Not too bad

Christmas day has been and gone and I feel like I am a bit back in control ... not totally tho. (there's still choccies sitting at mums that I can't resist everytime i go there)

Christmas day was fun but I didn't have as much control as I had planned. I way overate. I was fine for the Christmas lunch but when we went to a cousins house for christmas dinner I just couldn't control myself ... I ate, ate, ate! Then boxing day wasn't much better. I hadn't felt so out of control in the whole year gone by as I did the last few days. So I decided enough was enough and went out for a run on Saturday morning, then that afternoon Bill wanted to take the kids for a swim in the river so I took Jese in the pushchair and went for another half hour walk. And on Saturday Bill and I went for a run/walk down the river for an hour. I figured if I couldn't control my eating then the least I could do was exercise more to try and compensate.

Then yesterday off I went to ww weighin. The exercise must have worked because I had a 600g loss. Given that I had such a huge gain of 1.3kg last week that went someway to working it back. So I am now again under 80kg. I'll be so glad when all the leftovers and chocolates have all gone!! lol

WW released a new program this week so hoping that will reinspire me to get back into it 100% again. But ultimately I am happy with how I am going and as long as I keep plodding away I'll be fine.

Hope everyone had a great christmas and enjoy the new Year.

Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.7kg
GW 65kg

what a shocker!! 1.3kg gain!!!!

I am now typing on a brand new computer... finally! My computer lease place has decided to replace the other hardrive that was giving me so many problems. And I have been working on it all day without one single freeze. Feels great to have a machine that's NORMAL! lol

Weigh in gave me a bit of a shock yesterday ... a 1.3kg GAIN!!! lol... I have to laugh ... that's the only way to cope with such a shocker! TOM started today so presuming that had something to do with the huge gain. But in the whole time I have been on ww I have never had such a huge gain before even at TOM. (largest before this was 200g!!) The other thing I thought of was the roast mutton I cooked this week. (couldn't turn down a free roast of mutton) but it was pretty fatty and I was so hungry that day I ate a large helping. Must have been higher in points than I thought.

Probably have to think of it as a possitive in that giving me a shocker gain the week before Christmas will hopefully make me watch what I eat this week.

Went to Auckland yesterday to choose the kitchen/bathroom/ensuite floor and wall tiles. Was soooo exciting!!! I found a really cool tile that had brown and charcoal grey in it (quite rustic) to match with the walls and carpet (carpet = charcoal grey and wallpaper = fawn). And the wall tiles we have gone for a nuetral whitewash offwhite. By white wash I mean each tile looks like it has had a brush coat of white overtop with each tile being unique and different. Then we have a border of tiles going the full circumference of the bathroom. Hard to explain on here but as soon as I have some pics I'll post them up for you.

Roast turkey roll for dinner tonight. Bill got given it in a Christmas hamper from his new job. And it's 97% fat free!!!

That's about it for today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.3kg
GW 65kg

Not long to go now

This will be my last update for a few days. My computer goes back up to Auckland tommorow morning (hopefully for the last time) to be sent away for testing and hopefully replaced. Fingers crossed it will play up the same for them as it does for me (always the way tho lol)

Went to a family BBQ lunch today and found myself picking at the food on the table. (my old pre-ww habits creeping back) I do really well when I don't have temptations in front of me. At home I don't have anything in the house that can lead me astray but in situations where I can't control what is put infront I find myself slipping up. Old habits die hard I guess.

Weigh in tomorrow and I'll be happy with a stay-the-same. Over christmas my goal is to maintain. Not going to worry about actually losing for the moment until after New Years.

Only 7wks to go till we move into our house. Wow time has just flown by. After Christmas and New Years, then my birthday in early Jan, then Malachi's birthday mid Jan, our wedding anniversary mid Jan, and then it will only be a couple of weeks to go. I can see the next short while will fly by too. Sounds good to me lol.

Hopefully the next time I write on here I will be on a new computer (that works properly)

Till then, if I don't get a chance to say it ... HAVE A FANTASTIC CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.0kg
GW 65kg

finally someone actually takes me seriously

Big sigh of relief!! I have just finished the last of my work before Christmas!! Yay ohhh yay!!! I can actually have the whole of next week off. The last time I had a break that long ... wow I don't remember. Can't wait!

Bill is also having 4 days off over Christmas. True Bliss!! Tomorrow will be the first day we have had off together where one of us isnt taking off somewhere. A whole day together ... wow!! All my christmases at once lol.

We got a horrid bill from my computer lease place charging us $325 to fix up my computer. I saw red and wrote them a nasty email to tell them how unhappy I was that I was being charged. After all this computer is only a few months old and it's still not working right even now. I got a phone call the next day to see if they could sort the final problems out. Basically I am disputing that it is a software/virus problem (like they claim) and I'm saying it's a faulty hardrive which is covered under my warranty. But all along they have refused to admit a faulty hardrive. After going over the problems AGAIN on the phone to them the guy goes silent and asks if he can call me back in 10mins. After I get his call back he finally admits that infact it could be a faulty hardrive and for me to send it up to them (again for the THIRD TIME!) and they will send it away to be tested. Finally someone is actually listening to me and I might actually get this computer sorted and working properly!! Took long enough!

Eating??? hmmm ... not bad.. not good. No bad binges or anything but can't say I've been extra good either tho.

Congrats to Leigh ... what a fantastic weightloss this week!!! 1.8kg!! Well done girl!

That's about all for now
Nite all
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.0kg
GW 65kg

Complaining for nothing again ... lol

Very embarrased to say I had a 100g loss at weigh in yesterday after all my complaining about my expected gain... lol. But very happy tho :)

Bill had his first day at his new job yesterday. He said it went well but also turned up after work a very stressed puppy! He drove in in his new Mitsubishi challenger ... wow so nice and sparkling new :) So we spent the rest of the evening taking everyone for drives in it ... mum, dad, my brother, cousin, his wife, my sister and her husband! lol

So nice to have the kids sitting comfortably in the back with even a spare seat. They are used to having 4 kids squashed in the back (including a car seat!). They have done a really good job putting in the extra seats in the back with them matching exactly to the other seats.

I've added the heading/link for the latest update on my front page. Let me know if the link doesn't work properly but I think I have it right.

Make this a short update, this computer has crashed on my twice while trying to do this update (making me retype it all ... I hate that!!)

Catchas later!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.0kg
GW 65kg

It's normal so don't punish yourself

Just been reading everyone's journals this morning and it seems everyone is finding it hard to lose weight at the moment. Don't worry about it! The fact that we are all finding it hard to lose with all the christmas rush, stress and parties shows that it's just that time of year. I too am finding motivation not happening lately. But in the new year it will be reinspiring to get back into it 100% again. The numbers in our ww meeting has dropped heaps and my leader says this is normal for this time of year. Funny how everyone finds the same thing. So don't be hard on yourself if it's not happening for you at the moment. Just plod on doing the best you can, knowing when the new year turns over we can all get back to it.

Not much else to tell today. Had real cravings last night, just couldn't eat enough to satisfy me, so probably went over my points. Once I weigh in tommorow, find out my gain I can put it behind me and get on with the next week with a clean slate.

Bill starts his new job tomorrow. We are both really excited about it. The main thing being he will only be working one late night and the rest finishing at 5pm. Huge luxury for us!! At the moment he is working 3 late nights (finishing at 10.30pm, getting home just before midnight. Then leaving at 6am the next morning). We also get our new car ... wahooo!! Which means I get a car to use down here. For the last 4mths I have been stuck down here without a car. Have been feeling really trapped. Will be nice to have the freedom again.

Later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.1kg
GW 65kg

I'm back finally!

I finally have my computer back again and working properly. They managed to save all my files ... LUCKY!

Went up to Auckland last night for Bills work christmas function. Had loads of fun but went way over my points ... whoops. We had a really good time. Ended up staying in a B&B in Manukau. I was a little uneasy at first being in someone elses home but it worked out really well. Better security for our car and having someone to chat to at breakfast was nice.

Got loads of comments from everyone at the work do about how great I was looking. I kinda forget now that I used to be fat lol. Felt nice to have all the compliments :)

The christmas party finished at midnight and we decided to tag along with some friends to a kareoke bar. But it was a bit hairy with the type of people there so Bill and I got a taxi home instead. By this time it was 2am!! It's been a long time since I've been up that late and especially out doing the club thing ... didn't enjoy that part as much as I used to in my younger days. Geez I must be getting old lol.

It was great having a nite off from my wonderful children too. They spent the night with my sister. I tried to have a sleep in this morning but I'm in such a habit of waking up early I just couldn't do it. Still 8am is a record for me :)

This time away might have an effect on my weigh in on Monday. I deserve whatever happens but hey I had fun anyway lol.

Had an email from a reader to ask if I can put a 'latest updated' notice on my front page. I will try and do this but not sure how it will go given that the website I use for the other parts of my website is horrible, slow and often down. I'll give it a try and see what happens. Haven't got time to sort it at the moment but will try and organise it in the next few days. Another option if it doesn't work out is for you guys to put this page in your favourites list rather than my front page that way you bypass my front page and come straight here. You can still get to the rest of my website by hitting the buttons below... but I'll try the otherway first. Anything to make my site more user friendly has got to be a good thing.


Went and had a look at the house this morning on my way home. They are up to painting the arcitraves (sp) and ceiling... and the pavers have been laid on the outside. Was a bit nervous at first of the brightness in colour of them. (they are a terracotta colour) but I know they will fade in time so not too worried. Sorry I haven't got any updated pics yet.

Better get dinner on given it's 6.15pm already!!
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.1kg
GW 65kg

Happy chappy!! :)

Another 700g bites the dust!! Happy camper I am :) I think the biggest success to celebrate is the fact that this week I underwent stress more than I have had in a long time and a 2day weekend away, out to dinner, drinks, socialising... yet was still able to have a loss. A year ago my decision would have been not to go or not to be on diet. I would have never thought that I could have both ... healthy eating and a life!

Although I was really upset about my decision to close the business the other day ... today I am much more at peace about it ... actually starting to look forward to it. It helps with the workload now knowing there is an end to it.

Fitted my butt into a new pair of sexy pants on Friday last week. Told myself I would only buy a new pair if I could fit into a size 12. That wasn't to be but liked the look of these new ones anyhow ... so what the heck ... size 12 will have to wait till next time ... size 14 still looked great! lol. Felt so amazing to be the star of the show when we went out that night with people commenting to Bill how amazing I looked (after I left of course lol). I felt so much more confident. Was talking to everyone like I didn't have a care in the world. A year ago I would have sat in the back corner hiding behind my glass, arms folded (legs not folded because they were to fat to lol) and glaring at everyone wondering why no one would talk to me. Now it's a totally different story... I'm the one who starts the conversation and suddenly I have lots of people to talk to. FANTASTIC!! Wasn't till this last week that I realised how much I have actually changed.

My computer is still down. Sent it back to Auckland to be looked at today. But it's given me a good reason not to be working and have a breather.

Leigh you have really inspired me to get back into exercise again. I keep saying that lol ... I guess I just gotta do it!

Catchas all later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.1kg
GW 65kg

It's over ... I've had enough

I did a big entry last night telling you all about the wonderful two days we spent away in Auckland. It was fantastic!! Then just as I was finishing my computer crashed and I lost the lot. Then when I tried to reboot I couldnt. My computer has totally lost it again. I am currently on my brothers computer to update you guys on whats happening but doesnt look like my computer will be up again anytime soon. I have to take it back to Auckland on Monday to see what they can do. I am so tired of computer problems. I've decided I can't take the stress of the business anymore and have chosen to close it down. It has been a huge struggle for me to come to this decision. I've spent the last 5 yrs building it up to where it is now. And it has the reputation within the wedding industry now of being the best there is. I have been recommended to clients from the top NZ dress designers and photographers. It's a huge saddness to actually close it down because not only has it been my pride and joy for the last 5yrs but has given us the financial ability to have this computer. But it has gone beyond what I wanted for the family. I am continually stressed about it and my family and homelife is suffering because of it.

We are not in the position where we need the business now. We can quite easily survive on Bill's income alone and I want to be just a mum for a while (while the kids are still young). I'm really burnt out and need a break.

I still have plans on creative things I want to do in the near future but for now it's a close of an era... a sad time for me but it has to be done.

The computer hassles have been the final straw for me. Don't worry I'm not disapearing and will continue my weightloss site as normal. I couldnt be without u guys :) Just not coping very well at the moment... trying hard not to comfort eat.

Might not be able to update again till after my computer is fixed whenever that is. I just want to chuck it out the window at the moment.

Ahhh well such is life. Off to check out the other journalers sites hopefully that will inspire me to cheer up.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

Computer strike

Boy have I had a stressful few days!! On Saturday night in the middle of printing a big 500 item job my computer decided to roll over and DIE!! I figured maybe it was overworked and it probably deserved a few hours off, so left it alone for a bit to cool down (I certainly needed to cool down by now too lol)

But a few hours later and it was no better. Kept giving me an "unmountable boot volume" error and wouldn't even get to the start up screen. I thought ok I can handle this, I'll get my cousin over here first thing Monday to look at it. But even with a few phone calls to a friend (even more expertise than him) I was told my hard drive was f***** (excuse my french). This meant all my work for the last 5 yrs was gone, including the jobs I was working on and due out NOW!! I was really freaking out by this stage. I rang the computer lease place in Auckland to see what they said. Basically they didn't hold much hope for it but to bring it up anyway for them to have a look at.

Cut a long story short ... 2hrs later and alot of ups and downs ... they saved her!! With all files intact!! I tell ya, I could have hugged that guy! I've never been so appreciative of normal life with a normal working computer!! lol

So consequently didn't make it to weigh in yesterday. Will have to wait till next week to see my good results on the scales. I told myself it could have been a bad eating week I couldnt make it to weigh in not a good week ... heheh.

I've got an extension on this job till Thursday. (sounds like I'm a naughty school girl who lost her homework! lol)

Got another pic of the house today ... inside kitchen shot. Went to see it yesterday while I was in Auckland... and fell in love with the kitchen. The colours have turned out far better than I imagined. Kept walking round going "wow,wow,wow". Was a highlight of the day (I've put the pic in the album for you to see).

Came down with a migrane on the way home (around 10.30pm after seeing the last client). Think it was a combination of all the driving and the stress of the last couple of days. By the time I got home I was in tears. I could hardly open my eyes. Walked in the door and flopped into bed. I don't know how Bill does it, driving to Auckland and back each day. Well not long to go now (10wks or so)

I'll go put the kitchen house pic up for you now.
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

snapped under the pressure

Totally cracked stresswise last night. Had a client ring saying they wanted more changes to a sample I had done and we are already running close to deadline. That along with the job I am running late with now meant I blew it! I don't normally consider myself a comfort eater but last night I certainly was.

So I helped myself to a second helping of dinner (meatloaf, not exactly low fat!) then a big bowl of chocolate icecream (lowfat at least) and a ww choc bar. I didn't work the points out ... didn't really want to but dinner and dessert alone was at least 18pts. Oh well, it's one bad day and I have put it behind me today and got back on track.

Have another house pic in my photo album (under new house album) and I have also included a couple of pics of our new car we are getting (under general photos album).

Not much else to tell ... stress levels are still pretty high today and will be until I get this job finished on Sunday.

Catcha later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

Life cycles

Had a slim day today. Woke up feeling like a sexy slim thing :) Isn't it funny how some days our body feels fat yet other days we feel slim? I'm presuming it's my TOM fluid disappearing.

Been 100% on track the last two days. Hasn't been too much of a problem keeping to the 20pts (so far) Although I am really motivated at the moment so might be a little tougher when that drops.

Thanks to those who sent me their congrats!! You guys are awesome!! But honestly I haven't done anything amazing ... just stuck at it ... that's all it takes. I haven't been one of those 1kg a week people ... have had my ups and downs like everyone else ... but I have just kept at it. If I've had a bad week I just put it behind me and think that at the end when I get to goal I won't even remember those gains. I know it feels like the whole world has caved in and I may as well give up when I have a gain ... but that's so not true. We just gotta keep plodding on!!

Bill's boss had been looking out for a second hand Mitsubishi Challenger for us. He came back to Bill the other day and said he couldn't find a good enough one with low enough km's for the price he wanted to pay. So instead he's going to lease one, that means we get it BRAND NEW!!! Wahooo!! We've never had a brand new car before (let alone a Challenger!) We got to choose the colour today. I've really feel so spoilt this year. It just keeps getting better and better. We have had our years of struggling. At times we couldn't afford even to buy food and had rent payments bouncing. I remember one night we had to go out fishing to catch our dinner because we only had 3 potatos in the cupboard and when I tried to cook them up they had blite (sp) all through them. It was cold, wet and not the ideal night for fishing. But we packed the kids up in the car (around 8pm) and set out to find an estuary to put our lines in. 2 hours later we still hadn't caught anything and by now the kids were crying, we were hungry and now cold. We went back home with our tails between our legs. It took all the humbleness we could muster to ring a charity organisation to get a food parcel. I had never ever asked for food before and I felt so ashamed doing it. But it fed us that night and I grew so much through the experience.

Life is full of ups and downs and everything we go through adds to our life experiences. I'm just so grateful for blessings we have had this year.

On that note, I better get these kids fed and ready for bed.
Take care,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

I made it!!! :))

I have done it!!! I am officially a 70's girl!!!! Yeeee Haaaa!!! :)) I was so surprised when the weigher told me my weight, I was really expecting a gain. I'd been a good girl all week but had that 'bloated' feeling with TOM here. So I'm a very happy girl right now! :)

Along with meeting this goal I have to drop down another 2pts a day down to 20 from 22. I'm a bit nervous about how I'm going to cope with this. It should be great for my weightloss if I can do it. I usually use up all my points with none to spare. It's all good tho.

Work is crazy this week. I have 500 cards to have out by Friday!! It's kinda plagueing my brain. I don't really enjoy this time of year ... just tooo busy and stressful.

On that note I'd better get back to it. Skipping a happy dance today tho!! lol

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

the bricks are up!! :)

No news to tell you today. Just a quick update to let you all know that the lack of updates is not because I've been naughty (just the opposite ... yay me! lol) but from the crazy amount of work I have on at the moment (typical summer wedding season). I've been working till 10pm most nights and I'm exhausted!! But can't complain tho.

Have a new house pic for you all to see. The bricks are going up ... wahoooooo!!! I am so happy with the result of our final choice. We had to choose them 3 times... the first time we saw the chosen brick on another house and hated it, rushed back to the builders to tell them we had changed our minds. The second choice they told us a month later that it had be discontinued and finally our third choice, but I'm much happier with this one than any of the others.

We had 'lock up' on our house this week ... with all the doors and garage door installed and completed ... yay!! Off up to Auckland tommorow to see it again!! Can't wait!

Karen, so sorry to hear about Stephan. Hope his tests sort something out for you fast! Jo ... have a fantastic time away!! (i'm green with envy lol). Leigh, I know how horrible it feels with leaking rooves, ours leaked in our last home ... scary stuff!! And don't feel guilty, your boss will get over it. Lynda ... well you just rock!! You stick at it still ... my inspiration!! Your graph looks fantastic!! Shows up all your hard work :)

That's about it for today,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.5kg
GW 65kg

could have been worse

The celebrations last week showed themselves up on the scales at weighin (as expected) with a 100g gain. Could have been worse. I knew I had gained this week. I'm bummed with myself for slipping up already but figure 100g is nothing to worry about. Back on track today.

Had a really stressful busy day with business work. Feeling snowed under again. Have to admit I didn't track today, mostly because I just got too busy. But I ate well all day.

I had a look at the house yesterday and it was so exciting. The most excited I've been yet... all the Gib was up on the internal walls. I could really get a feel for the space in each room now. The family room is far bigger than I imagined, while the dining/lounge was smaller. It really feels like a HOUSE now lol. Before it just felt like a project with some framing and a roof, now I can visualise where furniture will go and how it will all look.

There is a lady from my Auckland ww meeting who has moved in 2 doors down from our new house, so I called by her place to have a chat (and a sneak preview of her lovely new home). It's really cool to know someone in the street before we even move in. They are an amazing couple!! All makes the process of moving into a new location alot easier. They said they love the street, that everyone is really friendly... yay!!

Came home all buzzed, to a house full of negativity (at my parents house now ours) Was such a downer ... I hate that! But not letting my parents get to me this time.

Sorry haven't updated my frontpage yet ... it's getting late and I'm pretty tired. Hopefully get a chance to do it tomorrow.

Catchya!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.5kg
GW 65kg

And the saga continues! :)

Bill got a call from another Pak'n Save owner yesterday asking to see him urgently before he signed the other contract.

So he rushed off to see him after work last night, curious about the details. He was offered a store managers position for one of the 5 biggest Pak 'n Save stores in the country!! He offered Bill $5,000 more again than the job he had just set up along with a company car. But it came with no bonuses and a preassigned company car (not one of our choice). It also meant he would have to commute 1hr each way daily (unless we sold our new house and relocated) But we both felt that $5,000 more wasn't worth that.

So he turned it down. It is such a political decision too. With wanting to own our own store eventually we don't want to get in the bad books of the wrong person, especially if that person has a lot of sway within the company. But overall we both feel we have done the right thing. Pretty overwhelming tho!!

I went off to the craft show this morning with 4kids and a pushchair in tow. Stressful! lol But I survived!

Mum said to me the other day "wow look at you ... all slim!" Huge compliment coming from her! Don't get them too often :)

Off to a BBQ at my sisters tonight, hopefully it won't be too high in points.

Managed to save 4 points yesterday (to make up for my alcoholic splurges at the start of the week)

So far I'm back on track for the week (points wise)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

working back points

You guys are so right ... sometimes we need to be able to celebrate without feeling guilty. I guess it's so inbuilt into our society that it's hard to break.

It all seems a little unreal still. The best part ... Bill becomes a store manager. He is wanting to go through a scholarship scheme and hopefully finance ourselves into our own supermarket ... that's the long term plan. But he needed to be able to train in a New World (that's what we are looking at purchasing). We were looking at him working volantary and going back on the dole while he did his training, but now we don't have to worry about that because he can do his scholarship training at this New World. Next step in the big plan is to clear as much of our mortgage as possible so we can use the capital gain and equity in our home as part finance for our supermarket. But shhhh don't tell anyone ... it's a big secret lol :) (j/k)

The new jeans I got a few weeks ago and starting to feel a little lose on me but I'm not sure if it's from weightloss or them just stretching and losing that 'new jeans tightness'. But hey I'll say it's weightloss lol, works for me!

A big thankyou to all those who have passed on their congrats to me lately!! You guys all rock! Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou!! :) No message goes unnoticed.

Eating has been good today but I haven't had dinner yet. That's usually when I stuff up, or when Bill brings home the alcohol. Mostly I'm good and resist but every now and then when I'm tired, stressed or feeling like a wind down then I give in. I know this is fine every now and then but lately it's been more now than then lol. I never drink a lot tho (usually only 3-4 glasses at the most) so I think that's how I've managed to still get a way with it... and the fact that I save my points up either before or after to work it back. That's what I love about ww, you can stuff up and not have to give up.

That's about all that's happening today, pretty boring, no new jobs lol

Oh before I forget ... new house pic has gone up

Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

Celebration time!!

Bill has taken the job. He ended up being offered $10,000 more than our bottom dollar including a company car. He starts on 15th December. This also means we no longer need to pay for petrol. Of which we are currently paying over $150 per week.

GREAT NEWS!!

Only problem with all this ... I am celebrating too much ... too much wine!! Can't do much about it now except try and work a few points back when I can.

Bill brought home a bottle of peach shnapps, champaign and strawberries tonight .... yummm!!! But very bad, bad, bad! :)

Not much else to tell.
Nite all
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

Job interview went really well

Considering I've such a little amount of sleep I'm feeling rather positive today. Bill got home from work around midnight last night and we were both buzzing so much about his interview that we talked for another 1.5hrs. His job interview went really well. The original package he offered was a little low but after Bill told him what he was currently on the guy seemed very keen to see what he could do and is getting back to us sometime this morning. The package includes a 7 seater 4WD company car so that's a huge saving, considering we were going to buy a car in the new year anyway (our current one only fits 5 people and we have 4 kids) Not quite a done deal yet but looks really good. And the best thing ... he goes back to having Sat/Sun weekends!! For a long time Bill has been on a Mon/Tues weekend which has its benefits but means he can't spend as much time with the kids.

My eating was spectacular yesterday ... I even managed to save 2pts!! Bill came home with a bottle of wine to celebrate last night and I thanked him for it but said no. I sat and chatted with him while he got mildly inebriated (sp) instead... lol... good on him tho ... he deserves it. Bill works very hard at his job and is very good at what he does (for those who don't know he is a grocery manager at a Pak 'n Save Supermarket, with this new job being Store Manager). This new guy had done his research on Bill (ringing all his past bosses as well has Foodstuffs headoffice) and knew all about him. There was a lot of positive things said about him by everyone ... so a nice head sweller for him.

Got another couple of busy days ahead with 113 invites to have out by the end of tomorrow. Better get back to it.

Catcha,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

Great news at weigh in!!

WAHOO!! GUESS WHAT??? I lost 700g this week!!! That is the most I have lost in a veeeery long time ... and I deserved it too lol. I'm wrapped!! Yay, yay, yay!!!

That makes two losses in two weeks ... wahooo! It brings my weight down to 80.4kg so only 500g to go to be my 70's girl. And only 500g to go before I have to drop 2 points a day ... not looking forward to that part lol. I don't know how people survive on 18points ... I've kinda gotten used to my 22pts and grown attached to them lol.

Called by to see the house yesterday ... it's looking really good (sorry no update photo yet ... next few days hopefully). All the windows are in and they've finished the roof on the first storey too. As I was leaving I noticed the door had arrived and took a sneaky peak at it ... to my shock it was the wrong colour!! We had ordered denim blue (the same colour as the roof) but this one was cream. I was so disappointed it overshadowed all my excitement of seeing the house and even my weigh in loss.

So this morning I made Bill get onto the phone to the builders at 9am sharp (I was too scared lol). The receptionist said that they were all in meetings all day and that we would have to ring back tommorow. I was so annoyed!! By that time they would have hung the door and it might be too late to do anything. Then she rang back a few minutes later to say that it hadn't been painted yet and that the cream was the primer coat ... doh!!! I had to eat my words lol. Big stress out for nothing!! lol

Bill is at a job interview as I type this. He got headhunted by an owner of a New World a few days ago for a Store Manager's position. And it is 2mins drive down the road from our new house. Bill has been wanting a store managers position for quite a bit but we thought we were going to have to move out of Auckland to get it. We just have to wait to see what he offers in pay first.

Congrats to Diane who got her 10% medal!! wahoo .. go girl!! Not far to go now :)

Work is going crazy again. I hate it when I have too much work on and it starts piling up around me. I get overwhelmed with it all. Gotta rush off, pick kids up from school and get my paper order from the wholesalers.

I'll keep you posted about Bill's job :)
Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

email someone to say something nice

I just had the coolest email from a ww leader who showed my website before and after pics to her 4 meetings this week. And this is the messages they sent me ...

"You inspire us!
We're proud of you!
Congratulations, you are doing so well!
Don't worry if your weight loss slows down, remember you are still well ahead of target!
We are looking forward to seeing a picture of the 70s gal in your new gym gear!
Keep going!
You are already a success!
We'll be watching you!
Every time you update your website, stop and listen and you will hear our virtual cheers, cheering you on!"

Is the the coolest or what?? I was gobsmacked! People are so cool. It really makes me think every time I think something encouraging about someone else I should tell them. Thoughts pass so quickly but such a small thing can make such a possitive difference to someone else.

I've tried really hard this week staying on track. I had a few drinks with some friends the other night but didn't go overboard and managed to stay within points (using some saved ones). The guys got hungry around midnight and decided to cook up some fatty mutton chops. They smelt so yummy but resisted and microwaved some popcorn instead for us girls ... another proud moment :)

Went out and mowed the lawn for 1.5hrs this afternoon. Worked really hard and earnt lots of points I'm sure.

Weigh in tomorrow. Feeling positive about it but not holding my breath either. Big day tomorrow with 2 consultations on in Central Auckland.

Not much else to tell,
Catcha all Tuesday with weigh in results
Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.1kg
GW 65kg

Ta Daaaaa!!!!

Wow I can't believe I have made it this far ... I have made it to the point of wearing a bikini on the beach!!!!!!

I have spent the last two days body surfing in the waves with the kids and LOVING EVERY MINUTE OF IT!! It's been 15yrs since I last went body surfing. I'd forgotten how good it felt!

Lucky we live here because I'd never go back home otherwise! Heheh!!

Wow ... I made it!!!

Feeling really goood!!

Whoops sorry I forgot to upload the new pic of the house. Have done it now ... so go check it out in my photo album if you want.

