sad day for new zealand

Well my car finally left today ... so a sad day in that respect. I almost had a cry (but was able to contain myself)
I have been doing paperwork all day today (end of year tax and gst returns). What a depressing job ... If you made a loss ... that sucks ... if you made a profit ... you have to pay a big tax bill ... lose, lose situation. It's the part of the business that I hate (with a passion)
Went to the gym at 6am this morning. Jese woke up at 5am so that was a good alarm clock, otherwise I probably would have slept through.
Off to weigh in tonight ... yay!! I had my kitchen scales out this morning weighing my clothes, how silly is that. Please tell me I'm not the only person that does this?? I usually weigh in in the same clothes each week, but the top I usually wear is way too cold for winter coming on here. So I have changed it for another top but wanted to check it wasn't too heavy to give me a false gain (lol) It is only 30g heavier so shouldnt effect the scales too much :)
My rings are feeling lose today so hopefully that means a loss. I have noticed my size 18 pants I bought a week or so ago are getting lose already. I had to suck my tummy in to do them up in the fitting room when I bought them :)
Sad day for new zealand here... Possum Bourn died this morning after they turned off his life support. He was a famous nz rally driver... the best in the southern hemisphere. 12 days ago he had a head on car accident and has been in a coma ever since. They made the decision to turn off life support last night and this morning he passed away. Really sad - my thoughts go out to his family. A nz hero that will be missed!
Will be back tomorrow with weigh in results
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

boring day

Not much happening around here today. I have two consultations on so busy workwise but I wont bore you with the details of that! lol
The gym workout last night was fantastic. I was able to do jumps and running without and movement from the waist up (dem stuck like concrete boobs I mean) It worked perfectly! I still haven't got up to doing high impact the whole class so I guess that will be my next goal. At the moment I do 50% high impact 50 low impact. Always good to have something to work on.
My car is finally leaving today :( It's amazing how I subconsously forget I dont have my own car anymore. I thought to myself I will go to the gym during the day today with the older two kids back at school. But forgot I have no way to get there. I'm not up to getting two preschoolers onto the bus yet.
And I have a consultation on tonight so wont be able to go then either. Life is so busy, trying to fit things in is a real struggle.
Food and water has been good so far (but it's only 11.30am so have a long way to go yet) I feel motivated still to keep plodding on.
Not much else to update about. Weigh in tomorrow night.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

my old bra finally gets to RIP

Chino did really well in his cat show. He placed 5th Best Cat in Show in ring 1 and 4th Best Cat in Show in ring 2. Not quite the same standard as Best Kitten in Show as the last time but this time it was Burmese cats only so the competition was alot tougher. A really good result!! And he was so well behaved, just sat on the table while the judge examined him. The judge made a comment that "this cat has obviously is used to this and been in shows alot by his placid nature". lol This was only his second show ever!
My eating was a bit of a disaster yesterday. Started off okay with breakfast and morning tea (toast, and snack bar) then I decided to go to the supermarket round the corner for lunch. I didnt have a points calculator on me and chose a packet of rice chips & humus dip and a filled roll. The filled roll was stale and had an aphid on the lettuce!! so I threw half of that out. Then ate the rice chips and dip. When I got home I calculated the points at being 10pts!!!!! ouch!!! The dip was 98% fat free so figured it would be low. Both things were around 500kj. I shared some with Bill so put them down at 8pts. Then mum dished up Chicken Cordon Bleu for dinner. She wanted to have pizza with it but I talked her into having potatoes and steamed veges. I have no idea what to count the chicken as. There was no nutritional label. Guessed it at 6pts. So all up for the day was 27pts! (4pts over) I had a few saved up so I came out ok. But heres a lesson for ya... you know when you overeat, whether it was your fault or not, and you really dont want to write the points down because you feel so guilty? I was like this yesterday. When I got home and actually worked it all out I realised I wasnt as bad as I had thought. Imagine if I hadnt written it down ... I would have gone on the rest of my week feeling bad and probably stumbling with food because I had already blown it. Goes to show ... YOU HAVE TO WRITE IT ALL DOWN!!!
Babysitting was a nightmare!! (as I had expected) I couldn't get Jese to sleep till 9.30pm. Normally at home I put him in his bed, shut the door and in 2mins he's asleep but because he wasnt in his own bed and he had to be in the lounge with me there was no way he was going to settle! And then each of the kids in turn came out to complain about someone else who wasnt sleeping!!!!! I was getting so mad by the end of the night! At 9.30pm I finally had everyone asleep (well at least silent) and then the parents turned up just before 10pm. Wow what a looooong night!!
Went into get a new bra this morning ... my old one was falling to pieces and I was outshrinking it :) The lady in the store asked me what size I used to be after I told her I had lost weight and wanted to be refitted. I told her 18DD (I was actually a 22E but was too embarrased to tell her that) at which she replied ... wow you must have lost a lot of weight then). Then after she measured me up she informed me "you are now an 18DD" How embarrasing! lol She mentioned that different bras were different in sizes but I still felt silly lol. I am still embarrased at the fact that I used to be a 22E, hoping that will change when I get to goal. I want to be able to shout it from the roof tops (so to speak) "I used to be a 22E"
My bra actually ended up being a 16DD!! Did you hear that? 16DD!! wahoo!!!! That has two parts of good news ... the size 16 means I have shrunk 3 sizes and the DD means that I still have boobs!!!
When I came to pay for them the lady had the matching briefs on the counter so thought what the heck Ill try em on. Get this ... the Large was too big!!! had to take the Mediums!!! Wahooo!!
I also got a sports bra ... to stop myself getting knocked out when I go to the gym. My old one was so bad that I couldnt do any running or jumping for fear of repocussions! not to mention the looks from others. Now with my new sports bra I feel like Im all strapped in!! Nothing could move these suckers now... they are like set in concrete!! I also bought a sports top to go over top (tight reinforced style) and then I can put a tshirt over the whole thing. I really makes a difference to my posture and figure. I reckon it makes you lose a few kilos in just having the right support. Pity I couldnt tell the scales that huh? lol Then while I was at the sports shop I took a look at some shoes. My ancient ones are starting to give me blisters because the lining is wearing thin on the inside. Picked up a pair of Adidas reduced from $260 to $99 ... it was definately my day for shopping!!
Had to break the news gently to Bill when I got home. Focused on all the money I saved with the bargains I bought ... Im sure you know how it goes! lol
So Im bouncing off to the gym in a couple of hours to test drive all my new purchases. Can't wait!
Catch ya tomorrow!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

the good, the bad and the ugly news

Well the best news for today is ... I sold my car on trademe and the auction closed at ... wait for it ... $1460!!! For a car that has a siezed motor I was exstatic with that price. We only expected to get a couple of hundred dollars for it.
Chino goes to his show tomorrow. Had a dream last night he was covered in scabs!! Was relieved this morning after I checked him (had to check didnt i? lol) No scabs. His eye is a little cloudy again. Aparently a problem Burmese cats have. So in went the drops again. Hes really not liking me for that. But they do the trick, within a day its usually all clear again.
Got a case of the binges last night. I was home alone and bored. I wasn't actually hungry, infact I was uncomfortably full but felt like I needed something. I ended up having half a packet of Rix rice chips (3pts) which is a good thing to binge on, but I didn't need them. The good thing is Bill tried to persuade me to have a few Rum & diet cokes when he got home and I resisted and said no I didnt need them. So I am pleased about that. As it was I went over 2pts for the day so imagine what I would have been over if I had indudged in the Rum??? Overall I did pretty good I think.
Went for a big walk yesterday like I promised myself I would. All 1.5hrs and 6 bonus points. Malachi was complaining by the end of it, poor little man. He took his ride on scooter but was a lot of exercise for a 5yr old.
Bill is at work till late again (around 10pm) and I am babysitting for a friend, so I have to take the kids around there. They have 5 kids plus my 3 (Lauren is at mums) making 8 kids (wow!). Hope I survive it! lol The hardest part will be getting Jese to settle at someones elses place. I'm stressed just thinking about it.
Then it's off to mums tonight after we get home (around 10pm) to get ready for the cat show at 7.15am tommorrow. I'm looking forward to it but boy I think Im gonna be tired by then. Why do we volunteer ourselves like this for others. Don't get me wrong, I love helping others out, but sometimes it all gets a bit much. I'll get over it I guess. Hopefully Chino will pick up some prizes again, that will make up for it. The cat show is just Burmese (last show was all breeds) and he is entering as a Junior cat, not a kitten like last time. He missed out on being in the kitten ring by 1 DAY! so that will probably make him one of the smallest cats in the ring. Hopefully his shiny coat and imaculate good looks will make up for it (I'm biased of course! lol)
Wish us luck, and I'll let you know how I get on when I update on Monday :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

1.3kg yay!!

Another apology ... I guess you guys were all waiting to hear how I got on .. and I didn't update, especially after I told you all to come and see how I did. I got really busy with business work yesterday (not to mention stressed out) and only got a chance to update my stats on the site but not my journal.
A great result at weighin on Wednesday... 1.3kg loss! I was blown away, expected a small loss but not one of that size! I think all the gym work I did last week has finally showed itself up on the scales. I'm very happy with myself. But in saying that my 15kg mark seems so far away. Still another 2.4kgs away infact. I guess this is where I have to show my patience and determination skills to keep plodding away.
Went to the gym again yesterday morning for a hard 60min workout. I'm starting to push myself harder eachtime. It's very easy to sit back and do the basics at the gym, but that's not going to give me the results I want, so I have made a decision to push myself to the limit each time. I find the aerobics classes far better for that, than the weights room workouts (all cardio work, no weights yet) I think it has something to do with the music going for a certain length and that everyone is watching, so i can't stop and say I've had enough, have to keep going till the song finishes.
Can't go to the gym today, Bill is working till late so I'm going to try and get out for a walk. It's a public holiday here in nz so have promised myself not to do any work (well except a little printing). Malachi (5) can take his scooter and I'll put the youngest two on the pushchair. Maybe I'll pack a picnic lunch too, should make for a good outing.
Chino's (the cat) show is on Sunday and his sore and eye have finally cleared up so good timing there. Just hope he doesn't go rolling in any oil or dirt in the next few days.
Sold my car on 'trademe' for $1000 so I'm really happy with that price. Auction finishes tomorrow, so it may even go higher.
Well going to have a relaxing day today, spend sometime reading other journals, ww forum, ww magazine, go for my walk and that's about it.
Catch u all tomorrow,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

stressful weekend at mums

Sorry I didn't update yesterday but this diary website was down all day.
My weekend was good and bad. Good in the fact that I caught up with family and had a relaxing weekend (even managed to get a gym workout in) My easter egg count went as planned. Only had 3 small ones over the weekend, and 1 hot cross bun (with no butter).
On a bad note, I was disappointed yet again that my mother never said anything about my weightloss. I have had lots of comments from friends telling me how fantastic I am looking, but nothing from my parents. I thought that maybe before I was still wearing baggy clothes and so they couldnt tell but this weekend I went down in my new slimfitting outfit. There is no way they couldnt have noticed. But nothing, not a "youre looking good" or a "have you lost weight?" or anything. And my parents arent the sort to worry about saying something that might offend.
The only thing that did happen (I was very hurt about) For dinner they dished up dinner on dinner plates for my husband and I got a bread and butter plate with a small amount of scrambled eggs on it. When Bill asked mum about it the next day she replied "Well she is on diet isnt she? Going to the gym and everything, so I'm just helping her along the way" I was so annoyed ... for one ... Im not on diet! ... for two ... losing weight doesnt mean eating less!!! ... and for three ... if they can comment on being on diet why cant they comment on how well I look!! It doesnt surprise me ,,, I kind of expected that from my parents. I dont think they will say anything even when i get to goal. Just have to get over trying to please them I guess. After all this decision is for me not for them. But still doesnt make it any easier tho. The ironic thing is the next night she dished up steak and deep fried chips for dinner. If she knew I was watching my weight then why dish up something like that. I chose to oven bake my chips but still very expensive point wise for the chips. (6pts for a small handful) I ate them with a smile and counted them into my daily allowance, but not worth the points in my mind.
Went back to the gym last night for a step class... really hard workout. Weigh in tonight, cant wait. I'm really enjoying being a weigher at weight watchers (person behind the scales recording down the weights), I get a sense of achievement helping out others. I thought I might get sick of it, but Im not ... its a very small role to do but every little thing helps.
I'll be updating my website tomorrow to check back in then to see how I did over easter.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg

chocoholism

Easter Sunday ... the day easter bunny gives out his surprises. Well that's what my 7yr old daughter thought until I unknowingly crushed her dream this morning. She came running in to me to inform that Mr Easter Bunny forgot to give out his easter eggs. Thinking she was joking I said Yeah, but you know easter bunny is just make believe not real. Her face dropped and eyes welled up... oh nooo, I had just killed her fantasy idea of Mr Easter Bunny!! We have never done the tradition of Easter Bunny before, it must have been something she had picked up from school. We always give out easter eggs but never make it out that a magical bunny did it.
We still have Mr Santa Claus believed in our house, but easter for us as kids was always focused on Jesus and the cross more than a bunny, so I guess it didnt come naturally to me to think about a bunny being so special. I felt terrible, nothing I could say would bring Mr bunny back to life. I did say how we celebrate easter as a family and that mummy and daddy go out specially to choose easter eggs for each of you to show you how much we love you. With that she gave a little smile, some comfort I guess.
On that note I will get onto my other concerns for the day. Easter!!!! Chocoholics heaven - slimmers hell! lol I have set up a plan to only allow myself 10pts worth of chocolate over the 3 days. Of which I have had 2 so far. I just hope I can stop at 8 more. Spending this evening and tommorw at mum's will be a challenge as always (food wise)
Yesterday something happened to me that hasn't happened since I started 14wks ago. I was unable to control my urge to eat a chocolate dipped, flake, softserve MR Whippy icecream! Normally I would think 'That would be nice, but noo I shouldnt' but yesterday I told myself that and it didn't work. My hand was being controlled by someone else, bring the cone nearer to my mouth! And before I knew it I had taken a bite! All the while thinking nooooo what am I doing??? But being unable to stop. How did I end up with a chocolate dipped, flake, icecream in my hands you ask?? Lauren had asked if she could have one when Mr Whippy came past yesterday and I said yes, since she had earnt some pocket money. So I sent her off to get 2 "plain, single serve icecreams" with a $10 note. (One for her and one for Jordan, 2yrs) She came back with 2 chocolate dipped, flake jumbo softserve icecreams! With Jordan playing in the room unaware of what was going on, I thought there is no way he is going to be able to eat this without it getting everywhere. So at first I thought I would just remove the chocolate coating so he could have the inside, (which went in my mouth) then I needed to lick the melted icecream dripping off the sides and before I knew it, it was almost gone. BUT ... I stopped myself at eating the cone and the flake. I gave the cone (with icecream still in it) to Jordan and the flake is still sitting in the freezer. So I guess that is one consolation.
Had a really cool compliment from my friend Janice last night :) Her and Moira came round for dinner (I was out getting dinner when they arrived) and when I walked in the door she noticed straight away that I had lost weight! :)) She couldnt get over my improved posture, which is interesting. I have been concentrating on posture muscles at the gym but didn't realise it would have improved already. I also had my new fitted top on as she said it was more noticeable with fitting clothes than with my usual baggys on :) So that has set me off on a motivated good morning!
I want to go to the gym tommorow morning in Hamilton. I have been told that I can use any contours gym anywhere in the country with my membership. So hopefully I can run off in the morning while Bill is with the kids. Hope they are open.
So I wont be able to update till Tuesday now. Let you know how my temptation chocolate weekend goes.
Take care,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg

end of an era

Wow, where to start?
Firstly, I big thankyou to everyone who sent me wonderful emails!! I am feeling ontop of things again today.
On a sad note... my car blew up last night :( It was the first car I purchased 10yrs ago, and it has gone like a dream since I bought it. We have only had to spend around $1000 on repairs in that 10yrs. I knew it was on the way out. The engine was making very funny noises, it was leaking alot of oil, and the gearbox was hard to get into 1st and reverse. It has done over 280,000kms and I have some very fond memories in that car (including my very first kiss, taking my foot off the brake and rolling into the flatmates car ... lol, hiding my boyfriend in the boot for 2hrs till my parents went out, getting caught by a security guard with 'steamy windows', and travelling round the country sleeping in the boot when we couldn't afford any accomodation)
So the fact that it has finally died is a little sad, but I say it with a fond smile.
I think I did well with my eating yesterday. I really wasn't in the mood to be healthy, or to eat any meals, so I just snacked all day on rice crackers, rice wafers, cereal bar, popcorn and then did up a quick stirfry for dinner. At the end of the day I had eaten all my points and not gone over. My water was way down so I sipped 4 glasses while on the net last night and topped it up with 2 glasses diet coke. (I was up all night peeing again)
I'm not able to get to the gym until Monday with the kids at home and the gym creche shut for the holidays.
We were supposed to be heading off to mum's today but with the car dying we are down to one car again, and Bill needs it to get to work. So we will head off on Sunday afternoon when he finishes work and come back Monday night/Tuesday morning.
Got a busy week ahead of me with the business next week, so I'm taking the weekend off. I think I deserve it :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg

give, give, give ...

I did a big speel last night for yesterdays journal and for some reason it has not updated it :( And I cannot think for the life of me what I actually said ... lol
I think it went something along the lines of feeling nervous about weigh in because alot of journals I am reading, people are having gains this week (some expected and some not)
That answer to that concern has been solved... weighin result? 300g loss! yay! In some ways I was hoping for a little more due to all the exercise I have done this week but I know this probably wont show on the scales till next week. And this week is TOM week so a 300g is actually really good, I should be proud of myself. I guess I have been spoilt in the past few weeks with 1.2kg losses.
Today has been stressful and hectic. Running from one client to another. Had to drop off the set of Thankyou cards I was working on to Remuera this morning and the traffic was just crazy!! Everyone heading off early on holiday for the long weekend. Then off to the ink wholesaler to get some more ink, then post office, hubby's work (he forgot his lunch), post office, dairy and home... fed kids lunch then client came 1hr later (mad dash round the house to tidy up before they came) They left at 4pm, quick update of my journal and website, and now off to the gym by 6pm... wow what a day! I haven't stopped!
Really looking forward to my workout tonight at the gym... it's been nearly 48hrs since I last went and I'm feeling it.
I'm supposed to be heading off to mum's tommorow for easter but don't know if I want to face all the traffic. (1.5hrs drive) I'll see how I feel tommorrow. Bill is working crazy hours all weekend so would be good to get out of the house rather than waiting for him to get home each night. He is the Grocery Manager for a Pak 'n Save Supermarket and of course supermarkets open a rediculous amount of hours, so someone has to do it. I've tried to persuade him to delegate someone else to work easter but he thinks the extra money will help. (of course I agree) but I hate not having him around on public holidays. Infact it's not until I have written it here that I actually realise how much it does effect me. Normally I shrug it off and say it's all part of the job, but I really hate him working so much. I haven't been coping much today... It's funny because people ask how I do it ... 4 kids, busy homerun business, housework, cooking, dropping kids to and from school and going to the gym. I always reply "I just take one day at a time, I always get through" But today I really buckled under the pressure. (especially with the kids on holidays) I have work due for the business, gst returns due and housework, housework, housework. I actually didn't think I would cope today (was nearly in tears) the kids coped alot of yelling from me, poor things. Bill was supposed to be working till 10.30pm tonight, so yet again I was having to organise kids in bath, dinner, then putting the kids in the car, meeting Bill at the gym so he could take the kids while I went to my gym class, then coming home, Bill going back to work, putting kids to bed and finally relaxing around 9pm. Then Bill would walk in the door at 10.30pm and expect time and affection (not that I don't want to give it ... but I'm just buggered by then) Some days I feel like I just give, give, give.
Good news is Bill has decided to come home early at 5pm and not work late tonight ... yay!! Will make life so much easier for today. Then I can just go to the gym when he gets home (which will be soon) so on that note I better get a move on.
Sorry about the long blah, blah, blah... but needed to get that off my chest. Thanks for listening.
I've put a little text flashy thing on the front page of my site (for anyone who didn't notice) to announce my weighin result for the week. Makes me feel better being able to 'announce' it in a fancy way :)
Till tommorow,
Nite,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg
11.3kg lost in 14wks

35 bonus points so far this week

Firstly, I had a note from Lynda saying that anyone wanting to do a website ... www.geocities.com have premade websites with templates and full instructions. Thanks for that info Lynda!
Secondly, I have had a comment about adding an updated photo. So that is my next goal for the site. Tell ya what ... I'll get out the camera tonight with my new outfit on and take a shot or two. Can't say when I'll be able to get it developed and uploaded yet but at least it will get the ball rolling.
Bill was home from work today so I took the opportunity to get a big workout done at the gym. All 1hr45mins of it!!! I arrived early so I rode on the bike for 15mins then did a 1hr step class and finished off with cardio workout for half an hour. By the end I was really sweating (I don't usually sweat much) but today I made up for it! Even red faced! I find the classes great for getting a good workout. I push myself far more in the classes than in the weights room, must be something to do with others doing it at the same time, and the music.
I realised I made an error in my bloodpressure results I posted on here a few days ago. It is 105/60 not 90/60 which is still low but not dangerously low like 90/60 is ... lol.
I'm really looking forward to weighin tomorrow night... I have earnt 35 bonus points so far this week (haven't used any of them) and I still have one more workout to go before weighin. That's more than I have ever earnt since I started ww 13wks ago. Hopefully it should make a difference on the scales. Or it may take till next week to show. With it being TOM at the moment it may also slow my losses down a little. As long as I get at least a 500g loss I will be really happy.
I've managed to avoid all chocolate eggs so far this easter. Although in saying that I am spending a few days at mum's this weekend so I'm sure she will have plenty there for the kids. Will have to set up a game plan before I go. Maybe allow myself 10pts over 3 days for chocolate. That will take me over slightly on my sugar points but will be still under for my total weekly points.
I'm feeling alot better in myself today, PMT has gone thank goodness. And I'm sure the gym exercise is helping too.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg

hit bottom after yesterday's high :(

PMT day hit with a vengeance today... don't know why I'm so cranky... well actually I do but still doesn't make it any easier. You know when someone tells you you're in a bad mood just makes you MADDER!!! lol
Yes the dreaded TOM arrived this morning. I had fleeting thoughts that I now wouldn't be able to go to the gym today ... but NO! That's no excuse, I kicked my grumpy bum outta bed and got off to do my exercise for the day.
I was actually glad when I got there and really enjoyed my workout. I even sneaked in 20mins (only allowed to do 10mins) on the elliptical crosstrainer... hehe. I love that machine! It's kinda like a treadmill, cycle and crosscountry ski machine combined. You do a running motion on it but without the jolting. The first time I tried I really couldn't get the hang of it. But today was my third go and I suddenly got it. The secret was to not be scared of your boobs bouncing lol. I really worked up a sweat on that thing.
Did anyone watch the Good Morning show this morning? They had this guy on there who is the personal trainer of heaps of famous people (Madonna, Sporty Spice, Naomi Campbell to name a few) He was saying how to get the best of a workout for losing fat... Work 2mins really hi intensity (so you are sweating and puffing) then 1min low intensity, then 2mins high, 1min low etc, etc. He said that way your body goes into hi mode of fat burning and it keeps your metabolism on hi speed for 18hours afterwards!! I like the thought of that. So all those teachers telling us to get running and not walk in P.E at school, were wrong!!! Oh if only I knew then what I know now ... hehe!
So I'm definitely going to give that a try. Be interesting to see if my weight losses increase. I'll let you all know how it goes.
Thanks to all those people who have signed my guestbook, left comments at the bottom of my journal, voted on my polls, and sent me awesome emails!!! You guys are amazing!! Each comment means so much to me!! Thankyou, Thankyou, Thankyou!!!
I have had a lot of votes in my 'Do you have a weightloss online journal?' this week that would love to have a website but don't know how. I'm am trying to think of a way to help others that want to start one up. I may do up a fact sheet that I can email people if they want it, explaining step by step how to go about doing a website. The problem is there is such a lot of information to give that I'm not sure if I can get it all on one file. And there are things that can happen along the way that is just trial and error. If I have some time spare to put it together and if enough people are interested I may do it.
Bill and I had a big argument this morning (bad timing with TOM here but that could be part of the reason lol) And typically it was about money (I'm sure every couple argues about that at some stage or other) We don't argue alot so it really effects me when we do. I am impressed tho... we have a rule, we never leave the house or go to sleep without giving eachother a kiss, and Bill came up to me this morning after our blowup to say he was leaving for work and to give me a goodbye kiss. I must admit it wasn't the most passionate kiss in the world, lol, but at least he didn't break our rule :)
The kid's fighting is driving me barmy already. It's only day 1 of the holidays so I don't know how I'm going to survive the next two weeks :) Mum is going to take Malachi (5) for the first week (he supposed to be picked up tonight) and then I'll take Lauren (8) down for the second week. That should slow some of the fighting down.
Chino's sore on his neck looks alot better today so it should heal on it's own before the show. It's now only a small scab. So tempting to pick it off, but I'm holding back ... just! lol. It's like when I see a pimple on Bill ... I just can't resist, I have to squeeze it. He thinks I'm crazy lol, but I know there are other females out there the same! Right?? lol
Well I'm not feeling so cranky anymore! You guys are great therapy! It's amazing what a listening ear will do :) Thanks guys!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

size 18!!

Well I had a fabulous day today!! Bill took the kids out and let me do whatever I wanted... so I started by going to the gym for an hours cardio workout, then I spent half an hour in the sauna, showered and headed off to do some shopping.
Found a georgous outfit, size 18!!, and only $60.00 for top and pants. (13wks ago I was a size 24) I then changed into my new outfit and walked around the shopping centre, swingin my butt like the sexiest person alive! I went into a Stax store (my favourite shop) to have a look and the lady came up to me asking if I needed any help. Asking her if she had the chosen garment in a larger size she reached for a size 16 and said "Here this one should fit you" Size 16 I say!! lol. It didn't fit but the fact that she thought I COULD be a 16 was a compliment in itself!
I then had a spot of lunch (McD chicken salad and icecream sundae without the topping) and headed home in my new sexy outfit... hipster pants and top (that showed my bellybutton :) Hubby showered me with compliments as I walked in the door, telling me how great I looked!!
Fantastic day I tell ya! For the first time in many years I walked around knowing I wasn't the fatest person there and walked into stores dreaming of the clothes I will soon be able to wear!! Truelly a motivational day!!
Later! :))
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

I feel a gym addiction coming on

I just spent the last 15mins writing all my thoughts down for today and when I went to upload it and the site went down!!! GRRRRR!
So now I will try and recall what I said...
Firstly, had my gym assessment yesterday. Was loads of fun. The instructor said my blood pressure and pulse were excellent - 60/90 and 64bpm. (average according to her was 60-80bpm) Looks like my walking is paying off.
She kept making comments on how well I was doing through all the exercises but I'm sure she says that to everyone lol.
Jordan and Jese enjoyed the creche and had the carers all goo goo over them.
I'm really wanting to go back to the gym today but Bill is working all day till late and with the older two kids at home looks like it wont happen today. Guess I can wait till tommorow :)
Had sushi for lunch yesterday - YUMMMMM!! I love sushi but it's just so expensive.
Chino (the cat) has got another scab thing on his neck again. Last time he had to be shaved and I am entering him into a show at the end of this month. I'm hoping it will heal on it's own this time without having to be shaved. Will keep a close eye on him but may have to pull him from the show :( At this stage its only small and not swollen or pussy... fingers crossed it will heal in time.
Really hanging out for a shopping day at the moment. Can't afford to buy anything but just want to be one of those annoying customers who want to try everything on and don't end up buying anything lol. I'll have to wait till Bill has a day off to look after the kids.
My body is feeling really good the last week or so. Can really start to notice the difference. My tummy is looking flatter and butt tighter :) I get impatient at times just wishing it all to zap away instantly. But I know ... slow and steady! lol
First day of the holidays today... should be interesting. House is always noisier with the older two at home... and messier!! I enjoy having them here but is a lot more work.
Let's hope I get this successfully uploaded this time and don't have to retype it all again.
Till tommorow, thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

Wednesday's dinner success

I forgot to mention yesterday how my dinner went on Wednesday night ...
It was a success both socially and eating wise...
Had a seafood platter ... was mostly decoration with lots of fiddly pulling shellfish apart and all the dressing was in dishes on the side. I saw on the menu that it was grilled and they obviously used a little butter in cooking but was relatively low fat and low points. As the waitress handed me the plate she mentioned she would be back with the fries. Oh no not fries lol. I hadn't seen that on the menu. I quickly asked her if I could have a baked potato instead of fries, lucky that was okay. No one ordered entres so I didnt have to worry about that and had a plain sundae without topping or cream.
So all in all (including 1 glass of wine) I used up 11pts for dinner which even left me with 2 points left over to save. And because everyone else was drinking I managed to sip and water all night and got all my water in.
Went to the gym last night... I managed to make it through the whole class (although spent alot of it doing low intensity versions) but was a great effort for me. (last time I did aerobics I could only manage 45 mins of the hour class, so to complete it was fantastic) I left there very red faced but satisfied I had worked very hard for the 9pts I earnt :)
Going back this morning for my 1.5hr consultation. Very excited. I even enjoyed the reflection in the mirrors while doing my aerobics class. I used to avoid mirrors for fear of breaking them :) It's been awhile since I have actually seen myself in a full length mirror so I am starting to notice the change in my figure .... very nice!! :) I actually just felt like an overweight person not a grossly obese one! Was nice to see everyone there last night was dressed in just ordinary clothes not trendy glamour outfits like I had expected.
The only disappointing thing was the membership was more than I thought. They forgot to tell me about the $95 joining fee! Making it $690 instead of $595... ouch! So hopefully my business makes some nice profits real soon because I have a paper bill to pay yet... oh well!
Till tomorrow, thanks for reading :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg lost in 13wks

much more than I could ever expect

Well weigh in this week was a complete surprise!! 1.2kg loss! Meaning I achieved 3 goals in one night!
1. 10kg loss - star for my bookmark and website
2. 10% body weight lost - Little gold star keyring
3. Officially Quarter of the way - Gym membership - YEEE HAWWWWW!!
I thought I would be lucky to get the first goal but all three ... wow!!
It's funny because I didn't think I did as well this week with my eating and exercise as I have done in past weeks yet I had a better loss. I am presuming this is either the losses from last weeks effort finally showing on the scales or by eating more and exercising slightly less I shocked my motabolism into action. I don't know! but I'm definately not complaining.
This makes my losses at a grand total of 11kg!!
Kids are driving me barmy already and its only 10am!!
Off to join the gym today ... have my consultation with them tommorrow!! Yay! Cant wait!
My motivation problems have vanished all of a sudden ... what a surprise lol
Thanks for reading
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

website changes

I've done a few small changes to my website for those who haven't noticed ...
1. I have added a section on the front page top right for my 5kg stars to go when I get them. I think this will be as exciting putting them on here as it will be putting them on my bookmark :) Hopefully number 2 star will be appearing on there tommorow!!
2. Also added is a 'Tell-a-friend' panel. Don't be scared to do this. It is something I have added to the site not an advert. It doesn't cost anything just a quick way of emailing the link to a friend (only if you want to of course)
3. On the virtual model page I have put in virtual models of my current weight now (as well as the start and goal weight pics). There are now also side views (I think these give a more realistic image) That way you can see where I'm up to until I get my progress photos up. (I still haven't got to do these yet ... sorry) I will update the current virtual models at the start of each month.
4. I have had a few emails with people wanting to know where I got these cool virtual models from so I have put a link at the bottom of the 'virtual model' page. Go check it out ... real fun site!
Well that's all of the changes I think. Remember to email me if you have any other suggestions. And check in tommorow with my changes after weigh in... hopefully downward! :)
A little nervous about my restaurant outing tonight. I have saved 7 extra points to use and 13 exercise points (although prefer not to use these) so adding those points to my current 23points allowed a day makes it 43pts I could have. Don't think I will be consuming THAT much lol. But I'll let you know tommorrow.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
12wks on ww

short and sweet

Today started off with no motivation at all but after my sister came to visit I am inspired again and rearing to go!
I nearly drank all my water last night. At 4pm I had only had 1 glass but managed to get 1200mls drunk before bedtime. (my daily amount I try to drink is 1600mls) So a good effort I think.
My exercise is down slightly this week from last but still good. I'm hoping for a 200g loss to get my 10kg loss goal.
Well today is pretty quiet, not a lot happening here so I will let you guys go early with a short blurb for today.
One more day till weigh in. I'm out for dinner tommorow night so you will all have to wait till Thursday for my website figures to be updated ... sorry lol.
Take care, and thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
12wks on ww

The highs and the lows

The cat show was an incredible success!! Chino my 8.5mth old Burmese cat got the following ribbons ...
1st Best of colour
1st Best of group
1st Best of Type
and best of all .... "CHAMPION BEST IN SHOW KITTEN" I was overwhelmed ... I went into it not really knowing what to expect or how he would do but to come out as the top ribbon was simply amazing. I think I am hooked now! lol
My breeder also got an award "Best Breeder" because of Chino! Consequently she wanted me to enter the Burmese Cat show at the end of this month and has paid for his registration fees as a thankyou! But actually it should be me thanking her... she was just amazing, helping me out, showing me what to do and supplying the white towels, sheepskins for the cages, and litter tray. If anyone wants a Burmese cat (New Zealand) let me know because I highly recommend her and her kittens!!!
Eating was a little difficult being at mums on Sunday night ... ended up with pizza for dinner. I limited myself to two pieces but was difficult to point them as it was a home made one with loads of cheese. I worked it out as 5.5pts each piece. And lunch I went out with my sister to a funky cafe. Sate chicken tortilla YUM!!! Again difficult to point out but concluded it would be around 10pts. Ended up at the end of the day with being 5pts over my daily allowance but I had a few saved up my sleeve so I still have another 2 left. Which I will need for a Managers dinner for my husbands work do on Wednesday night... hmmm ... might need to save a few more for that one lol
I had planned to do a big walk yesterday while chino was at the show but it ended up pouring with rain so that idea had to go out the window.
I wanted to make up for it today so planned for a long 8.5km walk with hubby and the two youngest. We started out ok but a third of the way into it Jordan fell off the pushchair and didnt want to go back on, then Bill stepped in a hole and twisted his ankle. He said he wanted to take the kids home while I could keep going. Man I was wild ... not at him but at the situation. So he went home and I plodded on but only 500m further on my blister on my heel got so bad that I couldnt keep going either ... grrrrrrrr!! wasn't my day for exercise I guess.
I came home (still earnt 3 exercise points) but I was in such a foul mood after that. Don't know why, wasnt Bills fault lol. I guess I am just hitting earth again after the high of the weekend but boy have I hit hard! Anyone would think it's TOM for me (not due for another couple of weeks) but I am so grouchy!!! Well writting it down here has helped some.
My water intake today has been terrible. Only drunk 1 glass so far and its already 4.30pm!!
Well better go get drinking I guess!! I gotta get better tomorrow... this is terrible!
Lyn :)

Progress pics ... yucky

Wow I am blown away with the number of compliments and entries into my guestbook and emails received already!! And my website has only been up 12 hours!! It is soooo encouraging. I read of others being inspired when they created a website and got entries into a guestbook but never did I expect such a positive influence! You are all fantastic... thankyou sooo much!
Well enough head swelling for now ... on with the real stuff (lol) I am more focused on correct eating today. I ended up getting really hungry last night (around 10.30pm) not surprising since I hadn't had lunch. I know it is bad to eat that late at night but what is worse? not eating 10 of your points or eating too late at night? I figured since I was going to be up for a couple more hours then it would be worse to not eat them.
If anyone has any suggestions for my website please send me an email and let me know (good or bad feedback) and I'll try to not get offended if you hate it (lol just kidding) but honestly if you have any great ideas please tell me.
My brother commented on my weightloss the other day. He saw me tracking my food and asked me what I was doing. I told him I was on ww and he replied "oh I noticed you had lost weight but thought it was just you shrinking after baby was born" Yah right!!! Jese is 10mths old! I wish our bodies just automatically SHRANK!! Would make life so much easier don't you think? lol (maybe we should put in for a law change ... "mothers who have just given birth will AUTOMATICALLY shrink 10mths after baby is born!")
But I accepted his compliment gracefully (laughing under my breath)
Have decided I need to take some 'progress photos' for the website... but it's a matter of being too chicken yet. But the more I wait the more kgs I lose. I have already lost nearly 10kg so I figure I am already too far ahead. I don't really know why I am so scared ... maybe from actually seeing the photos and realising how fat I actually am. I like to think of my 'minus 10kg' body as slim now but if I see reality it might send me into depression. I know it's a short term complaint and that as soon as I take another photo later on it will actually motivate me to keep going ... but you must understand my hesitancies? don't you? or am I being silly?
I think the other point is exposing my bare body to the world. It's amazing how flattering clothes can be compared to a naked, dimply, celulite, rolly polly body! I look so much better with clothes on. Now I'm not talking about taking a photo butt naked here but I will need to have something pretty skimpy (bra and nickers or togs, of which I don't own) to properly show the progress.
Oh well maybe it's like jumping off a diving board ... you just have to close your eyes, do it and think about the consequences as you are falling to (your death!) oops mean the pool.
Did any of you notice the cool little 'mini poll' I had on my front page? Cool huh? I can set the questions and answers to anything at all so if anyone has a poll they want done send me an email and I will do it. I'm going to change it once a week (probably on a Thursday after weighin wednesday) so check in Wednesday if you want to see the final results for any poll I do.
Well that's enough rambling for today (don't want to bore any of you) Thanks for reading!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
12wks on ww

Check out my new website!

Spent the whole day today creating a website dedicated to my weightloss journey ... take a look ... I had heaps of fun doing it!
http://journey2slimsville.012webpages.com/index.html
The ironic this is ... the purpose for this website is to keep me motivated and accountable in my weightloss ... but I got caught up doing it all day that I didn't want to stop to eat, drink my water or exercise!! lol So now I am doing a catch up on everything (walking will have to wait till tomorrow) but it means I will be up allll night peeeing!!! Great!! The things we sacrifice huh? lol
Bill is working late again tonight so will be a nite blobed infront of tv.
Can't remember if I mentioned it earlier but I'm off to a catshow on Sunday. I'm entering my 9mth Burmese kitten (Chino), wish us luck! Will have to pack some good food to take with us.
Don't forget to check out my site and sign my guestbook so I know if anyone has visited.
Till next time, happy losing!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
9.8kg lost in 12wks

Any loss is a good loss

Well weigh in went well considering all the eating out I did last week... the verdict? 400g loss ... at the moment I am neither nor about that figure ... not ecstatic yet not disappointed. I know, I know any loss is a good loss.
I went for a 8.5km walk this morning ... wow! But I'm sure I actually did enough exercise for a 12km walk. Pushing Jesurun in a pushchair on long grass for 8.5km!!! I was sweating by the time I got back with blisters on my feet. Don't think I'll be walking tomorrow.
Met someone last night who goes to the gym I want to join. She was raving about it ... I so want to join now! But need to save up for the $525 membership. I could do it on a weekly payment (over $700) but don't want to put the family under that type of financial strain. It will just have to wait till I have the money. I have told myself on my goal list that when I have lost 10.6kg (quarter way) I can get it so waiting a little longer won't do me any harm.
I am 200g under my next goal (10kg lost) although disappointing I didn't quite make it this week it will give me good motivation to keep going for next week.
Quiet day today ... no work on (except a bit of printing), Jordan is still at mum's till Sunday and Jesurun is sleeping. Have spent the morning wandering around the internet. Quite relaxing after my energy effort this morning.
We finally have water on after we had to turn it off last Saturday due to a burst pipe. Took the plumber 4 days to get here. I was soooo hanging out for a shower by then. Makes you appreciate what you have when you don't have it. We had used every dish in the cupboard and you couldn't see the bench for dishes. But finally everything is back to normal now ... YAY!
Feeling good and motivated today ... hope it stays that way.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
9.8kg lost in 12 weeks on weight watchers