snapped under the pressure

Totally cracked stresswise last night. Had a client ring saying they wanted more changes to a sample I had done and we are already running close to deadline. That along with the job I am running late with now meant I blew it! I don't normally consider myself a comfort eater but last night I certainly was.

So I helped myself to a second helping of dinner (meatloaf, not exactly low fat!) then a big bowl of chocolate icecream (lowfat at least) and a ww choc bar. I didn't work the points out ... didn't really want to but dinner and dessert alone was at least 18pts. Oh well, it's one bad day and I have put it behind me today and got back on track.

Have another house pic in my photo album (under new house album) and I have also included a couple of pics of our new car we are getting (under general photos album).

Not much else to tell ... stress levels are still pretty high today and will be until I get this job finished on Sunday.

Catcha later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

Life cycles

Had a slim day today. Woke up feeling like a sexy slim thing :) Isn't it funny how some days our body feels fat yet other days we feel slim? I'm presuming it's my TOM fluid disappearing.

Been 100% on track the last two days. Hasn't been too much of a problem keeping to the 20pts (so far) Although I am really motivated at the moment so might be a little tougher when that drops.

Thanks to those who sent me their congrats!! You guys are awesome!! But honestly I haven't done anything amazing ... just stuck at it ... that's all it takes. I haven't been one of those 1kg a week people ... have had my ups and downs like everyone else ... but I have just kept at it. If I've had a bad week I just put it behind me and think that at the end when I get to goal I won't even remember those gains. I know it feels like the whole world has caved in and I may as well give up when I have a gain ... but that's so not true. We just gotta keep plodding on!!

Bill's boss had been looking out for a second hand Mitsubishi Challenger for us. He came back to Bill the other day and said he couldn't find a good enough one with low enough km's for the price he wanted to pay. So instead he's going to lease one, that means we get it BRAND NEW!!! Wahooo!! We've never had a brand new car before (let alone a Challenger!) We got to choose the colour today. I've really feel so spoilt this year. It just keeps getting better and better. We have had our years of struggling. At times we couldn't afford even to buy food and had rent payments bouncing. I remember one night we had to go out fishing to catch our dinner because we only had 3 potatos in the cupboard and when I tried to cook them up they had blite (sp) all through them. It was cold, wet and not the ideal night for fishing. But we packed the kids up in the car (around 8pm) and set out to find an estuary to put our lines in. 2 hours later we still hadn't caught anything and by now the kids were crying, we were hungry and now cold. We went back home with our tails between our legs. It took all the humbleness we could muster to ring a charity organisation to get a food parcel. I had never ever asked for food before and I felt so ashamed doing it. But it fed us that night and I grew so much through the experience.

Life is full of ups and downs and everything we go through adds to our life experiences. I'm just so grateful for blessings we have had this year.

On that note, I better get these kids fed and ready for bed.
Take care,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

I made it!!! :))

I have done it!!! I am officially a 70's girl!!!! Yeeee Haaaa!!! :)) I was so surprised when the weigher told me my weight, I was really expecting a gain. I'd been a good girl all week but had that 'bloated' feeling with TOM here. So I'm a very happy girl right now! :)

Along with meeting this goal I have to drop down another 2pts a day down to 20 from 22. I'm a bit nervous about how I'm going to cope with this. It should be great for my weightloss if I can do it. I usually use up all my points with none to spare. It's all good tho.

Work is crazy this week. I have 500 cards to have out by Friday!! It's kinda plagueing my brain. I don't really enjoy this time of year ... just tooo busy and stressful.

On that note I'd better get back to it. Skipping a happy dance today tho!! lol

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 79.8kg
GW 65kg

the bricks are up!! :)

No news to tell you today. Just a quick update to let you all know that the lack of updates is not because I've been naughty (just the opposite ... yay me! lol) but from the crazy amount of work I have on at the moment (typical summer wedding season). I've been working till 10pm most nights and I'm exhausted!! But can't complain tho.

Have a new house pic for you all to see. The bricks are going up ... wahoooooo!!! I am so happy with the result of our final choice. We had to choose them 3 times... the first time we saw the chosen brick on another house and hated it, rushed back to the builders to tell them we had changed our minds. The second choice they told us a month later that it had be discontinued and finally our third choice, but I'm much happier with this one than any of the others.

