am still dealing with feelings of fear when it comes to maintenance. I know I can lose weight ... I've done it before ... but to keep it off ... that's what I'm scared of. I'm fine if I have something to go for ... some goal to achieve. But I'm scared that when I don't see the scales dropping down I will lose motivation. Guess I will have to cross that bridge when I get to it.

For now I'm going to focus on my fantastic achievement tonight!! Yay!! Onwards and downwards I say!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 75.2kg
GW 65kg

good vs evil

Haven't heard anything from Fair Go yet. Cherie from Farmers is ringing on Thursday to find out what we want to do. Whether we want to go choose new stuff or get a refund on everything so hopefully Fair Go will contact us before then.

I didn't go out walking yesterday as planned. I didn't manage to get Jese down for a morning sleep so when Jordan went to kindy in the afternoon all I wanted to do was get Jese home to bed ... not waste time walking. Looking back on it I was just making excuses. Thought I was being realistic at the time lol.

Then when Bill didn't turn up at his usual hometime I was really annoyed and told myself "Great!! Can't go to the gym now either". But really there was no reason I couldn't go to the gym. He arrived home around 6pm and the gym didn't close till 7.50pm so there was still plenty of time. I was having major head issues for a few minutes. Telling myself I needed to go or I wouldn't forgive myself the next day, then switching over to say nahhh I've done enough exercise... lol. In the end I gave myself a slap on the hand and told myself to get my butt in that car and GO!! So with my tail between my legs I did as I was told.

And of course I was sooo glad I did. Felt great being there literally working that butt off!! It was a really hard workout and some of the ruitines I struggled to finish ... but I did it ... challenged myself to finish them!! Would much rather it be challenging than too easy and boring.

By the time I got home, showered, put the rubbish out and sat down for dinner it was 9pm ... so I was starving by that time ... but was soo worth it!

Stuck to my points exactly yesterday. I am really pumping at the moment!! Haven't been this motivated since way back when I started a year ago! I think it was the photos that Lynda took that did it for me. I saw I was actually getting somewhere. It's funny how we can look in the mirror every morning but not see the true image of what we look like until we see photos of ourselves. Wonder why that is? I'm really bad at taking photos ... still have a fear of the camera ... gotta get over that one! With time I guess I will come right.

Had a sneak preview on the gym scales last night ... and I'm not going to tell you what it said but put it this way ... IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO WEIGHIN TONIGHT!! If the ww scales are anywhere near what the gym ones are then the Wendie Plan is a proven winner for me! Considering on Saturday I had a 32pt day (planned) yet to have a loss ... wow!

There are positives and negatives to it tho. You have to be really strict on yourself. If you have your ultra hi point day and not the low ones then you will gain and if you don't have your high point day and only your low point ones you will slow your motabolism down too much. So it's a very fine balance. But if you can do it ... it's definately worth the effort. The positive is that you can plan on using your ultra high point day for a day you would normally struggle on. For me that is Saturdays when Bill is home. Means I can have a few drinks (and maybe a few more, lol) and still lose weight!

I've had some really cool comments from you guys the last couple of days!! Thankyou soooo much!! It honestly helps me soo much! I said to Bill yesterday morning that I never realised how much motivation this website would give me. It is truelly the reason I have come this far!! You guys are so supportive of me and it's fantastic!!! THANKYOU!!!

Here's my eating for yesterday ...

Tuesday 9th March

Breakfast - 2pts
Tasti cereal 1.5pts
Skim milk 0.5pt

Snack - 0.5pt
Apple 0.5pt

Lunch - 2.5pts
bread 2pts
tomato 0pt
dressing 0.5pt

Snack - 0.5pt
Apple 0.5pt

Dinner - 12.5pts
boneless/skinless chicken 3pts
1.5c rice 6pts
veges 0pts
satay sauce 1.5pts
cashew nuts 2pts

Total Points used - 18pts
Allocated points - 18pts
Water - 1000mls
Exercise - 1hr15min gym workout
Bonus Points - 8pts
Total Bonus Points - 21pts
Points saved - 0pts
Total saved - 3.5pts

That's enough ramble from me today. Looks like the smilies are staying.

Catcha!
Lyn
SW 107.4kg
CW 76.3kg (weigh in tonight)
GW 65kg

My Boring Life ... NOT!

Wow for a lady who stays at home with 4 kids I have a pretty interesting life! Wanna hear another saga??

You know our furniture we were getting from Farmers that still hasn't arrived? ... well we got a call from the sales lady last night to say that 4 out of the 10 items we ordered have now been deleted and are no longer available!! Can you believe it? We ordered them over 4mths ago, paid a deposit, had them put aside on hold now they misteriously can't find them and can't supply us with them. That was the final straw for us ... we have now emailed Fair Go and see what they can do for us. It's gone beyond a joke. I'll keep you posted as to what Fair Go will do.

I had an incident a few years back with a parking ticket that wasn't mine. They were trying to make me go to court for it (to pay a fine for around $200 odd dollars) Even tho I could prove it wasn't my car they wouldn't listen to me. But after one call to Fair Go and a few hours later it was sorted. It was never used on tv but showed even their telephone calls have amazing power. I had spent weeks and weeks trying to sort it and absolutely no one would listen to me... gooo Fair Go! Hopefully they will have the same power in this incident.

My walking idea worked great yesterday. Will do it again today. Took me half an hour each way so a total of 1hrs walk and 4 bonus points.

I didn't use all my points yesterday. Makes up for the extra points I used the other day.

Bill told me this morning that I feel amazing!! That he's so proud of me with all my weightloss. Awww he's a sweety!

Not sure if the smiley faces are too distracting or not. Thought I would make my diary a bit more fun to read. Let me know below if they're annoying or if you like them. If too many people don't then I will take them off.

Should be able to get to the gym tonight. It's been over a week since I last went but Bill has been doing huge hours at work and I just haven't been able to get there. The walking has been fine but don't want to leave it too long before I get back there. Hopefully tonight.

My eating for yesterday ...

Monday 8th March

Breakfast - 2pts
Tasti cereal 1.5pts
Skim milk 0.5pt

Lunch - 2.5pts
bread 2pts
tomato 0pt
dressing 0.5pt

Snack - 0.5pts
Apple 0.5pt

Dinner - 10pts
pizza base 4.5pts
tomato paste 0pt
veges 0pt
kumera/potato 1pt
cheese 4.5pts

Snack - 2.5pts
half mars bar 2.5pts

Total Points used - 17.5pts
Allocated points - 21pts
Water - 1500mls
Exercise - 60mins walking
Bonus Points - 4pts
Total Bonus Points - 13pts
Points saved - 3.5pts
Total saved - 3.5pts

That's all from me today ... weigh in tomorrow. Feeling good about this one.
Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 76.3kg
GW 65kg

neighbours ... ohhh boy!! :)

Had my first run in with a freak neighbour!! lol

We were standing outside talking with 2 of our neighbours, chatting about how the house prices had gone up in our street with a house down the end of the street selling for $450,000 when we all paid a lot less than that to build our houses. And this was the conversation that followed ... (I can't stop laughing about it now to think that someone would be so bluntly insecure) ...

Neighbour ... "we paid far less than that ... $354,000 to be exact. What did you pay?"
Me ..."well yes we paid less too ... $342,000"
N ... "oh of course but yours is far smaller than OURS"
M ... "Yes it's slightly smaller by about 10sqmtrs"
N ... "And yours has less bedrooms than ours"
M ..."Well actually no, it has the same but yes it is smaller"
N ..."No ... yours only has 4 bedrooms where ours has 4 plus a loft"
M ... "hmmm ... ours has 4 bedrooms and a loft too, but yours does have an extra bathroom than ours"
N ..."No! Yours isnt a loft, it's a parent's retreat, ours has an actual loft! But yes youre right ours DOES have an extra bathroom!"
(whatever the hell the difference is between a parents retreat and a loft I don't know lol... they look exactly the same but ohhh well ... she wins ... I don't really care, I like our house lol)

OMG I could NOT believe someone could be so insecure about comparing their house to someone elses lol. It sounded like something you would hear in a 6yr old's playground not from a 50yr old... "my daddys stronger than your daddy ... naanana naa naaa"

I came home and told Bill about it and he couldn't believe it either! lol, she obviously needs a few more cuddles in her life.

I did really well sticking to my points yesterday that was until Bill brought a bottle of wine home ... hmmm ..... didn't do quite as well at resisting last night. Went over a couple of points in the day but I'm really not worried given the bonus points I'd earnt the previous day.

Eating for yesterday ...

Sunday 7th March

Breakfast - 2pts
Tasti cereal 1.5pts
Skim milk 0.5pt

Snack - 1pt
rice wheels 1pt

Lunch - 2.5pts
cup a soup 2.5pts

Snack - 5pts
5 glasses wine 5pts

Dinner - 7pts
macdonald foldover 5.5pts
small handful chips 1.5pts

Total Points used - 17.5pts
Allocated points - 15pts
Water - 750mls
Exercise - nil
Bonus Points - minus 2.5pts
Total Bonus Points - 9pts
Points saved - 0pts
Total saved - 0pts

I made the mistake of playing around with my website while under the influence of alcohol last night and made changes that I can't take back now ... whooops lol. Oh well, don't like it as much as I used to but would take too much work to get it back how it was before. Remind me next time not to do that! lol

Thought of a brain wave how I can get more walking in. Jordan goes to kindy 3 afternoons a week. I wanted to walk him there and back with Jese in the pushchair but didn't think Jordan could cope with the distance (or the speed). And suddenly I clicked today (takes me a while sometimes lol) that I could go up to kindy in the car, drop him off to kindy then walk home with Jese in the pushchair, leaving the car there. And then later in the day walk up to kindy to pick him up and drive home. That way he's not doing any walking and I am. And I get a walk back and a walk up again ... great!! Not quite sure how I will work Jese's sleeps around that one given he usually sleeps while Jordan's at kindy ... but I'm sure I'll work something out.

Suddenly got a whole lot of business work to get onto again... just the tail ends but it seems to all come at once. Wish I could click my fingers and it would all be done... guess I'm not a genie... bummer!

Catcha!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 76.3kg
GW 65kg