Stop the torture

In the words of Shrek 2: "I took some magic potion... and now I'm seeeeeexyy!!!" lol
Funny how some days you just feel slim and for no reason at all (well other than the 18mths of hard work losing weight lol)... I'm hoping this means I'm in for a small loss tonight. Even a 100g I'll be happy with.
Looking back over the last week, yes I have had a few moments where I have indulged in bad food (like the pizza mum ordered for dinner) but in looking a little closer at the weeks choices
... the pizza - I only had 2 pieces
... dinner out - chose a low point friendly tomato based curry
... lunch at McCafe - got a smoked chicken salad wrap and a Choc Frappé and asked for trim milk (ice and milk with choc flavouring)
... so really when I think I have done badly because I went out for dinner to an Indian restaurant, had Pizza Hut one night, went to McCafe's for lunch ... but ... in all those situations I made wise choices and my alcohol levels have been way down (4 glasses for the week)
So I have to stop being so hard on myself and instead congratulate myself for making the good choices in bad situations that I did.
Whether I have a loss or a gain tonight ... I have to be happy with myself!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.2kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

A few more to look at

Sorry for the lack of updates. We've been away for the past 3 days travelling all over the country looking at dairies.
We left on Saturday and went down to Otorahonga to see a dairy that was supposedly doing $17,000 a week. It was a huge store ... like a mini supermarket. It had 6 isles and 2 checkouts. But was in such a bad state. The shelves were barely stocked infact alot were totally bare! The floors dirty and the shelving units rusty. It was situated quite far off the road and had a brand new 6mth old Woolworths supermarket across the road.
We could both see potential. By stocking the shelves and cleaning the whole place up we could possibly make a go of it. But with the new supermarket across the road and being in such a small town really made us nervous. It would be a huge risk and we couldn't see how they could be doing $17,000 turnover a week ... no way! He was asking $150,000 for it, too much in our minds. We had thoughts of putting an offer for $50,000. But really we both had doubts in our minds that even after fixing it up whether it would work.
So we thought we would wait and see what else we would find to compare.
We went from there to mum and dad's in Hamilton. Left the kids with them and Bill took me out for dinner. A really lovely evening!! We don't get many chances to go out alone so cherished the moment! He took me to an indian restaurant and I ordered a tomato based curry chicken on steamed rice. Really nice and probably quite low in points but no real way of knowing.
Then we went and played a couple of games of pool. Bill and I used to do that all the time during our dating years. I won 2 out of 3 games ... so yay!
Then Sunday we went across to Tauranga to see two more dairies. The first a small one, really tiny infact... but its right on the main street of Tauranga with a bus stop and post box right out the front door. A McDonalds across the road and a new complex being built 2 doors down with a Pizza place, Video Ezy and Subway going in January next year. And they áre only asking $69,000 all up including stock and it's doing $7,000 p/w turnover. At this stage they are only stocking lollies, chips, cigerettes, icecreams, drinks, pies and magazines. So we could immediately improve it by stocking more grocery items. Although the floor space is small there's still plenty of room for more stock.
The next we looked at was on a fairly busy road but had very little parking. It was a big store with still more potential by getting a liquor license and selling beer and wine. But they were asking $110,000 for it which we could still get but wouldn't leave us with anything left over. This store is doing $7,500 turnover p/w. For the $500 extra turnover a week we don't think it's worth the extra $40,000.
Back to Hamilton Sunday night and Monday morning we went to one in West Hamilton. This one had accomodation at the back (a big positive) but it was in a really, really bad area!! Down a back road with no through traffic and with bars on the windows and doors showed the security risk of the area. We didn't even look inside this one, it just didn't feel right.
So after arriving home and reanalysing all the opportunities we both feel right about the first Tauranga one we saw. Cheap price, fantastic location, still more potential yet. Turnover is a little low but still enough for us to survive on, and hopefully it will go up more when the new eating places go in. It just feels right. We will put an offer in of $5,000 less today ($64,000) and see what happens.
After arriving home yesterday we went to the travel agent to see what our trip to Fiji was going to cost ... wait for it ... $21,000 for 14 days!!!! My eyes popped out of my head when she showed us the figure!! lol. This was for all 6 of us and going out to the outer island resort of Castaway island.
The other option she priced out was for Shangri La's Fijian Resort on the main island. They have heaps of cool pools and a kids club in which they will do fun things with the kids all day and have a personalised nanny for Jese for just $5 a day. All the kids eat free too!! All this for $10,500.... still alot and more than I had expected but alot cheaper than $21,000!!
I'm having second thoughts as to whether we still go. It's such alot of money that could be used else where. But as Bill reminded me we have the money now and we would never be able to afford it at any other time and we all certainly need a break.
I had organised for a guy to come fix the mould spot on our carpet yesterday. He turned up and asked if we wanted to save money. Sure I said (like anyone would say anything different!! lol) He said it would cost between $90 and $100 normally but he could do it for $50 today if we paid cash. I was keen of course but as soon as I agreed he said he would ring his boss and cancel the job. It wasn't until then that I realised what he actually meant. I really didn't know what to do or say. His boss immediately rang me back to find out if we actually were cancelling. And the scaredycat that I am I passed the phone over to Bill and asked him to explain. While he was telling this guy that his employee was ripping him off doing cash jobs under the table the guy came into the room and over heard Bill talking to his boss. He then took off to his car and we heard it start up. Bill told the guy to ring his employee and sort it out because we wanted the work done and didn't want to be in the middle of anything nasty.
A few minutes later the guy came back inside and started working on the mark. I asked him what the story was and he said that yep it was still $50 cash. When I paid him he said that when his boss rang to tell him we got a friend of ours to do it. I just felt sick about the whole thing.
His boss rang us back later in the afternoon to ask if we had infact got a friend to do it. Bill said NO WAY. Apparently he had suspected this guy was doing the dirty on him for a while but could never catch him. He was appreciative of our honesty. This guy got the boot because of us and I was terrified he would come stalk us down. He looked pretty rough, so we locked up the house extra tight last night. I really don't need anything like this adding to our life dramas!!! Just hope we did the right thing.
On the eating front ... hmmm ... I've made wise choices ... sometimes lol. Only had 2 glasses of wine in the last 4 days but gave in to the icecream offer last night. Bad, Bad, Bad!
Been too scared to jump on the scales but my clothes still feel lose. Infact bought a size 10 jersey on the weekend. I thought it was too tight at first but Bill bought it for me anyway. I think it was actually the fact that I'm not used to having hugging clothes on because I got heaps of compliments that day on how slim I was looking.
On that positive note I'll sign off!
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.2kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

