Onwards and Downwards

UPDATE
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Yes you read correctly ... 1.1kg loss!!! wahoo!! ... this means two things this week ...

1. I have now officially lost over 5 stone total!

2. I'm now over 3 quarters of the way to my personal goal of 65kg!

I'm really starting to feel slim this week. I still have a long way to go on my hips, tummy and thighs but I really can see the improvement. It's so true that your minds image of yourself takes much longer to catch up than your actual image.

For me this was true when I got fat too ... I still thought I was slim for a long time until I saw some recent photos. And even then I thought that there was something wrong with the camera ... that it was showing me as far fatter than I really was ... lol

And now that I have lost weight I am only just starting to feel it. I've felt the positive effects for a while but actually starting to KNOW that I am slimmer has been a long time coming.

My weight watchers leader asked me if I wanted to enter Slimmer of the Year competition tonight. I'm flattered that she thought of me. But I said no... for this years entry anyway. I would have to be at my ww goal by May and have done a 6wk maintenance by then. Just too tight for my liking. If I didn't make it in time I would feel like an utter failure instead of focusing on all the weight I have lost I would focus on the missing out on getting to goal on time. But I told her definately next year I will try. And by that stage I would have been at goal for 8 or 9mths or so... far more impressive for the judges. It will also give me something to go for once I get to goal ... setting the promise to myself that I have to stay slim to go for that.

It reminds me of a story (ohhh nooo you say lol) ...

When I got to goal the first time 10yrs ago with Jenny Craig, I was asked if I wanted to try for an advertising campaign. So I went through all the interviews etc competing against over a hundred other new slimmers. A few months went by and I heard nothing. In that time I went to the States for a 2mth trip. While I was over there I tracked religously, watched what I ate, swam in motel pools when I could, did as much walking as I could. But the American food was just soooo fattening that I couldn't do anything about the kilos I was packing on. (I seriously don't know how they lose weight over there). When I returned to NZ I got a phone call to say I had been chosen to appear on a Jenny Craig ad. I was to fly out to Australia in two days to start filming. My first thought was of exhiloration and excitement ... then a few moments later I realised that I couldn't do it... I had put on 6kg while I was in the US. Although I had previously lost 40kg they couldn't use me in advertisement if in 2mths after getting to goal I had put back on 6kg. I was gutted!!

And to some degree I am still dealing with feelings of fear when it comes to maintenance. I know I can lose weight ... I've done it before ... but to keep it off ... that's what I'm scared of. I'm fine if I have something to go for ... some goal to achieve. But I'm scared that when I don't see the scales dropping down I will lose motivation. Guess I will have to cross that bridge when I get to it.

For now I'm going to focus on my fantastic achievement tonight!! Yay!! Onwards and downwards I say!

Catcha!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 75.2kg
GW 65kg