well I got it :(

I finally got it!! The horrible stomach bug that my family all got ... the one that I was desperately trying to avoid!! But the good thing was I didnt get it to the same extent that everyone else seemed to suffer with it. I still had stomach cramps and all my energy drained from my body but no nausea or vomitting so a good result I think. I spent the whole of yesterday on the couch doing nothing all day. I felt so guilty for it but everytime I got up to do something I only lasted a few minutes before I had to lie down again. Probably did my body good to rest for the day. I'm back on board today and knowing everyone in the family has come through the otherside of this nightmare bug is fantastic. It's funny how going through something like this gives you a new appreciation of feeling 'normal' :)
My exercise has been virtually non existant this week. Only did my one workout on Sunday and water has dropped to 1-2 glasses per day on average. My points for yesterday totalled only 5pts and 14pts for Monday. I'm really not sure what to expect at weigh in tonight. Some parts are expecting a loss due to my lack of eating but with water and exercise also being down (and TOM is due in the next week) may mean a gain. Either way I'm not too worried. It has all been out of my control this week. I've just been concentrating on getting through this. I'll let you know tomorrow how I get on.
Got some major business work, housework and WASHING!! to catch up on so I better log off and get into it...
Till tommorrow ...
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

ok I've had enough now

This bug is really starting to piss me off now!! Both Jesurun (11mths) and Bill has it. Bill was up all night and is still feeling terrible today. Think I'm starting to crack under the pressure. Most of it is knowing I will probably too have it in a day or two. Don't know whether to eat or not. Weight watchers has gone out the window today... no surprise there. Not that I am eating anything I shouldnt have but just not in the mood for eating full stop. Have managed to get down a banana for breakie and I'll think I'll leave it at that till at least lunchtime.
I managed to get to the gym yesterday and did an hours workout with no problems with any blisters! I certainly need some good news :)
I still cant get into my website and I have emailed everyone I can think of to help work out what is going on. No one seems to know or don't want to know why. I can still get into MDD which means at least I can update my diary.
The other drama that happened last night (in between running with buckets to Bill) My chinchillas escaped out of their cage. This would be okay on its own but we have a cat! At 2am in the morning we were running around the house catching them. We found and caught Pebbles (female) but couldnt find Bambam (male) anywhere. I felt the cats tummy and it was very full and heavy ... oh nooo. I then examined the house for leftovers, blood, fur ... anything that would give me a clue to what happened. I couldnt find any clues so hoped he was hiding somewhere and locked the cat in our bedroom till morning when I was in a better frame of mind to deal with it. Sure enough this morning I found him hiding behind the fridge. At the time I was so upset and stressed about it all but looking back on it today it was actually a little amusing having so much chaos in the middle of the night in one small house. (of course knowing the happy ending) I have to be able to smile at something. :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

you know you're gonna get it dont you?

Im still having problems getting into my website www.journey2slimsville.012webpages.com ... it's incredibly frustrating. I have been trying for two days now with no luck. Aparently others can get there no problem but for me the page just doesnt finish loading. I did get it to come up once yesterday after 10mins of waiting and my counter seems to have dropped off so I'm presuming it's something to do with Bravenet as I also cant get into their site... all very strange.
Took Jordan to the doctor last night and when the nurse came in to take his temperature she said "you know you're going to get it dont you?" What a horrible thing to tell someone. Now I have that horrible feeling of waiting to feel sick. At this stage I still feel okay but that waiting game is so horrible. I'm just hoping that she's wrong. I hate stomach bugs with a vengence (almost as much as I hate the dentist). There is nothing worse than heaving your guts up down the toilet! I'm off to the gym today anyway, regardless of how I feel later on. I have to get back there, before I start losing motivation to exercise.
Well with being mothers day here in NZ that is what I have asked for ... 3hrs to myself at the gym... double workout, sauna, shower and home.
Bill did nightshift last night so he is currently sleeping until 11am. Part of me feels done in to be looking after the kids by myself on mothers day... would have been nice to have the morning off ... but that's life I guess.
My water was down alot yesterday... with Jordan throwing up all day it was really the last thing I felt like doing, drinking water. I ate all my points but there were big gaps without eating. I really didnt want to put anything in my mouth incase it was contaminated.
The good news is Jordan is back to his normal self today, running around, laughing, into mischief. At least they get over it pretty quickly.
Arent we lucky bugs cant travel via internet... even tho i feel like a quaranteen house here at least I can still chat online with the risk of giving anyone else this horrible bug. Geez I sound so dramatical ... one small tummy bug and thats all I talk about for two days!!! lol
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

dont wanna go through that again

I have had an extremely stressful morning. My 2.5yr old boy has been throwing up all morning... it's horrible when kids of that age are sick. They can't explain properly how they are feeling and don't understand what is happening to them. Lauren (my 8yr old) had the tummy bug last week and I thought we had all escaped from getting it... but this morning Jordan suprised me with throwing up infront of me, all over the carpet, dining room floor, kitchen floor and laundry floor. I didn't blame him but it made it almost an unbearable thought of cleaning half my house of spew while keeping an 11mth old from crawling through it. I put the three other kids in Laurens room, cleaned up Jordan and put him off to bed. Then I finally snapped when I realised we had run out of disinfectant! I rang Bill in tears wanting to know what to do. Lucky he is in a job that he can leave when he wants to (managers position), so he came home with a bottle of disinfectant and set to work cleaning it up for me! He is a darling when I need him to be :) He took the rest of the afternoon off and we have spent it cleaning up Jordan and the house... he has thrown up 4 times now, poor boy.
After he was safely in bed (which we wrapped in gladwrap to protect it) I sat down to update my journal and couldnt get into my site. It would load the background and adverts and then stall. I must have spent 2hrs trying to work out what the problem was. Did everything from removing everything off my computer I didnt need to create more hard drive space, rebooting over and over, even putting up a post onto a webmasters forum. A reply came back that they had no problems opening it. Well at least that meant it was still there, I had horrible thoughts of it being totally gone... all my hard work gone to waste.
Eventually I got it up but it took 15mins to load up the index page. I have come to the conclusion it must be the server down. If I had realised that 2hrs ago I would've saved myself alot of time and stress.
To add to this Bill rang is junior to tell him he wouldnt be in till 6pm due to family sickness. This guy had the cheek to yell at his boss because he had social plans for the evening. He was rostered on to work till 6pm anyway. Stupid guy lol ... he is going to have an earful from Bill on Monday.
Good news, my site is up again by the looks of it, Jordan is in bed although not sleeping and I have finally been able to update my journal. It has made me realise how much I rely on both this journal and my website for motivation. I felt lost without it. Hmmm ... maybe I have a problem here ... MDD addiction? lol
I got really motivated yesterday (without being able to do exercise) and sprung cleaned Lauren and Jese's room. Changed all the furniture around and scrubbed it top to bottom. I came out with 3 rubbish bags full in the end. Big relief to have that done and earnt myself some bonus points in the meantime. Will get onto Malachi's and Jordan's room next week when I get some more rubbish bags lol. I think I will need at least 10 for their room. So many broken unused toys to throw out.
Well better go check on my boy again. Whoever invented tummy bugs need their heads read!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

late night action

Pretty boring day here... which is kinda good thing at the moment with all the stress of the last few weeks.
I havent been able to do exercise for yesterday or today as the blister on my heal is now infected! I get so annoyed when I can't exercise because of something out of my control. It's hard enough to get the motivation in the first place, so when I have the motivation I want to be able to just do it.
I could do an exercise dvd without shoes but I find I don't really get enough of a workout with that dvd. Anyone got any good tips on how to heal an infected popped blister quickly??
Went to a Manufacturers Clearout last night for underwear. It was really good. They had 70% off everything there!! Bought myself 2 bras and (get this) 17 pairs of g-string underwear!!! wahooo! Havent worn a g-string in 10yrs! Need to lose a few more kgs before they will be flattering on me but boy are they cumfy!! In the end I got $400 worth of undies, bras and socks for the whole family for $118 (40 items, average of $2.95 per item) There were literally thousands of people there.
I am such a scrooge!! lol ... They were charging $4 parking on entry and I thought that was a cheek especially given we would be spending all our money there, so I drove on and parked in the next carpark on ... for FREE!! It meant a 7-10min walk but hey thats a good thing! When I was walking back (in the dark) I was a little nervous tho as the lighting wasnt too good. Walked briskly to my car, put my keys in the door and it wouldnt turn ... oh no ... someone had tried to break into my car!! I tried about 5 times! Then realised ... duh! wasnt my car! lol Mine was hiding beside it. Just so happened it was a stationwagon of the same colour like mine. (different make of car but in the dark and in my hurry to get in the car before I got mugged, I didnt notice) Certainly made my heart pound for a few minutes! :)
My food was good yesterday ... oh boy its so nice to have my pantry full again! No exercise (other than my 10min nite walk) and only drank half of my water. So an okay day but I could have done better. Cant improve on my exercise today but will certainly get my water up more. Hoping my blister will be on the mend by tomorrow... enough to get my shoes on and get to the gym.
Catch ya all tomorrow,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg
GW 65kg

what a day ... what a result!!