And I thought I was stressed before!

What a roller coaster ride!!! Stress peaks at it's limit at the moment!!

Here's the updates ...

The guy we had through at the open home last Sunday made an offer (pretty good knowing the first person to view the property wanted to buy it)

But he offered $20,000 below our bottom dollar so we turned it down and told the agent if he came up at least $10,000 more we may look at it.

The agent then came back last night with a second offer from him of another $5,000 ... which we turned down again. Meanwhile we have had another two ladies come through to view the house yesterday, one was keen the other wasn't so sure.

The house is advertised in the property press this week and another open home this weekend. We're also going to get it listed on www.open2view.com

One the other side ... we understood from our bank manager that as long as we had a 40% deposit for the business there wouldn't be a problem with finance but have since found out that they require some sort of building/house as security for this. And because a superette is only the business itself not the buildings we have no security even tho we will have around $120,000 cash deposit.

So basically this cuts out any options of getting finance from a bank. At first I was devistated and my immediate reaction was to pull the house from the market.

But after talking to Bill about it and getting over the initial shock we decided we can still do it by buying a freehold superette with no finance. Which basically means buying a smaller store doing a smaller turnover but with no loan repayment fees means everything we make will be money in our back pocket. We can then start over saving for a deposit on a house straight away. We both feel good about this option. But what it does mean is that we need every dollar out of this house sale that we can get.

The original dairy we were looking at is now too highly priced and we feel it's a little too isolated too (located in Awakere, 10mins from Whakatane)

We've seen another one for sale in Waihi which sounds good and is in our price range to buy freehold.

On the eating front ... it's not a pretty sight!! Mum and dad came back from their Aussie trip yesterday and brought back a box of chocolate macadamias! My favourite!!! With all the stress I couldn't resist them looking at me and I'm embarrased to admit I ate the whole box (bar about 5).

Weigh in tonight and I'm hoping to make it if Bill makes it home early enough from work.

