Now dat's wot I'm talkin BOUT!!!

I'm absolutely ecstatic to see a 2.1kg loss on the scales tonight!!!! I've managed to save my butt again (well not save but get rid of it lol). I looked back over my records and this is infact second largest loss I have had ever! And get this ... lol ... last week was the biggest gain I've had ever! How's that for two weeks of extremes?? I actually wonder if last weeks gain was a little untrue (fluid retention and the binge i had the night before) But in saying that, it means that this week is not a true 2.1kg loss ... so I'm going to stop in my tracks right there and just celebrate this week for what it is ... A FANTASTIC RESULT AFTER A WEEK OF HARD WORK!!!!!

Yippeeeeeee!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.8kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Tiny, wee thing???

Here's the pic of my nails ... she put a really funky colour on them that's silver normally and then changes to gold in the sunlight/heat and glows in the dark!! And I got bored on Saturday night and painted the design on top. I stuck silver foil hearts on too. A bit of fun! lol

I overate a little on Saturday with the family all here. Nothing major but went over my points for the day. I used my saved up points but it put my weight up from the day before. The home scales were saying a huge loss this week and now it's only showing a small loss but hey it's still down ... I hope! :)

Worked in the shop all day yesterday from 6.45am till 8pm. Walked 5.5kms behind the counter in one day!!

Hey guess what?? I had the coolest compliment yesterday! Probably the best one yet ...

I was at the bakery getting myself some lunch. I usually get a vegetarian filled roll with no cheese and no butter. But the baker lady said sorry she didn't have any that day. I said ohh it's ok, I can eat meat it's just that the vege ones are lower in points. She said "ohhhh you don't need to lose weight do you?? You're a tiny wee thing!" OH MY GOODNESS!!! Can you believe someone would call me tiny???? lol that is the first, I think in my whole life!! Even as a kid I was always a "big girl" ... and even now a few kilos from goal I still think of myself as big boned ... slim, but big boned ...

wow now I'll have to reassess that image lol ... can you believe it?? "Tiny, wee thing"????? lol

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 75.9kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

So it's a goer then?

Wow yeah looks like everyone is really keen!! I'll have to have a think about logistics of everything. But that's just paperwork ... sounds like a goer!! I'm sure Bill wouldn't mind putting up with a house full of girls for a couple of nights here at the beach!! heheh

Main thing is we would have to give people plenty of time to save up for airfares etc. (no accommodation is needed you can all bunk down here)

Ok sorry to be a party pooper but onto me now! lol

Day 6 and still ontrack!!!! wahoooo!!! I've even managed to save 10points over the week (that includes my bonus points) but a little scared to use them now, don't want them to bung the scales up on Monday. I would absolutely love to lose the whole 2.5kgs in one week that I gained last week but I know this isn't really a reality. Bugger!! Can't complain tho I know it's not a race :)

I have a fun day planned today. I'm having my nails done in the next half hour (the lady is coming to my house how cool is that???). I love the pampering! lol

Then mum and dad and my sister and brother-in-law is coming over around lunchtime for the day. None of them have seen our new house here so that should be fun. I did a massive clean up this morning so the house was immaculate (wasn't too much) but the kids have gone behind me pulling out toys and stuff. Going round in circles trying to keep it tidy. Oh well not be be I guess! lol

Well I'll talk to you guys later after my nails are immaculate again (they're looking a bit tatty at the moment)... might get them painted a funky colour this time and take a pic to show ya's all tomorrow.

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 75.9kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Celebrate good times

This is my 4th day ontrack and I feel great!! I've counted everything and come within points each day! Angel you are so right ... I do know what I need to do and I feel so good when I actually do it! It's funny how such a motivational low can bring on such a motivational high!! Weird?! But I'm not questioning it ... Just gonna do it!!

Thanks again guys. The day I considered putting a tagboard on here I really wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do. Putting your life out there for people to read is one thing but to give them permission to comment on it is a whole nother risk. But I'm so pleased I took that risk!! It's the comments from you guys that bring this website to life!! Otherwise it would just be a page of information but now it's become a group of interactive people that support eachother for more than any support group could offer! It's awesome!!!!