Well looks like my 100% effort last week paid off ... 1.3kg loss!!!! Yeeeehawww!!! I am extremely happy with this result :) That 100g gain is far behind me now ... not looking back!
I ended up earning 42 bonus points for the week with all the exercise I did. That's the most I have ever earnt in one week. My leader said something interesting last night at the meeting. Apparently most experience small gains or loss slowdowns for only 3 weeks when starting an exercise program. I found out last week that it was temporary but didn't know how long, so that's interesting to give a timeline to it. Certainly helps to know why our bodies do the things it does. Although in saying that I know that we are all different and some people may have different experiences with weightloss. But as a guide its helpful to know.
Sorry I didn't update yesterday, this MDD diary site was giving me script errors each time I tried to logon to do an update. I gave up trying after the 7 or 8th time. So I'll just have to update for yesterday in todays entry.
Yesterday was ummmm .... very eventful!! We were looking after my brothers Alaskan Malamute Dog (black and white huskie) for a couple of days while he was up here on business. We were due to take 'Bailey' (the dog) to Mum's in Hamilton yesterday morning. As we told the kids to hop in the car, Bailey shot out the door and she was off!!! Poor girl, missing her owner and in a strange city. I ran after her but although I am quickly becoming the speed of an olympic athlete (note sarcasm) there was no way I could catch that dog. She was obviously on a mission to find my brother. After realising I couldn't catch her on foot I ran back, yelled to Bill and we all jumped in the car. We split up down the road, Bill on foot and me and the kids in the car, then swapped after 15mins or so. No sign of her. We have a lot of big parks, walkways and lake areas where we live so she could be anywhere. After 30mins we rang my brother who grabbed a work car and raced over here. We drove around the streets for 2hrs!! One guy had seen her 1km from our home so we got the basic direction she was heading. Some school kids (trying to be funny) said they had seen her and pointed us in the complete wrong direction. I asked an old guy delivering pamphlets if he had seen a huskie dog walking the streets ... "Ohhh a black and white Malamute? ..." "YESSS??!!!" I replied ... "No I haven't seen one but would certainly love a dog like that!" I could have strangled him! lol. Both my brother, Bill and I had given up hope after 2hrs of searching. She was gone!! The only hope now was to ring the dog control and pound in the hope that she would turn up there.
Then my brother thought to stop a rubbish truck to ask them. The first guy said "nup!" and walked off. Then the second guy said "hang on, why don't you radio through to all the other trucks in the area?" Fantastic idea!!! Sure enough a rubbish truck had seen her outside a Petrol station about 4km from here. I raced over there to find her sitting at the front entrance watching everyone walk in and out. There were probably 30 people there all just doing their thing, patting the dog as they walked in and out, oblivious to the fact that her owners were beside themselves looking for her! lol. Lucky it was rubbish day!!!!!! The petrol station she was at is on the way to the Airport (the place she had come from yesterday with my brother). Amazing to think she knew the way back to where she thought she could find my brother!!
So we put everyone in the car there and then and drove to drop her off before anything else could happen to her! lol
I'm sure I burnt off 1kg of my weightloss with all the adrenaline running through my veins lol!
Got to Hamilton around 12.30pm, grabbed a sandwich at mums then as we were leaving Bill joked about going to Subway (our latest treat place for lunch). No Way!! I had already had lunch and it was weigh in tonight, not a good day to be having a double lunch! He ignored my pleas, my tantrums, my passive manipulation lol ... nothing worked, he was going anyway! When we got there, there were no carparks SO GET THIS!!! ... he made ME go in to get it while he double parked!! I had to walk into a foodhall amongst all the drooling, scrummy smells, all the deepfried foods available, yummy naughty foods! I was so annoyed I'm sure you could see the steam rising from my red faced head!! but probably just as well as it gave me the determination to prove a point! (as well as the fact that it was weighin day) I stood in queue, ordered HIS 6" sub and walked out. When he realised I didn't get one for myself he felt really bad. As much as I don't purposely like making him feel bad, it was satisfaction cream to rub my ego! lol ... I was strong enough to walk into temptation land, buy something (that I really wanted but didn't need) for Bill and walk out with not having anything!! Yay me!!
Got home at 3.30pm in time for the kids to get home from school. Then off to WW meeting at 4.30pm till 7.30pm (I'm a weigher for two meetings), then off to the supermarket to do some long awaited grocery shopping!! Home by 9.30pm ... I was exhausted!!
I have decided to have today off. No work, house is tidy (well except for our 'always messy' bedroom) and I have blisters on my heels so no exercise for me today either. Then back into it all again tomorrow.
Well off to update my website. Till tommorow ...
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 93.6kg!!!!
GW 65kg

motivation high thanks to you guys!

Wow I am feeling so motivated today!! Thanks to you guys!! wahoo you all rock!!!!!! I have received some more emails and entries into my guestbook telling me how I am encouraging others to keep going on this hilly road to success ... but you have it wrong!!!! YOU ARE ALL MOTIVATING ME!!! I tell ya its the other way round ... I never knew the impact doing the site would have on me! It is fantastic to know that when I am having a bad day and expose myself to my journal that it is effecting others in a possitive way... knowing we are all the same... all human ... all have down days but the difference between a successful person and a failure is not the amount of time we fall down but the amount of times we GET BACK UP AND CARRY ON!!!!!
I did a walk yesterday morning in which I ran a little way, then went to the gym last night for a step class. That class always makes me red faced and sweaty!! I feel so good afterwards! I managed to do even more hi impact during the class. Still not up to the jumping that some others do in the class but it's a fantastic effort for me. I have become to enjoy the feeling of being redfaced and sweaty. I used to hate it, but now I don't feel like I have given it 100% effort unless I do feel that way.
I think that is part of the reason for getting bored with walking ... I am walking as fast as I can for as long as I can but I don't feel a challenge anymore. I can't walk for any longer due to time restrictions. I was walking up to 2.5hrs a day and theres just not enough time in the day to walk for any longer. So the answer? ... I have decided to cut down the time and increase the speed to a jog every now and then. I'm still taking it slow and only jog for as long as I get too puffed then I stop and walk for a few hundred metres then jog again. I did this this morning and loved it!! My feet are playing up again with blisters but I am so enjoying the challenge. (hey I may be running this half marathon yet! lol, no dont think I'm up to it quite yet) But I'm certainly getting there. On that note ... one hint for anyone wanting to start an exercise programme (either gym or running) invest in a good pair of shoes .... and a SPORTS BRA!!! I am so glad I did (especially item number two) I always thought I was too big to run or jump, but it wasnt true, I just didnt have a supportive enough bra to hold onto these big suckers!!! lol I find running and jumping a pleasure now. I used to have to hold my arms under my boobs to stop them bouncing, with my unco' timing skills really made the whole ordeal a little too much to handle. And make sure they are not one of those cheap versions. I paid $50 for this one which is quite highly priced but it is soooo worth it!!
I actually managed to save 3.5pts yesterday ... wahooo! So I am finally caught up points wise for the week. (infact I have 1pt saved for a rainy day). Gee I better have a loss this week ... I sooooo deserve it!! lol
Another success... I have managed to go a whole extra week without grocery shopping. It has been a struggle but we have done it. Family of 6 surviving on a 3kg bag apples, 3 loaves of bread, milk, weetbix, packet of chicken drumsticks, a pumpkin, packet of brown rice and a few veges out of the garden (carrots, zuchini and silverbeat)... all for under $25!! And I have managed to make it interesting too. Lucky I have some herbs and spices in the cupboard. It's been a challenge that I have enjoyed. At the start of the week I was depressed about it but now that I am nearly there I enjoyed it. Only 1 day to go... payday is Wednesday (tommorow)
Well that's all from me today ... off to read some other journals :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

adding more running into my walking

Well this morning has been very productive with 2 wedding invitation samples finished and ready to go in the post. I managed to get in a walk this morning before Bill left for work. I even ran some of it, something I am finding easier to do than ever before. Still only running 10% or so of the distance but a good start. Did 45mins and earnt 4 bonus points. Averaged 6.5kph so thats a good effort. (same speed as I did the round the bays funrun in)
I also want to get to the gym this afternoon when Bill gets home from work. Since I am finding my points amount hard to keep under (only 1pt per day over) I figure I need to increase my exercise to compensate.
My brother is coming for dinner tonight (from Dunedin) so should be good to catch up.
Not much else has happened... short and sweet today.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

building muscle is only temporary ... duh!

Well Im a bit bummed. The entry I wrote yesterday isnt on here anymore ... Grrrrr!! And it was a long one too. Oh well in the big picture I guess it doesnt matter.
Just came home from a lunch with some friends. (their daughters first birthday) With the huge selection of food, I think I did quite well. Pointed it out as 8pts. But always a little hard to know when I havent cooked it myself. I even passed on dessert which is something I still find hard to do.
Had a few compliments on my 'flat' tummy from a lady I hadnt seen in awhile. (not that I think it is flat by any means but if thats what she thought I'm not going to disagree... lol)
Had one lady who snobbed me and at first I was taken back by it, but on the way home I realised she must be jealous about my weight loss as she too is trying to lose weight. I had to smile to myself as her act in itself is a compliment... she obviously thought I had lost weight to be jealous :)
Someone posted a comment on the ww forum that although is very obvious I had never thought of it before. (call me dumb lol)
"When you go to the gym and build muscle you may have a weight gain (this part I already knew) but this gain is only temparary until you have built up the muscle then the muscle will help burn more fat and so in the long run speed up your weightloss"
I always thought that when you started gym stuff, yes you would build muscle (and so slow down your weightloss) but I never thought of it as temporary. I thought that you would keep building muscle and so stop your weightloss altogether. This gives me hope that my gym work is a good thing. (I know it is good for my health, but always thought it would inhibit my scale readings even tho my measurements would go down, due to muscle being heavier than fat). Now I know (dah!!)
I tried really hard to do exercise yesterday. Got the kids dressed warmly, the pushchair out and started off for a long walk. About 5mins into it, my 5yr old son started crying from a sore foot, so we had to go back. Then I thought, okay Ill get out my exercise dvd, but the two oldest sat on the couch laughing at me. I sent them outside to play but they kept making excuses to come inside to snigger at me. In the end I gave up. Earnt 2 bonus points but not as much as I would have liked.
Wanted to walk to the lunch today but with Malachi's sore foot and the weather looking like rain, gave that a miss too. Every good intention but wasnt to be. I'm hoping I can get to the gym in the morning before Bill starts work.
I have bought a film to take some photos, so when Bill is home I may get the camera out. (hes only home in the dark at the moment and working 7days, so hope the flash works out fine)
I really hope I have a loss this week. I'm finding the extra point I have gone down is making it hard. Even tho the scales are not recording losses my measurements are still going down so Im guessing I must be building muscle. Still depressing tho. I hold too much emphasis on those scales. Something I have to work on.
Well that's it for me, till tommorrow!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

a cool list I found

1. Today's Date: 2 May 2003
2. Astrological Sign: Capricorn
3. Eye Color: blue
4. Hair Color: Ash Brown with blonde hilights (half grown out lol)
5. Distinguishing Marks: mole on my back right arm
Favorites....
6. A color you like to wear (not fav color): Burgandy
7. A flower you would like to grow in your garden: cactus
8. Your lucky number: 7
9. A city you would like to visit: Paris
10. A blog you strongly reccomend: I don't know what a BLOG is?!
11. Music you prefer to listen to when a lone: Blue
12. The best sex music: tv in the background
13. The singer or band(s) you listen to most: Shania Twain
14. A movie you can watch over and over: Ever After
15. Your favorite outfit: Hipster pants, black zip top
16. Your favorite place to sit at home: Computer chair
17. Something you like to do on a Sunday: Sleep
18 A motto you like to live by: If you dont know where you are going ... every road will get you nowhere
19. Your watch: I don't have one
20. Your cologne or perfume: Elizabeth Arden Red Door
21. If you could afford it right now, you would buy: Build a new house (with 4 bedrooms!)
22. Your strangest posession: 2 rocks with Bill & Lynette painted on
23. Your prized possesion: My wedding ring and engagement ring
24. Your most expensive possesion: My house
25. If your house was on fire and you could only save 3 items what would they be: wooden box (important docs in), photos, pets
Friends.....
26. Three traits you look for in a friend: Loyalty, humour, honesty
27. Friend you have known longest: Bill
28. Friend you miss the most: Lyn (not me)
29. Who makes you laugh: Bill
30. Who do you go to for advice: Bill
31. YOur closest friends: Bill, Trish, Debs
32. One trait you admire in each of them: Loyalty
33. The friend that uses most of your energy: Michelle
Ego....
34. your three best qualities: loyalty, wisdom, humour
35. three worst qualities; shyness, impatience, lack of self confidence
36. Three things you are often complimented for: My children, singing voice, my creative skills
37. A compliment you got that made you blush: "what perfume you wearing?" by an indian dairy owner
38. YOu get embarassed when: people walk away while I'm talking
39. Makes you happy: Bill tells me how wonderful I am
40. Upsets you: being taken advantage of
41. If you didn't have commitments what would you do: move to another country
Yes or NO....
42. YOU keep a diary: yes
43. YOu like to cook: yes
44. YOU have a secrect you have not shared with anyone: yes
45. You fold your underwear: yes
46. You talk in your sleep: no
47. You eat fast: no
48. You set your watch a few minutes ahead: no- no watch!
49. You believe in love: yes
50. You bit your fingernails: no
If you have made it to this point, you are a glutton for punishment!

knicker dancin'

Well last night it all got a bit much for me ... I couldnt stop crying. It wasnt anything in particular but a combination of the work stress from my business, my feeling of failure with my weightloss, and burnout with running a busy household. Lucky it happened when Bill was home. He is such a sweetie!! I know why we are together, he is the only person that really gets under my skin (in a positive way) and gives me heart hugs. He tells me everyday how special and how beautiful I am (and what a sexy butt I have) So by the time I went to bed I was feeling good again.
I have decided I deserve a day off from the business today (finally got the job finished with some left over foil I found). I still have to locate a new supplier for the foil but will put that off for another day. For anyone curious ... foiling is a way of making metallic silver colour on the wedding invites I design and print. It involves printing in black ink and ironing on a silver foil sheet and it sticks where it is printed black and doesnt stick where there is no black ink. I then peel off the sheet and walaaaa silver colour on my card.
I have chosen to make today my "get inspired again" day. I do this by spending time surfing other journals on the net and seeing others successes. I will bake some ww muffins for lunch and do a dvd exercise workout sometime. I use it as a focus day on my weightloss journey. Sometimes my life gets so busy that my eating takes second priority to everything else. I have to stay focused and I felt my focus slipping and motivation depleating. I'm feeling heaps better already in reading the regular journals in my bookmark list. It is such an inspiration to read that others are real and go through the same struggles as I do. That is why I have chosen to be so honest in my journal. To put all feelings of shame aside, to be real to myself and to my readers. We are all the same ... as someone once told me "even the Queen sits on the toilet with her knickers around her ankles" lol. It is so sad to put up the walls we do. We all do it, me especially. I am shy in person but on here there is a sense of security and so allows me to pull the walls down to show everyone that we all have the same struggles in life.
Well thats enough blurb for me today ... picking up my knickers again and dancing along! :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

I get up, I walk, I fall down, I keep dancing

Well I had a very disapointing result at weigh in last night ... 100g gain. I really wasnt expecting it, so it hit me back quite hard. It's the first real gain I have had in 17wks on ww. (I almost had a gain about 6wks ago but went to the loo and it ended up a 300g loss
I know all the things to say about this tiny gain "its only 100g, youll make it up next week, probably that extra drink you had, 100g is nothing, look at the big picture at everything you have already accomplished" I know all the blurbs (I say them myself to others regularly) but it still hits the bottom of my gutt. Especially not knowing why I had a gain. Its not TOM, didnt binge, exercise has been good, no im not building up muscle.
I really dont know why, but I dont really need to know why, I just need to keep plodding on. I have kept the quote of the day on the front of my site for another week as it is appropriate for me at the moment "I get up. I walk. I fall down... meanwhile I keep dancing" Just have to keep that in my head.
Consequently have thrown myself back into the gym... tried a new class today "Body Combat" wahoooo!! 60mins of kickboxing to music... dont no body attack me now or I'll kick you right back lol!!
I had a really horrible day yesterday ... i mean really horrible. Doing tax for my business, couldnt print job as computer program went on the blink (kept doing illegal operations), couldnt foil job due out as I had run out of foil (silver paper I lay over paper to colour it) so I rang up the supplier to be told no they didnt have any in stock and they were no longer going to stock it. There was none in the whole country and according to them their supplier had stopped producing it! Its a big part to my business and I use the foiling process on 80% of my work. After that I went to weigh in for a gain, had people getting stroppy at me all night (as a weigher) for things that were out of my control, then came home and lost my wallet on the way!! I tell ya I havent had a day like that in a very long time... just as well or I would be crazy by now if i did ... lol
Im so glad to hear 'Heaven7' does the same as me in weighing her clothes. Infact I do almost exactly what she says she does on weigh in day (read readers comments yesterday)
On that note ... anyone who wants to leave a comment on my daily entry feel free to do so at the bottom. You dont have to be a deardiary member. And a big thankyou to all those that leave me comments, send me emails and comments in my guestbook!! It is so nice to know others are here along the journey with me!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.9kg
GW 65kg

sad day for new zealand

Well my car finally left today ... so a sad day in that respect. I almost had a cry (but was able to contain myself)
I have been doing paperwork all day today (end of year tax and gst returns). What a depressing job ... If you made a loss ... that sucks ... if you made a profit ... you have to pay a big tax bill ... lose, lose situation. It's the part of the business that I hate (with a passion)
Went to the gym at 6am this morning. Jese woke up at 5am so that was a good alarm clock, otherwise I probably would have slept through.
Off to weigh in tonight ... yay!! I had my kitchen scales out this morning weighing my clothes, how silly is that. Please tell me I'm not the only person that does this?? I usually weigh in in the same clothes each week, but the top I usually wear is way too cold for winter coming on here. So I have changed it for another top but wanted to check it wasn't too heavy to give me a false gain (lol) It is only 30g heavier so shouldnt effect the scales too much :)
My rings are feeling lose today so hopefully that means a loss. I have noticed my size 18 pants I bought a week or so ago are getting lose already. I had to suck my tummy in to do them up in the fitting room when I bought them :)
Sad day for new zealand here... Possum Bourn died this morning after they turned off his life support. He was a famous nz rally driver... the best in the southern hemisphere. 12 days ago he had a head on car accident and has been in a coma ever since. They made the decision to turn off life support last night and this morning he passed away. Really sad - my thoughts go out to his family. A nz hero that will be missed!
Will be back tomorrow with weigh in results
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

boring day

Not much happening around here today. I have two consultations on so busy workwise but I wont bore you with the details of that! lol
The gym workout last night was fantastic. I was able to do jumps and running without and movement from the waist up (dem stuck like concrete boobs I mean) It worked perfectly! I still haven't got up to doing high impact the whole class so I guess that will be my next goal. At the moment I do 50% high impact 50 low impact. Always good to have something to work on.
My car is finally leaving today :( It's amazing how I subconsously forget I dont have my own car anymore. I thought to myself I will go to the gym during the day today with the older two kids back at school. But forgot I have no way to get there. I'm not up to getting two preschoolers onto the bus yet.
And I have a consultation on tonight so wont be able to go then either. Life is so busy, trying to fit things in is a real struggle.
Food and water has been good so far (but it's only 11.30am so have a long way to go yet) I feel motivated still to keep plodding on.
Not much else to update about. Weigh in tomorrow night.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

my old bra finally gets to RIP

Chino did really well in his cat show. He placed 5th Best Cat in Show in ring 1 and 4th Best Cat in Show in ring 2. Not quite the same standard as Best Kitten in Show as the last time but this time it was Burmese cats only so the competition was alot tougher. A really good result!! And he was so well behaved, just sat on the table while the judge examined him. The judge made a comment that "this cat has obviously is used to this and been in shows alot by his placid nature". lol This was only his second show ever!
My eating was a bit of a disaster yesterday. Started off okay with breakfast and morning tea (toast, and snack bar) then I decided to go to the supermarket round the corner for lunch. I didnt have a points calculator on me and chose a packet of rice chips & humus dip and a filled roll. The filled roll was stale and had an aphid on the lettuce!! so I threw half of that out. Then ate the rice chips and dip. When I got home I calculated the points at being 10pts!!!!! ouch!!! The dip was 98% fat free so figured it would be low. Both things were around 500kj. I shared some with Bill so put them down at 8pts. Then mum dished up Chicken Cordon Bleu for dinner. She wanted to have pizza with it but I talked her into having potatoes and steamed veges. I have no idea what to count the chicken as. There was no nutritional label. Guessed it at 6pts. So all up for the day was 27pts! (4pts over) I had a few saved up so I came out ok. But heres a lesson for ya... you know when you overeat, whether it was your fault or not, and you really dont want to write the points down because you feel so guilty? I was like this yesterday. When I got home and actually worked it all out I realised I wasnt as bad as I had thought. Imagine if I hadnt written it down ... I would have gone on the rest of my week feeling bad and probably stumbling with food because I had already blown it. Goes to show ... YOU HAVE TO WRITE IT ALL DOWN!!!
Babysitting was a nightmare!! (as I had expected) I couldn't get Jese to sleep till 9.30pm. Normally at home I put him in his bed, shut the door and in 2mins he's asleep but because he wasnt in his own bed and he had to be in the lounge with me there was no way he was going to settle! And then each of the kids in turn came out to complain about someone else who wasnt sleeping!!!!! I was getting so mad by the end of the night! At 9.30pm I finally had everyone asleep (well at least silent) and then the parents turned up just before 10pm. Wow what a looooong night!!
Went into get a new bra this morning ... my old one was falling to pieces and I was outshrinking it :) The lady in the store asked me what size I used to be after I told her I had lost weight and wanted to be refitted. I told her 18DD (I was actually a 22E but was too embarrased to tell her that) at which she replied ... wow you must have lost a lot of weight then). Then after she measured me up she informed me "you are now an 18DD" How embarrasing! lol She mentioned that different bras were different in sizes but I still felt silly lol. I am still embarrased at the fact that I used to be a 22E, hoping that will change when I get to goal. I want to be able to shout it from the roof tops (so to speak) "I used to be a 22E"
My bra actually ended up being a 16DD!! Did you hear that? 16DD!! wahoo!!!! That has two parts of good news ... the size 16 means I have shrunk 3 sizes and the DD means that I still have boobs!!!
When I came to pay for them the lady had the matching briefs on the counter so thought what the heck Ill try em on. Get this ... the Large was too big!!! had to take the Mediums!!! Wahooo!!
I also got a sports bra ... to stop myself getting knocked out when I go to the gym. My old one was so bad that I couldnt do any running or jumping for fear of repocussions! not to mention the looks from others. Now with my new sports bra I feel like Im all strapped in!! Nothing could move these suckers now... they are like set in concrete!! I also bought a sports top to go over top (tight reinforced style) and then I can put a tshirt over the whole thing. I really makes a difference to my posture and figure. I reckon it makes you lose a few kilos in just having the right support. Pity I couldnt tell the scales that huh? lol Then while I was at the sports shop I took a look at some shoes. My ancient ones are starting to give me blisters because the lining is wearing thin on the inside. Picked up a pair of Adidas reduced from $260 to $99 ... it was definately my day for shopping!!
Had to break the news gently to Bill when I got home. Focused on all the money I saved with the bargains I bought ... Im sure you know how it goes! lol
So Im bouncing off to the gym in a couple of hours to test drive all my new purchases. Can't wait!
Catch ya tomorrow!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

the good, the bad and the ugly news

Well the best news for today is ... I sold my car on trademe and the auction closed at ... wait for it ... $1460!!! For a car that has a siezed motor I was exstatic with that price. We only expected to get a couple of hundred dollars for it.
Chino goes to his show tomorrow. Had a dream last night he was covered in scabs!! Was relieved this morning after I checked him (had to check didnt i? lol) No scabs. His eye is a little cloudy again. Aparently a problem Burmese cats have. So in went the drops again. Hes really not liking me for that. But they do the trick, within a day its usually all clear again.
Got a case of the binges last night. I was home alone and bored. I wasn't actually hungry, infact I was uncomfortably full but felt like I needed something. I ended up having half a packet of Rix rice chips (3pts) which is a good thing to binge on, but I didn't need them. The good thing is Bill tried to persuade me to have a few Rum & diet cokes when he got home and I resisted and said no I didnt need them. So I am pleased about that. As it was I went over 2pts for the day so imagine what I would have been over if I had indudged in the Rum??? Overall I did pretty good I think.
Went for a big walk yesterday like I promised myself I would. All 1.5hrs and 6 bonus points. Malachi was complaining by the end of it, poor little man. He took his ride on scooter but was a lot of exercise for a 5yr old.
Bill is at work till late again (around 10pm) and I am babysitting for a friend, so I have to take the kids around there. They have 5 kids plus my 3 (Lauren is at mums) making 8 kids (wow!). Hope I survive it! lol The hardest part will be getting Jese to settle at someones elses place. I'm stressed just thinking about it.
Then it's off to mums tonight after we get home (around 10pm) to get ready for the cat show at 7.15am tommorrow. I'm looking forward to it but boy I think Im gonna be tired by then. Why do we volunteer ourselves like this for others. Don't get me wrong, I love helping others out, but sometimes it all gets a bit much. I'll get over it I guess. Hopefully Chino will pick up some prizes again, that will make up for it. The cat show is just Burmese (last show was all breeds) and he is entering as a Junior cat, not a kitten like last time. He missed out on being in the kitten ring by 1 DAY! so that will probably make him one of the smallest cats in the ring. Hopefully his shiny coat and imaculate good looks will make up for it (I'm biased of course! lol)
Wish us luck, and I'll let you know how I get on when I update on Monday :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

1.3kg yay!!

Another apology ... I guess you guys were all waiting to hear how I got on .. and I didn't update, especially after I told you all to come and see how I did. I got really busy with business work yesterday (not to mention stressed out) and only got a chance to update my stats on the site but not my journal.
A great result at weighin on Wednesday... 1.3kg loss! I was blown away, expected a small loss but not one of that size! I think all the gym work I did last week has finally showed itself up on the scales. I'm very happy with myself. But in saying that my 15kg mark seems so far away. Still another 2.4kgs away infact. I guess this is where I have to show my patience and determination skills to keep plodding away.
Went to the gym again yesterday morning for a hard 60min workout. I'm starting to push myself harder eachtime. It's very easy to sit back and do the basics at the gym, but that's not going to give me the results I want, so I have made a decision to push myself to the limit each time. I find the aerobics classes far better for that, than the weights room workouts (all cardio work, no weights yet) I think it has something to do with the music going for a certain length and that everyone is watching, so i can't stop and say I've had enough, have to keep going till the song finishes.
Can't go to the gym today, Bill is working till late so I'm going to try and get out for a walk. It's a public holiday here in nz so have promised myself not to do any work (well except a little printing). Malachi (5) can take his scooter and I'll put the youngest two on the pushchair. Maybe I'll pack a picnic lunch too, should make for a good outing.
Chino's (the cat) show is on Sunday and his sore and eye have finally cleared up so good timing there. Just hope he doesn't go rolling in any oil or dirt in the next few days.
Sold my car on 'trademe' for $1000 so I'm really happy with that price. Auction finishes tomorrow, so it may even go higher.
Well going to have a relaxing day today, spend sometime reading other journals, ww forum, ww magazine, go for my walk and that's about it.
Catch u all tomorrow,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 94.8kg
GW 65kg

stressful weekend at mums

Sorry I didn't update yesterday but this diary website was down all day.
My weekend was good and bad. Good in the fact that I caught up with family and had a relaxing weekend (even managed to get a gym workout in) My easter egg count went as planned. Only had 3 small ones over the weekend, and 1 hot cross bun (with no butter).
On a bad note, I was disappointed yet again that my mother never said anything about my weightloss. I have had lots of comments from friends telling me how fantastic I am looking, but nothing from my parents. I thought that maybe before I was still wearing baggy clothes and so they couldnt tell but this weekend I went down in my new slimfitting outfit. There is no way they couldnt have noticed. But nothing, not a "youre looking good" or a "have you lost weight?" or anything. And my parents arent the sort to worry about saying something that might offend.
The only thing that did happen (I was very hurt about) For dinner they dished up dinner on dinner plates for my husband and I got a bread and butter plate with a small amount of scrambled eggs on it. When Bill asked mum about it the next day she replied "Well she is on diet isnt she? Going to the gym and everything, so I'm just helping her along the way" I was so annoyed ... for one ... Im not on diet! ... for two ... losing weight doesnt mean eating less!!! ... and for three ... if they can comment on being on diet why cant they comment on how well I look!! It doesnt surprise me ,,, I kind of expected that from my parents. I dont think they will say anything even when i get to goal. Just have to get over trying to please them I guess. After all this decision is for me not for them. But still doesnt make it any easier tho. The ironic thing is the next night she dished up steak and deep fried chips for dinner. If she knew I was watching my weight then why dish up something like that. I chose to oven bake my chips but still very expensive point wise for the chips. (6pts for a small handful) I ate them with a smile and counted them into my daily allowance, but not worth the points in my mind.
Went back to the gym last night for a step class... really hard workout. Weigh in tonight, cant wait. I'm really enjoying being a weigher at weight watchers (person behind the scales recording down the weights), I get a sense of achievement helping out others. I thought I might get sick of it, but Im not ... its a very small role to do but every little thing helps.
I'll be updating my website tomorrow to check back in then to see how I did over easter.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg

chocoholism

Easter Sunday ... the day easter bunny gives out his surprises. Well that's what my 7yr old daughter thought until I unknowingly crushed her dream this morning. She came running in to me to inform that Mr Easter Bunny forgot to give out his easter eggs. Thinking she was joking I said Yeah, but you know easter bunny is just make believe not real. Her face dropped and eyes welled up... oh nooo, I had just killed her fantasy idea of Mr Easter Bunny!! We have never done the tradition of Easter Bunny before, it must have been something she had picked up from school. We always give out easter eggs but never make it out that a magical bunny did it.
We still have Mr Santa Claus believed in our house, but easter for us as kids was always focused on Jesus and the cross more than a bunny, so I guess it didnt come naturally to me to think about a bunny being so special. I felt terrible, nothing I could say would bring Mr bunny back to life. I did say how we celebrate easter as a family and that mummy and daddy go out specially to choose easter eggs for each of you to show you how much we love you. With that she gave a little smile, some comfort I guess.
On that note I will get onto my other concerns for the day. Easter!!!! Chocoholics heaven - slimmers hell! lol I have set up a plan to only allow myself 10pts worth of chocolate over the 3 days. Of which I have had 2 so far. I just hope I can stop at 8 more. Spending this evening and tommorw at mum's will be a challenge as always (food wise)
Yesterday something happened to me that hasn't happened since I started 14wks ago. I was unable to control my urge to eat a chocolate dipped, flake, softserve MR Whippy icecream! Normally I would think 'That would be nice, but noo I shouldnt' but yesterday I told myself that and it didn't work. My hand was being controlled by someone else, bring the cone nearer to my mouth! And before I knew it I had taken a bite! All the while thinking nooooo what am I doing??? But being unable to stop. How did I end up with a chocolate dipped, flake, icecream in my hands you ask?? Lauren had asked if she could have one when Mr Whippy came past yesterday and I said yes, since she had earnt some pocket money. So I sent her off to get 2 "plain, single serve icecreams" with a $10 note. (One for her and one for Jordan, 2yrs) She came back with 2 chocolate dipped, flake jumbo softserve icecreams! With Jordan playing in the room unaware of what was going on, I thought there is no way he is going to be able to eat this without it getting everywhere. So at first I thought I would just remove the chocolate coating so he could have the inside, (which went in my mouth) then I needed to lick the melted icecream dripping off the sides and before I knew it, it was almost gone. BUT ... I stopped myself at eating the cone and the flake. I gave the cone (with icecream still in it) to Jordan and the flake is still sitting in the freezer. So I guess that is one consolation.
Had a really cool compliment from my friend Janice last night :) Her and Moira came round for dinner (I was out getting dinner when they arrived) and when I walked in the door she noticed straight away that I had lost weight! :)) She couldnt get over my improved posture, which is interesting. I have been concentrating on posture muscles at the gym but didn't realise it would have improved already. I also had my new fitted top on as she said it was more noticeable with fitting clothes than with my usual baggys on :) So that has set me off on a motivated good morning!
I want to go to the gym tommorow morning in Hamilton. I have been told that I can use any contours gym anywhere in the country with my membership. So hopefully I can run off in the morning while Bill is with the kids. Hope they are open.
So I wont be able to update till Tuesday now. Let you know how my temptation chocolate weekend goes.
Take care,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg

end of an era

Wow, where to start?
Firstly, I big thankyou to everyone who sent me wonderful emails!! I am feeling ontop of things again today.
On a sad note... my car blew up last night :( It was the first car I purchased 10yrs ago, and it has gone like a dream since I bought it. We have only had to spend around $1000 on repairs in that 10yrs. I knew it was on the way out. The engine was making very funny noises, it was leaking alot of oil, and the gearbox was hard to get into 1st and reverse. It has done over 280,000kms and I have some very fond memories in that car (including my very first kiss, taking my foot off the brake and rolling into the flatmates car ... lol, hiding my boyfriend in the boot for 2hrs till my parents went out, getting caught by a security guard with 'steamy windows', and travelling round the country sleeping in the boot when we couldn't afford any accomodation)
So the fact that it has finally died is a little sad, but I say it with a fond smile.
I think I did well with my eating yesterday. I really wasn't in the mood to be healthy, or to eat any meals, so I just snacked all day on rice crackers, rice wafers, cereal bar, popcorn and then did up a quick stirfry for dinner. At the end of the day I had eaten all my points and not gone over. My water was way down so I sipped 4 glasses while on the net last night and topped it up with 2 glasses diet coke. (I was up all night peeing again)
I'm not able to get to the gym until Monday with the kids at home and the gym creche shut for the holidays.
We were supposed to be heading off to mum's today but with the car dying we are down to one car again, and Bill needs it to get to work. So we will head off on Sunday afternoon when he finishes work and come back Monday night/Tuesday morning.
Got a busy week ahead of me with the business next week, so I'm taking the weekend off. I think I deserve it :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg

give, give, give ...

I did a big speel last night for yesterdays journal and for some reason it has not updated it :( And I cannot think for the life of me what I actually said ... lol
I think it went something along the lines of feeling nervous about weigh in because alot of journals I am reading, people are having gains this week (some expected and some not)
That answer to that concern has been solved... weighin result? 300g loss! yay! In some ways I was hoping for a little more due to all the exercise I have done this week but I know this probably wont show on the scales till next week. And this week is TOM week so a 300g is actually really good, I should be proud of myself. I guess I have been spoilt in the past few weeks with 1.2kg losses.
Today has been stressful and hectic. Running from one client to another. Had to drop off the set of Thankyou cards I was working on to Remuera this morning and the traffic was just crazy!! Everyone heading off early on holiday for the long weekend. Then off to the ink wholesaler to get some more ink, then post office, hubby's work (he forgot his lunch), post office, dairy and home... fed kids lunch then client came 1hr later (mad dash round the house to tidy up before they came) They left at 4pm, quick update of my journal and website, and now off to the gym by 6pm... wow what a day! I haven't stopped!
Really looking forward to my workout tonight at the gym... it's been nearly 48hrs since I last went and I'm feeling it.
I'm supposed to be heading off to mum's tommorow for easter but don't know if I want to face all the traffic. (1.5hrs drive) I'll see how I feel tommorrow. Bill is working crazy hours all weekend so would be good to get out of the house rather than waiting for him to get home each night. He is the Grocery Manager for a Pak 'n Save Supermarket and of course supermarkets open a rediculous amount of hours, so someone has to do it. I've tried to persuade him to delegate someone else to work easter but he thinks the extra money will help. (of course I agree) but I hate not having him around on public holidays. Infact it's not until I have written it here that I actually realise how much it does effect me. Normally I shrug it off and say it's all part of the job, but I really hate him working so much. I haven't been coping much today... It's funny because people ask how I do it ... 4 kids, busy homerun business, housework, cooking, dropping kids to and from school and going to the gym. I always reply "I just take one day at a time, I always get through" But today I really buckled under the pressure. (especially with the kids on holidays) I have work due for the business, gst returns due and housework, housework, housework. I actually didn't think I would cope today (was nearly in tears) the kids coped alot of yelling from me, poor things. Bill was supposed to be working till 10.30pm tonight, so yet again I was having to organise kids in bath, dinner, then putting the kids in the car, meeting Bill at the gym so he could take the kids while I went to my gym class, then coming home, Bill going back to work, putting kids to bed and finally relaxing around 9pm. Then Bill would walk in the door at 10.30pm and expect time and affection (not that I don't want to give it ... but I'm just buggered by then) Some days I feel like I just give, give, give.
Good news is Bill has decided to come home early at 5pm and not work late tonight ... yay!! Will make life so much easier for today. Then I can just go to the gym when he gets home (which will be soon) so on that note I better get a move on.
Sorry about the long blah, blah, blah... but needed to get that off my chest. Thanks for listening.
I've put a little text flashy thing on the front page of my site (for anyone who didn't notice) to announce my weighin result for the week. Makes me feel better being able to 'announce' it in a fancy way :)
Till tommorow,
Nite,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.1kg
GW 65kg
11.3kg lost in 14wks

35 bonus points so far this week

Firstly, I had a note from Lynda saying that anyone wanting to do a website ... www.geocities.com have premade websites with templates and full instructions. Thanks for that info Lynda!
Secondly, I have had a comment about adding an updated photo. So that is my next goal for the site. Tell ya what ... I'll get out the camera tonight with my new outfit on and take a shot or two. Can't say when I'll be able to get it developed and uploaded yet but at least it will get the ball rolling.
Bill was home from work today so I took the opportunity to get a big workout done at the gym. All 1hr45mins of it!!! I arrived early so I rode on the bike for 15mins then did a 1hr step class and finished off with cardio workout for half an hour. By the end I was really sweating (I don't usually sweat much) but today I made up for it! Even red faced! I find the classes great for getting a good workout. I push myself far more in the classes than in the weights room, must be something to do with others doing it at the same time, and the music.
I realised I made an error in my bloodpressure results I posted on here a few days ago. It is 105/60 not 90/60 which is still low but not dangerously low like 90/60 is ... lol.
I'm really looking forward to weighin tomorrow night... I have earnt 35 bonus points so far this week (haven't used any of them) and I still have one more workout to go before weighin. That's more than I have ever earnt since I started ww 13wks ago. Hopefully it should make a difference on the scales. Or it may take till next week to show. With it being TOM at the moment it may also slow my losses down a little. As long as I get at least a 500g loss I will be really happy.
I've managed to avoid all chocolate eggs so far this easter. Although in saying that I am spending a few days at mum's this weekend so I'm sure she will have plenty there for the kids. Will have to set up a game plan before I go. Maybe allow myself 10pts over 3 days for chocolate. That will take me over slightly on my sugar points but will be still under for my total weekly points.
I'm feeling alot better in myself today, PMT has gone thank goodness. And I'm sure the gym exercise is helping too.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg

hit bottom after yesterday's high :(

PMT day hit with a vengeance today... don't know why I'm so cranky... well actually I do but still doesn't make it any easier. You know when someone tells you you're in a bad mood just makes you MADDER!!! lol
Yes the dreaded TOM arrived this morning. I had fleeting thoughts that I now wouldn't be able to go to the gym today ... but NO! That's no excuse, I kicked my grumpy bum outta bed and got off to do my exercise for the day.
I was actually glad when I got there and really enjoyed my workout. I even sneaked in 20mins (only allowed to do 10mins) on the elliptical crosstrainer... hehe. I love that machine! It's kinda like a treadmill, cycle and crosscountry ski machine combined. You do a running motion on it but without the jolting. The first time I tried I really couldn't get the hang of it. But today was my third go and I suddenly got it. The secret was to not be scared of your boobs bouncing lol. I really worked up a sweat on that thing.
Did anyone watch the Good Morning show this morning? They had this guy on there who is the personal trainer of heaps of famous people (Madonna, Sporty Spice, Naomi Campbell to name a few) He was saying how to get the best of a workout for losing fat... Work 2mins really hi intensity (so you are sweating and puffing) then 1min low intensity, then 2mins high, 1min low etc, etc. He said that way your body goes into hi mode of fat burning and it keeps your metabolism on hi speed for 18hours afterwards!! I like the thought of that. So all those teachers telling us to get running and not walk in P.E at school, were wrong!!! Oh if only I knew then what I know now ... hehe!
So I'm definitely going to give that a try. Be interesting to see if my weight losses increase. I'll let you all know how it goes.
Thanks to all those people who have signed my guestbook, left comments at the bottom of my journal, voted on my polls, and sent me awesome emails!!! You guys are amazing!! Each comment means so much to me!! Thankyou, Thankyou, Thankyou!!!
I have had a lot of votes in my 'Do you have a weightloss online journal?' this week that would love to have a website but don't know how. I'm am trying to think of a way to help others that want to start one up. I may do up a fact sheet that I can email people if they want it, explaining step by step how to go about doing a website. The problem is there is such a lot of information to give that I'm not sure if I can get it all on one file. And there are things that can happen along the way that is just trial and error. If I have some time spare to put it together and if enough people are interested I may do it.
Bill and I had a big argument this morning (bad timing with TOM here but that could be part of the reason lol) And typically it was about money (I'm sure every couple argues about that at some stage or other) We don't argue alot so it really effects me when we do. I am impressed tho... we have a rule, we never leave the house or go to sleep without giving eachother a kiss, and Bill came up to me this morning after our blowup to say he was leaving for work and to give me a goodbye kiss. I must admit it wasn't the most passionate kiss in the world, lol, but at least he didn't break our rule :)
The kid's fighting is driving me barmy already. It's only day 1 of the holidays so I don't know how I'm going to survive the next two weeks :) Mum is going to take Malachi (5) for the first week (he supposed to be picked up tonight) and then I'll take Lauren (8) down for the second week. That should slow some of the fighting down.
Chino's sore on his neck looks alot better today so it should heal on it's own before the show. It's now only a small scab. So tempting to pick it off, but I'm holding back ... just! lol. It's like when I see a pimple on Bill ... I just can't resist, I have to squeeze it. He thinks I'm crazy lol, but I know there are other females out there the same! Right?? lol
Well I'm not feeling so cranky anymore! You guys are great therapy! It's amazing what a listening ear will do :) Thanks guys!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

size 18!!

Well I had a fabulous day today!! Bill took the kids out and let me do whatever I wanted... so I started by going to the gym for an hours cardio workout, then I spent half an hour in the sauna, showered and headed off to do some shopping.
Found a georgous outfit, size 18!!, and only $60.00 for top and pants. (13wks ago I was a size 24) I then changed into my new outfit and walked around the shopping centre, swingin my butt like the sexiest person alive! I went into a Stax store (my favourite shop) to have a look and the lady came up to me asking if I needed any help. Asking her if she had the chosen garment in a larger size she reached for a size 16 and said "Here this one should fit you" Size 16 I say!! lol. It didn't fit but the fact that she thought I COULD be a 16 was a compliment in itself!
I then had a spot of lunch (McD chicken salad and icecream sundae without the topping) and headed home in my new sexy outfit... hipster pants and top (that showed my bellybutton :) Hubby showered me with compliments as I walked in the door, telling me how great I looked!!
Fantastic day I tell ya! For the first time in many years I walked around knowing I wasn't the fatest person there and walked into stores dreaming of the clothes I will soon be able to wear!! Truelly a motivational day!!
Later! :))
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

I feel a gym addiction coming on

I just spent the last 15mins writing all my thoughts down for today and when I went to upload it and the site went down!!! GRRRRR!
So now I will try and recall what I said...
Firstly, had my gym assessment yesterday. Was loads of fun. The instructor said my blood pressure and pulse were excellent - 60/90 and 64bpm. (average according to her was 60-80bpm) Looks like my walking is paying off.
She kept making comments on how well I was doing through all the exercises but I'm sure she says that to everyone lol.
Jordan and Jese enjoyed the creche and had the carers all goo goo over them.
I'm really wanting to go back to the gym today but Bill is working all day till late and with the older two kids at home looks like it wont happen today. Guess I can wait till tommorow :)
Had sushi for lunch yesterday - YUMMMMM!! I love sushi but it's just so expensive.
Chino (the cat) has got another scab thing on his neck again. Last time he had to be shaved and I am entering him into a show at the end of this month. I'm hoping it will heal on it's own this time without having to be shaved. Will keep a close eye on him but may have to pull him from the show :( At this stage its only small and not swollen or pussy... fingers crossed it will heal in time.
Really hanging out for a shopping day at the moment. Can't afford to buy anything but just want to be one of those annoying customers who want to try everything on and don't end up buying anything lol. I'll have to wait till Bill has a day off to look after the kids.
My body is feeling really good the last week or so. Can really start to notice the difference. My tummy is looking flatter and butt tighter :) I get impatient at times just wishing it all to zap away instantly. But I know ... slow and steady! lol
First day of the holidays today... should be interesting. House is always noisier with the older two at home... and messier!! I enjoy having them here but is a lot more work.
Let's hope I get this successfully uploaded this time and don't have to retype it all again.
Till tommorow, thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

Wednesday's dinner success

I forgot to mention yesterday how my dinner went on Wednesday night ...
It was a success both socially and eating wise...
Had a seafood platter ... was mostly decoration with lots of fiddly pulling shellfish apart and all the dressing was in dishes on the side. I saw on the menu that it was grilled and they obviously used a little butter in cooking but was relatively low fat and low points. As the waitress handed me the plate she mentioned she would be back with the fries. Oh no not fries lol. I hadn't seen that on the menu. I quickly asked her if I could have a baked potato instead of fries, lucky that was okay. No one ordered entres so I didnt have to worry about that and had a plain sundae without topping or cream.
So all in all (including 1 glass of wine) I used up 11pts for dinner which even left me with 2 points left over to save. And because everyone else was drinking I managed to sip and water all night and got all my water in.
Went to the gym last night... I managed to make it through the whole class (although spent alot of it doing low intensity versions) but was a great effort for me. (last time I did aerobics I could only manage 45 mins of the hour class, so to complete it was fantastic) I left there very red faced but satisfied I had worked very hard for the 9pts I earnt :)
Going back this morning for my 1.5hr consultation. Very excited. I even enjoyed the reflection in the mirrors while doing my aerobics class. I used to avoid mirrors for fear of breaking them :) It's been awhile since I have actually seen myself in a full length mirror so I am starting to notice the change in my figure .... very nice!! :) I actually just felt like an overweight person not a grossly obese one! Was nice to see everyone there last night was dressed in just ordinary clothes not trendy glamour outfits like I had expected.
The only disappointing thing was the membership was more than I thought. They forgot to tell me about the $95 joining fee! Making it $690 instead of $595... ouch! So hopefully my business makes some nice profits real soon because I have a paper bill to pay yet... oh well!
Till tomorrow, thanks for reading :)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg lost in 13wks

much more than I could ever expect

Well weigh in this week was a complete surprise!! 1.2kg loss! Meaning I achieved 3 goals in one night!
1. 10kg loss - star for my bookmark and website
2. 10% body weight lost - Little gold star keyring
3. Officially Quarter of the way - Gym membership - YEEE HAWWWWW!!
I thought I would be lucky to get the first goal but all three ... wow!!
It's funny because I didn't think I did as well this week with my eating and exercise as I have done in past weeks yet I had a better loss. I am presuming this is either the losses from last weeks effort finally showing on the scales or by eating more and exercising slightly less I shocked my motabolism into action. I don't know! but I'm definately not complaining.
This makes my losses at a grand total of 11kg!!
Kids are driving me barmy already and its only 10am!!
Off to join the gym today ... have my consultation with them tommorrow!! Yay! Cant wait!
My motivation problems have vanished all of a sudden ... what a surprise lol
Thanks for reading
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 96.4kg
GW 65kg
11kg in 13wks

website changes

I've done a few small changes to my website for those who haven't noticed ...
1. I have added a section on the front page top right for my 5kg stars to go when I get them. I think this will be as exciting putting them on here as it will be putting them on my bookmark :) Hopefully number 2 star will be appearing on there tommorow!!
2. Also added is a 'Tell-a-friend' panel. Don't be scared to do this. It is something I have added to the site not an advert. It doesn't cost anything just a quick way of emailing the link to a friend (only if you want to of course)
3. On the virtual model page I have put in virtual models of my current weight now (as well as the start and goal weight pics). There are now also side views (I think these give a more realistic image) That way you can see where I'm up to until I get my progress photos up. (I still haven't got to do these yet ... sorry) I will update the current virtual models at the start of each month.
4. I have had a few emails with people wanting to know where I got these cool virtual models from so I have put a link at the bottom of the 'virtual model' page. Go check it out ... real fun site!
Well that's all of the changes I think. Remember to email me if you have any other suggestions. And check in tommorow with my changes after weigh in... hopefully downward! :)
A little nervous about my restaurant outing tonight. I have saved 7 extra points to use and 13 exercise points (although prefer not to use these) so adding those points to my current 23points allowed a day makes it 43pts I could have. Don't think I will be consuming THAT much lol. But I'll let you know tommorrow.
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
12wks on ww

short and sweet

Today started off with no motivation at all but after my sister came to visit I am inspired again and rearing to go!
I nearly drank all my water last night. At 4pm I had only had 1 glass but managed to get 1200mls drunk before bedtime. (my daily amount I try to drink is 1600mls) So a good effort I think.
My exercise is down slightly this week from last but still good. I'm hoping for a 200g loss to get my 10kg loss goal.
Well today is pretty quiet, not a lot happening here so I will let you guys go early with a short blurb for today.
One more day till weigh in. I'm out for dinner tommorow night so you will all have to wait till Thursday for my website figures to be updated ... sorry lol.
Take care, and thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
12wks on ww

The highs and the lows

The cat show was an incredible success!! Chino my 8.5mth old Burmese cat got the following ribbons ...
1st Best of colour
1st Best of group
1st Best of Type
and best of all .... "CHAMPION BEST IN SHOW KITTEN" I was overwhelmed ... I went into it not really knowing what to expect or how he would do but to come out as the top ribbon was simply amazing. I think I am hooked now! lol
My breeder also got an award "Best Breeder" because of Chino! Consequently she wanted me to enter the Burmese Cat show at the end of this month and has paid for his registration fees as a thankyou! But actually it should be me thanking her... she was just amazing, helping me out, showing me what to do and supplying the white towels, sheepskins for the cages, and litter tray. If anyone wants a Burmese cat (New Zealand) let me know because I highly recommend her and her kittens!!!
Eating was a little difficult being at mums on Sunday night ... ended up with pizza for dinner. I limited myself to two pieces but was difficult to point them as it was a home made one with loads of cheese. I worked it out as 5.5pts each piece. And lunch I went out with my sister to a funky cafe. Sate chicken tortilla YUM!!! Again difficult to point out but concluded it would be around 10pts. Ended up at the end of the day with being 5pts over my daily allowance but I had a few saved up my sleeve so I still have another 2 left. Which I will need for a Managers dinner for my husbands work do on Wednesday night... hmmm ... might need to save a few more for that one lol
I had planned to do a big walk yesterday while chino was at the show but it ended up pouring with rain so that idea had to go out the window.
I wanted to make up for it today so planned for a long 8.5km walk with hubby and the two youngest. We started out ok but a third of the way into it Jordan fell off the pushchair and didnt want to go back on, then Bill stepped in a hole and twisted his ankle. He said he wanted to take the kids home while I could keep going. Man I was wild ... not at him but at the situation. So he went home and I plodded on but only 500m further on my blister on my heel got so bad that I couldnt keep going either ... grrrrrrrr!! wasn't my day for exercise I guess.
I came home (still earnt 3 exercise points) but I was in such a foul mood after that. Don't know why, wasnt Bills fault lol. I guess I am just hitting earth again after the high of the weekend but boy have I hit hard! Anyone would think it's TOM for me (not due for another couple of weeks) but I am so grouchy!!! Well writting it down here has helped some.
My water intake today has been terrible. Only drunk 1 glass so far and its already 4.30pm!!
Well better go get drinking I guess!! I gotta get better tomorrow... this is terrible!
Lyn :)

Progress pics ... yucky

Wow I am blown away with the number of compliments and entries into my guestbook and emails received already!! And my website has only been up 12 hours!! It is soooo encouraging. I read of others being inspired when they created a website and got entries into a guestbook but never did I expect such a positive influence! You are all fantastic... thankyou sooo much!
Well enough head swelling for now ... on with the real stuff (lol) I am more focused on correct eating today. I ended up getting really hungry last night (around 10.30pm) not surprising since I hadn't had lunch. I know it is bad to eat that late at night but what is worse? not eating 10 of your points or eating too late at night? I figured since I was going to be up for a couple more hours then it would be worse to not eat them.
If anyone has any suggestions for my website please send me an email and let me know (good or bad feedback) and I'll try to not get offended if you hate it (lol just kidding) but honestly if you have any great ideas please tell me.
My brother commented on my weightloss the other day. He saw me tracking my food and asked me what I was doing. I told him I was on ww and he replied "oh I noticed you had lost weight but thought it was just you shrinking after baby was born" Yah right!!! Jese is 10mths old! I wish our bodies just automatically SHRANK!! Would make life so much easier don't you think? lol (maybe we should put in for a law change ... "mothers who have just given birth will AUTOMATICALLY shrink 10mths after baby is born!")
But I accepted his compliment gracefully (laughing under my breath)
Have decided I need to take some 'progress photos' for the website... but it's a matter of being too chicken yet. But the more I wait the more kgs I lose. I have already lost nearly 10kg so I figure I am already too far ahead. I don't really know why I am so scared ... maybe from actually seeing the photos and realising how fat I actually am. I like to think of my 'minus 10kg' body as slim now but if I see reality it might send me into depression. I know it's a short term complaint and that as soon as I take another photo later on it will actually motivate me to keep going ... but you must understand my hesitancies? don't you? or am I being silly?
I think the other point is exposing my bare body to the world. It's amazing how flattering clothes can be compared to a naked, dimply, celulite, rolly polly body! I look so much better with clothes on. Now I'm not talking about taking a photo butt naked here but I will need to have something pretty skimpy (bra and nickers or togs, of which I don't own) to properly show the progress.
Oh well maybe it's like jumping off a diving board ... you just have to close your eyes, do it and think about the consequences as you are falling to (your death!) oops mean the pool.
Did any of you notice the cool little 'mini poll' I had on my front page? Cool huh? I can set the questions and answers to anything at all so if anyone has a poll they want done send me an email and I will do it. I'm going to change it once a week (probably on a Thursday after weighin wednesday) so check in Wednesday if you want to see the final results for any poll I do.
Well that's enough rambling for today (don't want to bore any of you) Thanks for reading!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
12wks on ww

Check out my new website!

Spent the whole day today creating a website dedicated to my weightloss journey ... take a look ... I had heaps of fun doing it!
http://journey2slimsville.012webpages.com/index.html
The ironic this is ... the purpose for this website is to keep me motivated and accountable in my weightloss ... but I got caught up doing it all day that I didn't want to stop to eat, drink my water or exercise!! lol So now I am doing a catch up on everything (walking will have to wait till tomorrow) but it means I will be up allll night peeeing!!! Great!! The things we sacrifice huh? lol
Bill is working late again tonight so will be a nite blobed infront of tv.
Can't remember if I mentioned it earlier but I'm off to a catshow on Sunday. I'm entering my 9mth Burmese kitten (Chino), wish us luck! Will have to pack some good food to take with us.
Don't forget to check out my site and sign my guestbook so I know if anyone has visited.
Till next time, happy losing!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
9.8kg lost in 12wks

Any loss is a good loss

Well weigh in went well considering all the eating out I did last week... the verdict? 400g loss ... at the moment I am neither nor about that figure ... not ecstatic yet not disappointed. I know, I know any loss is a good loss.
I went for a 8.5km walk this morning ... wow! But I'm sure I actually did enough exercise for a 12km walk. Pushing Jesurun in a pushchair on long grass for 8.5km!!! I was sweating by the time I got back with blisters on my feet. Don't think I'll be walking tomorrow.
Met someone last night who goes to the gym I want to join. She was raving about it ... I so want to join now! But need to save up for the $525 membership. I could do it on a weekly payment (over $700) but don't want to put the family under that type of financial strain. It will just have to wait till I have the money. I have told myself on my goal list that when I have lost 10.6kg (quarter way) I can get it so waiting a little longer won't do me any harm.
I am 200g under my next goal (10kg lost) although disappointing I didn't quite make it this week it will give me good motivation to keep going for next week.
Quiet day today ... no work on (except a bit of printing), Jordan is still at mum's till Sunday and Jesurun is sleeping. Have spent the morning wandering around the internet. Quite relaxing after my energy effort this morning.
We finally have water on after we had to turn it off last Saturday due to a burst pipe. Took the plumber 4 days to get here. I was soooo hanging out for a shower by then. Makes you appreciate what you have when you don't have it. We had used every dish in the cupboard and you couldn't see the bench for dishes. But finally everything is back to normal now ... YAY!
Feeling good and motivated today ... hope it stays that way.
Thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 97.6kg
GW 65kg
9.8kg lost in 12 weeks on weight watchers

To compliment or not to compliment

I had my family get together last weekend and I for most of it enjoyed the experience. Caught up with some cousins I hadn't seen in a little while.
Was really secretly hoping someone would notice my 9.4kg loss ... but was disapointed with nothing. My food intake was really good all weekend. I had prepared with a few saved points up my sleeve. I ate lightly during the day and had a 19 point dinner which was alot but still within my allowance for the day. I even declined having desert (something I have not done in a very very long time) Especially good since it was an 'all you can eat' deal. Normally I would have wanted to get my money's worth.
The next day was a lunch thing and I managed to just pick at vegetable sticks and dip. Then with half a piece of birthday cake to finish off. Even finished the weekend with another spare point saved .... yay me!!
I have my suspicians that my mother is also on ww and not telling me. She served up a very point friendly lunch when we arrived on Saturday. And showed me a cake she made with no sugar and no butter! (very nice btw) My mother is known for her lovely (unhealthy) cakes. So this was extremely out of charactor for her. We must be both as proud as eachother with not saying we are on a weightloss programme. Stupid thing is... if she is on ww then we could be motivating eachother. I didn't want to tell any of my family I was doing this so they didn't feel abliged to compliment me. Then when I got any compliments I knew it was for real. So far I haven't heard a thing except for one ...
After everyone went home on Sunday my cousin and his wife stayed for dinner. He made a comment about me making him feel bad about himself with me losing all my weight (his way of saying youre doing fantastic) After thanking him I said I was surprised he noticed as no one else has noticed (or at least said anything) "How could they NOT notice???" He said. "You look fantastic!" So that was my head swellor for the day. Thanks cousie!
I'm off for a walk this afternoon. Mum has my toddler so it's just me and baby while the older two are at school. Makes a nice change for a week.
We have no water at the moment (the water pipe blew as we were leaving on saturday morning and the plumber is yet to arrive) so my water intake has been hard. Every drop of water we have is critical. Hopefully the plumber will be here this afternoon, I'm getting impatient.
Should be interesting this weigh in. My food points have been good, however I haven't been eating much during the day with big dinners twice. And water and exercise have been down a little. Hopefully remedied this afternoon :)
Till tomorow, thanks for reading!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 98kg
GW 65kg
9.4kg lost in 11 weeks on weight watchers

Hark! I am slim!

I woke up this morning feeling slim! Don't really know why. I only lost 500g this week but for some reason (I'm not complaining) this week has made a real difference to how I feel.
I am planning on wearing a jacket I haven't been able to fit in a couple of years this weekend at a party we have been invited to. Even when I bought it, it was tight on me. I wore it at the consultation I did last night and Bill was drooling over in the corner. As soon as the client left he was all over me like a bad rash, trying to drag me off to the bedroom (okay, okay enough details) I think this has alot to do with my sudden burst of positive energy today :)
Went for a 7.5km walk yesterday and then came home to do the vacuuming so definately a few points earnt there. I'm hoping to save 4 points a day on my eating to use this weekend. As well as my exercise points if I need them (although I really don't like doing this)
I have no work on for the business today and the house is tidy (well except for our bedroom but that's never tidy) Even if I did tidy it up, it would be messy again by tomorrow. (there is a male that shares the bedroom, need I say more?) Can't do any washing as it's pouring down with rain outside so guess I will have to just sit and relax all day. Not many days I get to do that :)
Bill is off to the rugby tonight so it will be a night in for me and the kids.
We are off to Hamilton tomorrow for dad's 60th and then back to Auckland Sunday for a party lunch, then my sister is coming to stay Sunday night/Monday so busy, busy, busy! Hope I can still keep focus!
Found a great forum yesterday... www.slimmingforlife.com.au
I won't be able to update till Monday night or Tuesday, so have a great weekend everyone!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 98kg
GW 65kg
9.4kg lost in 11wks on ww

500g loss ... yay!

Weigh in went well last night with 500g lost. Bringing me down to 98kg exactly.
My pants arrived that I ordered on the Trademe site last week. They are a little on the tight side but it holds my tummy in great ... hehe! I'll just wear a baggy t-shirt over the top for now.
I also ordered some size 16 jeans. They are way too small for me but I bought them for an incentive to get there. I am in between an 18-20 at the moment. At this stage I can only get them up to my thighs. Think I will try them on once a month.
Still no one has noticed my losses, I have a family get together this weekend for my dad's 60th birthday so we shall see then.
Money is tight this week so that puts pressure on my eating. Means I can't have lots of healthy snacks in the cupboard. Also going to Mum's might work out quite a challenge. Take it as it comes I guess.
Bit hard to go for my walk today, it's raining all day. If it was just me I would go anyway but with 2 young kids, makes it a little difficult. If it clears up this afternoon I still might go.
I have a consultation (business work) on tonight so I have to have the house tidy. Although I tidy it daily it still ends up as messy the next day as when I first started ... don't know why I bother!! Well I better get started on it.
Thanks for reading,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 98kg
GW 65kg
9.4kg in 11wks on weight watchers

new bonus buddy

Was feeling a little down this morning so I went for a long walk. Wanted to really try out my bonus buddy. 9km later I reached home. Taking me 1.5hrs I was pretty happy with myself. Set me up in a far better mood for the day. Earning myself 8points well actually I think it would be more due to the pushchair and two kids I was pushing around as well. But Im happy with the 8.
Tonight I was extra hungry after dinner. Don't normally get hungry like this. Im presuming it was the extra exercise. 9km in one day is a start to my training schedule for the half marathon in August. Long way to go yet but I feel like I'm definately getting somewhere.
I have a school gala to go to in the morning. Im sure I will feel tempted with all the fatty fast food they will have on offer there. The kids are taking their pocket money but I think I will leave my wallet at home so I cant buy any food. Then its off to a church picnic for the afternoon. Potluck dinners are not my forte when it comes to food choices. If I go over my points a little it shouldnt be too bad, I still have plenty of time to work it off before weigh in on Wednesday. Think Ill take a healthy salad so at least I can pig out on that if there isnt anything else healthy to choose from.
Well my eyes are getting heavy so off to bed for me.
Thanks for reading,
Later :)
Lyn
SW 107.4kg
CW 98.5kg
GW 65kg
10wks on ww

Yay Me!!

Well I did it!! I walked and RAN the Round the Bays funrun on Sunday. 8.4kms in 1hr20mins... a record time for me. Infact I was the first female in from my group (out of 10 females) I had only planned to walk it but got up the courage part way through to run a little. Quite a weird feeling really. In school I hated running so much I left school because of it. Now I am actually doing it by choice!
Since Sunday I have been very keen to up my level of exercise. I did a 6km walk this morning and a 4.5km walk on Monday and Tuesday. I am really looking forward to weigh in tonight... I'm hoping it will be a good one. I feel slimmer but you can never tell what those scales will say. I always get nervous on Wednesdays. Hopefully this week will be a good loss. Fingers crossed. Just finished my period too so that should count for a bit of a loss too (I have high fluid retention during TOM)
Busy day with work today ... but cant seem to get motivated to get it done.
Jeserun had us all up at 4.30am this morning. Daylight savings has just finished and he doesnt seem to be able to get into the new ruitine of sleeping in later.
Bill is heading away for the weekend so I am a bit aprehensive how I will handle it all. Can be a risky time food wise when he is not home. Just have to keep myself busy I guess.
Dad's 60th birthday is a few weeks away and mum has asked me to bake a cake. They still don't know I'm on ww yet so I'm going to try and find a low fat recipe. Makes it a little difficult with dad not eating chocolate (gets headaches). Might try find a ginger one. His favourite. I'm a little aprehensive about that weekend also. Mum's house is a shocker for unhealthy food. Not a peice of fruit in sight and everything is fried or covered in sugar. Since they don't know about my lifestyle change (and I don't want to tell them yet) it may prove to be a difficult weekend. Aparently we are also going out for dinner to a restaurant. I have no choice in the restaurant we choose and mum said it will probably be a buffet one (which are usually high fat choices) AAArggghhhh!!
Well I'll let you know how it goes with weigh in tonight.
Wish me luck! (finally getting my bonus buddy too ... yay me!)
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 99.7kg
GW 65kg
9wks on ww

busy, busy, busy

Weigh in on Wednesday was a winner!! 600g lost taking me below the 100kg mark. Im going to purchase a bonus buddy as a reward but they have currently sold out. I will get one when I can... cant wait!
Today has been a successful day so far. Was a little weiry of how I was going to cope with a full schedule ahead.
Had to finish a set of Thankyou cards for a client this morning, tidy the house, vacuum, clean kitchen, hang washing out and set off to plunket all before 11am. But I did it. I walked to plunket this morning instead of taking the car. Was very pleased I did so, it turned out to be a great walk. About 30mins there and back so another 2 points earnt ontop of the walk to drop kids at school this morning.
My afternoon clients booking has been rescheduled to 3.30pm instead of 1.30pm so this should be interesting how I am going to juggle kids and having a client here. 1.30pm would have been far better as both Jordan and Jesse would be in bed and the older two still at school. I have also promised Lauren she can have a friend over after school today *groan* why do I do this to myself?? I am hoping to make them all play outside to have peace and quiet with the client. Jesse hopefully should still be asleep by then.
Jordan is driving me up the wall at the moment. Can't wait till he gets over this 2yr old naughty thing... it's driving me crazy!!
I'm doing the 'Round the bays' 8.4km walk this Sunday. Im really looking forward to it. First time I have entered a funrun. Wish me luck. I just want to complete it... not worried how fast I do it.
Well gotta go pick up kids from school... till later ...thanks for reading
Lyn
SW 107.4kg
CW 99.7kg
GW 65kg
9wks on ww

weekend away

feel like I have this 'healthy living' thing under control now. Although I know complacency is dangerous.
My exercise is something I need to concentrate on.. it doesn't seem to come naturally but does it for anyone? I am really looking forward to joining that gym. Still cant afford it just yet. I am wanting to save up for the years membership rather than paying by installments as most people do. That way it is no extra burden on our already tight finances. My part time business is my pocket money (which we don't live on) so when I gather enough together I'll be running there as fast as I can.
Been a busy week for work this week and we have finally got our finances in order ... yay! All our outstanding bills paid and a pantry full of healthy food. Last week was a struggle with not being able to do the grocery shopping. Meant we had to eat what was left in the cupboard and freezers. I am a very structured eater and like to eat from a written plan. If I don't have in the cupboard what is on my plan I start to panic and would prefer not to eat at all than eat unhealthily... which is not good either way.
We went away last weekend and I went totally off the bandwagon. Way too much wine consumed and a bit of chocolate here and a few crackers and camenbergh there. Was sure I would have a gain this week ... but hello!! nope a loss of 600g ... yay!! This was the first time I had over indulged in the 8wks I had been on weight watchers. I actually think for the first time in many weeks I had eaten all my points which must have been the contributing factor.
I only have 400grams to go to break the 100kg mark. (my next goal) Hopefully next weigh in will be the winner. I am rewarding myself with a bonus buddy, a cute little contraption that measures the distance you walk and calaries burnt with every step you take. I am really looking forward to that one. That will be number 3 goal met out of 18 total. I am by far on track to slimsville. Yay!
My period is late and I am starting to worry a little. I cannot be pregnant again. We already have four kids and another would send me over the edge. We didn't take any risks this month so I can't think for the life of me where I could have possible gotten pregnant ... we shall see. My period is often late (sometimes up to two weeks late) so I'm not going crazy yet. And I haven't had any other signs like sore breasts or nausier. I am wanting to send Bill off as soon as we have the money to get get a vasectomy. Bill is keen too but as usual it is a matter of money.
I am selling a baby chinchilla today so that will give me $60 to go buy an exercise dvd in the meantime while I save money for a gym membership. I have kept up my walking too. 5km 2 days a week and 1.5km 5 days. Next weekend I am going to walk the 'Round the Bays' walk. 8.4km event held once a year. This is the first time entering. It should be a good challenge as the most I walk in one go at the moment is 5km. With 70,000 other people also doing it, should make for a good day.
I have also decided to do a half marathon 21.5km in August at Taupo. So the walk next week should be a good build up to that one. Bill and I are going to do the half marathon together. By the way we are walking it not running .. hehe. I should be able to get my walking distance up to that length in five months.
Well that's about all for today. Till next time ... happy losing!

struggling with diary entries not weightloss

It has been a little while since my last entry. That is totally in my character tho ... to start things with full enthusiasm and fall off the bandwagon pretty quickly. A trait I have tried to change but can't so figure I have to live with it and just work it into my lifestyle.
As far as my weightloss goes I have been doing really well ... I am up to 6 weeks on the weightwatchers program and am still not sick of it. Infact I seem to be getting more motivated as I go along. I have made sure I saved things for along the way to keep me excited. Alot of people go all out buying all the 'gadgets' at the start and then come to the 'now what' point pretty quickly. I am normally like this but stopped myself. Awareness is 90% of fixing a problem.
I did up a goal sheet the other day and have it hanging on the wall beside my computer. I can see at a glance what the next goal is, what weight I need to be to get to that goal, how much weight to lose before the next goal, total loss to date, the date I want to achieve that goal (on an average of 500g/1pound loss per week) and the reward I have promised myself when I get there. There are 18 goals all up to achieve and only 2-3kg (4-6 pounds) between each goal.
My final reward (number 18) is 65kg(143 lb) (my personal goal weight) making a total loss of 42.4kg (93 lb)... all by 30 September 2004 and a reward of a DIAMOND STUD in my bellybutton!! WAHOOOOO!
I have started doing aerobics once a week with my first session last Thursday. I really struggled to get through lasting only 47mins of an hour class but I was proud for the amount I actually did get through. Next week I will aim for 50mins.
Along with the aerobics I am still doing my walking. Mainly through walking the kids to school and back twice a day, 5 days a week. (20mins walk per day) Seems to be going well, I don't want to over push myself just yet, will gradually increase that.
I still find the weight watchers website incredibly motivating ... well worth checking out for anyone who's interested. www.weightwatchers.com
I am currently averaging just over 1kg per week so far so as long as that keeps happening I won't be complaining... infact I only expect 500g per week ... so ... YAY ME!
Till next time, thanks for tuning in :)
Lyn
SW 107.4kg
CW 101.2kg
GW 65kg
6wks on ww