We had 'lock up' on our house this week ... with all the doors and garage door installed and completed ... yay!! Off up to Auckland tommorow to see it again!! Can't wait!

Karen, so sorry to hear about Stephan. Hope his tests sort something out for you fast! Jo ... have a fantastic time away!! (i'm green with envy lol). Leigh, I know how horrible it feels with leaking rooves, ours leaked in our last home ... scary stuff!! And don't feel guilty, your boss will get over it. Lynda ... well you just rock!! You stick at it still ... my inspiration!! Your graph looks fantastic!! Shows up all your hard work :)

That's about it for today,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.5kg
GW 65kg

could have been worse

The celebrations last week showed themselves up on the scales at weighin (as expected) with a 100g gain. Could have been worse. I knew I had gained this week. I'm bummed with myself for slipping up already but figure 100g is nothing to worry about. Back on track today.

Had a really stressful busy day with business work. Feeling snowed under again. Have to admit I didn't track today, mostly because I just got too busy. But I ate well all day.

I had a look at the house yesterday and it was so exciting. The most excited I've been yet... all the Gib was up on the internal walls. I could really get a feel for the space in each room now. The family room is far bigger than I imagined, while the dining/lounge was smaller. It really feels like a HOUSE now lol. Before it just felt like a project with some framing and a roof, now I can visualise where furniture will go and how it will all look.

There is a lady from my Auckland ww meeting who has moved in 2 doors down from our new house, so I called by her place to have a chat (and a sneak preview of her lovely new home). It's really cool to know someone in the street before we even move in. They are an amazing couple!! All makes the process of moving into a new location alot easier. They said they love the street, that everyone is really friendly... yay!!

Came home all buzzed, to a house full of negativity (at my parents house now ours) Was such a downer ... I hate that! But not letting my parents get to me this time.

Sorry haven't updated my frontpage yet ... it's getting late and I'm pretty tired. Hopefully get a chance to do it tomorrow.

Catchya!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.5kg
GW 65kg

And the saga continues! :)

Bill got a call from another Pak'n Save owner yesterday asking to see him urgently before he signed the other contract.

So he rushed off to see him after work last night, curious about the details. He was offered a store managers position for one of the 5 biggest Pak 'n Save stores in the country!! He offered Bill $5,000 more again than the job he had just set up along with a company car. But it came with no bonuses and a preassigned company car (not one of our choice). It also meant he would have to commute 1hr each way daily (unless we sold our new house and relocated) But we both felt that $5,000 more wasn't worth that.

So he turned it down. It is such a political decision too. With wanting to own our own store eventually we don't want to get in the bad books of the wrong person, especially if that person has a lot of sway within the company. But overall we both feel we have done the right thing. Pretty overwhelming tho!!

I went off to the craft show this morning with 4kids and a pushchair in tow. Stressful! lol But I survived!

Mum said to me the other day "wow look at you ... all slim!" Huge compliment coming from her! Don't get them too often :)

Off to a BBQ at my sisters tonight, hopefully it won't be too high in points.

Managed to save 4 points yesterday (to make up for my alcoholic splurges at the start of the week)

So far I'm back on track for the week (points wise)

Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

working back points

You guys are so right ... sometimes we need to be able to celebrate without feeling guilty. I guess it's so inbuilt into our society that it's hard to break.

It all seems a little unreal still. The best part ... Bill becomes a store manager. He is wanting to go through a scholarship scheme and hopefully finance ourselves into our own supermarket ... that's the long term plan. But he needed to be able to train in a New World (that's what we are looking at purchasing). We were looking at him working volantary and going back on the dole while he did his training, but now we don't have to worry about that because he can do his scholarship training at this New World. Next step in the big plan is to clear as much of our mortgage as possible so we can use the capital gain and equity in our home as part finance for our supermarket. But shhhh don't tell anyone ... it's a big secret lol :) (j/k)

The new jeans I got a few weeks ago and starting to feel a little lose on me but I'm not sure if it's from weightloss or them just stretching and losing that 'new jeans tightness'. But hey I'll say it's weightloss lol, works for me!

A big thankyou to all those who have passed on their congrats to me lately!! You guys all rock! Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou!! :) No message goes unnoticed.

Eating has been good today but I haven't had dinner yet. That's usually when I stuff up, or when Bill brings home the alcohol. Mostly I'm good and resist but every now and then when I'm tired, stressed or feeling like a wind down then I give in. I know this is fine every now and then but lately it's been more now than then lol. I never drink a lot tho (usually only 3-4 glasses at the most) so I think that's how I've managed to still get a way with it... and the fact that I save my points up either before or after to work it back. That's what I love about ww, you can stuff up and not have to give up.

That's about all that's happening today, pretty boring, no new jobs lol

Oh before I forget ... new house pic has gone up

Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

Celebration time!!

Bill has taken the job. He ended up being offered $10,000 more than our bottom dollar including a company car. He starts on 15th December. This also means we no longer need to pay for petrol. Of which we are currently paying over $150 per week.

GREAT NEWS!!

Only problem with all this ... I am celebrating too much ... too much wine!! Can't do much about it now except try and work a few points back when I can.

Bill brought home a bottle of peach shnapps, champaign and strawberries tonight .... yummm!!! But very bad, bad, bad! :)

Not much else to tell.
Nite all
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

Job interview went really well

Considering I've such a little amount of sleep I'm feeling rather positive today. Bill got home from work around midnight last night and we were both buzzing so much about his interview that we talked for another 1.5hrs. His job interview went really well. The original package he offered was a little low but after Bill told him what he was currently on the guy seemed very keen to see what he could do and is getting back to us sometime this morning. The package includes a 7 seater 4WD company car so that's a huge saving, considering we were going to buy a car in the new year anyway (our current one only fits 5 people and we have 4 kids) Not quite a done deal yet but looks really good. And the best thing ... he goes back to having Sat/Sun weekends!! For a long time Bill has been on a Mon/Tues weekend which has its benefits but means he can't spend as much time with the kids.

My eating was spectacular yesterday ... I even managed to save 2pts!! Bill came home with a bottle of wine to celebrate last night and I thanked him for it but said no. I sat and chatted with him while he got mildly inebriated (sp) instead... lol... good on him tho ... he deserves it. Bill works very hard at his job and is very good at what he does (for those who don't know he is a grocery manager at a Pak 'n Save Supermarket, with this new job being Store Manager). This new guy had done his research on Bill (ringing all his past bosses as well has Foodstuffs headoffice) and knew all about him. There was a lot of positive things said about him by everyone ... so a nice head sweller for him.

Got another couple of busy days ahead with 113 invites to have out by the end of tomorrow. Better get back to it.

Catcha,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

Great news at weigh in!!

WAHOO!! GUESS WHAT??? I lost 700g this week!!! That is the most I have lost in a veeeery long time ... and I deserved it too lol. I'm wrapped!! Yay, yay, yay!!!

That makes two losses in two weeks ... wahooo! It brings my weight down to 80.4kg so only 500g to go to be my 70's girl. And only 500g to go before I have to drop 2 points a day ... not looking forward to that part lol. I don't know how people survive on 18points ... I've kinda gotten used to my 22pts and grown attached to them lol.

Called by to see the house yesterday ... it's looking really good (sorry no update photo yet ... next few days hopefully). All the windows are in and they've finished the roof on the first storey too. As I was leaving I noticed the door had arrived and took a sneaky peak at it ... to my shock it was the wrong colour!! We had ordered denim blue (the same colour as the roof) but this one was cream. I was so disappointed it overshadowed all my excitement of seeing the house and even my weigh in loss.

So this morning I made Bill get onto the phone to the builders at 9am sharp (I was too scared lol). The receptionist said that they were all in meetings all day and that we would have to ring back tommorow. I was so annoyed!! By that time they would have hung the door and it might be too late to do anything. Then she rang back a few minutes later to say that it hadn't been painted yet and that the cream was the primer coat ... doh!!! I had to eat my words lol. Big stress out for nothing!! lol

Bill is at a job interview as I type this. He got headhunted by an owner of a New World a few days ago for a Store Manager's position. And it is 2mins drive down the road from our new house. Bill has been wanting a store managers position for quite a bit but we thought we were going to have to move out of Auckland to get it. We just have to wait to see what he offers in pay first.

Congrats to Diane who got her 10% medal!! wahoo .. go girl!! Not far to go now :)

Work is going crazy again. I hate it when I have too much work on and it starts piling up around me. I get overwhelmed with it all. Gotta rush off, pick kids up from school and get my paper order from the wholesalers.

I'll keep you posted about Bill's job :)
Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 80.4kg
GW 65kg

email someone to say something nice

I just had the coolest email from a ww leader who showed my website before and after pics to her 4 meetings this week. And this is the messages they sent me ...

"You inspire us!
We're proud of you!
Congratulations, you are doing so well!
Don't worry if your weight loss slows down, remember you are still well ahead of target!
We are looking forward to seeing a picture of the 70s gal in your new gym gear!
Keep going!
You are already a success!
We'll be watching you!
Every time you update your website, stop and listen and you will hear our virtual cheers, cheering you on!"

Is the the coolest or what?? I was gobsmacked! People are so cool. It really makes me think every time I think something encouraging about someone else I should tell them. Thoughts pass so quickly but such a small thing can make such a possitive difference to someone else.

I've tried really hard this week staying on track. I had a few drinks with some friends the other night but didn't go overboard and managed to stay within points (using some saved ones). The guys got hungry around midnight and decided to cook up some fatty mutton chops. They smelt so yummy but resisted and microwaved some popcorn instead for us girls ... another proud moment :)

Went out and mowed the lawn for 1.5hrs this afternoon. Worked really hard and earnt lots of points I'm sure.

Weigh in tomorrow. Feeling positive about it but not holding my breath either. Big day tomorrow with 2 consultations on in Central Auckland.

Not much else to tell,
Catcha all Tuesday with weigh in results
Cheers,
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.1kg
GW 65kg

Ta Daaaaa!!!!

Wow I can't believe I have made it this far ... I have made it to the point of wearing a bikini on the beach!!!!!!

I have spent the last two days body surfing in the waves with the kids and LOVING EVERY MINUTE OF IT!! It's been 15yrs since I last went body surfing. I'd forgotten how good it felt!

Lucky we live here because I'd never go back home otherwise! Heheh!!

Wow ... I made it!!!

Feeling really goood!!

Whoops sorry I forgot to upload the new pic of the house. Have done it now ... so go check it out in my photo album if you want.

I am so back on track now it's not funny!! lol Getting the points calculator did the trick. I have always found tracking one of the hardest things of the program (ohh not counting water .. I find that hard too) yet I know without it there is no way for me to stay focused and in control of what I eat. I guess I find it tedious and boring and I just get so busy that I eat on the run and forget to write it down or just don't get time to write it all down.

But the points calculator is so simple and quick. 2 seconds and it's all done and did I mention how I JUST LOVE GIMMICKS!!! lol Because I have to enter in my points I'm finding I'm being more acurate with myself in regards to portion sizes too.

It's great to feel so in control again!

I wore a top out yesterday that hugged my waistline and chest. I felt sooo sexy lol. Not that I wanted to show myself off or get any further attention but I just felt like I was king pin!! (or should I say queen pin ... hehe) I noticed too that the guys I deal with at the paper wholesaler treated me with more respect and interest lol. Normally they don't give the time of day to me... they're not rude but just ho-humm ... but not yesterday when I looked damn fine ... they were all chatty and smiley. It could be a coincedence but hey it worked for me :)

A few months back I emailed weight watchers to see if they wanted to link my site to their journal page, but I never heard anything back from them so forgot all about it. But yesterday out of the blue I got an email from them asking if I was still interested ... Heck yeah!! I replied lol. I don't know why it means so much to have people read this ... I guess I know how much other journal sites helped me stay focused before I started this one and knowing you guys are there 'keeping an eye on me' makes sure I stay on track, so it goes both ways. A couple of times when I've been feeling down or gone off track for a few days some of you have emailed me to see what has been going on and it has done the trick each time (thankyou guys!!! It means so much) Before I know it I have logged on ... done an update (even if it is a confession one) and then I'm focused again to carry on my day. And with reading how the other journalers on here are doing in their day makes me think ... wow they can do it .. so can I!!

I really want to thankyou guys for sticking it out with me. This place has become a little negative the last few months with the hard patch I was going through but I feel like another chapter has started. I feel more in control, more content and happy with myself.

Could be due to the warmer weather. It's amazing how some sunshine lifts the spirits so much! And also to the fact that Bill is commuting daily back from Auckland so I'm not so lonely and sad all the time. I really don't know how I lasted 6wks without him! Ok that's enough of the soppy stuff lol! It hasn't actually cost us anymore for him to travel down here daily. The extra petrol we spend now is counteracted by the board he no longer has to pay. Why didn't we think of that originally lol ... oh well ... made me appreciate having him around again :)

A week or so ago Bill got given a whole lot of nappies and toilet paper from a rep at his work. They were all damaged packaging but perfectly fine. We got around 30 packets of nappies and 8 packets of toilet paper!! I was spending $25 a week on nappies so that has meant such a lot to our grocery bill. I still spent the same amount as I normally do yesterday at the supermarket but I was able to buy so much more. Normally by the end of the fortnight I have nothing left in the cupboards but yesterdays shop totally filled it and I was able to get those yummy low point rewards that keep me so motivated (like RIX chips ... my fav!!)

Anyway I've blabbed on enough today ... ohh one other thing ... I have just fixed my computer!!! I thought my Windows XP was corrupt and I was going to have to reinstall it along with reinstalling all my software. But it turns out (through trial and error) that it was just my personal profile settings that were corrupt. So I created a new user and a new profile and all my email/desktop problems were fixed!!! Yay that saved me a whole lot of time and expense!! Big relief!!

Ok ok I've talked enough today. Have a great day!!!!
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.1kg
GW 65kg

Feels great!!!

It feels fantastic to finally have a great weigh in result. Feels like it's been months since i felt proud of my efforts. I am so close to my next goal of becoming a 70's girl I can almost smell it ... only 1.2kg to go.

I rewarded myself with a points calculator. There were on special this week at ww. $49.95 reduced to $19.95 .... what a bargain!! It will make the chore of tracking much easier and simpler. Does mean tho that I won't be writing it up on here, instead I just put the number of points into the calculator. I feel like it will stop me from 'cheating' too. Not that I lie on here but I'm sure at times I think ... nahh that's too high for that, I'll just put it down as 1 point less. I know I'm not the only person that does this. I'm only fooling myself tho. I just love gimick toys :)

So good to see Leigh back online!! Way to go Leigh ... with you all the way!!

Bill really enjoyed his weekend away. He caught up with my brother and his wife while there. Glad to have him back home again tho!!

He put on a few kgs while there too (hehe) Putting him at 82kg ... I am for now lighter than him again lol.

I'll have another photo update of the house tomorrow. Not much else has been done.

Catcha tomorrow
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.1kg
GW 65kg

Back online again ... finally!

I'm back on board again. I'm ready to chuck this new computer out the window!!! I think I must have had a power surge one night and it wiped my whole computer!! (well almost everything) At first I thought it must have been a virus but after getting another brand new Nortons disk (the old one I had was a downloaded virsion, therefore I lost it) but no virus was found. Really don't want to send it to be fixed (apart from the $60per hr cost) they will need to reformate it to fix it and then I will lose what little I still have on here.

The reason I think it was a power surge... we are at the end of a line for our power here and we often have the lights dimming on and off. I'm sure that's what's done it. It only started playing up when we shifted here. Be interesting to see if it improves when we shift back to Auckland.

So anyway I have only got my internet connection back up and running today (hence for the lack of updates)

I've been doing pretty good eating wise the last week. Although I noticed my tracking has been slowing a little the last few days with the computer problems and work stress. But overall I've been a good girl.

Bill is currently in Sydney for his World Cup weekend... lucky bugger!! lol.

He told me last week he had a surprise to show me. He got given a leather wallet thing with all his travel documents in etc. And he wouldn't show it to me till after dinner when he could 'present' it to me. I was sooo sure he was going to surprise me with an airline ticket for me to go too. I had a smile a mile wide. He dragged it right out till the end ... but no surprise tickets ... lmao! His surprise was a 'that's life' magazine... still great ... but a bit of a downer after expecting an airline ticket lol!! Oh well :)

Not much else has happened this week. No weighin last Monday with Labour day. Hoping for a loss this week with all my hard work and good eating. Not holding my breath tho ... my body tends to do strange things lately.

Thanks to all those who sent me compliments on my photo. Way cool!! I honestly can't see where 10kg has come off since the last photo ... hmmm ... it's definately gone tho.

Catcha all later
Lyn :)
SW 107.4kg
CW 81.7kg
GW 65kg