Probably by the time you all read this Lynda will be on her plane flying away. I am so jealous!!! Really happy for her but jealous. You see Lynda found me when I first started my website 18mths ago (before tagboard days) and emailed me. We began emailing back and forth, then Leigh joined in too (her and Lynda had been in contact via email for a while). So the three of us decided we would be a support network for eachother. We'd never met in real life yet we all felt like we knew eachother so well from sharing our lives on here.

Then over the months more and more websites and readers have joined in and made our group flourish!! It has grown to far, far more than I ever thought it would. My thinking in starting my website would be to have a space to call my own that I could put all my feelings down in and record my achievements. I never imagined it would become so much to me. The friendships I have made on here with you guys has made this journey so much nicer!!

8mths ago I met Lynda in person for the first time. It was a weird experience, knowing someone via the internet, seeing photos yet it was like another dimension actually meeting. Over the past 18mths all three of us have talked about getting together. When I went to Aussie a few months ago I thought it would happen then but things didn't work out at the time. Leigh happened to be going on holiday at the same time, so we had to wave at eachother through plane windows.

Now Lynda is finally meeting Leigh and Kimba (ohhhh I so want to be there lol) But not to be this time I guess.

One day we will all have a big party and invite everyone from on here and celebrate our achievements and our failures ... but mostly we will celebrate us!!! Yay us!!

Sheesh I've gone on a bit today lol, can ya tell I'm feeling great?? lol

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 75.9kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Potential accidents

As in words of Dr Phil "Weightloss has nothing to do with willpower and everything to do with environment control"

Such wise words!! Let me explain and go back a bit here ...

We all have moments of wonderful motivation and willpower but it never lasts ... everyone always loses their willpower at some stage. It's natural for it to come in waves - extreme highs and lows.

So if we rely on this alone we are setting ourselves up for failure. We have to control our environment, set up habits, routines and plan, plan, plan. It's like a defensive driving course ... your eyes have to be peeled the whole time for potential accidents ... potential weightloss sabotaging accidents.

And why am I rambling about all this you ask?? I had the perfect situation to explain about NOT CONTROLLING MY ENVIRONMENT!

I consider myself a pretty organised weightlosser who controls her environment and is mostly very motivated to lose weight... but ... on Sunday night (the night before weigh-in) I made the stupidest mistake and one that I have to pay for ...

I set myself up in an environment that was destined for disaster. It had nothing to do with willpower and everything to do with lack of planning and controlling my environment.

Let me explain ... Australian Idol was on (starting at 9.30pm) and I had to see the final. Our TV still doesn't work at home so decided to go to the shop to watch it. Which would have been fine if i had planned and thought about what I would be facing.

But I didn't and here's where I went wrong ...

1. I was tired after working a full day till 8pm
2. I had come home first to have dinner (one good thing) but had decided to have a few drinks before I went (bad!!) So my guards were down before I even got there ... you know that "ahhh well who cares?" attitude we get after a couple of drinks
3. I took some drinks with me
4. I was alone (sometimes having someone else there stops us going offtrack)
5. I got the munchies in a MUNCHIE ADDICTS HEAVEN!!! An icecream, lollie, chocolate, pie wonderland!!!
6. I had PMS (and you know how the sugar cravings can come on real strong)
7. It was a long winded program that went on for hours and hours and I got bored


So as you can see no amount of willpower would have got me through this one ... I was stupid not to see it coming ... and I'm ashamed to admit it ... BUT ...

I ate, and ate and ate and ate until I couldn't fit anymore in ... I ate lollies, chocolates, icecream, chicken pies, chips, alcohol and more!!. I remember having the pie and thinking "yuck this pie is half cold" but I still ate it. Like I was determined to eat it no matter what.

I have never ever done this before ... honestly!! Sure I've eaten too much at a dinner out, or realised too late that I shouldn't have had that extra drink ... but I have never eaten just for the sake of eating and felt full and kept eating and eaten like there was no tomorrow and everything sweet and fatty was going to be banished. I consider myself an occasional picker of the wrong foods but never a blubber binger like I was that night.

I came home and bawled my eyes out. I just could not believe what I had done to myself. I felt sick both physically and mentally. (don't worry I didn't purge lol) I started beating myself up, telling myself I was useless ... that I couldn't resist food, that it was the start of the road back to the fatlands.

I confided in Bill the next morning what I had done. He wanted to know what I had eaten so I told him every morsal of food that went in my mouth that night and even he was shocked. He said "that's so not like you, what happened?" And that's when the lightbulb went on. He was right, it wasn't something I have ever done before and there is no reason why it has to ever happen again. I remembered the words Dr Phil had said on tv the day before. This was purely a lack of planning and not controlling my environment. No one is superhuman to resist food being put infront of them all the time especially when their guards are down (from being tired and moderately tiddly lol)

I still could go but I shouldn't have drunk, and I should have taken something healthy (but still nice) with me to snack on ... and I shouldn't have gone alone!!

I felt better after my cry and chat to Bill about it. I realised then and there that I have to forgive myself and go and face the consequences (at weighin that night)

And it was bad, real bad!! But I'm glad I went, now I can put it behind me and carry on. It was also a case of not going the week before meaning my bad habits slipping back and carrying on over another week instead of facing the music the first week and putting it behind me then. I had 2 good days of eating before weighin but the last night ... well that cancelling EVERYTHING out lol.

The result??

Weighin Result 22 November, 2004 ... 2.5 KILO GAIN!!!

Even tho this weeks weighin was a complete shock it has motivated me to get with the program and just do it ... and look around at my environment to see potential accidents and plan, plan, plan ... that's what it's all about!! This chicks not out for the count yet!!!

All Monday and Tuesday I have stuck within points and walked 7kms Monday and 9.8kms yesterday. I've started walking to and from work (just over 3kms both ways).

Yesterday we had a few hours off in the middle of the day so went up to Whangamata (surf beach 45mins north of us). We spent half an hour walking up and back on the beach. Oh and yay I found my bonus buddy again ... I love that thing!!!

Oh and guess what happened last night??? Our shop and the liquor shop next door got hit by lightning!!! It was so loud and the lights all went off then came back on. And the liquor guys tv blew up!! I really feel like I've been given a second chance lol ... wowsers!!! How close is that??? At the time I kept thinking "don't touch any metal, don't touch any metal!!" lol ... the two ladies walking out of the shop screamed and nearly dropped their icecreams. It was the freakiest thing I've been through for a long time!! Lucky for us no damage was done and no one hurt ... just made my heart jump a mile! lol

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 75.9kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Can't keep me down too long

I didn't want to update on here until I had at least 2 good eating days under my belt and it's taken until today to be able to say that. I've stuck to points and drunk my water.

My bonus buddy has gone walkabout so not sure what my walking points are but I have been active.

I did a good grocery shop on Friday so have a nicely stocked pantry. Now there's no excuse!!

We've had a gorgeous day of sunshine here today so have taken the opportunity to catch some rays and lay on the beach for a few hours.

Don't have much more to tell ... I'm finally back on track. Pity the weighin on Monday won't show my few days good efforts but that's not the important thing ... I'm back into it again ... that's what counts :) Certainly helps to keep going with the encouragement I get from you guys ... THANKS, you've bounced me back again :D

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.4kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

I suck!

I didn't make it to weighin last night ... yeah yeah I know I should have gone. 50% of me didn't want to go and 50% because I had to work in the shop till 7pm.

I'll be fine ... i'll get back into it. Just have to wait till I get all this other stuff sorted.

Was talking to Bill about it last night and I struggle when I don't have a good supply of healthy food in the house. And we've just been so busy the last week trying to get everything done that i haven't had the chance the get to the supermarket yet.

Not that that's good enough reason not to eat healthy but it's something to learn from. Not that I think I could have done anything different.

Anyhow there's nothing I can do about it now. I really want to get some home scales again. I find that helps keep me in check throughout the week. I flounder when i don't know where I'm at.

The good news is that I did an update to admit my crappy efforts :) I nearly didn't lol.

Back to it today
Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.4kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Damage control

We have contact and I'm back online again!! An odd experience to not have internet access for 4 days lol ... how did we ever survive before technology huh? lol

We've shifted and all set up in our new home. It's been a busy, tiring ... no exhausting few days.

The staff member we have who works Thursdays and Fridays (giving us our weekend off) rang to say she could only work the morning of Thursday (our shifting day!) ... so I had to work from 12pm onwards, leaving Bill to shift the whole house by himself!!

Mum surprised me by turning up to look after the children, that really helped!!

We started packing 6am Thursday morning and had most of it done by 12pm when I went to the shop.

After I finished work at 7.30pm we did another trailerload of the heavy furniture (with help from another two friends). We had to get our table up to the second floor. But even with the four of us lifting we couldn't get it up there. So it's currently sitting in the garage. We'll have another try today if the weather clears up.

Talking about weather ... it was forcast for rain on Thursday but was so nice to us and the rain held off till Friday.

Now onto the eating front ... have to warn you it's not good. I've eaten takeaways, lollies, chips ... bad, bad, bad!! I really slip up when I'm not in my regular routine. And I have to admit I had a couple of emotional binges too.

With Bill doing the shifting of furniture by himself we was exhausted and crabby the next day. I was tired too so that didn't make for any romantic talk lol. A couple of times I decided that's it, I'll teach him a lesson ... I'll eat this whole bag of chips by myself ... I deserve it after that episode! lol How stupid!! But at the time it was quite a reasonable expectation .... yeah right!!!

I'm so frustrated at myself ... goal is just around the corner and every 100g grams I lose is a hard earned effort ... then in one week I stuff it up and probably gain a kilo (6-10wks of losses gone down the drain!!! ... grrrrr!!!)

Not much I can do about it right now but get back into routine and back ontrack. Really don't want to go to weighin tomorrow but I need to. If I don't go there'll be two weeks worth of damage to fix.

Argggghhhh!!!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.4kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

shifting day

A quick update to let you guys know i'll be offline for a couple of days. It's shifting day today .... let's go!!!!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.4kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

I'm Lighter!!

Awww shucks ... thanks guys, dunno bout a beach babe (you guys are making me blush lol) but I'm getting there :)

Went to weigh in tonight not really knowing if I'd lost or gained. I felt slim and my jeans kept falling down today but I put that down to them stretching (not wanting to get my hopes up)

Then I went and had a big lunch ... duh!!! I usually eat pretty light on weighin days. So thought I'd blown any loss i would have had.

So was excited to see a 200g loss show up. My leader was waiting for my response and was relieved when I was happy. She said a lot of people complain about a loss like that. I told her I'm so close to goal now that anything is fantastic. I'm plodding my way down there. The exciting thing is I've had 5 losses in 6 weeks (with only a 100g gain one week)

I always look at it this way (and tell myself on my way home from weigh in everyweek I have a loss, especially a small one) That I am lighter right now than I was last week!! I don't care how much by ... I'M LIGHTER!!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.4kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

A girls gotta have timeout

I had a wonderful day to myself yesterday. I had to go to Hamilton (1.5hrs drive away) to get my stitches out and needed to stock up on shop stuff while there.

Left at 9am, stitches out at 10.45pm, then I decided to get my nails backfilled and painted. yay pampertime for me!!

The only damper on the day was the stomach cramps I was getting. Although not painful in themselves it was the fear of what it was going to turn into ... (horrid thoughts of rotavirus plagued my brain all day)

Last night I felt pretty yuck ... not nausous just drained and lethargic. But this morning I woke up fine. I was actually surprised when I woke up and it was morning. I had really expected a rough nite. But hey I'm not complaining.

So today I'm bouncing off the walls again! And my bowels got a good emptying out yesterday (ok sorry for the details) but I'm normally a "once a week girl" ,... so 5 times in one day has made me feel SOOOO SLIM today!!!! lol

I even got my bikini out to try it on again. Did I mention I bought myself a bikini in Aussie?? It fits perfectly but there's a few small tweakings I need to do on my body before it's wearable in public.

After this morning's tryon I'm very close to looking good! Yeah baby!!! Once I finally get there, I'll take some pics.

Now I just need the sun to come out!
Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.6kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

cutting tags off

Julie ... I totally know where you come from. Although everything seems to have turned to custard since moving here to Waihi Beach, I choose to see it has a battle before the reward. I'm really pumped at the moment to see what challenges we can overcome. After all ... as they say ... what doesn't kill us can only make us stronger. I really believe this!!

Today is uneventful ... yay what a relief!! lol No kids threw up ... no diareah!!

Day off in the shop ... considered our weekend. We have staff working in the shop Thursdays/Fridays to give us two days off. This week I really needed time off. Most "weekends" I tend to help out in the shop. (yeah I know Im addicted lol!) But not today ... I needed the break. We did not much today! Bill went across to do the banking, then we just blobbed around the house all day. Nice change!

I took a new update photo a few minutes ago to show you guys the new dress I bought in Aussie. Can you believe it ... size 16!!! lol ... I nearly didn't buy it because of the huge sizing but I've always wanted an asian style trim fitting dress. The lady claimed it was small sizing ... yeah whatever!!! lol But it looked good so I bought it anyway. I'll just cut the tags off.

I heard a statistic the other day (can't remember where) that 60% of woman cut the tags off their clothes so they don't have to look at the size!!! What's with that?? Not like anyone else is going to see it and do they think they are going to forget the size they bought it as ... yeah right!!! Any size I bought as a size 24 (the size I used to be) was etched in my memory forever!!!

But the photo says it all ... I don't care it was a size 16 (I'm normally a size 10/12 now). As I was buying it another lady asked me about the sizing. She's normally a size 16/18 and she had to get a size 22 ... see? I'm not pulling your leg! lol

Not much else to tell today ... what a relief! lol

Catcha!
Lyn:)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.6kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Not Again!!!

Firstly, your encouragement is awesome!! It really boosts my day to know people have taken the time to say something so nice. Thankyou bucketloads!!!

I'm handwriting this entry on a scrap of paper while I'm at the shop. I've lived here for the past three days (except for the few hours of sleep). Hence the lack of updates.

The horrid vomiting/diarreah bug (Rotavirus) has hit us again!! When Jordan got sick a couple of weeks ago we waited for the others to get it too... but it didn't seem to happen and just when we breathed a sigh of relief, guessing it was an allergy, Malachi got hit with it on Tuesday. Then this morning Jese threw up everywhere and Bill also woke up feeling nausaus and threw up.

So I've done two 14hr days and a 9hr day today in the shop. We figure the more I stay away from home the more likely at least one of us can stay well.

I'm really feeling drained today, asking myself how much more can our family take??

I'm generally a pretty positive person. I occasionally get down but bounce back pretty quickly. Determination in my theme for the day (no, make that a theme for the year!! lol)

With shifting day looming closer (only 2wks away) hope we can all be well for those few days.

On the eating front I've been a perfect angel. I had a few celebration drinks on Monday night to reward my 200g loss this week and have earnt back the points already.

The lollies haven't overcome me this week. It's helped with having these stitches in my mouth (from having my wisdom tooth out). I get the stitches out on Friday.

As always, I'll keep you posted as to how we get on.

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.6kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

whadya know??? wowsas!!

Another 200g lighter ... wahooo!!! Happy camper tonight!

Not much else to say ... I didn't expect any loss let alone a 200g one so yay!!!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.6kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

To cut or not to cut?

From to

I was so excited to see a New Zealand version of Extreme Makeover advertised to be on 20/20 (documentary program) last night. I waited with anticipation all day. I absolutely love those makeover shows.

I have considered have cosmetic surgery done on my thunder thighs and flabby tummy. But I always said I would wait till I had been at goal for at least 6mths before I did anything as drastic as that. I didn't want surgery to be a quick fix, a magical way to suddenly be at goal, but a polishing of the gem (if you know what I mean)

Anyway I was utterly discusted with the documentary. The lady had $30,000 worth of surgery done (for free) and I honestly couldn't really tell the difference. I thought Oh my gosh if she had that much done then imagine how pathetic my $8000 worth would do?? If I did ever get it done I would get liposuction on my thighs and a tummy tuck (to remove my excess flabby skin and stretchmarks).

But I am seriously changing my mind after the show last night. I know it's not supposed to be a miracle "suddenly I'm slim" cure... but hello you'd think you could see the difference between the before and after shots ... I couldn't!!

Anyway ... onto today ... I did well with my eating yesterday finishing on 17.5pts. Considered having a second dessert around 10pm but thought better of it, remembering that I was actually full after the first dessert a few hours before. So just saved my 2.5pts instead.

I drank 1.5ltrs of water .... wahoooo!!! Just hope this extra water doesn't show up on the scales tonight. I have found that in some past weeks that if I drink lots of water the night before weighin I have a misterious gain. Oh well it's the big picture I have to think of not one weighin result.

I'm really hoping for a loss tonight. I feel slimmer but I just really don't know without having the home scales working. Made me realise how much I rely on them as a guide (I usually only weigh myself every 2 or 3 days).

No matter what the result is I have to be happy with myself for my good eating/lack of alcohol this week. I'm just hanging out to get below my lowest mark ever again (72.8kg).

I'll update you tonight with weighin results ... as always ... wish me luck!!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.8kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg