Indifference

Can't believe my baby is turning 1yr old tommorow!! He is growing up far too fast. He's been walking for about a month now getting into daddy's Xbox and other 'don't touch' items.
My eating was relatively good yesterday until Bill came home and informed me his cashflow card wasnt where I told him it was. We spent the next hour pulling the car apart trying to find it, without any luck. Don't think it has been stolen but can't seem to find it anywhere. Bill got it cancelled just in case, just our luck it will turn up today. The problem is... it's a long weekend and I haven't gotten round to putting a pin number on my card yet. With the banks closed till Tuesday means we have no money for the holiday weekend. Normally this would be okay except the fact we are having Jesurun's first birthday on Sunday!!! I haven't even bought his present yet!!
We had no food in the house last night so had to send Bill in to do the grocery shopping with a chequebook. They would only take cheques from him and I hate it when I can't do the shopping myself. As much as he tried to shop for the right things it just wasn't right. We have stuff we dont need and stuff he didnt get that we do need.

Originally today was supposed to be my day off for exercise, then I woke up at 5.30am this morning and decided to get up and go for a run before Bill started work. Was halfway through getting dressed and realised I was hungover. Havent been hungover in years. Not badly but enough to decide to crawl back into bed and go back to sleep. I think my body needed it :)
Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - cereal & milk 2pts
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt, 15 rice crackers 1.5pts
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, 2x eggs 2pts
SNACK - jelly & fruit 1.5pts
PRE DINNER PICKING - cheese 2pts, 10 rice crackers 1pt
DINNER - Kantong curried prawns & rice 4pts
DRINKS - Rum and Diet cokes 6pts
Total - 22.5pts (-0.5pt saved pts used/3pts left)
WATER - 4 glasses
SUGAR PTS - 6 (total 6)
EXERCISE - none (day off)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 91.9kg
GW 65kg

I feel loved :)

What a surprise!! Bill brought me home a huge bunch of flowers, a 'That's Life' Magazine, $15 to spend on whatever and a foil balloon saying 'I Love You' ... awwww ... he has never done anything like that before and all for no reason other than the fact that he loves me!! :D And the flowers were 'florist' flowers not some half dead weeds from a service station! A huge thing for him to do!! I felt so loved!! The only other time he has brought home flowers has been because we have had a barney or because he felt guilty for something ... but not this time ... just because he wanted to say how much he loves me and to congratulate me on how well I am doing on my weightloss!! A real sweety!!!
I had a good friend email me yesterday to 'tell me off' about my eating the last few days. She is totally right and so glad she did. It would have been easy to just push it all under the rug as yesterdays news but with her email it pointed it out to me what I was actually doing. The last week or so I havent been eating very regularly and when I have eaten it hasnt been very good choices. Rice chips for lunch one day for example... somedays no fruit, little vegetables and my water has been way down. So I have taken it on board to put a concerted effort into eating regularly and the right foods... thanks Sange!! It's good to know there are people out there looking out for me and ready to give me a virtual boot up the bum... anyone else can feel free to email me anytime to do the same thing if you see me going off track a little. I wont be offended ... we are all here for eachother!!
Consequently I think my eating, water and exercise was excellent for yesterday. Just down a couple of points but that's no major ...
BREAKFAST - cereal bar 2pts
SNACK - 15 rice crackers 1.5pts, jelly and fruit 1.5pts
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, salad veges 0pts, 2x eggs 2pts, ww mayo 0.5pt
SNACK - Apple 0.5pt, Persimmon 1pt
DINNER - chicken drumstick (with skin) 2.5pts, coleslaw (cheese 2pts, dressing 2pts), potato 1pt, cauliflour and brocolli 0pts, parmison cheese 1pt
TOTAL - 19.5pts
WATER - 6 glasses!!!
EXERCISE - Gym class 7pts
A very nice day!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 91.9kg
GW 65kg

finally

I had an 800g loss!! yay!! I have officially lost 15.5kg now! So have added another gold star to my bookmark and website. Onto my next mini goal ... becoming an 80's girl!! (89.9kg) 2kgs to go! Theres something about breaking that 90kg barrier. To me anothing above 90kg is obese!!! but anything in the 80's is
just overweight. I am starting to notice the difference in the reflection looking back at me. From my waist up I look 'normal' just got to work on these hips and thunder thighs, although even they are looking much better.
Nearly caught up on all my business work after being sick a couple of weeks ago. Just have a set of 45 invites to have out this week and a Thankyou card sample, I think I am nearly on top of it all.
Back to the gym tonight and home for a business consultation straight after so a busy night ahead. I would have been to the gym 4 days in a row today. Doing well. My water was bad yesterday again (only 3 glasses) I am really finding water hard with this cold weather.
EATING FOR YESTERDAY ...
BREAKFAST - 60g cereal and skim milk 3.5pts
LUNCH - 100g rice chips 6pts
SNACK - cereal bar 1.5pts
DINNER - 2x chicken drums (with skin) 5pts, 120g brown rice 5pts, pasta sauce 1pt, potato flakes 1pt, veges 0pts
TOTAL - 23pts (used 1 saved pt, had 5.5pts saved)
WATER - 3 glasses
EXERCISE - Gym 8pts (total bonus pts 33)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 91.9kg
GW 65kg

4 compliments in one day

Yesterday was a rewarding day for me. I had 4 people in one day compliment me on my weightloss. I went into The warehouse where I used to work 6yrs ago and had 3 people tell me how great I was looking, asking if I had lost weight. Bill and I worked out this is the slimmest I have been in 7yrs(since Lauren was born). And also had someone from Bills work say how much weight I had lost. Funny how it all comes in one day. Other days when I needed a little encouragement no one says anything. Guess I have to bank some of this motivation for later on when I need it.
The size 18 pants I bought 5wks ago are starting to get loose on me... a nice sign.
All this points toward a loss this week but again dont like to get my hopes up. Im guessing a small loss of around 200-300g but who knows? Weigh in tonight, nervous and excited. I'm really hanging out for this 15kg loss goal. (300g off at the moment)
Went to the gym last night for a step class. Bounced my way through the whole class doing hi impact for 95% of it. Then again went at 5.30am this morning. Gave it 100% effort but couldnt quite do the same amount of hi impact this morning. Still left red faced and sweaty so I am pleased with my efforts.
Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - apple 0.5pt
LUNCH - baked beans 1.5pts, 2x bread 2pts, cheese 1.5pts
DINNER - ham 0.5pt, potato 2pts, kumera 1pt, cheese 2pts, butter chicken sauce 2pts, veges 0pts
DRINKS - 4x rum and diet cokes 4pts
Total 17pts (saved 4pts total saved 5.5pts)
Water - 4 glasses
Exercise - Gym class 9pts (total 25pts)
Was down on my eating and water yesterday. Got really busy. And finished the day off with a few drinks at home with Bill. Did well on that part, kept it under my sugar points for the week.
Concentrating on my fruit intake today (has been down the last few days) and of course my water (as always)
Wish me luck with weigh in tonight!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg
GW 65kg

talk, talk, talk

Well so much for yesterday being an exciting day ... it was very stressful.
The appointment we had with the agent to look at houses ended up being at 3.30pm instead of the original 11am. This meant we had to take all 4 kids along. We were only meant to be 5mins in the house so decided to leave Lauren in the car with the others to keep an eye on them. But the lady wouldnt stop talking. My goodness she went on and on and on with verbal direah like I have not heard before. On and on about nothing. We kept saying we had to go because the kids were in the car (just outside the door) but she wouldnt stop. In the end Bill said "look lady I got kids in the car I HAVE to go" and he left to see to the kids who were by then getting rather destressed. Then I was in there on my own (great!!). I finally got out of there an HOUR after we first walked in. She totally put us off going with their company. I was so strung out by the time I got home.
My gym assessment went well although I hadnt lost as much weight as I had hoped. My resting rate bpm had gone down 4 beats per minute to 60bpm. The lady said averages range from 60 - 85bpm so looks like I am quite fit. My weight had gone down 3.75kg since my last assesment 6wks ago and I had lost 8cm off my waist!! Was really cool to see her so excited with my progress. I guess I am pretty hard on myself wanting perfect results. Still a good effort and I have to be happy with that.
My eating was good but water was down again yesterday. I find unless I concentrate on getting all my water in, it just doesnt happen. Any day I am busy or out of my normal routine I just cant do it.
Heres my eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - cereal and skim milk 2pts
SNACK - cereal bar 1.5pts
LUNCH - english muffin 2pts
SNACK - rice chips 3pts
DINNER - lean beef 4pts, pasta sauce 1pt, coconut cream 2pts, 120g pasta 5pts, veges 0pts
(no late time snack went to bed early)
Total - 20.5pts (saved 1.5pts)
Water - 4 glasses
Exercise - 1hr15min gym workout - 5pts (total for week - 16pts)
Funny thing happened with a communication error! I have been really stressed with Bill working so many hours lately. He's been doing up to 60hrs a week. I was really upset when he said he was going into to work at 4am this morning. I went bizurk at him! He looked at me really confused "but you want me to do all these hours, you worked out our budget at me working 55hrs!" No, the only reason I had worked the budget out on that was because that was the hours he had done for the last couple of weeks. Apparently he didnt want to do that many hours but thought to get this house and the budget I had done meant he HAD to do them. And I thought it was his work making him do that many. Turns out because we both didnt sit down and discuss it he had been doing crazy hours for the last 4wks for NOTHING! lol The good thing being he can finally go back to just 45hrs ... bout time!! lol
So it pays to talk about things like that when you are really annoyed about something. We had talked about it and he knew I hated him working all those hours but thought I still wanted the new house so bad that I wanted him to work more. I do want the house but not bad enough to not have my husband around. The house can wait for a little bit, at least then we will have a life back.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg (weigh in tommorow night)
GW 65kg

exciting day ahead

Well I was a very good girl yesterday and did everything I promised I would do. Consequently today I feel very slim :) Funny how that one day I can feel fat and the very next day feel slim!
Here's my eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST - 2 x bread 2pts, jam 0.5pts, banana 1pt
SNACK - ww muffin 2.5pts
LUNCH - 2x bread 2pts, sw chilli sauce 0.5pts, cheese 2pts, veges 0pts
SNACK - 2x manderin 1pt
DINNER - 2x chicken drums (no skin) 3pts, kumera 1pt, pasta sauce 0.5pt,
brown rice 2.5pts, potato flakes 0.5pt, veges 0pts, diet coke (in casserole)0pt
SNACK - lite icecream 2pts, fruit salad 0.5pt
Total - 22pts (0pt saved)
Water - 6 glasses
Exercise - 6pts - 1hr25min fast walking with pushchair and 2 kids (im sure that adds 10pts lol)
So yesterday I got the house tidy, load of washing done, exercise done, and water all consumed all while eating the food I should... yay me!
Off to have my 6wk gym assesment done today. Be interesting to see what weight I have lost in that time and what my new fitness levels are.
We are also meeting up with an agent to go through some more houses ... exciting day ahead! They have started building a new display home in the subdivision we are looking at. It looks really nice. Havent seen the floor plans yet but the fact that it has a chimney attracts me from the start. Bill says I'm so happy to please lol. Thats gotta be a good thing right? We are on a tight timeline for this house tho because everytime they open a new stage of sections the price goes up $20,000 so the sooner we can do it the better but we still have to finish saving the deposit (well still finish paying off the credit card too) Mum thinks we should just start now, put our name down to start building but I dont think we can do that till we have
approved finance but before we can have that we need a deposit ... all a big circle really. I really dont think we can do anything till we have that big $50,000 saved.
Well that's me for today,
have a great day
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg
GW 65kg

Groundhog day

My eating was really good yesterday (considering days when I have the kids at home by myself I usually go offtrack a little)
BREAKFAST - 30g Berry Special K & skim milk - 2pts
SNACK - lite butter popcorn - 2pts
LUNCH - potato cakes (potato 2pts, cheese 1.5pts)
SNACK - small pear - 0.5pt
- ww muffin - 2.5pt
DINNER - 60g pasta 2.5pts, 100g smoked chicken 2.5pts, pineapple 1.5pts, kantong lite sweet & sour sauce 2pts
SNACK - 100g lite icecream 2pts, 2x ww cookies 1pt
Total - 22pts
Water - 3 glasses (bad, bad, very bad)
Exercise - none (also very bad) my excuse? was raining most of the day, at home with kids
Gonna go out today for a walk (its a lot sunnier today) I promise!!! And I will also drink all 6 glasses!!
Currently wearing my feel good pants. They are the ones I wore to weight watchers on my first meeting back in January. At that time they were skin tight!! Now I can pull them off without undoing the zip. They look terrible on me (like I've filled my pants) with them being so baggy but certainly makes me feel like I am getting somewhere. As long as no one turns up on the doorstep today wont matter what I look like. Just now that
Ive said that I bet someone WILL turn up lol.
Actually slept in till 8am this morning (that is a complete miracle for me) I have not been able to sleep in since I had kids. Even on days when Bill takes the kids out for me to sleep I just wake up anyway. So 8am is 1.5hrs later than I usually get up. Nice to have Lauren old enough now to get everyone breakfast, bottle for Jese and to feed him all before I get out of bed.
House is a mess again today even after tidying it yesterday and the day before and the day before and the day before. Somedays I feel like it's Groundhog day here!! I get sick of tidying the house everyday to wake up and find it a mess again the next day. Why would anyone be so stupid as to have 4 kids?????? Somedays I question my sanity!!
Well better get onto tidying AGAIN!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg
GW 65kg

he's forgiven :)

Bill walked in from work last night and smiled cheekily. "so you had some spare time to fill in tonight huh? Decided to colour your hair?" I snapped back .. "I did it this morning and you didnt even notice when I came in to show you!!!" At which he was very apologetic and admitted he must be the dumbest male on earth at that point lol. Of course I forgave him, how could I not? Says he loves the colour but of course couldnt say anything but that he loved it could he? lol :)
Pretty boring day at home today. Jordan managed to empty half the contents of my Red Door perfume onto the floor and combed his hair with my comb that I had used to colour my hair yesterday so now he has chocolate brown streaks running through his blonde hair... could be a trend setter lol
Have stuck well to my points all day but I'm finding I dont have many vegetables through the day. My evening meal is usually chocka full of veges but not during the day. Is this a problem do you think? I still end up having at least 4 serves of veges in a 24hr period and 3 fruits.
Interesting news about the Atkins diet. Poor Mr Atkins had to wait till after he died before they actually decided it was okay. But I still think anything you cant do for life is bound for failure. Some people may be able to live for life on meat and fat but I certainly couldnt. I find it hard enough to get my meat serves in now, have to wash it down with a spud or two :) And I certainly couldnt live without pasta. Im a pastaholic!! Never been a bacon 'n eggs kinda person. Dont get me wrong I'm not knocking the Atkins diet just admit I couldnt do it. Admire anyone that can stick that one out for life.
Did have plans on going for a long walk today with the kids but the rain kept coming down so that put a stop to that one.
Have decided to start recording on here what I eat each day and the number of points it is. Not sure whether this is a good thing or not. Dont want to overcomplicate my eating or it may become a hassle to keep tracking (no tracking, no weightloss)
I'll take it one day at a time. It may help some of you with ideas of what to eat and it certainly keeps me accountable.
So for yesterday ... (allowance = 22pts per day)
BREAKFAST - Banana 1pt
LUNCH - rice chips 100g 6pts
SNACK - 2 x cereal bars 3pts
DINNER - ravioli pasta 150g 4.5pts, salmon 3pts, 98%fat free sour cream 1tbsp 0.5pt, tomato pesto 1tbsp 2pts, skim milk 1pt, point free veges 0pt
SNACK - low fat icecream 1.5pts
Total 22.5pts
(had 0.5pt saved so now have nothing saved)
Exercise = 5pts
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg
GW 65kg

changes

I have finally gotten rid of my blonde regrowth... dont laugh! I coloured my hair with blonde streaks back in November last year for my cousins wedding (I was bridesmaid) and have never got round to recolouring it after it started growing out. Well until today that is. It's now a deep chocolate colour... I love it.
Went in to Bills work today to surprise him with it ... get this ... firstly, when a staff member called him up to say I was in the store he replied "Bull sh**" and wouldnt believe him ... then finally he realised the guy was telling the truth so he came down and in the middle of a busy supermarket with customers all around he says (loud enough for people to stop and stare) "oh your button is undone, what are you trying to do, show your boobs to the world???!!!" I was HORRIFIED!!! It was one of those moments when I swear everything went in slow motion and I saw all these customers heads turn to stare and what seemed like forever they just all stood and stared at me! I havent been that embarrased in a very very long time!!! and it wasnt because of the button (which wasnt even undone!) but his loud comment. I could have died...
I went into that store feeling like a million bucks with my hair all newly coloured, make up on, my 'skinny' clothes and shoulders back head high ... and with Bill's comment and the fact that HE DIDNT EVEN NOTICE MY HAIR!! (I mean comeon its a huge difference ... Blonde to chocolate brown ... HELLLOOOOO???) I crawled out 10mins later feeling like sh**!!!!
I am so annoyed at him ... I talked to him about it when he rang from work tonight but I dont think he realised how bad it made me feel. Dontcha hate dem insensitive males???? lol
Had a client turn up unannounced this morning at 8.30am!!! He didnt ring .. no notice... nothing. I was half undressed at the time just about to colour my hair, so had no makeup on, my hair was an absolute mess with no product in. I had just been to the gym but hadnt had a chance to shower yet so still had smelly gym clothes on. What a day I tell ya lol! Lucky enough I had to go pick up something else from his work in the afternoon so he got to see my ammended looks (nice clothes, nice hair, nice makeup) lol. Just to prove I didnt always look that bad lol
But generally I had a good day today. Didnt eat my normal food that I usually eat but I think I still did well and kept to my points. And get this!!! ... I dished myself up a bowl of icecream tonight (lowfat of course) because I was feeling rather sorry for myself after what happened today. I got halfway through it and decided I didnt actually need it or really feel like it. Five months ago I would have eaten it anyway because it was on my plate and I wouldnt have wanted to see it go to waste ... but tonight I threw it out!! half a bowl of icecream I tell ya!! a miracle for me! Definately a change going on there! So why didnt I put it back in the icecream container? you ask?? I didnt want to tempt fate or the risk of putting my finger in the icecream container to scoop out a lucky last taste and change my mind to eat it all anyway. Just left it on the kitchen bench and walked out of the room. Better go put some water in the bowl soon so Im not tempted to go back and drink the melted remains lol
Drank all the 6 glasses I wanted to today :) helps with sitting at the computer, has become a habit now to reach for my sipper bottle whenever I turn the computer on. Things on changing for the better! :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg
GW 65kg

hit the 1000 mark

Wahooooo!! I have had over 1000 people hit on my website now (in just over a month!) thats far more than I ever expected! You guys are awesome!
Had yesterday off for exercise and back into it this morning with a gym workout at 6am.
Got back home and decided on the spur of the moment to colour my hair. I was supposed to wait until I got my 15kg mark to use the hair colour I had bought but ohh well thats life lol.
Will just have to think of another reward for that goal achievement. :)
Got my 6wk assessment for the gym on Monday. Can't believe Ive been going that long ... time has gone so quick! Be interesting to see the difference in my fitness levels from when I started.
Eating went well yesterday finishing with 0.5pts to save. Oops just realised I havent had breakfast yet (9.20am) Need to get onto that before it turns to 11am lol.
Water was down yesterday... with only 3 glasses drunk. That can be my goal for today ... all 6 glasses drunk. I'm finding with the colder weather harder to get all my water in. I can see why people stop over winter... definately alot harder. Theres something about having fatty stodge on a cold winters night.
My favourite treat at the moment is chopped potatoes and pumpkin sprayed with canola oil spray and 'fries sprinkle' and cooked in the oven for an hour or so ... YUMMMM!! (at only 1.5pts per serve)
Thats about all for today ... dropping dad off at the airport later, other than that not much happening.
Till tommorow,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg
GW 65kg