Till the next episode ... I'll keep you posted!
Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.2kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

First Open Home

The house was immaculate today ... I mean IMMACULATE ... not a fly spot to be seen, not a blemish on any window, not a crumb on any floor!

Found a wonderful new tool. One of those squeegy thingys that those intersection guys use for car windows. Bill bought it for the house windows and it works fantastically and is so quick and easy! It has a sponge on one side and squeegy on the other. Each window only took us a minute and the whole house was done in no time at all.

The open home was at 2pm-2.45pm this afternoon. We were a little annoyed that the agent was late (only by a few minutes, but still late). We saw cars driving by slowly at about 1.45pm. We had 2 lots through (not as many as the agent had hoped) but one of them sounded keen and was going to bring his wife back to have a look. Considering there was no advertising done yet, I think it was a pretty good effort for a first one.

Hoping a better response for next weeks open home after a week of advertising.

Eating went out the window this weekend. Bill brought home fish and chips for dinner last night and I was too buggered to cook myself anything different. For such a high point meal it was discusting!!! lol... my tastebuds have definately changed.

Then today when the open home was on we went to Burger King. I ordered their lightest burger (chicken one) but I'm sure it was still high in points.

I'm so impatient I just want this house sold so we can get on with our lives ... it's just so frustrating!!!

Till tomorrow,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.2kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

How dare they!!!!

Ok I'm having a vent out session here ...

Sadly I am losing another fellow journaler due to a stupid person/s who decide to make a dumb comment!!!! It makes me so mad!!!

This is not pointed at any of my readers as I always get nothing but support from you guys but I just feel I need to get this out there!!!

To have a website and journal is a sacrifice!!! It really is ... it takes time, commitment, energy, website knowledge and much more!!! So many weightloss websites are started and soon start to drop off. So when someone as committed to their site (as Jo is) updating almost everyday, is bombarded by someone's stupidity it really gets me mad. The 2 people that wrote those horrible things obviously don't know how much effort it takes to put ourselves out there for others to read about. How dare they comment like that!!

If I want to write about something on this site that is totally up to me... because I write it, I created it and ultimately it is mine (of course for all you others to enjoy too)... but if I decide half way through that I want it to become a passionate site for marshmellows because that's what my life revolves around then so be it!! That's my choice... hence if Jo wants it to be about her darling baby then so be it!! That's her decision!! Who are we to question that?

Weightloss is something that fits into our lifestyle ... and very soon the two become one. So everything that effects our life effect our weightloss ... hence why I write about anything and everything on here because ultimately it all effects our weightloss!! Jo's baby is her life at the moment and that is totally natural and everything I would expect to happen after such an amazing miracle occuring!

So Jo if you are reading this ... please, please, please don't let two idiots manipulate you into stopping your website. So many people are there for you in support. You site is so much more than two people!!

There, I feel better for getting that out! :) lol

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.2kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

No buyers yet

I didn't track yesterday... not sure why. Didn't go offtrack just didn't record anything.

Back into it today.

Thanks for your comments on Omegatrend. I did some research on the net yesterday and came to the same conclusion. Alot of time and money needed to get anything back. Just have a yuck feeling about it so we're not going to persue anything in that area.

Feeling a little on edge the fact that no one has been through the house yet. I know it's only been on the market a week. I think I was expecting the same amount of interest we got when we last sold. Last time we got our first offer in the first week. Need to have a bit of patience I know.

Not much else has happened. We have an open home this Sunday so hopefully something will come of that.


Later!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.2kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Home run ...

Yay another 1.5kg gone!! Makes up for my horrible 1.3kg gain last week!

I finally feel like I'm back on track and doing this! Now 2.2kg away from goal. I just need to do what I did last week this next week. People often ask me how I stay motivated for so long and I think the answer is just that ... you only have to do it for one day ... then one more day ... then one more ...

Look at the moment in time that you are in now. You can't change anything else so block everything out of your mind and focus on the now and what you can do now to achieve your goals. And before you know it you'll be looking back realising you have come so far.

I think that's why this journal has been so important for me. It's helped me to focus on the now. I think weightloss is mostly mental... If you can get your brain sorted the body will follow.

Bill and I had a sad reality check yesterday. Lauren came out to us after she was supposed to have gone to bed, crying her eyes out. She asked if she could have a talk with us. After a few cuddles we got out of her that she was really upset about moving and losing her friends. When we moved to Hamilton all the kids were sweet about it. Not a tear was shed. But I think it was because they knew they were coming back so therefore in their minds it was just a long holiday. But this time we probably won't be moving back. It really brought it home to us how this will effect the kids.

We had originally planned on leaving the kids with someone while we went on our overseas holiday but both Bill and I are thinking we will take them with us now. It will give them something special to look forward to. I know some resorts have a kids program thing that involves the kids all day giving us a little break for a bit, yet still giving them something to do.

Had a friend of Bill's come talk to us last night about a thing called Omegatrend. Sounds interesting but I guess I'm such a skeptic at heart. It just sounds too good to be true, which usually means it is too good to be true. If anyone has had any experiences (good or bad) with them let me know.

Well I'm feeling pretty happy with myself today. I used to feel guilty about being proud of my achievements ... but this weightloss experience has taught me to cherish the up moments because they help you get through the downs.

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.2kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Tidy, Tidy, Tidy

Another day rolls round ...

I did well with my eating yesterday. Decided after dinner that I really wanted something sweet. I was fighting with myself for quite awhile and finally decided on a hot chocolate at 1pt keeping me under points for the day ... another success.

We have the team of agents coming through to view the house and they'll be taking photos to go up on their website. I'll let you know the link as soon as it's up so you can all go have a look.

Keeping the house tidy is a full time job at the moment. Normally I do a tidy up in the morning after the kids have gone to school and then once after the kids are home from school. The house get's quite messy in between. But with the potential of a purchaser coming through at any given time means I have to have the house immaculate continually. Very tiring!!

I managed to cover up Jese's artwork on the wallpaper by getting a paint colour that matched and painting over it. Quite an extreme measure but the only thing that worked ... well kinda ... you can still notice if you look hard but hopefully they won't notice till after they have paid for the house lol.

Well better go get the house tidy again. Scales are still being nice to me and hopefully will reward me with a loss at tomorrows weighin.

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 74.7kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

Rich, creamy, yuck and full of points!!

I've spent the last two days spring cleaning (in the middle of winter lol). We got it done in plenty of time for the agent to arrive... infact 1.5hrs early so that was good.

And our house is officially on the market. I am at peace with it now and infact feel quite excited after the agent seemed to think we would get a good price... infact he has a few buyers lined up already to have a look through the place.

The agent wanted me to pack up my computer and desk while the house is on the market to give more space in the family room .... does he not know my computer is my lifeline at the moment!!! lol. I'll have to sort that one out because there is no way I can pack this away for what could be 3mths while the house is on the market.

We have found a dairy we quite like too but we're not sure of the exact location yet... gotta find out a little more yet. But it has 3 bedroom accomodation included with it (an important factor for me so we can be together rather than Bill doing long hours somewhere else) All we know is it is just out of Auckland in a country settlement. It's doing a very healthy turnover and so far seems good and within our price range.

I had a friend ring me out of the blue yesterday to say she was in Auckland for a visit. So I went and had dinner with her last night. We went to the Loaded Hog right in the city. Was a great night catching up with her and I managed to not drink (given I was driving) ... just a glass of water. Although the main I ordered was so rich!! I gag at the thought of how many points it was!! Don't even want to know lol. I didn't finish it but I'm sure it was still probably a whole days eating in one small plate.

Saturday night we had some friends over to watch the rugby. I had a few drinks but tracked them all and infact came under points for the day ... wahoo!!

Hope my meal last night didn't blow my whole weeks good work away!

Well I'm off to update my nibbling page and check up on what everyone else has been up to


Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 74.7kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

I'm sooo doing this!!!

For some reason my main website seems to have been down for the last 24hrs. Hoping this is just a server problem and will be sorted soon. Apologies for anyone trying to get to it. That's why my graph link didn't work yesterday.

Onto me .... I'm bouncing off the walls today ... I am soo motivated!! The scales are down today.

It's funny when we are eating badly we dread weighin day but when we've been good weighin day can't come soon enough!!

We have a real estate agent coming round to see the house tomorrow. So have to have it immaculate by then... busy day ahead for me!!

Came in under points again ... gonna have a blow out tonight ... don't worry I'll still stay within my weekly points but I have a few saved up now and today is my ultra-hi point day. Today is our 7th day without alcohol so we're celebrating with some friends and a few drinks lol ... ... did I say that? lol ... Difference being this time I will point them all out and I will be the one doing the pouring so I can moniter the strength!!

Not much else to talk about ... I hope my site comes up again soon ... starting to get me worried. I have alot of valued information on that site!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 74.7kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

I'm NOT going back there

I had one of those lightswitch moments yesterday when I updated my graph. I saw the line go straight up and fears of 10yrs ago came flooding back!

When I lost weight the first time with Jenny Craig 10yrs ago I did amazingly losing 1kg -1.5kg every week for a whole year. Over that year I lost over 40kg and got down to 65kg. My goal at the time was 62kg and I found the last 3kg incredibly hard to lose. At the 65kg mark I went overseas to America for 2mths and with travelling round living in hotels and eating out every meal as expected I gained back some of what I lost. Even tho I ate the healthiest choices and exercised in hotel pools and walked, walked, walked. From memory it was only 5 or 6kg but I felt like such a failure.

When I arrived back in New Zealand I was welcomed with the news that I had been chosen to appear in a Jenny Craig ad and had to fly out the following day to Austrailia to start filming. They wanted me to come in for a final weighin and photos. On finding out I had put on 6kg I was told I no longer could do the advert. Even tho I had still lost over 30kg all I could think about was the 6kg I gained and of course was devastated.

My feelings yesterday were the same. Like I was in a de ja vu reliving the thoughts of nearly hitting goal but not quite and bouncing back up again.

This time it's different tho... I'm on a lifelong eating plan. I will continue to have ups and downs but I have a plan now how to overcome those ups.

This lightswitch moment was just what I needed to concrete my motivation to finally get all this weight off and reach my goal .... and stay there!!

I did fantastically with my eating. Infact came in under points, drank 1500mls of water (1500mls more than I have been drinking) and onto my 6th day without alcohol.

After my fantastic day yesterday I jumped on the scales this morning expecting it to be back down to 73kg again ... but sadly no lol. I know it takes a while to show up but subconsously I felt slim and thought the scales might show that. But hey I'm in for the long haul here and happy to wait for the results :)

Better get this long post posted before I bore you all to sleep! lol

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 74.7kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

But I sooo deserved to drink

I was rather shocked at my weighin result last night ... 1.3kg GAIN!! I was expecting a gain ... but that much??

I drove home, had my pity party, felt sorry for myself, bought KFC for the family for dinner ... and ... got given an extra large fries which I gorged myself with in pure PITY!!! lol

But ... on the way home I also considered (very seriously too) buying a bottle of bourben and drinking it to wollow away my sorrows!! ... but I didn't ... I snapped myself out of it. Told myself to grow up and act like the success I am!

I can commend this action to a diary entry I read yesterday of a very inspiring american lady.

Here's an exert from her diary ... It's long but well worth the read!! ...

"I've shared in the past how I feel that negative self talk has no place in my life. I no longer allow any negative self talk, at all. Well, okay if I do something stupid and I know better, then I will certainly take myself to task for it. I try to treat myself the way I'd treat a child. I would discuss with a child when he makes poor decisions. I might get irritated and frustrated with him at times, but I would NEVER verbally abuse this child intentionally. So if I wouldn't do it for a child, I won't do it to myself.

I've found that, for me, the more "self talk" I do the better. I have two sort of "forms" of self talk.

Encouraging:
I simply tell myself over and over again whatever it is I'm trying to get through my thick, stubborn skull. If it's "I love to run" I think of 100 reasons why I love to run, need to run, get to run, am lucky I CAN run, etc. It's a broken record type of thing. Then when I *do* run, I practically fall all over myself in praise and adoration about what an amazing, wonderful, stupendous, runner I am and how proud I am that I did it, that I'm keeping on doing it, that I'm not quitting, etc.

It feels kind of "strange" at first, but let's face it. We're not celebrities. We can't hire people to walk around behind us and cheer us on all day. Would that we could...would that we could. Haha! But, we are always with us. I mean every time I turn around, there I am. I can't get rid of me. Since I'm here all the time and I'm constantly wanting to have input into my life in the form of self talk, I make it constructive.

No negative self talk. No no no. So I intentionally talk myself "into" things. I've talked myself into TONS of things.

I talked myself into hating myself; thinking that because I was fat I didn't deserve lots of things; into thinking I was a loser; into not taking care of my body, etc. You do it too. I can guarantee it! You have talked yourself into feeling bad about yourself. We ALLL do it!

So why not talk ourselves into feeling proud, strong, being athletic, eating right, etc. ? ? ? ? Doesn't it make sense?

Butt-kicking:
We all whine at times and we all have our lovely moments when we mentally stomp our feet, ball up our fists, and throw a tantrum because we don't want to do something. I will admit to being the most spoiled brat on the face of the earth at times. I want what I want when I want it how I want it and that's that. Any problems with that? Ha! When the spoiled brat in me surfaces and says, "I don't WANT to do this!" or "But I WANT to eat that." I basically say "Shut up and grow up, girl. You are nearly 40 *gasp wheeze* years old and you're acting like a two year old. It is what it is. So do what's right!"

And then I push the "whine" away and just do it.

I did this yesterday. I was running in the Race for the Cure and the first part is a really steep hill. I'm pretty sure it runs at a 90 degree angle to the road. Yup. I'm sure of it. So of course my brat shows up and says "I don't want to run up this hill! This is hard! This sucks!"

Well what was I realistically going to do? Stop and turn around? I'm SURE!

So after listening to her whine for about one minute I said, "Shut up. The hill is here, the finish line is over there. Now do it. Don't think about it. Don't whine about it. Don't complain about it. Just grow up and do it. What's the alternative? Quitting? That's not even a remote possibility."

Then I pretty much "end" the discussion by mentally slamming the book on it. I don't even let those thoughts come back into my head.

I use that for exercise. (Did it today, in fact, when I did a "brick" which was a 12.3 mile bike ride followed by a 3.4 mile run--didn't "feel" like it, so as soon as I recognized I was starting to whine internally I basically told myself to shut up, put the whine out of my head, and keep running. I felt SO proud when I finished and with a really good time!) I use it for food temptations. "Well you're not going to eat it, so shut up." I use it for things I don't want to do, like working on Saturday. "Grow up, you knew you were going to have to work this week to quit complaining and just DO it."

Strangely this seems to work. After all, if I'm going to be right there next to me with my yap running all the time, I might as well make it worthwhile yapping!

From MsTeechur Dot Com ... go check her out ... wow!!!

So on that positive note .... I WILL DO THIS, I WILL SUCCEED, I WILL GET TO GOAL!!!


Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 74.7kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg

New Daily Nibbling Page

Today's a new day and I'm ready to face it! Ready to face the music at weighin tonight ... ... maybe ... lol

My eating has been really bad for the last month or so. Okay not hugely, gormangingly bad, but not good either. I'm starting to feel out of control of my eating again. You understand what I mean? I haven't gone out and eaten like crazy ... like there's no tomorrow or anything ... but I'm not in control ... I'm just eating what's there, not planning it.

I know this is just laziness. I stopped tracking about the same time I starting losing control ... wow look at that what a coincedence!! lol

I know what I have to do ... get back to that tracking.

My theory (and honestly I thought it was a good one) was that I've been doing this for over 18mths now so surely I know how to eat. And for the first couple of weeks I did really well without tracking. I was able to still lose a little, eat sensibly and keep it going. But little by little I've noticed my portions creeping up, my food choices change and the once occassional treat becaming a daily occurance.



To start off my week ... Bill and I have committed to one whole week without alcohol ... not a drop ... for a whole week starting last Sunday and we are up to day 3 so far ... still going good!

So here goes ... I'm back to it again. I've started by setting up a 'Daily Nibbling' page below so that for those of you who can't really be bothered reading through what I eat you can skip it. But to keep me accountable and for any of you who are curious as to what I stuff in that mouth of mine each day go check it out! lol

I also want to ask a favour of you guys ... if you see it not being updated at least 5 days a week ... give me a virtual boot up the butt!!! Honestly!! I need it ... I need to stay accountable and I need to do this. Sheesh I am soooo close here with only a few kilos to go, I can't go sabotaging myself now! So this is it!!! I'm doing it!!! See you at the finishline!!!



Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 73.4kg
WWGW 71kg
PGW 65kg