murphys law!! lol

I seem to do this to myself every week!! Think I've put on weight and make myself think I am fat. Not quite sure why... probably because I'm scared that's what will happen.

But all my fears were for nothing again... 300g loss! :) I know, I know ... I gotta stop being so hard on myself. But I'm happy with that result ... slowly but surely it's all going for good!!

In answer to your question Leigh ... he got them through his work. Coke booked out a section of the game and they give them away to certain staff (usually management) of supermarkets from all over the country. This is the first one he has got ... usually the owner or store manager gets them (Bill is 2IC under the store manager).

My day went really well yesterday. Went to ww then grabbed a bite to eat (filet-o-fish and apple pie from McD's), then drove to Tauranga (around an hours drive) to see two clients, then home again by 9.30pm. Long day but a very productive one.

Spent this morning with Bill before he headed back to Auckland at lunchtime.

Feeling quite positive again today. I really don't know what sparks my down moods. It's not hormonal. I guess it's everything that is going on. I think it helped the fact that I got a lot of work done today (with the business) so not feeling so pressured.

I had to laugh when I saw your comment Lynda :) I honestly am wanting to update my pic. I have taken photos but I'm such a scrooge ... I have another 10 photos to use up the film and I don't want to waste them and have to pay money to get it developed. Not that I don't want to spend the money but our finances are just so tight at the moment that $10 on a film is a luxury. That's my excuse anyhow lol. I will get it developed honest lol. Maybe I'll got do it now while I think of it ... hehe

LMAO!! Murphys Law. I just went to take the film out of the camera and put it in a post bag to get developed while I was thinking of it .. and get this ... someone left the camera on so now the batteries are flat and I can't rewind the film ... lol. Now not only do I have to pay for the film but batteries as well (and they are the expensive kind) ... Sorry Lynda you'll have to wait. My sister has a digital camera ... maybe next time I see her I can get her to take some and email them to me.

Dinner is burning so better get back to it.
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.5kg
GW 65kg

feeling fat today

Just a quick update tonight as I'm pretty tired. Things are going okay. Been really hungry the last couple of days (not TOM for me) not sure why. I've handled it pretty well with snacking on apples when I get hungry.

But somehow I don't feel slim this week. Not holding out for any great news at weigh in tomorrow. Maybe my girly weekend 3wks ago has finally caught up with me.

Lynda has updated photos on her site and she looks fantastic!! Wow what a stunner! Makes me realise it's all worth it when I see results like that :)

Bill is coming down tonight. Hope he drives carefully because there's a huge storm out there at the moment.

Things are starting to get to me today. Mainly the kids. I'm just warn out. Tired of picking up after them, tired of disciplining them, tired of cleaning the house, tired of business work and tired of concentrating on my eating. I'll get over it... just not feeling the best. Hope I have a good weigh in result tomorrow ... that will cheer me up and get me motivated again.

Bill has been given tickets to the All Blacks vs Wales rugby world cup game in November (in Sydney) so he's flying out for a boys weekend away. I'm sure he'll enjoy himself. Feeling rather sorry for myself that I didn't get invited too lol. But I suppose it won't make me feel so guilty going for my Sydney shopping spree next year when i get to goal ... hehehe. Told him he has to buy me a really nice pressie to make up for me not going (big sook arent i? lol)

busy day again tomorrow ... off to Tauranga to see some clients. Hope the weather clears up by then.

Update again on Tuesday to let you all know how I got on with weigh in.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

Work has gone crazy

I'm back catching my breath again. Things have been so hectic lately I don't seem to be getting any of my routine things done ... like dishes for example. I hate having a messy house but with a workload like it has been something has to give.

I've just finished a set of 105 invites/envelopes/RSVP cards and RSVP envelopes ... wow!!! Spent 3 days with my head down, butt up and finally it's all finished! Breathing a sigh of relief. Got caught up on the dishes and housework this morning then off to the supermarket this afternoon to get some more food, all before it all starts again on monday, with the next job due soon after.

I am fully booked up with consultations now until 20 October. It's just gone crazy!!

Eating has been pretty good. Made the mistake of shopping this afternoon on an empty stomach. So came home with some things I probably didn't need. But the good thing is my magnum I bought impulsively is safely sitting in my freezer ... so far untouched. Good girl huh? lol. Don't know how long it will stay there tho. But instead of gorging it on a moment of impulse I have put it aside to reward myself tonight after all the kids are in bed. Back in January before I started this I used to live on Magnums. 2-3 a week!! This is the first Magnum I have had in over 9mths! Wow that's a long time. And I fully deserve this one... and that's all it will be ... One ...

Updated my measurements page for anyone interested. I have lost another 10cms overall in the past 8wks. It has slowed a little but given my circumstances I am happy with that. I have noticed my waist, thighs and calves getting smaller lately. Infact I am really starting to like what I see in the mirror now. Even considering wearing a sleeveless sundress for summer. That is one rule I would never break before ... ALWAYS WEAR SLEEVES!! Not anymore tho ... Just have to catchup on the ol' suntan on them lol.

Sad to see Leigh is stopping her website. She will be truelly missed by me and alot of others. But in saying that I totally understand. We all go through seasons in our life and if something starts to be a burden then changes need to be made. Leigh has been a very good email buddy of mine in this journey so far. We started at a similar time. But in saying that I will do my best to stay in contact, so don't think you're gonna get rid of me that easily ... hehe! I'll be haunting you :)

For those of you interested in seeing more progress on our house, a new pic went up today into the photo album. Got a wonderful surprise when the builder emailed it to me. It's really starting to take shape (I know I keep saying that lol).

Better get dinner on.
Bye for now
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

100g loss!! yay!

I have a new picture of the house up in my photo album taken on Friday. It's really starting to take shape now that the roof trusses have gone up. Wahooo :)

Had my weigh in yesterday ... 100g loss. Kinda hoping it was a little more than that but can't complain given it's TOM for me at the moment and my bad weekend two weeks ago that didn't really show on the scales. Happy little camper here. I'm kinda thinking that while things are so stressful and busy that as long as I can maintain my losses (i.e. not gain) and infact have small losses then I am doing pretty damn well. Still would like to be 71kg (ww goal weight) before 11 Feb 04 but if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen.

When I got to my meeting I was informed I was doing the recording by myself with no one helping. Yeowch!! Talk about being thrown in the deep end lol. I think I managed it okay with only a few hiccups. The only problem Bill was waiting for me in the car at 1.30pm when I was supposed to have finished (arrived at the meeting at 11.45am) but because I was new to my job and of course a little slower along with the leader explaining things to me it was after 2pm before I got out to him in the car. Stress all round lol.

Next week I'll go on my own and leave Bill at home with the kids. Much less stressful.

Going to give it a try for a few more weeks before I decide if I definately want to stay a recorder at the ww meeting. I really enjoy it but it does add more stress to my day (but I also enjoy getting out of the house) so playing it by ear for a bit then I'll decide what to do.

Well tommorow we would have been down here in Hamilton for an entire month!! Can't believe it's been that long already with only just over 4mths to go. Let's hope the rest of the time goes as quickly. And so far we have saved over $4000!!! With only $13,000 to go

Bill left today at lunchtime. We don't do the separation thing very well. We're finding that we fight for the first half day till we get all our frustrations out, then are sweet little lovebirds for the remainder time. It's weird... you'd think we would just be happy to see eachother with being apart but I don't know why we get at eachother at first... till we settledown then we are fine. Before we shifted down here we only argued once in a blue moon. I think it's because we are both really tired and stressed and we take it out on eachother as neither of us have anyone to talk it out to. This has happened for the last 3 weekends. I'm not worried because we always sort it out. We are good at communicating and talking things out.

I was sad to see him go today. But each week it gets a little easier and the time we are apart goes a little faster. We're both hanging out for the day we can be together all week in our new home. I'll stop now before I have you all puking in a bucket! lol

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.8kg
GW 65kg

Another busy day ahead

My cousin from the UK popped in yesterday and we had an awesome time. She is just the coolest. And yes she was blown away by my weightloss. Said I was fading away to nothing :)

Have a busy day ahead of me today. The two eldest children have gone with mum and dad to church this morning so the house is quiet for the meantime. Still have lots of work to get on with and this afternoon I'm off to Auckland again to see a client. Then back home again before mum leaves for the cowshed (she's looking after the children for me). Tight deadline but should be doable.

Bill is coming down either late tonight (around midnight) or first thing tommorrow morning. Can't wait! He's down for two days and leaves again on Tuesday lunchtime.

Not much else to update on. Havent had any eating problems, so going good there but my exercise hasnt been very good. Still raining off and on here so hard to get it in.