I am so back on track now it's not funny!! lol Getting the points calculator did the trick. I have always found tracking one of the hardest things of the program (ohh not counting water .. I find that hard too) yet I know without it there is no way for me to stay focused and in control of what I eat. I guess I find it tedious and boring and I just get so busy that I eat on the run and forget to write it down or just don't get time to write it all down.

But the points calculator is so simple and quick. 2 seconds and it's all done and did I mention how I JUST LOVE GIMMICKS!!! lol Because I have to enter in my points I'm finding I'm being more acurate with myself in regards to portion sizes too.

It's great to feel so in control again!

I wore a top out yesterday that hugged my waistline and chest. I felt sooo sexy lol. Not that I wanted to show myself off or get any further attention but I just felt like I was king pin!! (or should I say queen pin ... hehe) I noticed too that the guys I deal with at the paper wholesaler treated me with more respect and interest lol. Normally they don't give the time of day to me... they're not rude but just ho-humm ... but not yesterday when I looked damn fine ... they were all chatty and smiley. It could be a coincedence but hey it worked for me :)

A few months back I emailed weight watchers to see if they wanted to link my site to their journal page, but I never heard anything back from them so forgot all about it. But yesterday out of the blue I got an email from them asking if I was still interested ... Heck yeah!! I replied lol. I don't know why it means so much to have people read this ... I guess I know how much other journal sites helped me stay focused before I started this one and knowing you guys are there 'keeping an eye on me' makes sure I stay on track, so it goes both ways. A couple of times when I've been feeling down or gone off track for a few days some of you have emailed me to see what has been going on and it has done the trick each time (thankyou guys!!! It means so much) Before I know it I have logged on ... done an update (even if it is a confession one) and then I'm focused again to carry on my day. And with reading how the other journalers on here are doing in their day makes me think ... wow they can do it .. so can I!!

I really want to thankyou guys for sticking it out with me. This place has become a little negative the last few months with the hard patch I was going through but I feel like another chapter has started. I feel more in control, more content and happy with myself.

Could be due to the warmer weather. It's amazing how some sunshine lifts the spirits so much! And also to the fact that Bill is commuting daily back from Auckland so I'm not so lonely and sad all the time. I really don't know how I lasted 6wks without him! Ok that's enough of the soppy stuff lol! It hasn't actually cost us anymore for him to travel down here daily. The extra petrol we spend now is counteracted by the board he no longer has to pay. Why didn't we think of that originally lol ... oh well ... made me appreciate having him around again :)

A week or so ago Bill got given a whole lot of nappies and toilet paper from a rep at his work. They were all damaged packaging but perfectly fine. We got around 30 packets of nappies and 8 packets of toilet paper!! I was spending $25 a week on nappies so that has meant such a lot to our grocery bill. I still spent the same amount as I normally do yesterday at the supermarket but I was able to buy so much more. Normally by the end of the fortnight I have nothing left in the cupboards but yesterdays shop totally filled it and I was able to get those yummy low point rewards that keep me so motivated (like RIX chips ... my fav!!)

Anyway I've blabbed on enough today ... ohh one other thing ... I have just fixed my computer!!! I thought my Windows XP was corrupt and I was going to have to reinstall it along with reinstalling all my software. But it turns out (through trial and error) that it was just my personal profile settings that were corrupt. So I created a new user and a new profile and all my email/desktop problems were fixed!!! Yay that saved me a whole lot of time and expense!! Big relief!!

Ok ok I've talked enough today. Have a great day!!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.1kg
GW 65kg

Feels great!!!

It feels fantastic to finally have a great weigh in result. Feels like it's been months since i felt proud of my efforts. I am so close to my next goal of becoming a 70's girl I can almost smell it ... only 1.2kg to go.

I rewarded myself with a points calculator. There were on special this week at ww. $49.95 reduced to $19.95 .... what a bargain!! It will make the chore of tracking much easier and simpler. Does mean tho that I won't be writing it up on here, instead I just put the number of points into the calculator. I feel like it will stop me from 'cheating' too. Not that I lie on here but I'm sure at times I think ... nahh that's too high for that, I'll just put it down as 1 point less. I know I'm not the only person that does this. I'm only fooling myself tho. I just love gimick toys :)

So good to see Leigh back online!! Way to go Leigh ... with you all the way!!

Bill really enjoyed his weekend away. He caught up with my brother and his wife while there. Glad to have him back home again tho!!

He put on a few kgs while there too (hehe) Putting him at 82kg ... I am for now lighter than him again lol.

I'll have another photo update of the house tomorrow. Not much else has been done.

Catcha tomorrow
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.1kg
GW 65kg

Back online again ... finally!

I'm back on board again. I'm ready to chuck this new computer out the window!!! I think I must have had a power surge one night and it wiped my whole computer!! (well almost everything) At first I thought it must have been a virus but after getting another brand new Nortons disk (the old one I had was a downloaded virsion, therefore I lost it) but no virus was found. Really don't want to send it to be fixed (apart from the $60per hr cost) they will need to reformate it to fix it and then I will lose what little I still have on here.

The reason I think it was a power surge... we are at the end of a line for our power here and we often have the lights dimming on and off. I'm sure that's what's done it. It only started playing up when we shifted here. Be interesting to see if it improves when we shift back to Auckland.

So anyway I have only got my internet connection back up and running today (hence for the lack of updates)

I've been doing pretty good eating wise the last week. Although I noticed my tracking has been slowing a little the last few days with the computer problems and work stress. But overall I've been a good girl.

Bill is currently in Sydney for his World Cup weekend... lucky bugger!! lol.

He told me last week he had a surprise to show me. He got given a leather wallet thing with all his travel documents in etc. And he wouldn't show it to me till after dinner when he could 'present' it to me. I was sooo sure he was going to surprise me with an airline ticket for me to go too. I had a smile a mile wide. He dragged it right out till the end ... but no surprise tickets ... lmao! His surprise was a 'that's life' magazine... still great ... but a bit of a downer after expecting an airline ticket lol!! Oh well :)

Not much else has happened this week. No weighin last Monday with Labour day. Hoping for a loss this week with all my hard work and good eating. Not holding my breath tho ... my body tends to do strange things lately.

Thanks to all those who sent me compliments on my photo. Way cool!! I honestly can't see where 10kg has come off since the last photo ... hmmm ... it's definately gone tho.

Catcha all later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

I finally got around to it

Don't die of shock!! But I've actually done an update pic for you guys :) There's also another one in my photo album if you wanna see. (under the 'weighloss pics' album)

I've also given you an updated pic of the house I got today.

Pretty uneventful day today. Mum and dad bought a new car yesterday so I went with them to show it to my sister. (that's when I got the pics taken)

Bill is working this Monday (labour day). Nice to know I'm not going to client consultations for a change tho. No weigh in this week with the holiday weekend. Gives me a full two weeks to have my hard work show up on the scales tho.

HUGE CONGRATS TO JO!! I just loved being pregnant!!! Such a fascinating time of your life ... savor every moment! :)

By now Karen with be married! Wow, another exciting time!! What a cool bunch of people on here. Hope her day was exciting!! with no nerves or stress. We want lots of pics Karen! lol (yeah yeah I know ,,, I'm a bad one to talk on that subject lol)

Eating for yesterday ...

breakfast ... bread 2pts, asparagas 0pts, cheese 1.5pts
Snack ... Apple 0.5pt
Lunch ... bread 2pts, cheese 2pts
Snack ... sponge 2pts, Apple 0.5pt
Dinner ... meat roll 3pts, potato 1.5pts, veges 0pts, butter 2pts
Snack ... lite icecream 3pts, lite mars 1pt, rice chips 7.5pts

Total ... 28.5pts/22pts
Saved ... - 6.5pts
Total saved ... 1pt

Not too bad except for the rice chips at the end of the day... got the snack attacks real bad, but figured I did good just eating them and I had the points saved up to do it without going over for the week.

Off to watch Australian Idol
Hope you enjoy the pics
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

The good life :)

Poor Cosima probably had nerves in her throat last night. Nearly got voted out. She's lucky this time tho, saved by the bell.

Another good day of eating yesterday and today.

Breakfast ... weetbix 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, sugar 0.5pt
Snack ... Apple 1pt
Lunch ... bread 3pts, soup 1pt
Snack ... lite yoghurt 1.5pts, Apple 1pt, coffee 1pt
Dinner ... steak 4.5pts, potato 3pts, veges 0pt, milk 0.5pt, flavouring 1pt

Total ... 20pts/22pts
Saved 2pts/3pts
Bonus points 2pts

Went shopping today and put a georgous duvet set for Lauren's room on layby (to match the drawers I am doing up for her). Mum bought Jordan a cute Winnie the Pooh duvet cover. Mum and I are getting on really well. I think living down here has actually done a lot of good for our relationship. Things are looking good (even at PMS time)

Savings going well with $5750 saved so far. One third of the way there.

It's late for now, bed is calling.
Nite

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

The old Lyn is back (and kickin butt)

Very proud of my eating efforts yesterday ... 1 whole day on track!! First day in months that I have actually tracked. I've realised how out of control I was. Not that I was eating badly (well only occasionally) but I didn't know how many points I was consuming each day. I was just trying to eat lightly.

With tracking again I feel so much more in control.

Here's my whole days eating yesterday ...

Breakfast ... weetbix 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, sugar 0.5pt
Snack ... soft serve icecream (no cone) 2pts
Lunch ... bread 4pts, asparagas 0pts, butter 1pt
Snack ... Apple 1pt
Dinner ... mince 3pts, pasta 4pts, pineapple 1pt, veges 0pts
Snack ... lite icecream 3pts

Total 21.5pts/22pts
Saved 0.5pt

Wahooo!!!! :)

Spent today helping my sister unpack after shifting yesterday. So on my feet for most of the day ... gotta be a few points earnt there.

Quiet night tonight infront of the telly I think ,... goooo Australian idol ... GOOOO COSIMA!!!! :) (and don't you aussies tell me who got voted out ... well not until after tonight lol)

New pic of the house up for anyone interested. The hardytex is up on the second storey now. And don't worry it's not staying pink lol ... it's got to be painted yet.

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

let off lightly

I think I was let off very lightly this week with no loss or gain at weighin. Exactly the same weight as last week ... 81.7kg ... could have been a lot worse.

I finally feel that spark of excitement again... well not quite a spark yet ... more like a 'sp ...' lol but at least it's a start.

I have done very well with eating so far today ... starting off with breakfast. I've noticed that I had slipped back into old habits with not having breakfast. But today I did well ... two weetbix, lite milk and a smidgen of sugar.

I'm going to go back to tracking on here. Not going to worry about water this week ... one step at a time.

Here's today's eating so far ...

Breakfast ... weetbix 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, sugar 0.5pt
Snack ... soft serve icecream (no cone) 2pts
Lunch ... bread 4pts, asparagass 0pts, butter 1pt
Snack ... Apple 1pt

10.5pts so far and going good.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Naughty, naughty

Ok confession time!! I've very bad!! (eating wise that is) I've managed to consume a whole bottle of caruba rum in the last week by myself. Really not looking forward to weigh in on Monday but forcing myself to go. This is the biggest reason for the lack of updates. I really don't like updating when I've got bad things to say.

I guess I have to get that spark back that I had 10mths ago.

Bill is doing really well. He came home from hospital on Wednesday afternoon and went back to work for two half days Thursday and Friday. His face is still slightly swollen but much better than it was.

Not much else to report. Letcha know the bad news at weigh in on Monday.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Bill still in hospital :(

Well I'd love to say that I resisted the temptation of the rum and cokes ... umm ... but that didn't happen. Although I was reasonably wise about it and didn't go overboard.

Bill is still in hospital. He was supposed to come home today but rang this morning to say that the head registrar guy had been to see him and wasn't happy with the amount of swelling he still had. Aparently it was supposed to have been all gone by 24hrs ago. I went up and saw him last night and he is looking much better but still very swollen. So they have booked him in for a scan (I can't remember exactly what they call it) this afternoon to see if they can work out the reason for the swelling. They think the infection might have moved down the neck. If this is the case then he will have to go back into theatre again. Hopefully it will all be a false alarm, and he will be home tomorrow.

I've started doing up a set of drawers for Laurens room (she's 8). We have this old set of a dressing table (with mirror) and tallboy in our room. It's currently in wood with a dark mahogany stain on it... quite ugly really. So I have started putting a coat of paint on it. And I've taken off the mirror and going to have it as a work desk for her. Doing it in a lavender sparkly paint. Really cool paint I found at the home show. It's got glitter all through it. Quite expensive @ $130 to paint both items but still cheaper than buying a new one. I'm going to do the rest of her room in lavender, dark purple and silver. I'll get some new funky silver handles to put on the drawers and a new duvet. I'm thinking I might make one out of a purple fur fabric and sew a big silver funky heart on it with lots of lavender/purple and silver cushions. Then put a lavender mosquito net over it ... what do you think? It's given me something to take my mind off things lately. For now I'll do up the drawers and see how I get on from there.

Business work has finally slowed down a little (for now anyway) Got a sample to have out tommorrow then nothing till my consultations next Monday ... yay a break! Then the next set is not due out till 1 November.

Eating has been ummmm .... not too good. But not going to beat myself up about it at the moment. I'll wait till everything is a bit more in order then get right back on track.

Thats about all for today.
Builders haven't sent any more photos through lately. Think they are still annoyed with the fireplace saga. Bit sad really. Oh well, I'll let you know as soon as I know anything.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Got a bad case of the guilts

You know how you think things can't possibly get any worse ... that you have enough stress on your plate to handle that you surely don't deserve any more???? lol

Ohhh how wrong!! Someone up there must think I am wonder woman because I am over flowing with stress vibes right now :) I smile because it's gone beyond being worried or freaking out ... now it's a joke.

Last night Bill's face got EVEN LARGER! He honestly was looking like elephant man! (of course I mean that in the most loving possible way) I just couldn't stop laughing when I looked at him. I'm really bad like that. I don't do the whole sympathy thing very well. I decided to ring my sister who is a Paramedic and ask her what she thought ... should I take him back to the afterhours A&E and spend another $100 bucks (it sounds really bad to put it like that but that was honestly how I was feeling) She suggested that she come out and pick him up in the ambulance (she was on duty at the time). I flatly refused! My pride wouldn't handle that. He wasn't going to die or anything lol. (I know, I know ... I'm really bad at feeling sorry for people lol). I asked Bill what he thought and these were his words ... "ok, well I'll just go dig a whole over there in the corner and when I die then you just need to throw some dirt ontop and I won't be anymore hassle". How could I say no to that!! lol.

She reckoned she should come and pick him up then I could stay at home with the kids and if she took him to hospital in the ambulance then it would be free. I'm all for free so I gave into my pride and agreed.

They left here at 5.30pm and I told him I would keep his dinner warm for him. My sister assured me it would be a quick visit and he would be home again later that night ... ohhh how wrong :) At 10.15pm I got a call from Bill to say he had just left the waiting room and was finally being seen to!! Almost 5hrs sitting in a waiting room, geez I'm glad I wasnt there keeping him company! lol (honestly I love him to bits)

They thought it could be an anophalactic reaction (sp) which is a fancy way of saying the antibiotics they gave him he could be allergic to... causing all the swelling. So they ran some bloods and decided to keep him in overnight.

Then this morning he rang to say the results came back and it wasn't that, but that they found a humongous absus (sp) which he was going to have to have surgery to fix. Now I feel really bad that I complained about him going to the dentist in the first place. I told him it would cost too much and to just put up with it! After all ... no one sees your wisdom teeth so what if they are crooked... hehe. Feeling rather guilty right now lol

With his surgery booked in for today they told him he still couldn't eat. Hasn't eaten since yesterday lunchtime (36hrs). He reckons it's their way of forcing him to go on diet whether he wants to or not lol.

So he went under the knife this afternoon. I went in to see him an hour or so after he got out of surgery and he looked really terrible!!! Like a different person. He was still on a huge amount of morphine so he was spacing out quite a bit too.

I'm back at home now (obviously lol)... kids are in bed (one complaining of a sore tummy so might be a long night ahead). Still have a whole lot more work to get on with but for tonight I'm going to leave it. Have rescheduled all my appointments for tommorrow.

On the eating note ... it's really not good. I kind of hit stress breakout point today. Had a big plate of hot chips and two fat ugly sausages (but they tasted so good) then tonight on the way to see Bill I called in to the supermarket to pick him up some bottled water and gave in to the magnum staring at me from the freezer. Bad thing was I didn't even really enjoy it. Just felt like I had to have it to make everything go away. I'm not normally a comfort eater but tonight something snapped. I told myself I shouldn't be having this but ate it anyway.

Giving my ww meeting a miss tomorrow. Figured I need to be with Bill more than ww need me. Gives me a chance to get back on my feet eating wise.

Meanwhile the rum & diet cokes are staring at me ... do I? don't I? Guess I'll let you know tommorow what happens :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
Gw 65kg

how can I stay mad at him?

Feeling a whole lot better today. Had one of those stupid barneys over nothing with Bill. But we've sorted it out now.

Probably helps things that Bill is home sick at the moment lol ... that sounds really bad but I can't stay mad at him when I is in so much pain? ... poor thing :)

He had a tooth ache so went to the dentist to find out it wasnt a hole in his tooth but an infected wisdom tooth. On getting xrays they found out that it was growing through sideways so had to come out. The dentist wanted to book it in for a couple of weeks time but with Bill flying out to his Sydney trip in a few weeks he wanted to get it over and done with the next day.

I told him to organise at least a day off after it, but he assured me the dentist said he would only need a couple of hours sitting down and he would be fine ... oh how wrong he could have been lol.

He arrived home a few hours afterwards in such pain. Reckons it was the worst pain he has ever felt. Had to stop quite a few times on the way home because he felt like throwing up.

Got home and went to bed for the day. Then a few hours after he got up his face started to swell. Went to bed that nite drugged up with Nurofen. But that wasn't cutting it. Next morning he went off to work again (against my wishes) only to arrive home again midday. The swelling was getting worse. He went back to the dentist that morning and the dentist told him to go home, rest up (yeah right ... he's a workaholic that can't sit still lol) and if it got any worse to go to a doctor asap.

Then last night around 8pm we decided to go to A&E because it was getting worse still. The swelling was getting up around his temple. 36hrs after he had the tooth pulled it was still getting bigger. The doctor prescribed a stronger anitbiotic and stronger pain relief.

The pain relief must have worked because this morning he got up thinking he was all better ... but his face was EVEN LARGER! Now it has gone down his neck and around his eye. At least he's not in pain anymore. Keeping a close watch on it today and see how it goes.

Other than that things are going pretty well.
I'll update that photo of the house for you now so if your interested go check it out.

Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

ohhh well :(

Had a 200g gain this week. Little disappointing but I guess I had it coming to me. It's been a long time since I went out for any planned exercise. So off I went this morning for a walk with a friend. We ended up going for 1.5hrs. Feeling pretty tired now but no wonder ... it's been over 2mths since I did any exercise.

Things are a little rocky on the home front. Don't want to go too much into it on here but I'll be fine ... probably the reason for the lack of updates lately. Doing very well at not letting it effect my eating (too much)

Short and sweet today.
Have another pic of the house to go up but won't get a chance to upload it till tomorrow so check back then. (the roofs up ... well half of it )

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg

Bad builders

Quick update to let you know I'm still alive :)

Eating has been pretty good. Exercise not much (but that's not unusual).

Best news ... Bill has decided to move down here with me (he misses me too much ... aint that sweet?) It will mean a lot more travelling and more petrol but given he won't be paying board I don't think it will be much more. Anyway I don't really care how much it costs ... its too horrible not having him here. So he moves home as of next week ... can't wait!

Went to the homeshow here in Hamilton on Thursday. Good lot of exercise there. To give you some background info here ... a few months back we talked to the builders about getting a gas fireplace put in and they told us that because we needed a permit it would hold the building process up too much so would be better if we did it after the house was finished. I really didn't want to do this but admitted defeat. Then at the homeshow I spoke to 3 fireplace people who all said that for a gas fireplace we didn't need a permit!! So I rang the builder back to say they were wrong and that we wanted one put in. He still tried to talk us out of it and gave us a huge price (about $1500 more than the fireplace people said it would cost). So I said I would go away and research it, think about it and get back to him shortly. When I rang him back before I could tell him that yes I still wanted to do it regardless of the cost ... he said WE CAN'T DO ANY ALTERATIONS FOR YOU no matter what it is. No fireplace!!

I was wild!! At the start (before we signed up) they told us we could change any part of the plan and do anything we liked as long as we paid the extra costs. Now they have totally turned around! Bad, bad, bad! But from what I have heard from others alot of builders are like this.

So anyway the bank manager said that by the time we move in the value of our house should have gone up and therefore we could just add it on to the loan and get it done seperately by another builder. Probably a better option anyway. If we got these builders to do it they would probably charge us alot more and do a slaphappy job. This way it gets done properly and still gets included with the house. So happy ending anyway but it's the principle of the matter that winds me up.

Anyway ... I'm going fine and things are looking good. Sorry no update photo of the house yet this week. Bill said that when he drove past a few days ago they were putting tiles on the roof. Can't wait to see that!

That's about all for today ... got a busy day ahead with stationery again.

Bye for now,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.5kg
GW 65kg

murphys law!! lol

I seem to do this to myself every week!! Think I've put on weight and make myself think I am fat. Not quite sure why... probably because I'm scared that's what will happen.

But all my fears were for nothing again... 300g loss! :) I know, I know ... I gotta stop being so hard on myself. But I'm happy with that result ... slowly but surely it's all going for good!!

In answer to your question Leigh ... he got them through his work. Coke booked out a section of the game and they give them away to certain staff (usually management) of supermarkets from all over the country. This is the first one he has got ... usually the owner or store manager gets them (Bill is 2IC under the store manager).

My day went really well yesterday. Went to ww then grabbed a bite to eat (filet-o-fish and apple pie from McD's), then drove to Tauranga (around an hours drive) to see two clients, then home again by 9.30pm. Long day but a very productive one.

Spent this morning with Bill before he headed back to Auckland at lunchtime.

Feeling quite positive again today. I really don't know what sparks my down moods. It's not hormonal. I guess it's everything that is going on. I think it helped the fact that I got a lot of work done today (with the business) so not feeling so pressured.

I had to laugh when I saw your comment Lynda :) I honestly am wanting to update my pic. I have taken photos but I'm such a scrooge ... I have another 10 photos to use up the film and I don't want to waste them and have to pay money to get it developed. Not that I don't want to spend the money but our finances are just so tight at the moment that $10 on a film is a luxury. That's my excuse anyhow lol. I will get it developed honest lol. Maybe I'll got do it now while I think of it ... hehe

LMAO!! Murphys Law. I just went to take the film out of the camera and put it in a post bag to get developed while I was thinking of it .. and get this ... someone left the camera on so now the batteries are flat and I can't rewind the film ... lol. Now not only do I have to pay for the film but batteries as well (and they are the expensive kind) ... Sorry Lynda you'll have to wait. My sister has a digital camera ... maybe next time I see her I can get her to take some and email them to me.

Dinner is burning so better get back to it.
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.5kg
GW 65kg

feeling fat today

Just a quick update tonight as I'm pretty tired. Things are going okay. Been really hungry the last couple of days (not TOM for me) not sure why. I've handled it pretty well with snacking on apples when I get hungry.

But somehow I don't feel slim this week. Not holding out for any great news at weigh in tomorrow. Maybe my girly weekend 3wks ago has finally caught up with me.

Lynda has updated photos on her site and she looks fantastic!! Wow what a stunner! Makes me realise it's all worth it when I see results like that :)

Bill is coming down tonight. Hope he drives carefully because there's a huge storm out there at the moment.

Things are starting to get to me today. Mainly the kids. I'm just warn out. Tired of picking up after them, tired of disciplining them, tired of cleaning the house, tired of business work and tired of concentrating on my eating. I'll get over it... just not feeling the best. Hope I have a good weigh in result tomorrow ... that will cheer me up and get me motivated again.

Bill has been given tickets to the All Blacks vs Wales rugby world cup game in November (in Sydney) so he's flying out for a boys weekend away. I'm sure he'll enjoy himself. Feeling rather sorry for myself that I didn't get invited too lol. But I suppose it won't make me feel so guilty going for my Sydney shopping spree next year when i get to goal ... hehehe. Told him he has to buy me a really nice pressie to make up for me not going (big sook arent i? lol)

busy day again tomorrow ... off to Tauranga to see some clients. Hope the weather clears up by then.

Update again on Tuesday to let you all know how I got on with weigh in.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

Work has gone crazy

I'm back catching my breath again. Things have been so hectic lately I don't seem to be getting any of my routine things done ... like dishes for example. I hate having a messy house but with a workload like it has been something has to give.

I've just finished a set of 105 invites/envelopes/RSVP cards and RSVP envelopes ... wow!!! Spent 3 days with my head down, butt up and finally it's all finished! Breathing a sigh of relief. Got caught up on the dishes and housework this morning then off to the supermarket this afternoon to get some more food, all before it all starts again on monday, with the next job due soon after.

I am fully booked up with consultations now until 20 October. It's just gone crazy!!

Eating has been pretty good. Made the mistake of shopping this afternoon on an empty stomach. So came home with some things I probably didn't need. But the good thing is my magnum I bought impulsively is safely sitting in my freezer ... so far untouched. Good girl huh? lol. Don't know how long it will stay there tho. But instead of gorging it on a moment of impulse I have put it aside to reward myself tonight after all the kids are in bed. Back in January before I started this I used to live on Magnums. 2-3 a week!! This is the first Magnum I have had in over 9mths! Wow that's a long time. And I fully deserve this one... and that's all it will be ... One ...

Updated my measurements page for anyone interested. I have lost another 10cms overall in the past 8wks. It has slowed a little but given my circumstances I am happy with that. I have noticed my waist, thighs and calves getting smaller lately. Infact I am really starting to like what I see in the mirror now. Even considering wearing a sleeveless sundress for summer. That is one rule I would never break before ... ALWAYS WEAR SLEEVES!! Not anymore tho ... Just have to catchup on the ol' suntan on them lol.

Sad to see Leigh is stopping her website. She will be truelly missed by me and alot of others. But in saying that I totally understand. We all go through seasons in our life and if something starts to be a burden then changes need to be made. Leigh has been a very good email buddy of mine in this journey so far. We started at a similar time. But in saying that I will do my best to stay in contact, so don't think you're gonna get rid of me that easily ... hehe! I'll be haunting you :)

For those of you interested in seeing more progress on our house, a new pic went up today into the photo album. Got a wonderful surprise when the builder emailed it to me. It's really starting to take shape (I know I keep saying that lol).

Better get dinner on.
Bye for now
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

100g loss!! yay!

I have a new picture of the house up in my photo album taken on Friday. It's really starting to take shape now that the roof trusses have gone up. Wahooo :)

Had my weigh in yesterday ... 100g loss. Kinda hoping it was a little more than that but can't complain given it's TOM for me at the moment and my bad weekend two weeks ago that didn't really show on the scales. Happy little camper here. I'm kinda thinking that while things are so stressful and busy that as long as I can maintain my losses (i.e. not gain) and infact have small losses then I am doing pretty damn well. Still would like to be 71kg (ww goal weight) before 11 Feb 04 but if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen.

When I got to my meeting I was informed I was doing the recording by myself with no one helping. Yeowch!! Talk about being thrown in the deep end lol. I think I managed it okay with only a few hiccups. The only problem Bill was waiting for me in the car at 1.30pm when I was supposed to have finished (arrived at the meeting at 11.45am) but because I was new to my job and of course a little slower along with the leader explaining things to me it was after 2pm before I got out to him in the car. Stress all round lol.

Next week I'll go on my own and leave Bill at home with the kids. Much less stressful.

Going to give it a try for a few more weeks before I decide if I definately want to stay a recorder at the ww meeting. I really enjoy it but it does add more stress to my day (but I also enjoy getting out of the house) so playing it by ear for a bit then I'll decide what to do.

Well tommorow we would have been down here in Hamilton for an entire month!! Can't believe it's been that long already with only just over 4mths to go. Let's hope the rest of the time goes as quickly. And so far we have saved over $4000!!! With only $13,000 to go

Bill left today at lunchtime. We don't do the separation thing very well. We're finding that we fight for the first half day till we get all our frustrations out, then are sweet little lovebirds for the remainder time. It's weird... you'd think we would just be happy to see eachother with being apart but I don't know why we get at eachother at first... till we settledown then we are fine. Before we shifted down here we only argued once in a blue moon. I think it's because we are both really tired and stressed and we take it out on eachother as neither of us have anyone to talk it out to. This has happened for the last 3 weekends. I'm not worried because we always sort it out. We are good at communicating and talking things out.

I was sad to see him go today. But each week it gets a little easier and the time we are apart goes a little faster. We're both hanging out for the day we can be together all week in our new home. I'll stop now before I have you all puking in a bucket! lol

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

Another busy day ahead

My cousin from the UK popped in yesterday and we had an awesome time. She is just the coolest. And yes she was blown away by my weightloss. Said I was fading away to nothing :)

Have a busy day ahead of me today. The two eldest children have gone with mum and dad to church this morning so the house is quiet for the meantime. Still have lots of work to get on with and this afternoon I'm off to Auckland again to see a client. Then back home again before mum leaves for the cowshed (she's looking after the children for me). Tight deadline but should be doable.

Bill is coming down either late tonight (around midnight) or first thing tommorrow morning. Can't wait! He's down for two days and leaves again on Tuesday lunchtime.

Not much else to update on. Havent had any eating problems, so going good there but my exercise hasnt been very good. Still raining off and on here so hard to get it in.

Hoping to stop by the house when I'm in Auckland to check on updates with the building. Bill said he called by there the other day and nothing more was done. I'm presuming this is because of the bad weather.

I'll take my camera anyway incase there is anything more done to take pics of. I'll let you know tomorrow.

Till then, see ya
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

Poor little Coral :(

Emotions are running high today. I have so much work on that I can't be bothered getting started on it. Bad I know.

Have my cousin from the UK popping in to visit this afternoon. She's over here on holiday for a few weeks. She hasn't seen me since I started ww. Although she knows I have lost weight will be interesting to see what she says. She's such a cool lady. One of those bubbly, wonderful to be around kind of people. The type that when they leave you just feel so happy and inspired. Yay can't wait for her to get here.

She's very different to my mother on the other hand lol. Got a visit from her this morning to be told off because my kids left all their gumboots and shoes out last night and with the rain now they are all wet! Felt like a naughty child lol. She has such a way of making you feel uplifted (NOT!!) lol.

To give you an idea of how judgemental my parents are (although ironically in writing this I too am judging ... but I gotta tell someone ... there's no other adults here to talk to) ... anyway ... after finding about little Coral's body being found yesterday and that the stepfather had been charged for her murder my father remarked "I can't understand why the mother would hook up with someone like that. In my mind she deserves all she got, she's very silly, I have no sympathy for her whatsoever!" I could not believe what I was hearing!! I am still very wound up about his words. Yes she may have made a mistake in living with him but she DID NOT DESERVE TO HAVE HER CHILD MURDERED!!! No one deserves to have a child murdered no matter what mistakes they make in their life. I told him this but of course was shot down saying how wrong I was. I just had to shake my head in disbelief. I tell you there is absolutely no compassion in that house.

I really feel for the mother. Can you imagine what she must be going through? To find her child is dead and killed by the man that she has just had a baby to. And the emotions that will be tied up with the baby too... to know it's father is the one that killed her daughter. I have so much compassion for her at the moment. My thoughts and prayers are with the whole family.

On that thoughtful note I'll sign off for today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

I actually have hip bones!! :)

Didn't manage to get out for the planned walk with my friend the other day because of the rain. Not too worried ... will get out again when the weather clears.

My eating yesterday was perfect. Been a very good girl here.

I put on a skirt this morning that I haven't warn in a very long time. It used to be too tight on the waist but I hid that well with a baggy top. Today it hangs down another 10cm on my hips!! Very close to falling off me. Makes me realise how much I have actually lost. So feeling very slim today. Infact this morning lying in bed I could feel my hip bone sticking out!! (lying on my back of course) still a different story when I stand up lol ... but it's a start. I will have truelly made it when I can feel dem hips bones while walking :)

Busy again with work today. There's no break at the moment. As soon as one job is finished it's on with another. Don't really like it when it gets this busy. Goes beyond what I want the business to be. Only supposed to be a part time job but at the moment it's taking away all the time I should be spending with the kids.

Leigh you must be so excited looking at your houses. Hope everything goes smoothly for you. And Karen glad to hear your job is going well. And all your wedding plans will work themselves out. Lyndas carrying on as her usual fantastic self (she inspires me so much!!) Keep up the great work everyone!!

Later!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

scheduled exercise... I did it! :)

Pretty boring day here. Work is speeding up again. Rather enjoyed the last week of not much work, didn't last long enough. Back into it again now with a 105 invites/envelopes/RSVP cards and RSVP envelopes to have out before next Tuesday.

Eating has been good and get this .... I actually went out for a scheduled walk yesterday afternoon. (pushing Jese in the buggy) and have made a 'date' with a friend to go walking with her this afternoon too.

Not much else to tell ... catchya all tomorrow
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

Happy happy joy joy

Had a fantastic time away with the 'girls' (my sister, a friend and two of her friends) But ate way too much of the wrong stuff. I always tried for healthy alternatives and wise choices but I'm not very good at saying no to food when it is right in front of me or when it affects others (like when everyone is ordering dinner together) I guess I'm not very assertive like that. But turns out I did okay anyway.

I was feeling rather depressed about going to my ww meeting today but glad I did ... had a 400g loss ... very happy but the few bad choices I had may show up next week. For now I'm not going to worry about that. Just going to enjoy my lightest weight for the last 10yrs .... 81.9kg!!! Only 2kg to go to break that 80's barrier and become a 70's gal!! Then I'm on the home straight!! Then only 10.9kg to go to get to ww goal of 71kg.

Went shopping while we were away and tried on lots of wonderful clothes. I was very good at not buying any of them but still made me feel good seeing what they looked like on. Generally I'm a size 14 now (depending on the brand) Can't wait to get to the size 12!! wahooo :)

Spent my first day as a recorder at my ww meeting today. Bit overwhelmed by it all ... alot of info to take in and remember but hopefully with a weeks of observing I should get the hang of it.

So ww has a new 'flexiplan' huh? Not sure I understand what is different about it or how it is better but might give me something new to get excited about. Have to do some reading up about it to work it all out.

Off to get my slim 81.9kg butt to cook some dinner :)
Nite all
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

I've been very bad!

Really didn't want to update today. I haven't been the best the last few days. Quite naughty infact! Looks like my motivation has taken a downer again. Don't worry I'll be fine and I'm not giving up because of a few bad days of eating.

I think it all started when I baked a cake for my sister and instead of having a small piece I ate a HUGE slice!! Lucky I managed to give the rest of it away. Then that night I made a chicken casorole which would have been okay except that I didn't take any of the skin off (my favourite part of the chicken) and I ate a huge plateful!!

Yesterday was a little better but didn't eat until 2.30pm!! I made a whole lot of roast veges for dinner (done in a very healthy way) but still ate too many of them.

I have a girly weekend booked this weekend. I leave this afternoon and get back Sunday lunchtime. Really don't know how I'm going to plan for it. Have run out of time to save points. Take it as it comes I guess.

I think the secret is to get back into exercising. Even if it is just a walk. As soon as the weather clears up that is.

I'm really looking forward to doing the 'river walk' here in Hamilton. It's a 3hr walk along the banks of the Waikato River. But the opportunities aren't great. Have to go when I only have Jese to walk with. Bill is down for the weekend going back on Tuesday lunchtime so maybe we could go on Monday.

I won't be able to update again till Sunday when I get back so have a great weekend everyone and hopefully by the time I get back I will be inspired again :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.3kg
GW 65kg

ho hummm ...

Definately nothing exciting happened today ... went to ww weighin ... result? ... 100g gain. Not very happy with that result but not gutted either. After all ... last weeks loss was far more than I had expected and 100g isn't too much to worry about. I think it's the high fat meats I'm having for dinners. Even tho its only about 3 nights a week we have meat its pretty fatty stuff. Think I'm going to have to revisit that one.

The other thing ... the water here is absolutely gross so I have been adding refresh powder to the water to help me get it down, which is adding points.

Not much else to say, nite for now
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.3kg
GW 65kg

Life is good again :)

I didn't update earlier today because I didn't think I had anything much to tell you all... wow that has changed now lol

Got a phone call from Bill this afternoon to say that his boss has approached him about working Saturday and Sunday (that happened a couple of days ago). Well he came back today with an offer. A $7 an hour payrise for the hours worked on those days!!! He will work two 14hr days on Saturday and Sunday meaning it will give us $444 extra at then end of each week! What this means is that instead of having to work 79hrs each week to earn enough to save $800 a week (which was almost undoable) now he only has to work 66hrs a week and only 2 late nights. HUGE LOAD OFF MY MIND :)) And at the end of the six months he can either go back to his original 45-50hrs and having Saturday/Sunday off or keep doing the same as what he does now. The only bummer is that he will be having Monday/Tuesday off and so less time with Lauren and Malachi who are in school on those days. We will reassess it in February and see how we feel then.

The other news is that we got a letter from the builders today to say that building has started on our house!! Wahoo :) We're going up to Auckland tomorrow so we'll call by and see what they have done.

I have a really busy day tomorrow with two consultations to do in Auckland. One in Howick at 2pm and one in Parnell at 4pm so it will be tight, but keeps me busy.

Really don't know how I've gone weighwise this week. With being on a tight budget for groceries has meant I've had to buy 'cheap' meat which is generally fatty meat. Stayed away from sausages but had to buy mince and meatloaf for a couple of nights. But hopefully to make up for it there has been a couple of nights with no meat. So all in all ... don't know how that will effect the scales. But after last weeks great result I'm not too bothered if it is a gain.

Won't get to update tommorow with being out all day so the next time I update will be on Monday after weigh in.

Nite
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

new fatty photo

Was sifting through some photos at mum's yesterday and came across a good 'fatty' photo that was taken at the end of last year. So have put it up on my front page. If you don't see it when the page comes up you may need to refresh the page to bring it up.

I've spent the day doing work all day again. The phone has gone crazy with new bookings. Can't complain ... it all means money but will put me under a bit of pressure.

Bill has been offered the duty managers position for the weekends. Not really a promotion but means he will work weekends and have Monday/Tuesdays off. He's agreed to take it on for 6mths and only with a premium pay during those hours. Should work out quite good financially... but may mean a little juggling around with client consultations for me. I have been doing them on Sundays so might have to rearrange things somehow... not sure how yet.

I realised something really cool today ... my thighs no longer rub together. Such a small thing but only those who have been overweight will understand the significance of this :) Yay me! lol

Eating has been good today ... hmmm still no exercise... too busy and it's still raining here.

That's about it for today,
Catcha all tomorrow. I'm going to try and update more regularly (back to daily) I know I've been a bit slack lately with my updates but as soon as business work gets sorted I'll be back to a normal routine.... hopefully :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

New pics coming

Not much to report about today ... but thought I would still touch base so you guys didn't think I had given up on you all :)

Work is still crazilly busy. That's all I did all day till around 7pm.

Bill came home for the afternoon/night yesterday. Was so nice to have him home again. Went too quick tho lol. Back to work again at 6.30am this morning. Certainly making me appreciate our time together.

This budgeting thing is hard on the grocery shopping. My goal is to survive two weeks without doing any shopping. We have another 5 days to go and the supplies are starting to thin out. Lucky we are on a farm with plenty of fruit, milk and meat. When the weather warms up a little I'll get a vege garden planted which will help a lot.

Thanks to all you guys for your congrats ... soo cool :) Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou :)

Had a cool email from Lynn tonight. She is the mum of Malachi's classmates (twins). Wow what a small world. She came across my website through ww (somehow, not sure how lol) and after reading through my journal put 2+2 together and realised I was Malachi's mum from school. She's also on ww and doing really well. Certainly put a smile on my face when I read who she was ... small, small world.

That's about it for today, did really well with my eating (not much here to binge on lol). Getting inspired to do the River walk (around 2.5hrs) ... when this rain stops that is lol

Ohhh you'll all be shocked lol ... I actually took some update pics yesterday ... now just gotta get the film developed. Was wearing my new jeans ... hand-me-downs from Bill. They are too small for him now and fit me 'mighty fine' in his words lol. Not sure what size they are in womans (they are mens jeans) But size 82 whatever that means. If anyone knows what that is equivalent to in womans sizes please let me know. Thanks!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

Snuck to a ww meeting early lol

Woke up this morning feeling slim ... so I thought "right ... I'm off to ww today for weighin while I'm feeling great!" :) good choice too... wahoooo!!! 1.7kg loss!! (in 1.5wks) bringing me to my 25kg lost mark!! The only downer was I had no one to skite to (lol) so far have lost 25.2kg.

This was my first meeting at the new Hamilton location. The leader seemed really nice and everyone was friendly. They do a really cool thing there ... they give out little gem stones for every 1 stone lost (6.3kg) and today I got to my 4 stone lost mark (exactly 25.2kg) so I got given 4 little gems ... Is that cool or what??? I have put in a little pic of them in my 'achievements' section of my front page.

There was a lady at my meeting today who was there for the first time and had forgotten her magazine coupon that gave her free registration. I suggested to her that because ww had a promotion that if you bring a friend along your friend got free registration. So we became 'friends' lol (ww wasn't to know that we had only just met) After exchanging names we went into the meeting. When the lady asked her who she came with she had a sudden memory loss and couldn't remember my name so just pointed to me and said "her" lol. Of course we sat together to make it look like we were long time friends :) And then they handed me a recipe book (part of the promotion) ... cool huh? so I got a free cookbook and a new friend ... great deal!! :)

Came home and showed mum my little gems ... for the first time since I started she actually looked proud of what I had achieved and asked questions. :) Good day!

Just feeling a little sad tonight ... not sure why .. missing Bill I guess. I'll see him on Wednesday night tho ... not long now only another 2 days.

Overall a very good day :) 1.7kg!!!! wahoooo!!! :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

Rich woman/Poor woman :)

For a fleeting moment we were rich!! lol ... Our house has all gone through and the surplus $35,000 went into our bank account. But tonight I have transfered it all over to another account to pay off our debts, leaving us with just over $1000. On one hand it's sad that we only have a $1000 left over but on the other hand we have cleared all our debt and paid our builders their first $17,000 deposit (still have the remainder $17,000 to save). It's all good and we are progressing :) After next week we will have just under $3,000 saved!! wahoo!! $14,000 to go!

Bill turned up unexpectedly last night for a suprise visit! :)) He had in hand a cake with "happy sale" and a picture of a house on it! What a sweetie!! He arrived just before midnight and had to leave at 6.30am to get back to work in time but was definately worth the visit! I miss him heaps!!

Today was pretty uneventful. Took the day off work and just potted around the house and caught up on some sleep. Eating wise ... did okay .. not great. Ended up having 3 pieces of cake throughout the day but left the rest at mum's for them to finish it off. Had a roast dinner tonight with mum and dad. Mum cooked the meat (very high fat) and I did the veges. Of course they were done low fat and dad complained about them but oh well I don't care, at least I kept it low in points for me ... hehe!

Busy day tomorrow. Off to Auckland to do a business consultation. My sister is looking after the kids so gives me a good chance to get out of the house and kid free for a few hours. Then Monday is another busy day with erands to do in town.

Not much else to say.
Update on Monday.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg

Big congrats to Lynda ... she's almost at goal!! wahoo!! That is so exciting for me because she started at the beginning of the year at what I am now ... so I just have to do what she has done and I too will nearly be at goal! :) Goooo Lynda!!

Leigh is also doing really well! With another loss this week! Great going girl!

damn viruses >:(

I'm still here :) The last few days have been alot better. I haven't been able to update my journal or read my fav's because my brand new computer got stung with the 'msblast' virus. I've spent the last two days (with the help of my cousin) trying to rid myself of it. It's a nasty one. Apparently it doesn't come through emails or websites just comes through with an internet connection. It apparently randomly chooses ISP addresses and fires off attacks every 20 seconds and when it finds an active ISP address it installs itself and starts sending out random attacks from that computer. It's apparently the biggest virus attack ever!! I hadn't been able to load my Norton's onto my new computer because of technical difficulties and while I wasn't protected I got stung. Murphy's law huh? :) Lucky thing is it is removable and doesn't really do any long term damage ... just annoying.

With my computer being out of action for the last couple of days has put me way behind in work, but things could be worse. At least that keeps my brain busy and stops me getting bored.

I didn't manage to get to ww last night (the first meeting I have missed since I started in January). We were doing all the formalities for our house sale (solicitor and real estate agent stuff)

My eating has been pretty good (sticking to around 18-19pts per day) although I haven't physically tracked (just mentally calculated it up) But my exercise has been virtually nil since we got here. Could be worse. I'll be back to my ww meeting next wednesday. My wedding rings still feel pretty lose so can't have done too badly.

Thanks for everyone's support!! It's fantastic to have such a strong support structure on here. You guys are awesome! I'm not going anywhere... I will have bad days .. but ultimately it won't stop me reaching my goal!

I got through my tax refund today of $905!! wahoo!! That will go to paying off my business overdraft and give me a couple of extra hundred to go into the house fund. Big load off my shoulders!

Loving my new computer!! I have gone with Windows XP this time and it's fantastic! No way near as bad as everyone warned me it would be. I haven't had to update any programmes. Just my norton's has given me a few hassles but still fixable. Very much worth it!

Well early night for me I think. Kids are all sick at the moment still so that has warn me out. So far (touch wood) I'm still healthy :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg

It's not good

I'm really not coping well at all. I'm on the verge of tears all the time. Sorry to be such a drain on you guys, but I feel this is my only lifeline at the moment. Missing Bill sooo bad and he's only been gone not even one whole day.

Everyone was great who helped us shift, but now they have all gone home and I am here by myself. Jesurun was up all night last night with a bad cough that at one stage turned into an asthma attack so not having any sleep doesn't help with the emotions either.

Mum offered to come and look after the younger two while I took Lauren and Malachi down to their new school. Trouble was the principal there took absolutely ages explain everything so by the time I got back home again it was 9.45am. Mum was really annoyed (and understandably too) but I just couldn't do anything about it. Normally I would cope with this and flog it off as 'just her' but today I couldn't take it. I didn't react at all infront of her, just apologised. But as soon as she left I burst into tears. Don't know why I'm so crazy at the moment. PMS is here as well (great timing I know) I really don't like being like this and I'm beginning to wonder if we have done the right thing. I just want Bill back here. I can't even ring him. Apparently he left work unexpectedly this morning (I'm guessing for a sleep at the old house) and there is no phone on there. Besides I don't want to worry him because he knows how being apart from him down here is going to effect me emotionally and right now he needs to concentrate on work to get his 70hrs in a week (otherwise we won't get our deposit saved in time). The last thing he needs is to travel down here because I'm not coping.

My eating has gone out the window as expected. That's one thing I just cannot deal with. Or more like one thing I can take off my plate to not have to deal with. I'm not binging or comfort eating or anything like that but there is no way I can deal with counting points or tracking.

Sometimes I just wish I could press a button and all my emotions would go away. Thought I had worked myself up to being able to get through this. Admittedly it's only day one, I just feel really alone and in very unfamilier surroundings. Craving for a cigerette but would never live it down if mum and dad caught me so for now I'll just have to hold off and cope!!

Sorry it wasn't better news for everyone to read. Really didn't want to write such negative things here today but I think I need to be honest with you guys and myself.

I'M HOMMMMMESICKKKKKK :( Hope tomorrow is better.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 83.9kg
GW 65kg