Monday, June 30, 2003

We've had an offer on the house already!! :)

I had a good weekend. I went over to Waihi for a cat show and stayed ontrack all day and even got an hours walk/run in. Bad news is Chino didn't win anything but hey it was a good day out without the kids.

Here's my eating for the day ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
LUNCH - seafood filled roll 4pts
SNACK - 2 mandarins 1pt
DINNER - subway 1ft long teriyaki chicken (low fat one) 12pts
SNACK - rum and diet coke 2.5pts

Total 22pts/22pts
Saved 0pts
Total saved -10pts
Water 5 glasses
Exercise 1hrs walk/run 5pts
Total bonus points 16pts

We got our first offer on the house, but of course they wouldnt tell us over the phone what it was. We have to wait till after 3pm this afternoon. I'm kinda nervous, not about selling but that they will beat us down in price. Bill and I have set a price we want that we won't go below (but I'm sure everyone says that lol) Still great to know that it has only been on the market a week with an offer already. We had another 2 couples through yesterday... so that's four couples through already... exciting stuff.

I have finally talked Bill into letting me get a Devon Rex cat. I wanted one before we got Chino our Burmese but he flatly refused saying they were UGLY!! (how could anyone say they are ugly???) Here's a pic of one so you can see what they look like ...

The adorable Devon Rex

They have velvet like fur and wrinkles everywhere (bit like a sharpei dog) This one is just a kitten and they come in all colours... I want a smokey black one. I found a breeder at the show yesterday and I have compromised with Bill saying I will wait till after we have built our house and settled in properly (let's see... 2 days should do it lol) But seriously I am happy to wait. The breeder says their personalities fit in perfectly with Burmese. Siamese not so much but Burmese are fine. So I think they will make great mates with eachother.

Well I think that's enough blabbing from me... have a gym session planned for this afternoon and a good day of eating ahead!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 88.6kg
GW 65kg

Saturday, June 28, 2003

I am pleased with my efforts :)

I was very well behaved yesterday ... but only just!!! lol

Bill was trying his hardest to get me to drink the 3 rum and cokes sitting in the fridge. He nagged me for 3hours!!! I kept saying no but he kept nagging me!! He is so bad like that, just doesnt give up. Who needs a nagging wife when you have a husband like Bill lol!!

But you would be proud of me ... I stood firm ... but only just!! It was so tempting but noooo I knew I couldnt, I have to stick to my 18pts for the remainder of this week to work off my extra 18pts I used on pizza the other night.

I am struggling with getting water in again. I managed 3 glasses yesterday which I am relatively pleased with. Think I need to work up to 6 again bit by bit.

For today my goal is to stay below 18pts again. Just me and the kids home all day today, with Bill working to 10.30pm. Might get inspired to make something nice and low point for lunch.

The plan is to go to the gym this afternoon. Bill is coming home from work for a couple of hours at 1.30pm till 5pm. So I will make a mad dash to the gym before it closes at 3pm.

I'm off to Waihi tomorow for another cat show. Unless Chino wins first prize I think this one will be the last for a while ... I'm just getting too busy to be running around the country with a cat under my arm ... hehe. Hope he wins some prize tho ... we need some more catfood and it is just so expensive to buy. Much easier to win it :)

If the weather holds out on me tomorrow I will go for a big walk around Waihi while I'm waiting for the judging to finish. All depends if we take the kids with us or not. It's looking like Bill will need to stay home with the kids and me go alone (with Chino of course) because Jordan has come down with a bad cough and I don't really want to take him out if he is still sick.

My eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 1pt
LUNCH - Chicken Soup 4pts, 2x bread 2pts, milk 1pt
SNACK - banana 1pt
DINNER - steak 3pts, potato 1pt, coleslaw 2pts
SNACK - ww dessert 1.5pts

Total ... 18pts/22pts
Saved ... 4pts
Total saved ... -14pts
Water ... 3 glasses
Exercise ... none
Total bonus points ... 3pts

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 88.6kg
GW 65kg

Friday, June 27, 2003

I blew it!!!

wasnt going to update today ... the news is bad! I totally blew my points out last night ... ON PIZZA AND ALCOHOL! Man I feel like I have undone all my good work over the last six months.

I didn't even track it ... was feeling too guilty. But the good thing is this morning I decided I have to track what I ate so I can work it off over the week.

So here's what I ate yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 1pt
SNACK - cereal bar 2pts
LUNCH - 2 crumpets 2pts, ww jam 0.5pt, lite cream 1pt
SNACK - rice crackers 1pt
DINNER - 3 pieces of Pizza Hutt Pizza 21pts!!!!!
ALCOHOL - 5 rum and cokes 10pts

Total ... 40pts!!/22pts
Saved ... -18pts
Water ... a pathetic half glass
Exercise ... loading rubbish into bin for 4hrs (don't know how many points this is) maybe 3pts?

Not a good picture. But in tracking means I can do something about it. Plan is to cut back to 18pts for the rest of the week (saving 4pts each day) which will work back the -18pts.

Pre-ww I used to have pizza regularly for dinner ... I love it!! And we used to get a whole pizza each!!! My goodness ... thats like 56pts!!! in one meal! wow! No wonder I was overweight lol. So to stop at 3 pieces was a small success. I've got to look at some positives here lol. Hmmm well gotta just bite the bullet and accept it I guess. The other good thing, I didn't enjoy it as much as I used to. I was okay but a nice home cooked meal would have been just as nice.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 88.6kg
GW 65kg

Thursday, June 26, 2003

can you believe it?? wahoo!!

I was completely shocked at weigh in last night ... 1.2kg loss!! Wasnt expecting that much although in saying that I seem to have good losses after TOM has finished, so makes up for my pathetic 100g loss last week. I'm presuming my 5 rum and cokes will show up on the scales next week so I'll
try my best to work it off first.

Do you realise I now only have 1.2kg till my 20kg loss mark!! Wow I can't believe I am finally nearly there! And in only a few kilos I will be half way. On a good day like today I think wow that is so cool that I have already nearly lost half of my weight and on bad days I think ... geessh I still have the same amount again to lose. But when I look at the big picture, it hasnt been hard. I just have to concentrate, keeping my focus strong. As long as I do that I will continue to suceed and rid myself of these horrible rolls.

Think it might be time for another updated photo (maybe when I hit my 20kg loss mark) I will try and have the photo taken the same as the last one so you can compare the two.

Not much to else to say today ... I didnt track yesterday but I can tell you I didnt eat much (with weigh in day)

But tracking hard today!! Got 3 glasses water in yesterday (not the best)... working on that one too.

Busy morning so far ... only 10am and I have already tidied the house, made the beds, done the dishes and done a business consultation (which went very well)... feel like I'm getting on top of things again ... yay!!

The big bin is supposed to arrive today so that will be good to finally rid ourselves of all the rubbish! Cant wait.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 88.6kg (wow I feel slim!)
GW 65kg

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

what a day!!! :)

Wow what a cool day I had yesterday. Talk about extremes!! Got the house tidy in the morning... just in time for the real estate agent to arrive with 6 other agents she wanted to show through. Then did some clearing out of old stuff in the pantry and kitchen cupboards. Friend arrived for a coffee than back into painting the fence out the back till Bill arrived home at 4.30pm.

During the day I had a call from the agent to say the price all the other agents thought our house should get was $15,000 - $20,000 more than we thought we would get. Fantastic news! (Hopefully the buyers think the same)

Then on clearing my emails last night a client let me know she was sending in payment for the work I am doing for her, which is enough to cover the extra $1000 we had to spend on the house this month. So that's our money troubles gone out the door (for now anyhow).

Was such a relief to have that pressure lifted. I let loose with a few rum and cokes to celebrate... whoops should have stopped at the one but ended up having 5. Funny thing is ... I don't feel guilty about it this time. So what if I went over my points for the day... I had points saved up enough to cover it.

Went to the gym this morning (shock horror) and really enjoyed it. I was puffing a little more than usual but I also pushed myself harder too. Hopefully this has sparked me to get enthusiastic about getting back into it.

Back into painting the fence today... if the sun stays out.

Really don't know how I will go at weigh in tonight. I have stuck within my points for the week but still not enough exercise as usual and not enough water either. Well I'll let you know on Thursday. Won't be able to update tonight... I'm off to ww at 5pm then going out to see a friend in hospital straight after so wont be home till late. I'll try and get on as soon as possible on Thursday morning... don't like to keep you all waiting! :)

Heres my eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, reg milk 1pt
SNACK - LCM Bar 1.5pts
LUNCH - nothing
DINNER - chinese 11pts
DRINKS - 5 rum & cokes 10pts

Total ... 25pts/22pts
Saved ... -3pts
Total saved ... 5pts
Water ... none ... whoops
Exercise ... 5hrs painting a fence 5pts
Total bonus points ... 11pts

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.8kg
GW 65kg

Tuesday, June 24, 2003

Apologies for my outburst yesterday :)

This cycle of feeling good and bad can be pretty stressful. I am feeling really good today. After re-reading yesterdays entry I feel a little arkward and embarrased. I can be so overdramical!! But at the time I can't see anything else but the dark cloud and nothing seems to blow it away.

Today is good tho and my eating yesterday was good and focused. I even drank all 6 glasses of water... but still no exercise. Bill is doing big hours this week so exercise will be a little hard to fit in.

The 'for sale' sign went up last night ... a little earlier than we expected but certainly gets us moving into cleaning up. Ordering a big skip bin today to get rid of all our 'junk' we have hoarded over the 3 yrs of being here. There's a sence of satisfaction about throwing out stuff.

We sat down and did a budget last night so I'm feeling a whole lot better about that. I get so stressed out about finances, not sure why. Lucky Bill is the opposite, the ever optimist (leaning to the frustratingly flagmatic). Nothing fases him, no matter how hard the situation he can always see the bright side of things. The annoying side to this type of personality... everything always gets put off till later. But a small price to pay for his positive energy vibes. I don't know where I would be without Bill... he continuely cheers me up. I think thats why I get so down when he works late. I just hate not being with him (that's enough gooey stuff for today lol)

Here's my eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal bar 2pts
SNACK - hot chocolate 0.5pt, milk 0.5pt, marshmellow 0.5pt, lite cream 1.5pt
LUNCH - bread 1pt, egg 1pt, cheese 1pt, veges 0pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
DINNER - lean beef 3pts, Cous cous 6pts, veges 0pts, chicken gravy 3pts

Total 20.5pts/22pts
Saved 1.5pts
Total saved 8pts
Water 6 glasses (yay finally)
Exercise ... nothing
Total bonus points 6pts

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.8kg
GW 65kg

Monday, June 23, 2003

whats wrong with me?

I didnt track at all yesterday. I've chosen to write it off (bad thing to do I know but right now I dont care!) Didnt have breakfast till 12pm and that was only a cereal bar. Then lunch consisted of roast chicken with all the gravy trimmings, roast veges and fat, fat, fat!! Felt so bad about that so I didnt have dinner till 9pm ... a bag of rice chips oh and two hot chocolates with whipped cream and marshmellows... hmm let me see ... maybe only around 22 or 23 pts ... seemed like a lot more. but certainly didnt eat regularly and my water was around ummm 1 glass!! lol

I'm still really stressed and cant stop crying. Our finances arent helping. We've spent about $1000 on doing up the house this month so we havent paid our bills yet. We always get over it but still not easy. The answer to
this is for Bill to do 12hr days all week so we can at least cover the mortgage, which means I am stuck again here for hours on end by myself ... all just one big horrible circle!! And to top it off Bill went to church yesterday with the kids (I was home cooking a roast for friends coming for lunch, and painting the fence). This lady came up to him (shes the psycho one from across the road) and asked where I was. He replied I was at home at which she said (almost in a shout) "Oh is she at home SMOKING!!" Loud enough for everyone to hear! Well there goes going back to that church
again! lol... The thing that pisses me off about that one is she claims she has a spirit of lust problem (yeah I know ... crazy!! lol!!) and she comes onto any male within a 10mtr radius!! (including my HUSBAND!!) She has the cheek to come and ask to use my fax machine all the time... I tell ya next time she arrives I'm gonna go tell her to go jump!!

So I've had a pretty stressful weekend but still not stressful enough to answer why I cant stop crying all the time. I don't know what is wrong with me. I can't face going to the gym either at the moment, can't face food, water ... hmmm not good. I didn't even want to update my online journal
because I'm sick of writing negative stuff there. I don't like to seem like a weak, attention seeker, so I just avoid everyone and everything... feeling like crawling back into bed and not facing the world today. If I didn't have kids that's exactly where I would still be.

Probably a good thing that the real estate agent is coming round to photograph the house today so had meant I HAVE to get on with life, tidying up this damn house.

All that negative stuff aside ... I tried on Bill's jeans last night and they were actually baggy on me. I was lying on the couch skiting to him how I could fit his jeans then when I sat up the zip popped open!! It actually broke so it couldnt be done up again... oh no ... and just after I was feeling so good about them too lol. They weren't tight on me at all so they must have been ready to break but still doesnt make you feel too hot lol.

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.8kg
GW 65kg

Saturday, June 21, 2003

Much better today!! :)

I'm feeling alot better about today... dont know what has changed lol.

I think I was subconsiously stressed yesterday about having a full day without Bill here (he worked till 10.30pm last night) and I had a client coming for a consultation so had to have dinner cooked, eaten, kids in bed, house tidy, consultation prepared all by 7.30pm. This is fine when Bill is home. We work really well as a team and get things done in no time but on my own I get stressed about it.

Here's my skiting for the day ...
I put on my size 18 jeans today straight out of the wash and dryer (which always shrinks my jeans) and they not only comfortably did up but are baggy on me. I have actually tucked my shirt into my jeans ... this is a big thing for me. I ALWAYS have shirts hanging out over my jeans because I don't feel confident enough to expose my tummy but today it actually looks good with my shirt tucked in ... wahoo ... has been many years since I have had the confidence to wear my clothes like this.

Bill finishes at midday today so I'm hoping to get some exercise in once he gets home... maybe a long walk or a gym workout... haven't decided yet ... either one I'm looking forward to it, which is a step up from the last couple of days. Actually looking back on it (my depresive mood) is typical PMS feelings. I should recognise this but as usual I don't until it ends. PMS normally stings me a day or so before my period comes but this month it has run over into the first couple of days during my period. The good thing ... there is an end ... im feeling positive and focused today and my bloated tummy is starting to shrink back to it's normal state.

I think I did really well with my eating yesterday, eating 3 meals and 2 snacks, although still 4pts under for the day, but could have been worse. My water is improving at 5 glasses yesterday... goal for today is 6 glasses.

If the weather improves I will get out and paint the garden trimmings. Been wanting to do this job for the last week but there hasn't been a fine day yet. I'm hanging out for some sun, I'm sure that has an effect on emotions too.

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
LUNCH - pumpkin soup 2pts, bread 2pts
SNACK - hot chocolate with marshmellows (yummm!!) 2pts
DINNER - Potato wedges 2pts, sour cream dip 2pts, cheese and vegetable bake 5.5pts

Total ... 18pts/22pts
Saved ... 4pts
Total saved ... 6pts
Water ... 5 glasses
Exercise ... 1hr walk 4pts
Total bonus points ... 5.5pts

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.8kg
GW 65kg

Friday, June 20, 2003

hmmmm not good again

Im STRESSED!!!! Sick of this damn business, and stressed at where we are going to live if this house sells already and it hasnt even gone on the market yet!! It's 10am and all I have managed to do so far is eat breakfast and go for a walk and talk to stressful people on the phone (including my
mother). She has now turned round and said that maybe it wouldnt be a good idea to live with them while we build our house. We'll need to pay $100 per week in rent to stay at mum and dads (which is still good) but Bill will need to board in Auckland for probably $150 and then theres petrol commuting to Hamilton and back to Auckland each weekend (about $60 per week) so all up it's probably going to cost too much to live with mum and dad (around $310 per week, which we could rent in Auckland for cheaper than that) But its the hassle of trying to find a rental property for only a few months. Decisions, decisions!!!

Havent done any work!!! I hate today!!! Yes I kicked my lazy butt out of bed this morning and went for an hours walk so at least thats one thing.

My water intake is still shocking ... only 3 glasses yesterday. But I had breakfast this morning so going good there. And I managed to eat most of my points yesterday.

Sometimes I wonder if I am a recovering anorexic... I was never diagnosed with anything ... and never lasted more than a day without eating ... BUT ...I know that not eating breakfast is not good. And I have to force myself to eat especially when under pressure. I just cant handle the thought of having food in my stomach when I'm stressed. It has taken me 6mths to get my motabolism moving again and I feel like I'm undoing all my hard work at the moment. I may not gain weight when I dont eat but it means when I do get back to eating properly my motabolism will be at a stand still again and I will gain... I need that spark of energy, motivation and enthusiasm I had 3mths ago... where did it go? I've got to get back to this thing properly... 100% focused just so hard when there is so much else going on right now.

Heres my eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - nothing oops
SNACK - nothing .. damn ... maybe I shouldnt write my eating for yesterday down :)
LUNCH - sushi 4pts
SNACK - cereal bar 2pts
SNACK 2 - bread 1pt, baked beans 1.5pts, egg 1pt
DINNER - rice 2.5pts, steak 3pts, salad 0pts
SNACK - aunt bettys pudding 3.5pts, banana 1pt, lite cream 1pt

Total - 20.5pts/22pts
Saved ... 1.5pts
Water ... 3 glasses
Exercise ... house cleaning for 4hrs 2pts
Bonus points total ... 2pts

Hmmm doesnt look too good, but I tried ... honest
Todays looking a little better
Lyn :)

Thursday, June 19, 2003

Time got away with me sorry!!

Well sorry it took me this long to update you all ... lol

I had a crazy idea of ringing the real estate agent this morning (while Bill was home today) to come round and assess the house, what they think they can get for it. So it was a 4 hr hurricane around the house to get the house sparkling before she came at 1.30pm. We did it and she was very impressed... infact she tells us she thinks can get much more than we actually originally wanted for it ... (well so she says) but we will see. We're not pressured to sell so thats a good thing. Guess it's all happening now ... the house goes on the market in 2wks time. Not actually much more to do ... replace some boards in the bathroom, paint the garden edges and get rid of some more junk!! lol

Now on with the real news ... I lost 100g at weigh in last night... I was really pleased with that because I was feeling so bloated yesterday. Can't actually believe I am still under 90kg. 89.8kg infact :)

Now for my confessions ... I have been very bad today!! With all the mad panic this morning I didnt get time for breakfast or morning tea. And Bill ate one of my sushi so only ate 4 not 5 sushi for lunch (not much I know)
And I have only had half a glass of water so far today. It's no excuse I know but my mind is racing and eating is honestly the last thing on my mind at the moment!!

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.8kg
GW 65kg

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

full moon is playing up with my wild side!! lol

I am extremely tired today ... and it's all my fault lol ... At 12.30am this morning I was wide awake and couldnt get back to sleep. Started thinking about amounts we have spent on doing up our house to get it on the market and you know how once you start doing that you can say goodbye to going back to sleep.

By 1.30am I still couldnt get any shuteye so decided to get up and do some grocery shopping!!!! There is a brand new countdown supermarket gone up here (only opened yesterday). They had amazing specials on and have a 24hr operation. Just before I walked out the door I checked our bank balance to make sure Bill's pay had gone in ... but no it hadn't. Rang the bank (at 2am) and was told it doesnt go in till 3.30am ... aaarghhh!! So I filled in sometime reading other online journals.

Was really weird shopping at that time. There were only 2 of us in the store (other than staff). Only problem was the checkout operator ... talk about sloooow!! Must have been her first night. She took half an hour to put my order through!!! And packed everything all mixed up ... I hate that!!!

Got home at 5.45am intime for Bill to get up for work. Then the kids were up at 6am ... so no sleep yet lol. I'll try and have a quick one when Jese goes down for his 10am morning sleep. Put good ol' 'Bob the Builder' on for Jordan to watch.

Must be a full moon at the moment I'm sure ... both Bill and I have been doing crazy things the last few days. At 3pm yesterday we decided to build a retainer wall. We hadnt even bought the blocks yet. So I went in to pick the first of two loads up while Bill pulled the fence down and 2.5hrs later we had a retainer wall!!! I didnt get to the gym last night but figured I had a good enough workout with all the brick laying!! It looks fantastic, wish we had done it years ago lol.

Funny all the things you finally get done when you want to sell :)

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - weetbix 1.5pts, trim milk 0.5pts
SNACK - 2 ww cookies 1pt
LUNCH - 5 prunes 1pt, cereal bar 2pts
SNACK - 10 hot chips 2pts
DINNER - rice 5pts, meat 2pts, gravy 1pt, veges 0pts

Total ... 16pts/22pts ... oops!
Saved ... 4pts
Total saved ... 15pts
Water ... 4 glasses
Exercise ... Gardening 1pt, Brick laying 2pts
Total bonus points ... 17pts

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.9kg
GW 65kg

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

nothing to cry about

I'm feeling all teary eyed today, wanting to cry about nothing. Which must mean that my period is due. That's a good thing, meaning that another month has gone and I'm not pregnant. I have this horrible fear every month that I'm pregnant. We use protection every time but I'm still scared. I think even if Bill got his vesectomy I would still be scared I would be pregnant each month. And I feel guilty for feeling like this with people around me who cant get pregnant. We are blessed with four children and I appreciate the fact that we CAN get pregnant but to have another would just put us over the edge... I JUST CANT GET PREGNANT AGAIN, it would be too much. I only seem to worry about this at TOM so that's a good sign.

I really can't get focussed this week with my eating. I haven't gone over my points at all but I don't have that 100% focus I usually do. My water was still down yesterday at 4.5 glasses and my exercise is not up to my usual level (but still at the level I originally planned, 5 days a week). With TOM due at this weigh in I'm not expecting a good result. Desperately hoping for a loss (even 100 or 200g) but not planning on it. My clothes still feel the same loseness, I just have that bloated feeling.

I didnt do any exercise yesterday. I was still feeling too stiff from gardening the day before to go to the gym. But I'm going back tonight regardless of how my body feels. I have to or it will be too hard to get back into it. Exercise is such a bizarre thing... If you do it you want to do more, if you stop, you can't be bothered to go again. So I forcing my lazy butt out the door tonight!! lol

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - fruit porridge 1.5pts, trim milk 0.5pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
LUNCH - 100g rice chips 6pts (no bread in the house)
SNACK - 5 prunes 1pt
DINNER - 2 chicken drumsticks (with skin on) 5pts, veges and canned tomatoes 0pts, pasta 2.5pts, reduced milk 2pts
SNACK - lite icecream 2pts, banana 1pt

Total ... 22pts/22pts
Saved ... 0pt
Total saved ... 11pts
Water ... 4.5 glasses
Exercise ... none
Total bonus points saved ... 14pts

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.9kg
GW 65kg

Monday, June 16, 2003

not focussed

Uh oh ... yesterday I didnt track at all (kept a rough mind
count tho) and when i wrote it all down this morning I realised I went way under my points for the day ... hmmm not good... and at 4pm I realised I hadnt drunk any water!!! So I started then and managed to get in 4 glasses... oops

I considered all the work in the garden I did as my exercise (I'm feeling a bit stiff today tho so must have done something)

The flu thing I had must have just been a 12hr thing because I bounced back pretty quick. Muscles are the only thing feeling achy today from gardening and water blasting. The place is looking pretty good tho.

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - weetbix 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt
SNACK - banana 1pt
LUNCH - Apple 0.5pts, cereal bar 2pts
DINNER - rice 5pts, seafood chow mein 7pts

Total ... 17.5pts/22pts
Saved ... 4pts
Total saved ... 11pts
Water ... 4 glasses
Exercise ... Gardening 4pts
Total bonus points ... 14pts

Lyn :)

Sunday, June 15, 2003

We've decided to sell

My dinner went well last night ... didnt go over points at all for the day and didnt have to use my saved points. Lucky the host cooked up plain potatoes and beans, carrots and sweetcorn, so filled up my plate with those, then had a little bit of lasagna (difficult to point but guessed at 5pts for a small piece) Dinner was 6pts all together...

Then I did Nannas waffles (1.5pts), custard (1.5pts), petit miam (1pt), lite whipped cream (1pt), 2 marshmellows (1pt), and half a banana (0.5pt) each for dessert... was a big success! All up dessert came to 6.5pts ...

Then for supper we had rice chips (2pts) ... so all up I consumed 14.5pts for the evening and 21pts for the day (even saved 1pt) only problem I probably ate too many points in one sitting but I think a success overall :)

Our exciting news for the day ... we have decided to put our house on the market. We found out yesterday that the new subdivision we are wanting to build in, has been given consent to include a brand new primary school and group of shops so this means the prices of houses should go up even more in the area... all the more reason to get in NOW before the prices go up. The amount we will gain on the increased value of our new house will far outway any returns we would get on having our existing home as a rental so we are gonna do it ... sell up. We have a price in mind that we want for this place so if we get it well great if not then we just wont sell... simple as that.

So today we are doing some tidying up around the gardens/section. Tommorow we will tidy the house and then invite a land agent to come give us a free assesment of what they think the house is worth and we will go from there. Mum has offered for us to live with them for the 4 or so months while our new house is being built so that will help us out ... After all the ups and downs mum and I have nice to see her come through and offer us this :) They have a house next to them that is currently vacant (that they own) so if it is still empty when this place sells we will live there and Bill will either commute from Hamilton to Auckland each day (about 1.5hrs drive) or he will get a place to stay in Auckland for during the week and travel home on the weekends. We will put the older two in school in Hamilton for the 4 months (will give them a good life experience) so sounds like it might all be working out. Well if the house sells that is lol... one step at a time ... for now there's lots of tidying up to do so better get onto it.

Walking yesterday was good (walked with my ww meeting group) would have like to walk a little faster but was a real good social outing, getting to know some of my fellow ww'ers a little better. Earnt 4 bonus points so cant complain :)

Eating for yesterday ...

BREAKFAST - ww cereal (60g) 3pts, trim milk 0.5pts
SNACK - Apple 0.5pts
LUNCH - small banana 0.5pt
SNACK - cereal bar 2pts
DINNER - lasagna 5pts, potato 1pt, veges 0pt, waffles 1.5pts, custard 1.5pts, petit miam 1pt, lite cream 1pt, 2 marshmellows 1pt, half banana 0.5pt
SNACK - rice chips 2pts

Total... 21pts/22pts
Saved ... 1pt
Total saved ... 7pts
Water ... 7 glasses
Exercise ... 45min walk 5pts
Total bonus points ... 10pts

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.9kg
GW 65kg

Saturday, June 14, 2003

damn perfectionist!! lol

I'm not feeling the best today, think I am coming down with the flu but havent quite got it yet, that horrible stage where you feel too yuck to do anything but not bad enough to be in bed. I have two ear infections, my glands are up, boils, bladder infection (sorry for the gory details) inflamed excsma (?sp) and just generally feeling yuck... think I might be a bit run down (ya think?? lol) I have to get to the doctor but I am too much of a scrooge to pay the $40 for her to tell me I am right with my self diagnosis. I know she will put me straight onto antibiotics which ALWAYS gives me thrush ... the cure is worse than the original problems!!
I'm determined to exercise this afternoon no matter how bad I feel. There is a walk organised by my ww leader ... she gave a big speal last week how no one turned up last time so not to turn up after telling her I would be there would be a kick in the pants ... so I'm going no matter what!
Then it's out for dinner tonight... hmmm ... not sure how thats going to go. It's a potluck and I'm taking a dessert but I have nothing in the house to make thats point friendly. Might have to make a rush mad dash to the supermarket this afternoon... after my walk @ 2.30pm... whip something up then out to dinner @ 4pm... hmm dont know how thats going to work but oh well.
One friend is taking a lasagna (which definately wont be point freindly, and a favourite of mine ... uh oh) and a salad(shouldnt be too bad)
And the other friend is taking a tuna bake (probably topped with a kg of cheese!!) hmmm might be interesting. I have saved 6pts up so far and might have to eat light today as well.
I decided to do a few tweaks on this diary last night. But in the process accidently saved over the old one with the new version template for my diary but the new one didnt work!!! Arrrgggghh!! Then spent the next 4hrs trying to redo my old one. Got it finished eventually (around 11pm last night) but
in the end I'm left with the same thing as what I started with lol (still didnt fix the original problem I was trying to tweak) ohh well should have just left it and been happy with that I guess. damn perfectionist!!!
Eating for yesterday ... (vegetarian day)
BREAKFAST - cereal bar 2ps, yoghurt 1pt
SNACK - 5 prunes 1pt, 2 ww cookies 1pt
LUNCH - vege soup 2.5pts (potato, kumera, 98%ff sour cream, and a little sugar)
SNACK - popcorn 1.5pts, 5 prunes 1pt
DINNER - left over vege soup with added pasta 2.5pts
SNACK - lite ice cream 2pts, custard 2.5pts
MIDNIGHT SNACK - 50g rice chips 3pts
Total ... 20pts/22pts
Saved ... 2pts
Total saved ... 6pts
Water ... 6 glasses
Exercise ... none (day off)
Total bonus points saved so far... 5pts
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.9kg
GW 65kg

Friday, June 13, 2003

Doubt leads to a way out

This quote above came from my brilliant hubby last weekend. I was questioning the fact that I would actually finish this 21.5km half marathon or even the 12km walk I was about to undertake. He replied to me ... you can't have any doubts ... you have to go out there KNOWING you will achieve it!!! after all ... DOUBT LEADS TO A WAY OUT!
Isn't that just the most fantastic thing you have heard in ages? For me it was a light switch ... if we doubt ourselves in any way we will be giving ourselves an excuse to say "Oh I didnt think I could do it anyway so why bother finishing?" This lesson just doesnt work for 12km walks ... but for our whole weightloss journey ... we cant have any doubts that we wont make it ... or that we will pull out, because if there is any hint of doubt there we are giving ourselves excuses to jump overboard, but KNOWING we WILL get to the otherside we just have to ride the waves and STICK WITH IT!!!!
Wow that was profound huh? lol ... and for this early in the morning too ... somedays I shock myself lol
Now after doing this big speal for the day ... I have to confess about yesterday (uh oh) I didnt do anything crazy but definately didnt drink all my water (only 3.5 glasses of it) and had planned to go to the gym at 5.30pm class for 1hr, shower and home by 7pm for a 7.30pm consultation (business I run)... was a tight schedule but could do it. Except for the fact that Bill wanted me to fill the gas bottle up on the way, it was looking like a cold night ahead again. When I got to the service station (with only minutes to spare) there was a queue of 8 bottles to be filled!! Arrrggghh!! So I sat waiting for 15mins making me miss my class!! I decided to go anyway and do a weights room workout but meant I only got 45mins in. There were so many people at the gym I spent alot of time waiting in line for equipment so not a true 45min workout ... grrrrrrr .... lol
Good part ... I got home intime for my client to arrive, consultation done (which went very well with a confirmed booking made) but meant I didnt get dinner till 9pm and still had 4pts after I finished dinner to use but just wasnt hungry then, so have saved them for another day. With all this commotion I just didnt get time to get all my water in. Bill was a honey and cleaned the house, fed kids and did the dishes all before I got home from the gym. Awww what a sweetie!!
After writing it all down, I didnt do as bad as I thought I had. Just didnt have all my water and had no dairy serves for the day... but not a major ... gotta stop being so hard on myself!!
Day off for exercise today ... I am actually releaved ... think my body needs it.
Going for a walk with my weight watchers meeting tommorow. I'm really looking forward to it. I usually walk alone so to have company will be good. Although they're only going for 30mins so I might keep going once they have finished. We are meeting up at the Botanical Gardens in Manurewa, which is right next to a new subdivision I would like to live in (The Gardens). My favourite thing to do is walk around streats of new houses and look at what everyone has done with their sections, so this might be in order when our walk is finished :)
Out for dinner to a friends house tomorrow night. Don't like coping with these situations, as much as I love the company :) But not knowing what is in the dinner or how many points ... is a bit of a worry. Have to put my 'eating out' skills into practice I guess. I have 4pts saved already and can save a few more over the week if I have a blowout (which I'm hoping I don't ... just too risky) Good thing is they dont drink so alcohol won't be a problem.
Well guessed I've raved enough for today ...
Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - Fuit porridge 2pts, skim milk 0.5pts
SNACK - 50g rice chips 3pts
LUNCH - 1cup pasta 2.5pts, tomato & gherkin 0pt, ww mayo 0.5pts
SNACK - cereal bar 2pts, 5 prunes 1pt, popcorn 1.5pts
DINNER - Trimpork butterfly steak 3pts, roast pumpkin 0pt, roast potato 2pts, mixed veges 0pts
Total ... 18pts/22pts
Saved ... 4pts
Total saved 4pts
Water ... 3.5 glasses
Exercise ... 5pts 40min Gym workout
Total bonus points ... 5pts
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.9kg
GW 65kg

Yay we're up and away again .. finally

I dont believe this site is actually up and running again... sorry to all you who tried to view my daily ramble but couldnt get into it. I had better hurry up and get this up before the site goes down again...
I am feeeling alot better about myself today. After reading Jo's entry about her sister in law not noticing (or at least saying) anything about her fantastic losses makes me realise it happens to everyone, and it is my mothers problem not mine. And that's where I have to leave it! With her!
I did an update on my website (as you have all probably noticed already) to include some recent pics. Long time coming I know. There are two on the front page and a new link to an online photo album. I'm really kicking myself knowing I dont have a very good start weight photo now. Hoping to order one from the photographer of my cousins wedding where I was a bridesmaid (at my fattest state). I regret the fact that I hated the camera so much back then... wish I had more photos... oh well!
Thankyou to the people who emailed me after my disasterous weekend!! Quite surreal looking back on it now. Stupid how it effects me so much what my mother thinks. That's life I guess.
Eating has been good except for being a little low on the fruit.
Yesterdays food ...
BREAKFAST - lite popcorn (yeah yeah I know, but better than birthday cake I could have had!!) 1pt
LUNCH - Satay Subway 6pts
SNACK - Tiny piece of Birthday cake 1pt (yeah yeah I know, but better than having the remainder half of the birthday cake I could have had!!)
DINNER - Potato 2pts, smoked chicken 3.5pts, baked beans 4pts, veges 0pts, cheese 3pts
SNACK - cereal bar 2pts
TOTAL - 22.5pts (-0.5pts, 1pt left in pts bank)
EXERCISE - Gym workout - 6pts
WATER - 6 glasses!!
Off to the gym tonight for another workout. At the end of this week will make it 5 days out of 7 exercised... perfect!!
Have just joined up for the Winter Challenge on the SFL site. Great idea!! I just set myself a goal of what I want to lose over a 12wk period and see how close I get to it. With it being so hard to keep motivated over winter this is just what I need to kick start my motivation! Big thanks to Anne for organising it. www.slimmingforlife.com.au for anyone interested in her site.
Well that's all from me for today!
Take care
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 91.9kg
GW 65kg

Thursday, June 12, 2003

Keep going Lynette!!

Wow I can't believe how cold it is here!!! I'm sure I'm feeling it more with this extra weight gone. One of the drawbacks of losing weight I guess... small price to pay :)
You guys are awesome ... thankyou so much for your wonderful comments!! 95% of the reason I can keep so motivated is from you guys (not that I want to put any extra responsibility on your shoulders lol) but just to let each of you know how much it means to me when you leave comments! :) THANKYOU!!!!!!!
Well another piece of exciting news (other than my cool loss this week and becoming an 80's girl, all outlined in last nights entry) You know the size 16 jeans I bought off trademe site a few months back? The ones that I couldnt get past my THIGHS when I got them? ... Well I am officially wearing them today!!! Admittedly they are a still a little tight but I had no problems doing them up this morning ... Fantastic!! Size 16!!! wahooo!! Starting off at a size 24 in January means I have dropped 4 dress sizes in 6mths ... I feel so damn slim today lol :) I'm aware not to get complacent. Even with my good week this last week, I can't give up now, gotta keep truckin on!
Off to the gym tonight for a step class (they really get me working)
There was a poster at the gym the other day for a 12wk body challenge... here's the link for their website. I'm nowhere near being able to join it for this year but oh boy look at those great bodies!! And to see where they have come from, makes it seem doable. I am seriously thinking about doing it next year. It's free to enter but don't know if I'm too keen on drinking 'protein shakes' and taking suppliments. They say you dont have to but yeah right ,... like the sponser is gonna choose anyone who hasnt used their product as the winner lol.
Figure I have a lot more to lose yet before I can start getting finicky about my muscles... but will give me something to inspire me once I get to goal.
I have been a little worried about this ... getting to goal! I keep very motivated while I have a goal infront of me to achieve and I have no doubts I will get there. But I'm scared that once I get to goal I will think 'now what?' and lose all motivation to keep on track. So in answer to this problem will be to enter this 12wk body challenge and start working on body building. I don't want to get to a 'butch' state where I have no boobs and huge 'punga' thighs!!! lol but to be able to see a photo of myself as a trim, toned, drop dead goergous body ... wahoooo!! Ohhh to dream lol ... one day :)
Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - 2x bread 2pts, jam 0.5pts
SNACK - yoghurt 1pt
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, cottage cheese 0.5pts, 5 mussles 1pt, salad veges 0pts
DINNER - Vegetarian chow mein 5pts, steamed rice 2.5pts
SNACK - cereal bar 2pts
Total ... 16.5pts
Saved ... 1.5pts
Total saved for week 0.5pts
Water ... 6 glasses
Exercise ... 12km walk 9pts
Total bonus points ... 44pts
As the start of the week today it's a clean slate. I can't let my good work from last week roll over in my mind and make me think I can keep losing with no effort. I'm back up to 22pts this week and will try to keep up my level of exercise.
Keep going Lynette!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.9kg
GW 65kg

Wednesday, June 11, 2003

Another 12km walk completed :)

****************UPDATE***********

Just got home from weigh in ... OH MY FRIGGIN GOODNESS ... I LOST 2.2KG!!! cant believe it! Was hoping for a loss but definately wasnt expecting that much!!! Over the moon! This puts me to 89.9kg ... You saw right ... I'm an 80's girl!! Theres something about that figure that just says overweight not OBESE!! ... 2.2kg is the most I have ever lost since I started in January, even in my first and second week I only lost 1.6kg ... Feeling fantastic right now!!!
****************UPDATE***********



Wow its cold here today!! It's 9am here and I have just come back from another 12km walk :) I took Jese with me in the pushchair for half of it. I think he really enjoyed it but got cold (even with being rugged up with jackets and blankets) so I brought him home and set out again. My hips were alot better this time, just got plagued with blisters. I really don't know how I'm going to make 21.5km without getting blisters. Maybe if I put plasters on every part of my feet that could possibly get a blister I might be okay.
So that's 2 x 12km walks this week. According to the training schedule on the marathon site I am ready to do the 21.5kms now. But will keep going to improve my speed. My goal is to finish the 21.5kms in 4hrs or less... pushing it I know.
Went to the gym yesterday and did my regular workout. I tallyed up all the calories I burnt throughout the workout and by the end had ridden myself of 390 calories (thats over 1600kj) working out at 6pts. On the slide calculator it worked out the same so shows that thing does actually work.
Weigh in tonight, bit nervous. I should be okay, have done everything 100% right this week, but I just dont know anymore. Let you know tommorow.
Eating for yesterday...
BREAKFAST - English muffin 2pts, Egg 1pt, tomato & mushrooms 0pts
SNACK - whoops missed this one
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, salmon 2.5pts, mustard pickles 0.5pt, salad veges 0pts
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
DINNER - trim lamb 2pts, rice 2.5pts, 10g raisons 0.5pt, veges 0pts
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
Total 14pts/18
Saved 4pts/-1 left to save
Water ... only 4 glasses :(
Exercise ... 6pts gym workout
Total Bonus Points ... 35pts + todays 9pts = 44pts


Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 89.9kg
GW 65kg

Tuesday, June 10, 2003

Bend it like Beckham ... go see it!!!

Went to the gym yesterday and really found it hard work (which I guess is a good thing) Think my muscles are still tired from my long walk the other day. Going back again today ... geez I'm a sucker for punishment lol.
I felt really fat yesterday, not sure why... I hope I dont have a gain this week, I dont deserve a gain but I just cant tell what my body is doing at the moment.
Watched a couple of dvds last night with Bill. First time in a very long time we have sat down and watched some movies together. Gave me a good chance to get all my water in too :)
We watched 'Swimfan' ... a thriller ... good but very predictable and got bored with the storyline about half way through.
And 'Bend it like Beckham' FANTASTIC FILM!! Loved it!! Gave a real insight into the Indian community that I had never seen before ... funny and lighthearted ... a real good girlyflick but in saying that Bill enjoyed it too. Very clean movie as well (you could watch this with your parents in the room and not be embarrased lol)
There's my film reviews for the day lol
My eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - cereal 1.5pts, milk 0.5pt, bread 1pt, cheese 0.5pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pts
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, tuna 0.5pt, salad veges 0pts
SNACK - ww muffin 2.5pts
DINNER - potato 1pt, steak 3pts, veges 0pts
SNACK - custard 2.5pts, 100g icecream 2pts
Total ... 17.5pts/18
Saved ... 0.5pt/-5 left to work off (hmmm don't think I'm gonna make this before wed weighin)
Water ... 6 glasses
Exercise ... Gym workout 7pts
Total Bonus points earnt ... 29pts
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.1kg
GW 65kg

Monday, June 09, 2003

I DID IT!!!

I DID IT!!! ... I walked 12.5km yesterday! ... but I am certainly paying for it today. My hips are what finally gave out. I looked like a waddling duck by the time I reached home. The distance from my friends house to home was shorter than I expected so I had to walk an extra 1km up the road and back to make it up to 11.5km then walked an extra round the block before home for the last km... wow cant believe I actually made it that far and it took me 2hrs 15mins.
One thing I have DEFINATELY decided ... THERE IS NO WAY ON EARTH I AM RUNNING ANY OF THAT HALF MARATHON!! It brought it home to me yesterday how far 21.5km actually is!!! A damn long way!!!!! I look at it this way... I'm not worried about the speed I do I just want to make it to the other end ALIVE!! so there's no need to run it this time. I'll leave that challenge for another half marathon! :)
Eating was pretty good yesterday ... although I ended up walking on an empty stomach. I didn't want to eat lunch before I left so didnt get to eat lunch till 4pm. I went 1pt over but figured I deserved the extra point with all my walking! lol
BREAKFAST - 2x crumpets 2pts, banana 1pt
SNACK - half banana 0.5pts, Apple 0.5pts
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, 100g shrimps 1pt, cheese 1pt, ww mayo 0.5pt
DINNER - pasta 2.5pts, veges 0pts, vege sensation sachet 0.5pt, ham 0.5pt, 50g shrimps 0.5pts, Evaporated milk 1pt, ricotta cheese 2pts
SNACK - custard 2.5pts, lite icecream 1pt
Total ... 19pts/18
Saved ... -1/-5.5pts
Water ... 6 glasses
Exercise ... 12.5km walk (2hrs15mins) 9pts
Total bonus points ... 22pts
Bill is home for the next three days. He doesnt believe in holidays tho ... already its only 8.30am and he is vacuuming the house, polishing tables .. you name it ... he doesnt know how to relax. Used to make me stressed because I felt guilty for not working like him but now I have come to accept thats just him.
At least I should have a tidy house for the next few days!! :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.1kg
GW 65kg

Sunday, June 08, 2003

I am getting so excited with my website/journal ... I just love doing it!!

Well I am totally addicted to HTML coding now. I spent the whole of yesterday and into the night doing a self taught lesson on how to write HTML.
Initially, I was a little disappointed with this site how it didnt have a space for you readers to leave comments. I really enjoyed that part of MDD. It made it seem like a whole community, sometimes provoking real debates on topics. After a little research I learnt that I could put a 'tagboard' on here which did just that (and even included smiley faces... cute huh?), but I had to do it via HTML. Learning some basics meant I could also include links at the bottom for my website, guestbook and an email link. It took me all day to do just these simple things but ohh so much fun!!!
So if you are visiting, leave me a message to say you were here. It's quick, easy and if you want a link to your homepage just put it in and it makes your name an active link. (have a look at my name on the tagboard, links to my website). But this is totally optional, you don't have to give any email or URL if you don't want to.
I also changed the measurements chart on my site from an image (imported) to an HTML table (using HTML coding). This was really tricky (well for me) but means it is clearer and quicker for you guys to download the page. Hmmmm .... what else can I do?? lol
Yesterday was also successful eating wise...
I stuck to my points all day (infact was able to save a couple), drank all 6 glasses of water (a little sculling was done at the end of the day lol) and fitted in a 45min workout at the gym. I spent it on the cycle machine and the treadmill. I had a challenge to try and run 3.6km on the treadmill, to see if I could catch up to my cousin (who is doing the half marathon with me in August). I had these crazy thoughts that I could possibly run it ... but NOOOO! lol
I only managed to run 4-5mins at a time before my muscles just gave out. The good thing, it wasn't my puffing that stopped me, just muscle fattigue.
I'm planning on doing a 12km walk today ... Bill is going to drive me 12km from home and drop me off so I can walk home. Hope I make it lol.
My eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - Porridge 2pts, milk 0.5pts, 5 prunes 1pt
SNACK - yoghurt 1pt
LUNCH - bread 2pts, mustard pickles 0.5pt, ricotta cheese 1pt, salad 0pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
DINNER - smoked chicken 1.5pts, brown rice 5pts, veges 0pts, parmission cheese 0.5pts
Total ... 15.5pts/18
Saved ... 2.5pts/ -4.5pts total deficit
Water ... 6 glasses
Exercise ... 45min gym workout 6pts
Total bonus points ... 13pts
With sticking to a menu plan this week instead of just eating I have noticed I have been eating more points earlier in the day than I usually do. Maybe that is something to do with why my losses have slowed down in the past... I'm having too many points late at night, then sleeping on a full stomach. I still panic a little when I run out of points, probably the reason why I subconsously save them for the end of the day, but probably not a good thing. Something I'm going to have to closely look at.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.1kg
GW 65kg

Saturday, June 07, 2003

Appreciation of the breath of life

Yesterday went perfectly eatingwise :)
Started off at 5.30am with a gym workout. On the treadmill I did 6mins (out of 10mins) running! That's the longest I have been able to last.
A friend who is doing the half marathon with me reckons she can run 3.6km at a time so that will be my little competition for the next while.
So far I am loving this diary-x site... what a sence of relief to see it up and running everytime I come here and it's very user friendly. I know it doesn't have the comments section at the bottom like the old one but anyone feel free to fire an email through (from my website) if you have any comments ... I love getting feedback!! even if it is just a couple of words commenting on something I mentioned.
I spent the whole day yesterday transfering files over to another diary site to decide 2hrs later that I didnt actually like it ... lol. Yes I'm an artyfarty perfectionist type :)
Then I found this one ... so much better! And don't you like how the colours match in with my website? cool huh?
Ok ... on with yesterday ... my water was A+ with 7 glasses consumed!! And my eating was even better ... stuck to the 18pts and even saved 1.5pts to help with my -8.5pt defecit. I ate all my food groups, and ate regularly through the day, not saving most of my points for dinner like I usually do ... yay!
Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - Egg 1pt, english muffin 2pts, Apple 0.5pt
SNACK - 10x rice crackers 1pt
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, baked beans 1.5pts, salad 0pt
SNACK - half banana 0.5pt, milk 1pt, petit miam 1pt
DINNER - fish 1.5pts, 4 scallops 0.5pt, 60g rice 2.5pts, veges 0pt
SNACK - 50g lite icecream 1pt, half banana 0.5pt
Total - 16.5pts/18
Saved - 1.5pts/-7
Exercise - Gym workout 7pts
Total bonus points - 7pts
Water - 7 glasses
When Bill got home last night at 10.30pm he rushed through the door telling me to turn the radio on ... there was a plane crash just out of Christchurch at 7.30pm with 8 people dead. At 5.30pm I had dropped my cousin and his wife off to the airport for a 6pm flight to Christchurch. There was panic for us both as we tried to find out more info!! After looking up the nzoom.com site we realised it was a private chartered plane travelling from Palmerston North, not Auckland... a mixed sence of relief yet compassion for the families of those who were in the plane. Situations like this really make you look hard at your life and give you an appreciation for the simple act of breathing!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.1kg
GW 65kg

starting a new diary site

Well so much for me being motivated this week!! After deciding to going down to 18pts this week ... day 1 ... I failed!!!! 18pts is just so low and to top it off Bill invited some people over for dinner at 4pm yesterday so I didnt have any chance to save up any points for the day. And that damn wine!! Well and truelly over!! Because I had to rush in to do grocery shopping and rush home to cook a flash dinner, time ran out for the gym. As for drinking ALL my water all week ... well I failed at that too!!! Geeesh I suck!!
The only good things I have done so far ... I drank 5 glasses of water and went to the gym at 5.30 this morning. Well that makes up for not going yesterday because today was supposed to be my day off for exercise. And I managed to get to the supermarket so I am ready and prepared to face the rest of the week.
Here's my eating for yesterday (block all sensitive eyes)
BREAKFAST - egg 1pt, milk 1pt, tomato sauce 0.5pt
SNACK - lite popcorn 1pt
LUNCH - baked potato 4pts, pumpkin 0pts, cooking spray 0.5pts
SNACK - perssimon 1pt, chupa chup 0.5pt
DINNER - vege sensation sachet 0.5pt, pasta 3.5pts, milk 0.5pt, pasta sauce 1pt, veges 0pts, salad 0pts
SNACK - nannas waffles 1.5pts, petit miam 1pt, banana 1pt, custard 0.5ptALCOHOL - wine 7.5pts!!!!!! I blew it on this one
Total - 19pts + 7.5pts = 26.5pts
Saved ... -8.5pts
Exercise - nothing yesterday
Water - 5 glasses
I was really down yesterday about trying so hard last week and not getting the results I wanted. So last night I decided 'stuff the world, stuff this stupid lard that wont move, stuff ww' and drank a whole bottle of wine (with a bunch of friends of course)... this morning I was regretting this decision a little but have decided to move on, starting with my gym workout this morning and so far have eaten well today (mind you it's only 10.30am) but have drunken half my water already.
To be honest I am really finding having to decide on what to eat quite difficult. I loved the first 16wks where I got told what to eat, when to eat and how to eat. Now I have to be a big girl and work it out for myself ... and it's so hard. I'm not very creative when it comes to dinners or breakfast and lunch either for that matter.
This week is good with my leader giving me a 'breaking through' booklet with a menu in the back of it. Maybe I should go from the menus in the back of the ww mag or buy some ww recipe books ... but it's all money. Maybe next week.
My diary site was down YET AGAIN!! grrrrrr ... So I have changed over to this other one that hopefully doesnt go down so often. For now I will post on both sites until I am sure the other one is not the same.
No business work to do today and house is reasonably tidy so a day off ... YAY!!
That's all from me ...
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.1kg
GW 65kg

Friday, June 06, 2003

plan of attack

Ok I am determined to do this ...
I have decided for this week to go down to 18pts each day, keep up the same amount of exercise (5 days a week), drink ALL my water, measure & weigh everything I eat! And I had better have a loss next week and a damn good one too :)
I have just joined up for the winter challenge on the SFL site and have pledged that I will lose 6kg by the end of August. That's 12weeks away.
I'm still feeling positive about my gain this week... would have been MORE excited with a loss but given my measurements, I have to look at the big picture to know my body IS shrinking. And in the end thats what counts.
I still haven't had a chance to do the grocery shopping yet. The big plan is to get it done tonight after Bill gets home from work. So I can have lots of healthy food in the cupboard.
I got home from ww last night and the meal Bill was supposed to have cooked for me had just gone down HIS THROAT!! lol He ate my dinner!!! And it was 8.30pm already so I didnt have a chance (and was too tired) to cook a whole new dinner. So just had a serving of steak and a bowl of lite icecream and banana (not together!!) I know it's not the best choice, and meant I was 7.5pts under for the day. BUT ...
Today is a clean slate. I'm gonna do this!! Doesnt help the day with no food here but will have to make do with what I have in the cupboard.
Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - baked beans 1.5pts, english muffin 2pts
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
LUNCH - baked potatoes 2pts
SNACK - milk 0.5pts
DINNER - steak 3pts
SNACK - lite icecream 2.5pts banana 1pt
Total - 13pts
Exercise - Gym workout 8pts (total 36pts for the week)
Water - 6 glasses
Here's to today!!! *chink*
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.1kg
GW 65kg

Thursday, June 05, 2003

Celebrating after a 200g Gain :)

I am motivated more than ever to lose this weight but even more than that ... to be slim!! There is a difference between the words "lose weight" and "be slim". Something I relearnt tonight...
I just got home from my weight watchers meeting where it was realised that I had a 200g Gain! AND I'M CELEBRATING!!!
Yes you read right ... I had a 200g gain this week!! At first I was devestated and felt really undeserving of such a gain, but after talking to my leader and showing her my tracker (of which I did nothing wrong) and did increased exercise (36 bonus points earnt), she pointed out to me that it must be muscle (yeah, yeah we've heard it all before) but think of it this way ... (hence my celebration!!) Imagine how much muscle I would have to build up in one week to counterclaim the lost fat I had as well as 200g extra weight???? That's a huge amount of muscle!!! To confirm my leaders suspicians I went home to take my measurements and yes sure enough this is the evendence ...
In one week I have lost ...
1cm off my upper arm
1cm off my chest
0.5cm off my waist
1cm off my abdomen
1.5cm off my hips!!!
and 1cm off my thigh!!
All in one week I tell ya!!!! That's a huge amount (If I don't say so myself) and gotta be worth a celebration!!!
Too many times we get caught up in what those horrible scales say and don't look at what our bodies are actually doing. For those who dont take measurements ... you gotta do it!!! for times when the scales don't show your hard earned efforts!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.1kg
GW 65kg

Wednesday, June 04, 2003

arrggghhh ... no food

Lucky I updated when I did yesterday because this site went down again straight after. If I keep having problems I may have to swap to another diary site.
Eating is going to be hard today. I have no bread or cereal in the house, and I cant do shopping until tommorow. Lucky I had a can of baked beans in the pantry for brekkie. Looks like it might be baked potatos for lunch (not that Im complaining about that, I love baked potatos) but it means I find it hard getting all my vege servings in and puts my carbos up for the day.
I found a really interesting article on how certain foods fill you up for longer and stop you feeling hungry. Not sure to what extent to take this. I mean we could go crazy and scientifically analyse everything we eat (as it is I weigh everything I eat). I'm a podantic person who is never satisfied just eating... I have to study and analyse what I am doing. At times I get frustrated with myself making the simplest tasks so overcomplicated, but I like to know I am doing it 'right', whatever right is... lol. Anyway here's the addy for the article if anyone is interested. http://www.mendosa.com/satiety.htm
My gym workout last night was really hard. I thought I was gonna keel over! I don't know why. The only thing I can think of ... I have uped my level of intensity in the weights room (100% cardio) and maybe my muscles were still fatigued from that. They weren't sore but felt heavy and had no energy. I made it tho and gave myself an extra couple of bonus points for the extra effort I had to put in ... hehe!
Weigh in tonight and I'm feeling bloated today so not sure if that will have a negative effect on the scales. Maybe :( Think I have done well all week (especially in the exercise department) and my water has been good for most of the week (averaging 4-6 glasses per day) sugar points up very slightly @ 15.5pts for the week. My total points are 5pts under for the week so all in all ... hmmm ... let me think ... might mean a very small loss, but really dont know. I'll let you all know tommorow :)
Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - K Time Bar 1.5pts
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, salad veges 0pts, lite cream cheese 1pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt
DINNER - Smoked chicken 6pts, 60g pasta 2.5pts, lite cream cheese 2pts, milk 1pt, brocolli/cauli/mushroom/onion/peas 0pts
TOTAL - 16.5pts (whoops little on the low side)
SAVED - 4pts (total saved 5pts)
WATER - 4 glasses
EXERCISE - Gym workout 8pts (total bonus points 26)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 91.9kg (weigh in tonight)
GW 65kg

Sunday, June 01, 2003

I don't give a shit!

I gave my parents yet another chance to acknowledge and compliment my weightloss and yet again ... they refused!! ... this time I actually showed them a certificate awarded to me by weight watchers congratulating me on losing 15kg. Their comments consisted of "oh okay" That's it??? "oh okay???" No 'fantastic, well done, we're proud of you, great work, you look stunning' nope ... nothing ... just 'oh okay' I was and still am totally pissed!!! No matter what I do or achieve in life they refuse to give any possitive feedback whatsoever and it really annoys the shit out of me!!!
And to top it off my daughter let it slip to my mother that "I go outside for a cigerette". Her reaction was a horrified one. You have to understand my parents... we are talking about strict pastors here, lifelong christians. As stupid as this sounds and I hate admitting it ... I am nearly 30 yrs old and still feel the need to be accepted by my parents. I hate it ... it feels like a noose around my neck!! I have never had the acceptance especially from my mother. I was always the ugly duckling of the family with the older more talented, skinnier, brainier sister who successfully studied to become a wealthy accountant. Don't get me wrong, I love my sister and she has done nothing wrong in this situation, it is totally my mothers doing. I was never good enough for her, never recieved any words of encouragement or acceptance. I know they loved me from their provisions. I was clothed, fed and given birthday presents etc but was never told how good I did anything, never told "I love you and am proud of you" NEVER!. I don't usually wallow in this thought choosing to ignore it and put it behind me, focusing instead on my wonderfully encouraging husband who loves me to bits!! But some days it just gets to me.
I have always been too scared to tell my parents that I smoke... infact have been smoking for 10yrs now. Not heavily but that is the way I relieve my stress, my time out. My mother scorned me ... saying how bad it was, expensive and don't ever put that stuff in your system, it kills you ... blah blah blah. What made me sick in this whole conversation was the fact that she is severly obese (around 140kg/308lbs) and is diabetic yet still feeds her face with sugary cakes and fatty foods. In my eyes that is just as bad as the occasional cigerette. It makes me so angry with christianity, it is such a HUGE sin to smoke... sometimes it seems worse than lieing, stealing or even murder. A smoker is doomed to go to hell. I am not hurting anyone, nor wrongly effecting anyones lives... it's just my way of saying ... hey Im not coping, I need to get out of here for 10mins and chill out.
Part of me is reilived that the secret is out but I am still angry as ever that I let them control my life so much. I honestly dont think it will ever change until the day they die. I got stressed out today that I just wanted to eat, eat, eat!!! The first time I have felt that out of control with eating in a very long time(since I started ww 5mths ago). I managed to stop after 10 chips... just! I big success... but sometimes I wonder why I am doing this ... why am I trying to succeed? Who am I trying to please? My husband loves me the way I am and there is no way in hell my parents are EVER going to accept me, no matter how skinny I am... so why bother? This has really shocked me into a self doubt phase... made me look at my motivation and reasons for trying to get where I am going. I didnt ever think it was for my parents acceptance but maybe it really was, deep down. Otherwise I wouldnt be feeling like this.
Eating for today ... (as best as I could estimate)
cereal & milk 2pts, sushi 2pts, rice chips 4pts, potato 1pt, tomato sauce 0.5pts, potato chips 2pts, bread 2pts, lite cream cheese 1pt, asparagas 0pts, lite dip 2pts, peas 0pt, vege sticks 0pt, lite icecream 2.5pts, fruit salad 1pt, birthday cake 4pts, ww jelly 0pts
Total 24pts (2 saved pts used/ 1.5pts left in bank)
Water 6 glasses (one good thing for today)
Exercise - 45mins gym workout (another good thing) 5pts
Total 12 bonus points saved
I dont really give a shit!
Lyn