Hoping to stop by the house when I'm in Auckland to check on updates with the building. Bill said he called by there the other day and nothing more was done. I'm presuming this is because of the bad weather.

I'll take my camera anyway incase there is anything more done to take pics of. I'll let you know tomorrow.

Till then, see ya
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

Poor little Coral :(

Emotions are running high today. I have so much work on that I can't be bothered getting started on it. Bad I know.

Have my cousin from the UK popping in to visit this afternoon. She's over here on holiday for a few weeks. She hasn't seen me since I started ww. Although she knows I have lost weight will be interesting to see what she says. She's such a cool lady. One of those bubbly, wonderful to be around kind of people. The type that when they leave you just feel so happy and inspired. Yay can't wait for her to get here.

She's very different to my mother on the other hand lol. Got a visit from her this morning to be told off because my kids left all their gumboots and shoes out last night and with the rain now they are all wet! Felt like a naughty child lol. She has such a way of making you feel uplifted (NOT!!) lol.

To give you an idea of how judgemental my parents are (although ironically in writing this I too am judging ... but I gotta tell someone ... there's no other adults here to talk to) ... anyway ... after finding about little Coral's body being found yesterday and that the stepfather had been charged for her murder my father remarked "I can't understand why the mother would hook up with someone like that. In my mind she deserves all she got, she's very silly, I have no sympathy for her whatsoever!" I could not believe what I was hearing!! I am still very wound up about his words. Yes she may have made a mistake in living with him but she DID NOT DESERVE TO HAVE HER CHILD MURDERED!!! No one deserves to have a child murdered no matter what mistakes they make in their life. I told him this but of course was shot down saying how wrong I was. I just had to shake my head in disbelief. I tell you there is absolutely no compassion in that house.

I really feel for the mother. Can you imagine what she must be going through? To find her child is dead and killed by the man that she has just had a baby to. And the emotions that will be tied up with the baby too... to know it's father is the one that killed her daughter. I have so much compassion for her at the moment. My thoughts and prayers are with the whole family.

On that thoughtful note I'll sign off for today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

I actually have hip bones!! :)

Didn't manage to get out for the planned walk with my friend the other day because of the rain. Not too worried ... will get out again when the weather clears.

My eating yesterday was perfect. Been a very good girl here.

I put on a skirt this morning that I haven't warn in a very long time. It used to be too tight on the waist but I hid that well with a baggy top. Today it hangs down another 10cm on my hips!! Very close to falling off me. Makes me realise how much I have actually lost. So feeling very slim today. Infact this morning lying in bed I could feel my hip bone sticking out!! (lying on my back of course) still a different story when I stand up lol ... but it's a start. I will have truelly made it when I can feel dem hips bones while walking :)

Busy again with work today. There's no break at the moment. As soon as one job is finished it's on with another. Don't really like it when it gets this busy. Goes beyond what I want the business to be. Only supposed to be a part time job but at the moment it's taking away all the time I should be spending with the kids.

Leigh you must be so excited looking at your houses. Hope everything goes smoothly for you. And Karen glad to hear your job is going well. And all your wedding plans will work themselves out. Lyndas carrying on as her usual fantastic self (she inspires me so much!!) Keep up the great work everyone!!

Later!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

scheduled exercise... I did it! :)

Pretty boring day here. Work is speeding up again. Rather enjoyed the last week of not much work, didn't last long enough. Back into it again now with a 105 invites/envelopes/RSVP cards and RSVP envelopes to have out before next Tuesday.

Eating has been good and get this .... I actually went out for a scheduled walk yesterday afternoon. (pushing Jese in the buggy) and have made a 'date' with a friend to go walking with her this afternoon too.

Not much else to tell ... catchya all tomorrow
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

Happy happy joy joy

Had a fantastic time away with the 'girls' (my sister, a friend and two of her friends) But ate way too much of the wrong stuff. I always tried for healthy alternatives and wise choices but I'm not very good at saying no to food when it is right in front of me or when it affects others (like when everyone is ordering dinner together) I guess I'm not very assertive like that. But turns out I did okay anyway.

I was feeling rather depressed about going to my ww meeting today but glad I did ... had a 400g loss ... very happy but the few bad choices I had may show up next week. For now I'm not going to worry about that. Just going to enjoy my lightest weight for the last 10yrs .... 81.9kg!!! Only 2kg to go to break that 80's barrier and become a 70's gal!! Then I'm on the home straight!! Then only 10.9kg to go to get to ww goal of 71kg.

Went shopping while we were away and tried on lots of wonderful clothes. I was very good at not buying any of them but still made me feel good seeing what they looked like on. Generally I'm a size 14 now (depending on the brand) Can't wait to get to the size 12!! wahooo :)

Spent my first day as a recorder at my ww meeting today. Bit overwhelmed by it all ... alot of info to take in and remember but hopefully with a weeks of observing I should get the hang of it.

So ww has a new 'flexiplan' huh? Not sure I understand what is different about it or how it is better but might give me something new to get excited about. Have to do some reading up about it to work it all out.

Off to get my slim 81.9kg butt to cook some dinner :)
Nite all
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.9kg
GW 65kg

I've been very bad!

Really didn't want to update today. I haven't been the best the last few days. Quite naughty infact! Looks like my motivation has taken a downer again. Don't worry I'll be fine and I'm not giving up because of a few bad days of eating.

I think it all started when I baked a cake for my sister and instead of having a small piece I ate a HUGE slice!! Lucky I managed to give the rest of it away. Then that night I made a chicken casorole which would have been okay except that I didn't take any of the skin off (my favourite part of the chicken) and I ate a huge plateful!!

Yesterday was a little better but didn't eat until 2.30pm!! I made a whole lot of roast veges for dinner (done in a very healthy way) but still ate too many of them.

I have a girly weekend booked this weekend. I leave this afternoon and get back Sunday lunchtime. Really don't know how I'm going to plan for it. Have run out of time to save points. Take it as it comes I guess.

I think the secret is to get back into exercising. Even if it is just a walk. As soon as the weather clears up that is.

I'm really looking forward to doing the 'river walk' here in Hamilton. It's a 3hr walk along the banks of the Waikato River. But the opportunities aren't great. Have to go when I only have Jese to walk with. Bill is down for the weekend going back on Tuesday lunchtime so maybe we could go on Monday.

I won't be able to update again till Sunday when I get back so have a great weekend everyone and hopefully by the time I get back I will be inspired again :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.3kg
GW 65kg

ho hummm ...

Definately nothing exciting happened today ... went to ww weighin ... result? ... 100g gain. Not very happy with that result but not gutted either. After all ... last weeks loss was far more than I had expected and 100g isn't too much to worry about. I think it's the high fat meats I'm having for dinners. Even tho its only about 3 nights a week we have meat its pretty fatty stuff. Think I'm going to have to revisit that one.

The other thing ... the water here is absolutely gross so I have been adding refresh powder to the water to help me get it down, which is adding points.

Not much else to say, nite for now
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.3kg
GW 65kg

Life is good again :)

I didn't update earlier today because I didn't think I had anything much to tell you all... wow that has changed now lol

Got a phone call from Bill this afternoon to say that his boss has approached him about working Saturday and Sunday (that happened a couple of days ago). Well he came back today with an offer. A $7 an hour payrise for the hours worked on those days!!! He will work two 14hr days on Saturday and Sunday meaning it will give us $444 extra at then end of each week! What this means is that instead of having to work 79hrs each week to earn enough to save $800 a week (which was almost undoable) now he only has to work 66hrs a week and only 2 late nights. HUGE LOAD OFF MY MIND :)) And at the end of the six months he can either go back to his original 45-50hrs and having Saturday/Sunday off or keep doing the same as what he does now. The only bummer is that he will be having Monday/Tuesday off and so less time with Lauren and Malachi who are in school on those days. We will reassess it in February and see how we feel then.

The other news is that we got a letter from the builders today to say that building has started on our house!! Wahoo :) We're going up to Auckland tomorrow so we'll call by and see what they have done.

I have a really busy day tomorrow with two consultations to do in Auckland. One in Howick at 2pm and one in Parnell at 4pm so it will be tight, but keeps me busy.

Really don't know how I've gone weighwise this week. With being on a tight budget for groceries has meant I've had to buy 'cheap' meat which is generally fatty meat. Stayed away from sausages but had to buy mince and meatloaf for a couple of nights. But hopefully to make up for it there has been a couple of nights with no meat. So all in all ... don't know how that will effect the scales. But after last weeks great result I'm not too bothered if it is a gain.

Won't get to update tommorow with being out all day so the next time I update will be on Monday after weigh in.

Nite
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

new fatty photo

Was sifting through some photos at mum's yesterday and came across a good 'fatty' photo that was taken at the end of last year. So have put it up on my front page. If you don't see it when the page comes up you may need to refresh the page to bring it up.

I've spent the day doing work all day again. The phone has gone crazy with new bookings. Can't complain ... it all means money but will put me under a bit of pressure.

Bill has been offered the duty managers position for the weekends. Not really a promotion but means he will work weekends and have Monday/Tuesdays off. He's agreed to take it on for 6mths and only with a premium pay during those hours. Should work out quite good financially... but may mean a little juggling around with client consultations for me. I have been doing them on Sundays so might have to rearrange things somehow... not sure how yet.

I realised something really cool today ... my thighs no longer rub together. Such a small thing but only those who have been overweight will understand the significance of this :) Yay me! lol

Eating has been good today ... hmmm still no exercise... too busy and it's still raining here.

That's about it for today,
Catcha all tomorrow. I'm going to try and update more regularly (back to daily) I know I've been a bit slack lately with my updates but as soon as business work gets sorted I'll be back to a normal routine.... hopefully :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

New pics coming

Not much to report about today ... but thought I would still touch base so you guys didn't think I had given up on you all :)

Work is still crazilly busy. That's all I did all day till around 7pm.

Bill came home for the afternoon/night yesterday. Was so nice to have him home again. Went too quick tho lol. Back to work again at 6.30am this morning. Certainly making me appreciate our time together.

This budgeting thing is hard on the grocery shopping. My goal is to survive two weeks without doing any shopping. We have another 5 days to go and the supplies are starting to thin out. Lucky we are on a farm with plenty of fruit, milk and meat. When the weather warms up a little I'll get a vege garden planted which will help a lot.

Thanks to all you guys for your congrats ... soo cool :) Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou :)

Had a cool email from Lynn tonight. She is the mum of Malachi's classmates (twins). Wow what a small world. She came across my website through ww (somehow, not sure how lol) and after reading through my journal put 2+2 together and realised I was Malachi's mum from school. She's also on ww and doing really well. Certainly put a smile on my face when I read who she was ... small, small world.

That's about it for today, did really well with my eating (not much here to binge on lol). Getting inspired to do the River walk (around 2.5hrs) ... when this rain stops that is lol

Ohhh you'll all be shocked lol ... I actually took some update pics yesterday ... now just gotta get the film developed. Was wearing my new jeans ... hand-me-downs from Bill. They are too small for him now and fit me 'mighty fine' in his words lol. Not sure what size they are in womans (they are mens jeans) But size 82 whatever that means. If anyone knows what that is equivalent to in womans sizes please let me know. Thanks!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg

Snuck to a ww meeting early lol

Woke up this morning feeling slim ... so I thought "right ... I'm off to ww today for weighin while I'm feeling great!" :) good choice too... wahoooo!!! 1.7kg loss!! (in 1.5wks) bringing me to my 25kg lost mark!! The only downer was I had no one to skite to (lol) so far have lost 25.2kg.

This was my first meeting at the new Hamilton location. The leader seemed really nice and everyone was friendly. They do a really cool thing there ... they give out little gem stones for every 1 stone lost (6.3kg) and today I got to my 4 stone lost mark (exactly 25.2kg) so I got given 4 little gems ... Is that cool or what??? I have put in a little pic of them in my 'achievements' section of my front page.

There was a lady at my meeting today who was there for the first time and had forgotten her magazine coupon that gave her free registration. I suggested to her that because ww had a promotion that if you bring a friend along your friend got free registration. So we became 'friends' lol (ww wasn't to know that we had only just met) After exchanging names we went into the meeting. When the lady asked her who she came with she had a sudden memory loss and couldn't remember my name so just pointed to me and said "her" lol. Of course we sat together to make it look like we were long time friends :) And then they handed me a recipe book (part of the promotion) ... cool huh? so I got a free cookbook and a new friend ... great deal!! :)

Came home and showed mum my little gems ... for the first time since I started she actually looked proud of what I had achieved and asked questions. :) Good day!

Just feeling a little sad tonight ... not sure why .. missing Bill I guess. I'll see him on Wednesday night tho ... not long now only another 2 days.

Overall a very good day :) 1.7kg!!!! wahoooo!!! :)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 82.2kg
GW 65kg