scales you suck! lol

Weigh in wasnt so good for me last night ... 100g gain! Another unexpected gain... The only thing I can think I did wrong this week was 3 glasses of wine at the start of the week... but still finished the week under points.
I'm presuming one of two things happened...
one ... Last week I didnt eat, drink or exercise much with being sick, so maybe my motabolism slowed down meaning with eating regular this week had a gain.
or
two ... I exercised HEAPS this week so maybe it is a muscle build up. Gonna go take some measurements see what that shows up.
I bought myself a hair colour to reward myself in anticipation I would get my 15kg loss goal this week (was only 200g off) not only did I not make this goal but now I am 300g off!! Guess the hair colour will have to sit in the box till next week lol
I am really pissed at this happening but I'm going to use the frustation energy in a positive way and AINT NOTHING GONNA STAND IN MY WAY THIS WEEK!! So you scales better watch out next weigh in or you will bear the brunt of all my fury!!!! LOL
Another interesting thing ... MY scales say I am 90kg exactly. They have only ever been 1kg different from the ww scales before... but this is 2.7kg lighter ... hmmm interesting. We worked out last night that the ww scales had been serviced 10days ago so maybe they adjusted them. But doesnt explain why I didnt put on last week. I dont know. My mind gets inself in knots sometimes trying to rationalise everything. Just gotta get over it and move on I guess. Gonna go take my measurements ...
BRB with measurement results ... okay back again ...
I'm gonna let those scales off - THIS TIME!! (but they better watch out next time this happens I might not be so generous!!)
Measurements say I'm down ... (those scales musta been prayin hard) In the last 3 weeks since I last measured myself I have lost ...
0.5cm off my neck
nothing off my upper arm
0.5cm off my chest
1cm off my waist
5cm off my abdomen!!
4.5cm off my hips (yay)
1.5cm off my right thigh
and 1.5cm off my calf!!
I will update my measurements graph on my website today if anyone wants to compare it to my other measurements. I'm a bit naughty doing measurements 1 week early (usually measure once every four weeks) but need something to lift my motivation ... and looks like its done the trick!!
Ready to kick butt again this week! 15kg loss here I come!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.7kg
GW 65kg

on track again

Bill and I went out with the youngest two for a drive yesterday. We went to look at some houses... dreaming of the house we want to build. Exciting and stressful at the same time. Exciting seeing what we could one day be living in and stressful knowing we have to wait till we have our deposit saved. We are wanting to build our next home and keep our existing home as a rental property. The bank has given us approval so we just have to pay off our existing debt (credit card, HP's and car loan) and then save $45,000!!! lol Sounds alot but do-able once we have our debt cleared. At this stage we are looking at around 1yr to 18mths from when we are cleared of all debt in March next year (so approx July 2005). We have found the subdivision we want to build in and have a couple of floor plans we like. So now its just a waiting game. Roll on 2 years!!!
Got home around 2pm and went to the gym at 4.30pm. Still finding it really hard to get my fitness levels up to where they were... but I'm getting there. Bought a subway for lunch and got greedy and ordered a 1ft long one. After seeing Bill struggle through his one I decided I didnt really need it. So saved the other half for dinner (which I ate on the run between the gym and the supermarket) So worked out really well. I even managed to catch up my -2pts from the start of the week. Feeling on top of things again! Yay!
Finally have some decent food in the house again. I always feel out of control when the pantry is looking empty.
The last couple of days have been a little off with motivation. Partly due to broken ruitine with kids being sick and catching up on washing etc. and with not having grocery shopping done. But today I feel back on track again.
Off to the gym again tonight :)
Lets hope weigh in goes well tomorrow night. I need to lose at least 200g to get to my 15kg loss mark. I'm hoping!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.6kg
GW 65kg

over did it

Well so much for going to the gym today!!! grrrr! Bill is working yet again! He started at 6am and working till 5pm so theres no hope of getting there.
I went for my 45min walk yesterday. My eating was good until Bill got home at 8pm. With kids in bed I finally felt I could relax and out popped a bottle of wine. Bad time of day to be offering me that!!! of course I couldnt say no... but not one, not two but three glasses later I was feeling rather relaxed putting me over my points. Then on top of that I had to have half an english muffin at 10pm at night! (at least I didnt have any topping on it) So in the end I finished up 3pts over. Not a major tho, I did 3pts worth of walking but dont usually like to use my exercise points. So I will try and work it back by weigh in day by saving a point each day.
Another day stuck at home with the kids ... gee my life is exciting at the moment! lol
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.6kg
GW 65kg

catchup day

I am feeling alot better today. We have actually gone 24hrs without anyone throwing up!! Too scared to say we are rid of it yet but is looking hopeful.
Was feeling very sorry for myself yesterday when a good friend emailed me and told me to get off my butt and go for a walk!! So I did and thankyou to her it made me feel a whole lot better. I even got back and mowed the lawns. The neighbours must have laughed because by the time I got the mower out I realised it didnt actually need mowing but in my stubborness I mowed it anyway lol. So in total earnt myself 4 bonus points for the day.
I was too lazy to cook dinner last night (with just me and the kids here for dinner) so I dished up fruit and icecream (low fat version of course). Trouble was an hour or so later I was hungry again!! But by that stage I only had 3pts left. I certainly could have done a vege stirfry but noo (in my pms state) needed fat! and lots of it!! lol
So I compromised with myself and made macaroni cheese. Still high at 7pts but not too bad. I had 4pts saved up from earlier in the week so broke even in the end. Learnt my lesson tho ... cook dinner!! even if I cant be bothered!! lol
Going to walk Lauren to a friends house to play today. (45min walk there and back) so a good chance to get out of the house and earn some bonus points again.
Bill is working till 10.30pm again tonight. I hate it when he works so late, especially two nights in a row. I get so bored with my own company.
Going to try and catch up on some washing today ... I have a whole months washing to do (dont laugh lol) I have really got behind. As you can probably tell ... not my favourite job to do. Lucky I don't live in pioneer days huh? lol it would be a life sentence with these piles!
Thanks for all the emails and readers comments of support in my 'poor me' day yesterday. Did the trick! Cheers!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.6kg
GW 65kg

my boring life ... NOT!

I amaze myself how I can fill up this page everyday with the boring life that I lead lol.
Not much to write about today... on track with eating and tracking my food. Water is good so far today too but then again its only 11.30am :) Off to the gym again tonight. I think i am feeling back to my old self again after being ill.
Caught a glimpse of my reflection in the window last night and gave myself a fright lol. I didnt realise my butt was getting that small. It's funny how even tho i am losing weight and my clothes are getting bigger on me I generally don't notice or think of myself as much slimmer until I unexpectedly catch reflections of myself. They say it takes 6mths for your mind's image of yourself to catch up to the real you. Interesting ...
I'm looking out for a cheap digital camera so I can snap shots and put them straight up on my site. But I have spent so much on myself lately I feel a bit guilty buying yet another thing, so might put that idea on hold for a bit, at least until Bill buys something for himself and I don't feel so guilty lol.
Well so much for saying I had nothing to say :p
I have updated measurements and weight graph on my site for anyone interested.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.6kg
GW 65kg

success :)

Yipadoodlydoooooooo!!!!!! lol
1kg loss for me!!! (2.2lbs for you americanites) Fantastic feeling ... bringing me down to 92.6kg (203.7lb) I'm just 200g off my 15kg mark and given its TOM for me soon I am really happy with the result!
Bill got a $4500 payrise today and a $5500 bonus!! so a real double yay! Today has been sweet to me :) So there is no problems paying back the $3000 loan in the next two weeks now and it even gives us some money left over. So it's celebration night tonight. Almost bought a bottle of rum but decided against it at the last minute... then went in to buy a pulp fusion (icecream), but didnt have any in the shop so in a split second thought of buying a hi fat icecream like a white magnum (my pre ww favourite) which I havent had for 19wks now. But I was good and decided on seafood chow mein meaning I stayed in my points for the week.
A very successful day for me!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 92.6kg
GW 65kg

well I got it :(

I finally got it!! The horrible stomach bug that my family all got ... the one that I was desperately trying to avoid!! But the good thing was I didnt get it to the same extent that everyone else seemed to suffer with it. I still had stomach cramps and all my energy drained from my body but no nausea or vomitting so a good result I think. I spent the whole of yesterday on the couch doing nothing all day. I felt so guilty for it but everytime I got up to do something I only lasted a few minutes before I had to lie down again. Probably did my body good to rest for the day. I'm back on board today and knowing everyone in the family has come through the otherside of this nightmare bug is fantastic. It's funny how going through something like this gives you a new appreciation of feeling 'normal' :)
My exercise has been virtually non existant this week. Only did my one workout on Sunday and water has dropped to 1-2 glasses per day on average. My points for yesterday totalled only 5pts and 14pts for Monday. I'm really not sure what to expect at weigh in tonight. Some parts are expecting a loss due to my lack of eating but with water and exercise also being down (and TOM is due in the next week) may mean a gain. Either way I'm not too worried. It has all been out of my control this week. I've just been concentrating on getting through this. I'll let you know tomorrow how I get on.
Got some major business work, housework and WASHING!! to catch up on so I better log off and get into it...
Till tommorrow ...
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

ok I've had enough now

This bug is really starting to piss me off now!! Both Jesurun (11mths) and Bill has it. Bill was up all night and is still feeling terrible today. Think I'm starting to crack under the pressure. Most of it is knowing I will probably too have it in a day or two. Don't know whether to eat or not. Weight watchers has gone out the window today... no surprise there. Not that I am eating anything I shouldnt have but just not in the mood for eating full stop. Have managed to get down a banana for breakie and I'll think I'll leave it at that till at least lunchtime.
I managed to get to the gym yesterday and did an hours workout with no problems with any blisters! I certainly need some good news :)
I still cant get into my website and I have emailed everyone I can think of to help work out what is going on. No one seems to know or don't want to know why. I can still get into MDD which means at least I can update my diary.
The other drama that happened last night (in between running with buckets to Bill) My chinchillas escaped out of their cage. This would be okay on its own but we have a cat! At 2am in the morning we were running around the house catching them. We found and caught Pebbles (female) but couldnt find Bambam (male) anywhere. I felt the cats tummy and it was very full and heavy ... oh nooo. I then examined the house for leftovers, blood, fur ... anything that would give me a clue to what happened. I couldnt find any clues so hoped he was hiding somewhere and locked the cat in our bedroom till morning when I was in a better frame of mind to deal with it. Sure enough this morning I found him hiding behind the fridge. At the time I was so upset and stressed about it all but looking back on it today it was actually a little amusing having so much chaos in the middle of the night in one small house. (of course knowing the happy ending) I have to be able to smile at something. :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

you know you're gonna get it dont you?

Im still having problems getting into my website www.journey2slimsville.012webpages.com ... it's incredibly frustrating. I have been trying for two days now with no luck. Aparently others can get there no problem but for me the page just doesnt finish loading. I did get it to come up once yesterday after 10mins of waiting and my counter seems to have dropped off so I'm presuming it's something to do with Bravenet as I also cant get into their site... all very strange.
Took Jordan to the doctor last night and when the nurse came in to take his temperature she said "you know you're going to get it dont you?" What a horrible thing to tell someone. Now I have that horrible feeling of waiting to feel sick. At this stage I still feel okay but that waiting game is so horrible. I'm just hoping that she's wrong. I hate stomach bugs with a vengence (almost as much as I hate the dentist). There is nothing worse than heaving your guts up down the toilet! I'm off to the gym today anyway, regardless of how I feel later on. I have to get back there, before I start losing motivation to exercise.
Well with being mothers day here in NZ that is what I have asked for ... 3hrs to myself at the gym... double workout, sauna, shower and home.
Bill did nightshift last night so he is currently sleeping until 11am. Part of me feels done in to be looking after the kids by myself on mothers day... would have been nice to have the morning off ... but that's life I guess.
My water was down alot yesterday... with Jordan throwing up all day it was really the last thing I felt like doing, drinking water. I ate all my points but there were big gaps without eating. I really didnt want to put anything in my mouth incase it was contaminated.
The good news is Jordan is back to his normal self today, running around, laughing, into mischief. At least they get over it pretty quickly.
Arent we lucky bugs cant travel via internet... even tho i feel like a quaranteen house here at least I can still chat online with the risk of giving anyone else this horrible bug. Geez I sound so dramatical ... one small tummy bug and thats all I talk about for two days!!! lol
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

dont wanna go through that again

I have had an extremely stressful morning. My 2.5yr old boy has been throwing up all morning... it's horrible when kids of that age are sick. They can't explain properly how they are feeling and don't understand what is happening to them. Lauren (my 8yr old) had the tummy bug last week and I thought we had all escaped from getting it... but this morning Jordan suprised me with throwing up infront of me, all over the carpet, dining room floor, kitchen floor and laundry floor. I didn't blame him but it made it almost an unbearable thought of cleaning half my house of spew while keeping an 11mth old from crawling through it. I put the three other kids in Laurens room, cleaned up Jordan and put him off to bed. Then I finally snapped when I realised we had run out of disinfectant! I rang Bill in tears wanting to know what to do. Lucky he is in a job that he can leave when he wants to (managers position), so he came home with a bottle of disinfectant and set to work cleaning it up for me! He is a darling when I need him to be :) He took the rest of the afternoon off and we have spent it cleaning up Jordan and the house... he has thrown up 4 times now, poor boy.
After he was safely in bed (which we wrapped in gladwrap to protect it) I sat down to update my journal and couldnt get into my site. It would load the background and adverts and then stall. I must have spent 2hrs trying to work out what the problem was. Did everything from removing everything off my computer I didnt need to create more hard drive space, rebooting over and over, even putting up a post onto a webmasters forum. A reply came back that they had no problems opening it. Well at least that meant it was still there, I had horrible thoughts of it being totally gone... all my hard work gone to waste.
Eventually I got it up but it took 15mins to load up the index page. I have come to the conclusion it must be the server down. If I had realised that 2hrs ago I would've saved myself alot of time and stress.
To add to this Bill rang is junior to tell him he wouldnt be in till 6pm due to family sickness. This guy had the cheek to yell at his boss because he had social plans for the evening. He was rostered on to work till 6pm anyway. Stupid guy lol ... he is going to have an earful from Bill on Monday.
Good news, my site is up again by the looks of it, Jordan is in bed although not sleeping and I have finally been able to update my journal. It has made me realise how much I rely on both this journal and my website for motivation. I felt lost without it. Hmmm ... maybe I have a problem here ... MDD addiction? lol
I got really motivated yesterday (without being able to do exercise) and sprung cleaned Lauren and Jese's room. Changed all the furniture around and scrubbed it top to bottom. I came out with 3 rubbish bags full in the end. Big relief to have that done and earnt myself some bonus points in the meantime. Will get onto Malachi's and Jordan's room next week when I get some more rubbish bags lol. I think I will need at least 10 for their room. So many broken unused toys to throw out.
Well better go check on my boy again. Whoever invented tummy bugs need their heads read!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

late night action

Pretty boring day here... which is kinda good thing at the moment with all the stress of the last few weeks.
I havent been able to do exercise for yesterday or today as the blister on my heal is now infected! I get so annoyed when I can't exercise because of something out of my control. It's hard enough to get the motivation in the first place, so when I have the motivation I want to be able to just do it.
I could do an exercise dvd without shoes but I find I don't really get enough of a workout with that dvd. Anyone got any good tips on how to heal an infected popped blister quickly??
Went to a Manufacturers Clearout last night for underwear. It was really good. They had 70% off everything there!! Bought myself 2 bras and (get this) 17 pairs of g-string underwear!!! wahooo! Havent worn a g-string in 10yrs! Need to lose a few more kgs before they will be flattering on me but boy are they cumfy!! In the end I got $400 worth of undies, bras and socks for the whole family for $118 (40 items, average of $2.95 per item) There were literally thousands of people there.
I am such a scrooge!! lol ... They were charging $4 parking on entry and I thought that was a cheek especially given we would be spending all our money there, so I drove on and parked in the next carpark on ... for FREE!! It meant a 7-10min walk but hey thats a good thing! When I was walking back (in the dark) I was a little nervous tho as the lighting wasnt too good. Walked briskly to my car, put my keys in the door and it wouldnt turn ... oh no ... someone had tried to break into my car!! I tried about 5 times! Then realised ... duh! wasnt my car! lol Mine was hiding beside it. Just so happened it was a stationwagon of the same colour like mine. (different make of car but in the dark and in my hurry to get in the car before I got mugged, I didnt notice) Certainly made my heart pound for a few minutes! :)
My food was good yesterday ... oh boy its so nice to have my pantry full again! No exercise (other than my 10min nite walk) and only drank half of my water. So an okay day but I could have done better. Cant improve on my exercise today but will certainly get my water up more. Hoping my blister will be on the mend by tomorrow... enough to get my shoes on and get to the gym.
Catch ya all tomorrow,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

what a day ... what a result!!

Well looks like my 100% effort last week paid off ... 1.3kg loss!!!! Yeeeehawww!!! I am extremely happy with this result :) That 100g gain is far behind me now ... not looking back!
I ended up earning 42 bonus points for the week with all the exercise I did. That's the most I have ever earnt in one week. My leader said something interesting last night at the meeting. Apparently most experience small gains or loss slowdowns for only 3 weeks when starting an exercise program. I found out last week that it was temporary but didn't know how long, so that's interesting to give a timeline to it. Certainly helps to know why our bodies do the things it does. Although in saying that I know that we are all different and some people may have different experiences with weightloss. But as a guide its helpful to know.
Sorry I didn't update yesterday, this MDD diary site was giving me script errors each time I tried to logon to do an update. I gave up trying after the 7 or 8th time. So I'll just have to update for yesterday in todays entry.
Yesterday was ummmm .... very eventful!! We were looking after my brothers Alaskan Malamute Dog (black and white huskie) for a couple of days while he was up here on business. We were due to take 'Bailey' (the dog) to Mum's in Hamilton yesterday morning. As we told the kids to hop in the car, Bailey shot out the door and she was off!!! Poor girl, missing her owner and in a strange city. I ran after her but although I am quickly becoming the speed of an olympic athlete (note sarcasm) there was no way I could catch that dog. She was obviously on a mission to find my brother. After realising I couldn't catch her on foot I ran back, yelled to Bill and we all jumped in the car. We split up down the road, Bill on foot and me and the kids in the car, then swapped after 15mins or so. No sign of her. We have a lot of big parks, walkways and lake areas where we live so she could be anywhere. After 30mins we rang my brother who grabbed a work car and raced over here. We drove around the streets for 2hrs!! One guy had seen her 1km from our home so we got the basic direction she was heading. Some school kids (trying to be funny) said they had seen her and pointed us in the complete wrong direction. I asked an old guy delivering pamphlets if he had seen a huskie dog walking the streets ... "Ohhh a black and white Malamute? ..." "YESSS??!!!" I replied ... "No I haven't seen one but would certainly love a dog like that!" I could have strangled him! lol. Both my brother, Bill and I had given up hope after 2hrs of searching. She was gone!! The only hope now was to ring the dog control and pound in the hope that she would turn up there.
Then my brother thought to stop a rubbish truck to ask them. The first guy said "nup!" and walked off. Then the second guy said "hang on, why don't you radio through to all the other trucks in the area?" Fantastic idea!!! Sure enough a rubbish truck had seen her outside a Petrol station about 4km from here. I raced over there to find her sitting at the front entrance watching everyone walk in and out. There were probably 30 people there all just doing their thing, patting the dog as they walked in and out, oblivious to the fact that her owners were beside themselves looking for her! lol. Lucky it was rubbish day!!!!!! The petrol station she was at is on the way to the Airport (the place she had come from yesterday with my brother). Amazing to think she knew the way back to where she thought she could find my brother!!
So we put everyone in the car there and then and drove to drop her off before anything else could happen to her! lol
I'm sure I burnt off 1kg of my weightloss with all the adrenaline running through my veins lol!
Got to Hamilton around 12.30pm, grabbed a sandwich at mums then as we were leaving Bill joked about going to Subway (our latest treat place for lunch). No Way!! I had already had lunch and it was weigh in tonight, not a good day to be having a double lunch! He ignored my pleas, my tantrums, my passive manipulation lol ... nothing worked, he was going anyway! When we got there, there were no carparks SO GET THIS!!! ... he made ME go in to get it while he double parked!! I had to walk into a foodhall amongst all the drooling, scrummy smells, all the deepfried foods available, yummy naughty foods! I was so annoyed I'm sure you could see the steam rising from my red faced head!! but probably just as well as it gave me the determination to prove a point! (as well as the fact that it was weighin day) I stood in queue, ordered HIS 6" sub and walked out. When he realised I didn't get one for myself he felt really bad. As much as I don't purposely like making him feel bad, it was satisfaction cream to rub my ego! lol ... I was strong enough to walk into temptation land, buy something (that I really wanted but didn't need) for Bill and walk out with not having anything!! Yay me!!
Got home at 3.30pm in time for the kids to get home from school. Then off to WW meeting at 4.30pm till 7.30pm (I'm a weigher for two meetings), then off to the supermarket to do some long awaited grocery shopping!! Home by 9.30pm ... I was exhausted!!
I have decided to have today off. No work, house is tidy (well except for our 'always messy' bedroom) and I have blisters on my heels so no exercise for me today either. Then back into it all again tomorrow.
Well off to update my website. Till tommorow ...
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg!!!!
GW 65kg

motivation high thanks to you guys!

Wow I am feeling so motivated today!! Thanks to you guys!! wahoo you all rock!!!!!! I have received some more emails and entries into my guestbook telling me how I am encouraging others to keep going on this hilly road to success ... but you have it wrong!!!! YOU ARE ALL MOTIVATING ME!!! I tell ya its the other way round ... I never knew the impact doing the site would have on me! It is fantastic to know that when I am having a bad day and expose myself to my journal that it is effecting others in a possitive way... knowing we are all the same... all human ... all have down days but the difference between a successful person and a failure is not the amount of time we fall down but the amount of times we GET BACK UP AND CARRY ON!!!!!
I did a walk yesterday morning in which I ran a little way, then went to the gym last night for a step class. That class always makes me red faced and sweaty!! I feel so good afterwards! I managed to do even more hi impact during the class. Still not up to the jumping that some others do in the class but it's a fantastic effort for me. I have become to enjoy the feeling of being redfaced and sweaty. I used to hate it, but now I don't feel like I have given it 100% effort unless I do feel that way.
I think that is part of the reason for getting bored with walking ... I am walking as fast as I can for as long as I can but I don't feel a challenge anymore. I can't walk for any longer due to time restrictions. I was walking up to 2.5hrs a day and theres just not enough time in the day to walk for any longer. So the answer? ... I have decided to cut down the time and increase the speed to a jog every now and then. I'm still taking it slow and only jog for as long as I get too puffed then I stop and walk for a few hundred metres then jog again. I did this this morning and loved it!! My feet are playing up again with blisters but I am so enjoying the challenge. (hey I may be running this half marathon yet! lol, no dont think I'm up to it quite yet) But I'm certainly getting there. On that note ... one hint for anyone wanting to start an exercise programme (either gym or running) invest in a good pair of shoes .... and a SPORTS BRA!!! I am so glad I did (especially item number two) I always thought I was too big to run or jump, but it wasnt true, I just didnt have a supportive enough bra to hold onto these big suckers!!! lol I find running and jumping a pleasure now. I used to have to hold my arms under my boobs to stop them bouncing, with my unco' timing skills really made the whole ordeal a little too much to handle. And make sure they are not one of those cheap versions. I paid $50 for this one which is quite highly priced but it is soooo worth it!!
I actually managed to save 3.5pts yesterday ... wahooo! So I am finally caught up points wise for the week. (infact I have 1pt saved for a rainy day). Gee I better have a loss this week ... I sooooo deserve it!! lol
Another success... I have managed to go a whole extra week without grocery shopping. It has been a struggle but we have done it. Family of 6 surviving on a 3kg bag apples, 3 loaves of bread, milk, weetbix, packet of chicken drumsticks, a pumpkin, packet of brown rice and a few veges out of the garden (carrots, zuchini and silverbeat)... all for under $25!! And I have managed to make it interesting too. Lucky I have some herbs and spices in the cupboard. It's been a challenge that I have enjoyed. At the start of the week I was depressed about it but now that I am nearly there I enjoyed it. Only 1 day to go... payday is Wednesday (tommorow)
Well that's all from me today ... off to read some other journals :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

adding more running into my walking

Well this morning has been very productive with 2 wedding invitation samples finished and ready to go in the post. I managed to get in a walk this morning before Bill left for work. I even ran some of it, something I am finding easier to do than ever before. Still only running 10% or so of the distance but a good start. Did 45mins and earnt 4 bonus points. Averaged 6.5kph so thats a good effort. (same speed as I did the round the bays funrun in)
I also want to get to the gym this afternoon when Bill gets home from work. Since I am finding my points amount hard to keep under (only 1pt per day over) I figure I need to increase my exercise to compensate.
My brother is coming for dinner tonight (from Dunedin) so should be good to catch up.
Not much else has happened... short and sweet today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

building muscle is only temporary ... duh!

Well Im a bit bummed. The entry I wrote yesterday isnt on here anymore ... Grrrrr!! And it was a long one too. Oh well in the big picture I guess it doesnt matter.
Just came home from a lunch with some friends. (their daughters first birthday) With the huge selection of food, I think I did quite well. Pointed it out as 8pts. But always a little hard to know when I havent cooked it myself. I even passed on dessert which is something I still find hard to do.
Had a few compliments on my 'flat' tummy from a lady I hadnt seen in awhile. (not that I think it is flat by any means but if thats what she thought I'm not going to disagree... lol)
Had one lady who snobbed me and at first I was taken back by it, but on the way home I realised she must be jealous about my weight loss as she too is trying to lose weight. I had to smile to myself as her act in itself is a compliment... she obviously thought I had lost weight to be jealous :)
Someone posted a comment on the ww forum that although is very obvious I had never thought of it before. (call me dumb lol)
"When you go to the gym and build muscle you may have a weight gain (this part I already knew) but this gain is only temparary until you have built up the muscle then the muscle will help burn more fat and so in the long run speed up your weightloss"
I always thought that when you started gym stuff, yes you would build muscle (and so slow down your weightloss) but I never thought of it as temporary. I thought that you would keep building muscle and so stop your weightloss altogether. This gives me hope that my gym work is a good thing. (I know it is good for my health, but always thought it would inhibit my scale readings even tho my measurements would go down, due to muscle being heavier than fat). Now I know (dah!!)
I tried really hard to do exercise yesterday. Got the kids dressed warmly, the pushchair out and started off for a long walk. About 5mins into it, my 5yr old son started crying from a sore foot, so we had to go back. Then I thought, okay Ill get out my exercise dvd, but the two oldest sat on the couch laughing at me. I sent them outside to play but they kept making excuses to come inside to snigger at me. In the end I gave up. Earnt 2 bonus points but not as much as I would have liked.
Wanted to walk to the lunch today but with Malachi's sore foot and the weather looking like rain, gave that a miss too. Every good intention but wasnt to be. I'm hoping I can get to the gym in the morning before Bill starts work.
I have bought a film to take some photos, so when Bill is home I may get the camera out. (hes only home in the dark at the moment and working 7days, so hope the flash works out fine)
I really hope I have a loss this week. I'm finding the extra point I have gone down is making it hard. Even tho the scales are not recording losses my measurements are still going down so Im guessing I must be building muscle. Still depressing tho. I hold too much emphasis on those scales. Something I have to work on.
Well that's it for me, till tommorrow!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

a cool list I found

1. Today's Date: 2 May 2003
2. Astrological Sign: Capricorn
3. Eye Color: blue
4. Hair Color: Ash Brown with blonde hilights (half grown out lol)
5. Distinguishing Marks: mole on my back right arm
Favorites....
6. A color you like to wear (not fav color): Burgandy
7. A flower you would like to grow in your garden: cactus
8. Your lucky number: 7
9. A city you would like to visit: Paris
10. A blog you strongly reccomend: I don't know what a BLOG is?!
11. Music you prefer to listen to when a lone: Blue
12. The best sex music: tv in the background
13. The singer or band(s) you listen to most: Shania Twain
14. A movie you can watch over and over: Ever After
15. Your favorite outfit: Hipster pants, black zip top
16. Your favorite place to sit at home: Computer chair
17. Something you like to do on a Sunday: Sleep
18 A motto you like to live by: If you dont know where you are going ... every road will get you nowhere
19. Your watch: I don't have one
20. Your cologne or perfume: Elizabeth Arden Red Door
21. If you could afford it right now, you would buy: Build a new house (with 4 bedrooms!)
22. Your strangest posession: 2 rocks with Bill & Lynette painted on
23. Your prized possesion: My wedding ring and engagement ring
24. Your most expensive possesion: My house
25. If your house was on fire and you could only save 3 items what would they be: wooden box (important docs in), photos, pets
Friends.....
26. Three traits you look for in a friend: Loyalty, humour, honesty
27. Friend you have known longest: Bill
28. Friend you miss the most: Lyn (not me)
29. Who makes you laugh: Bill
30. Who do you go to for advice: Bill
31. YOur closest friends: Bill, Trish, Debs
32. One trait you admire in each of them: Loyalty
33. The friend that uses most of your energy: Michelle
Ego....
34. your three best qualities: loyalty, wisdom, humour
35. three worst qualities; shyness, impatience, lack of self confidence
36. Three things you are often complimented for: My children, singing voice, my creative skills
37. A compliment you got that made you blush: "what perfume you wearing?" by an indian dairy owner
38. YOu get embarassed when: people walk away while I'm talking
39. Makes you happy: Bill tells me how wonderful I am
40. Upsets you: being taken advantage of
41. If you didn't have commitments what would you do: move to another country
Yes or NO....
42. YOU keep a diary: yes
43. YOu like to cook: yes
44. YOU have a secrect you have not shared with anyone: yes
45. You fold your underwear: yes
46. You talk in your sleep: no
47. You eat fast: no
48. You set your watch a few minutes ahead: no- no watch!
49. You believe in love: yes
50. You bit your fingernails: no
If you have made it to this point, you are a glutton for punishment!

knicker dancin'

Well last night it all got a bit much for me ... I couldnt stop crying. It wasnt anything in particular but a combination of the work stress from my business, my feeling of failure with my weightloss, and burnout with running a busy household. Lucky it happened when Bill was home. He is such a sweetie!! I know why we are together, he is the only person that really gets under my skin (in a positive way) and gives me heart hugs. He tells me everyday how special and how beautiful I am (and what a sexy butt I have) So by the time I went to bed I was feeling good again.
I have decided I deserve a day off from the business today (finally got the job finished with some left over foil I found). I still have to locate a new supplier for the foil but will put that off for another day. For anyone curious ... foiling is a way of making metallic silver colour on the wedding invites I design and print. It involves printing in black ink and ironing on a silver foil sheet and it sticks where it is printed black and doesnt stick where there is no black ink. I then peel off the sheet and walaaaa silver colour on my card.
I have chosen to make today my "get inspired again" day. I do this by spending time surfing other journals on the net and seeing others successes. I will bake some ww muffins for lunch and do a dvd exercise workout sometime. I use it as a focus day on my weightloss journey. Sometimes my life gets so busy that my eating takes second priority to everything else. I have to stay focused and I felt my focus slipping and motivation depleating. I'm feeling heaps better already in reading the regular journals in my bookmark list. It is such an inspiration to read that others are real and go through the same struggles as I do. That is why I have chosen to be so honest in my journal. To put all feelings of shame aside, to be real to myself and to my readers. We are all the same ... as someone once told me "even the Queen sits on the toilet with her knickers around her ankles" lol. It is so sad to put up the walls we do. We all do it, me especially. I am shy in person but on here there is a sense of security and so allows me to pull the walls down to show everyone that we all have the same struggles in life.
Well thats enough blurb for me today ... picking up my knickers again and dancing along! :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

I get up, I walk, I fall down, I keep dancing

Well I had a very disapointing result at weigh in last night ... 100g gain. I really wasnt expecting it, so it hit me back quite hard. It's the first real gain I have had in 17wks on ww. (I almost had a gain about 6wks ago but went to the loo and it ended up a 300g loss
I know all the things to say about this tiny gain "its only 100g, youll make it up next week, probably that extra drink you had, 100g is nothing, look at the big picture at everything you have already accomplished" I know all the blurbs (I say them myself to others regularly) but it still hits the bottom of my gutt. Especially not knowing why I had a gain. Its not TOM, didnt binge, exercise has been good, no im not building up muscle.
I really dont know why, but I dont really need to know why, I just need to keep plodding on. I have kept the quote of the day on the front of my site for another week as it is appropriate for me at the moment "I get up. I walk. I fall down... meanwhile I keep dancing" Just have to keep that in my head.
Consequently have thrown myself back into the gym... tried a new class today "Body Combat" wahoooo!! 60mins of kickboxing to music... dont no body attack me now or I'll kick you right back lol!!
I had a really horrible day yesterday ... i mean really horrible. Doing tax for my business, couldnt print job as computer program went on the blink (kept doing illegal operations), couldnt foil job due out as I had run out of foil (silver paper I lay over paper to colour it) so I rang up the supplier to be told no they didnt have any in stock and they were no longer going to stock it. There was none in the whole country and according to them their supplier had stopped producing it! Its a big part to my business and I use the foiling process on 80% of my work. After that I went to weigh in for a gain, had people getting stroppy at me all night (as a weigher) for things that were out of my control, then came home and lost my wallet on the way!! I tell ya I havent had a day like that in a very long time... just as well or I would be crazy by now if i did ... lol
Im so glad to hear 'Heaven7' does the same as me in weighing her clothes. Infact I do almost exactly what she says she does on weigh in day (read readers comments yesterday)
On that note ... anyone who wants to leave a comment on my daily entry feel free to do so at the bottom. You dont have to be a deardiary member. And a big thankyou to all those that leave me comments, send me emails and comments in my guestbook!! It is so nice to know others are here along the journey with me!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg