Not too bad

Christmas day has been and gone and I feel like I am a bit back in control ... not totally tho. (there's still choccies sitting at mums that I can't resist everytime i go there)

Christmas day was fun but I didn't have as much control as I had planned. I way overate. I was fine for the Christmas lunch but when we went to a cousins house for christmas dinner I just couldn't control myself ... I ate, ate, ate! Then boxing day wasn't much better. I hadn't felt so out of control in the whole year gone by as I did the last few days. So I decided enough was enough and went out for a run on Saturday morning, then that afternoon Bill wanted to take the kids for a swim in the river so I took Jese in the pushchair and went for another half hour walk. And on Saturday Bill and I went for a run/walk down the river for an hour. I figured if I couldn't control my eating then the least I could do was exercise more to try and compensate.

Then yesterday off I went to ww weighin. The exercise must have worked because I had a 600g loss. Given that I had such a huge gain of 1.3kg last week that went someway to working it back. So I am now again under 80kg. I'll be so glad when all the leftovers and chocolates have all gone!! lol

WW released a new program this week so hoping that will reinspire me to get back into it 100% again. But ultimately I am happy with how I am going and as long as I keep plodding away I'll be fine.

Hope everyone had a great christmas and enjoy the new Year.

Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.7kg
GW 65kg

what a shocker!! 1.3kg gain!!!!

I am now typing on a brand new computer... finally! My computer lease place has decided to replace the other hardrive that was giving me so many problems. And I have been working on it all day without one single freeze. Feels great to have a machine that's NORMAL! lol

Weigh in gave me a bit of a shock yesterday ... a 1.3kg GAIN!!! lol... I have to laugh ... that's the only way to cope with such a shocker! TOM started today so presuming that had something to do with the huge gain. But in the whole time I have been on ww I have never had such a huge gain before even at TOM. (largest before this was 200g!!) The other thing I thought of was the roast mutton I cooked this week. (couldn't turn down a free roast of mutton) but it was pretty fatty and I was so hungry that day I ate a large helping. Must have been higher in points than I thought.

Probably have to think of it as a possitive in that giving me a shocker gain the week before Christmas will hopefully make me watch what I eat this week.

Went to Auckland yesterday to choose the kitchen/bathroom/ensuite floor and wall tiles. Was soooo exciting!!! I found a really cool tile that had brown and charcoal grey in it (quite rustic) to match with the walls and carpet (carpet = charcoal grey and wallpaper = fawn). And the wall tiles we have gone for a nuetral whitewash offwhite. By white wash I mean each tile looks like it has had a brush coat of white overtop with each tile being unique and different. Then we have a border of tiles going the full circumference of the bathroom. Hard to explain on here but as soon as I have some pics I'll post them up for you.

Roast turkey roll for dinner tonight. Bill got given it in a Christmas hamper from his new job. And it's 97% fat free!!!

That's about it for today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.3kg
GW 65kg

Not long to go now

This will be my last update for a few days. My computer goes back up to Auckland tommorow morning (hopefully for the last time) to be sent away for testing and hopefully replaced. Fingers crossed it will play up the same for them as it does for me (always the way tho lol)

Went to a family BBQ lunch today and found myself picking at the food on the table. (my old pre-ww habits creeping back) I do really well when I don't have temptations in front of me. At home I don't have anything in the house that can lead me astray but in situations where I can't control what is put infront I find myself slipping up. Old habits die hard I guess.

Weigh in tomorrow and I'll be happy with a stay-the-same. Over christmas my goal is to maintain. Not going to worry about actually losing for the moment until after New Years.

Only 7wks to go till we move into our house. Wow time has just flown by. After Christmas and New Years, then my birthday in early Jan, then Malachi's birthday mid Jan, our wedding anniversary mid Jan, and then it will only be a couple of weeks to go. I can see the next short while will fly by too. Sounds good to me lol.

Hopefully the next time I write on here I will be on a new computer (that works properly)

Till then, if I don't get a chance to say it ... HAVE A FANTASTIC CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.0kg
GW 65kg

finally someone actually takes me seriously

Big sigh of relief!! I have just finished the last of my work before Christmas!! Yay ohhh yay!!! I can actually have the whole of next week off. The last time I had a break that long ... wow I don't remember. Can't wait!

Bill is also having 4 days off over Christmas. True Bliss!! Tomorrow will be the first day we have had off together where one of us isnt taking off somewhere. A whole day together ... wow!! All my christmases at once lol.

We got a horrid bill from my computer lease place charging us $325 to fix up my computer. I saw red and wrote them a nasty email to tell them how unhappy I was that I was being charged. After all this computer is only a few months old and it's still not working right even now. I got a phone call the next day to see if they could sort the final problems out. Basically I am disputing that it is a software/virus problem (like they claim) and I'm saying it's a faulty hardrive which is covered under my warranty. But all along they have refused to admit a faulty hardrive. After going over the problems AGAIN on the phone to them the guy goes silent and asks if he can call me back in 10mins. After I get his call back he finally admits that infact it could be a faulty hardrive and for me to send it up to them (again for the THIRD TIME!) and they will send it away to be tested. Finally someone is actually listening to me and I might actually get this computer sorted and working properly!! Took long enough!

Eating??? hmmm ... not bad.. not good. No bad binges or anything but can't say I've been extra good either tho.

Congrats to Leigh ... what a fantastic weightloss this week!!! 1.8kg!! Well done girl!

That's about all for now
Nite all
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.0kg
GW 65kg

Complaining for nothing again ... lol

Very embarrased to say I had a 100g loss at weigh in yesterday after all my complaining about my expected gain... lol. But very happy tho :)

Bill had his first day at his new job yesterday. He said it went well but also turned up after work a very stressed puppy! He drove in in his new Mitsubishi challenger ... wow so nice and sparkling new :) So we spent the rest of the evening taking everyone for drives in it ... mum, dad, my brother, cousin, his wife, my sister and her husband! lol

So nice to have the kids sitting comfortably in the back with even a spare seat. They are used to having 4 kids squashed in the back (including a car seat!). They have done a really good job putting in the extra seats in the back with them matching exactly to the other seats.

I've added the heading/link for the latest update on my front page. Let me know if the link doesn't work properly but I think I have it right.

Make this a short update, this computer has crashed on my twice while trying to do this update (making me retype it all ... I hate that!!)

Catchas later!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.0kg
GW 65kg

It's normal so don't punish yourself

Just been reading everyone's journals this morning and it seems everyone is finding it hard to lose weight at the moment. Don't worry about it! The fact that we are all finding it hard to lose with all the christmas rush, stress and parties shows that it's just that time of year. I too am finding motivation not happening lately. But in the new year it will be reinspiring to get back into it 100% again. The numbers in our ww meeting has dropped heaps and my leader says this is normal for this time of year. Funny how everyone finds the same thing. So don't be hard on yourself if it's not happening for you at the moment. Just plod on doing the best you can, knowing when the new year turns over we can all get back to it.

Not much else to tell today. Had real cravings last night, just couldn't eat enough to satisfy me, so probably went over my points. Once I weigh in tommorow, find out my gain I can put it behind me and get on with the next week with a clean slate.

Bill starts his new job tomorrow. We are both really excited about it. The main thing being he will only be working one late night and the rest finishing at 5pm. Huge luxury for us!! At the moment he is working 3 late nights (finishing at 10.30pm, getting home just before midnight. Then leaving at 6am the next morning). We also get our new car ... wahooo!! Which means I get a car to use down here. For the last 4mths I have been stuck down here without a car. Have been feeling really trapped. Will be nice to have the freedom again.

Later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.1kg
GW 65kg

I'm back finally!

I finally have my computer back again and working properly. They managed to save all my files ... LUCKY!

Went up to Auckland last night for Bills work christmas function. Had loads of fun but went way over my points ... whoops. We had a really good time. Ended up staying in a B&B in Manukau. I was a little uneasy at first being in someone elses home but it worked out really well. Better security for our car and having someone to chat to at breakfast was nice.

Got loads of comments from everyone at the work do about how great I was looking. I kinda forget now that I used to be fat lol. Felt nice to have all the compliments :)

The christmas party finished at midnight and we decided to tag along with some friends to a kareoke bar. But it was a bit hairy with the type of people there so Bill and I got a taxi home instead. By this time it was 2am!! It's been a long time since I've been up that late and especially out doing the club thing ... didn't enjoy that part as much as I used to in my younger days. Geez I must be getting old lol.

It was great having a nite off from my wonderful children too. They spent the night with my sister. I tried to have a sleep in this morning but I'm in such a habit of waking up early I just couldn't do it. Still 8am is a record for me :)

This time away might have an effect on my weigh in on Monday. I deserve whatever happens but hey I had fun anyway lol.

Had an email from a reader to ask if I can put a 'latest updated' notice on my front page. I will try and do this but not sure how it will go given that the website I use for the other parts of my website is horrible, slow and often down. I'll give it a try and see what happens. Haven't got time to sort it at the moment but will try and organise it in the next few days. Another option if it doesn't work out is for you guys to put this page in your favourites list rather than my front page that way you bypass my front page and come straight here. You can still get to the rest of my website by hitting the buttons below... but I'll try the otherway first. Anything to make my site more user friendly has got to be a good thing.


Went and had a look at the house this morning on my way home. They are up to painting the arcitraves (sp) and ceiling... and the pavers have been laid on the outside. Was a bit nervous at first of the brightness in colour of them. (they are a terracotta colour) but I know they will fade in time so not too worried. Sorry I haven't got any updated pics yet.

Better get dinner on given it's 6.15pm already!!
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.1kg
GW 65kg

Happy chappy!! :)

Another 700g bites the dust!! Happy camper I am :) I think the biggest success to celebrate is the fact that this week I underwent stress more than I have had in a long time and a 2day weekend away, out to dinner, drinks, socialising... yet was still able to have a loss. A year ago my decision would have been not to go or not to be on diet. I would have never thought that I could have both ... healthy eating and a life!

Although I was really upset about my decision to close the business the other day ... today I am much more at peace about it ... actually starting to look forward to it. It helps with the workload now knowing there is an end to it.

Fitted my butt into a new pair of sexy pants on Friday last week. Told myself I would only buy a new pair if I could fit into a size 12. That wasn't to be but liked the look of these new ones anyhow ... so what the heck ... size 12 will have to wait till next time ... size 14 still looked great! lol. Felt so amazing to be the star of the show when we went out that night with people commenting to Bill how amazing I looked (after I left of course lol). I felt so much more confident. Was talking to everyone like I didn't have a care in the world. A year ago I would have sat in the back corner hiding behind my glass, arms folded (legs not folded because they were to fat to lol) and glaring at everyone wondering why no one would talk to me. Now it's a totally different story... I'm the one who starts the conversation and suddenly I have lots of people to talk to. FANTASTIC!! Wasn't till this last week that I realised how much I have actually changed.

My computer is still down. Sent it back to Auckland to be looked at today. But it's given me a good reason not to be working and have a breather.

Leigh you have really inspired me to get back into exercise again. I keep saying that lol ... I guess I just gotta do it!

Catchas all later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.1kg
GW 65kg

It's over ... I've had enough

I did a big entry last night telling you all about the wonderful two days we spent away in Auckland. It was fantastic!! Then just as I was finishing my computer crashed and I lost the lot. Then when I tried to reboot I couldnt. My computer has totally lost it again. I am currently on my brothers computer to update you guys on whats happening but doesnt look like my computer will be up again anytime soon. I have to take it back to Auckland on Monday to see what they can do. I am so tired of computer problems. I've decided I can't take the stress of the business anymore and have chosen to close it down. It has been a huge struggle for me to come to this decision. I've spent the last 5 yrs building it up to where it is now. And it has the reputation within the wedding industry now of being the best there is. I have been recommended to clients from the top NZ dress designers and photographers. It's a huge saddness to actually close it down because not only has it been my pride and joy for the last 5yrs but has given us the financial ability to have this computer. But it has gone beyond what I wanted for the family. I am continually stressed about it and my family and homelife is suffering because of it.

We are not in the position where we need the business now. We can quite easily survive on Bill's income alone and I want to be just a mum for a while (while the kids are still young). I'm really burnt out and need a break.

I still have plans on creative things I want to do in the near future but for now it's a close of an era... a sad time for me but it has to be done.

The computer hassles have been the final straw for me. Don't worry I'm not disapearing and will continue my weightloss site as normal. I couldnt be without u guys :) Just not coping very well at the moment... trying hard not to comfort eat.

Might not be able to update again till after my computer is fixed whenever that is. I just want to chuck it out the window at the moment.

Ahhh well such is life. Off to check out the other journalers sites hopefully that will inspire me to cheer up.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

Computer strike

Boy have I had a stressful few days!! On Saturday night in the middle of printing a big 500 item job my computer decided to roll over and DIE!! I figured maybe it was overworked and it probably deserved a few hours off, so left it alone for a bit to cool down (I certainly needed to cool down by now too lol)

But a few hours later and it was no better. Kept giving me an "unmountable boot volume" error and wouldn't even get to the start up screen. I thought ok I can handle this, I'll get my cousin over here first thing Monday to look at it. But even with a few phone calls to a friend (even more expertise than him) I was told my hard drive was f***** (excuse my french). This meant all my work for the last 5 yrs was gone, including the jobs I was working on and due out NOW!! I was really freaking out by this stage. I rang the computer lease place in Auckland to see what they said. Basically they didn't hold much hope for it but to bring it up anyway for them to have a look at.

Cut a long story short ... 2hrs later and alot of ups and downs ... they saved her!! With all files intact!! I tell ya, I could have hugged that guy! I've never been so appreciative of normal life with a normal working computer!! lol

So consequently didn't make it to weigh in yesterday. Will have to wait till next week to see my good results on the scales. I told myself it could have been a bad eating week I couldnt make it to weigh in not a good week ... heheh.

I've got an extension on this job till Thursday. (sounds like I'm a naughty school girl who lost her homework! lol)

Got another pic of the house today ... inside kitchen shot. Went to see it yesterday while I was in Auckland... and fell in love with the kitchen. The colours have turned out far better than I imagined. Kept walking round going "wow,wow,wow". Was a highlight of the day (I've put the pic in the album for you to see).

Came down with a migrane on the way home (around 10.30pm after seeing the last client). Think it was a combination of all the driving and the stress of the last couple of days. By the time I got home I was in tears. I could hardly open my eyes. Walked in the door and flopped into bed. I don't know how Bill does it, driving to Auckland and back each day. Well not long to go now (10wks or so)

I'll go put the kitchen house pic up for you now.
Catcha
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg